To be fair @joystir59 I'm already doing that. I'm not going to martyr myself when half the kids are still in schools learning nothing and, like you said, bringing in money has to be priority.
But it's still incredibly difficult. My kids are actually good as gold. They're not climbing the walls and they haven't turned feral (yet!). They're just spending a fucking insane amount of time on iPads without any human stimulation or contact and I don't think that's good for them. At all.
We don't have a nice garden with a trampoline. In fact, we don't have a garden at all. We're in a small flat, in a city, like huge swathes of the population.
I do drive but got rid of my car because I stopped using it. Got a Sainsbury's delivery every week. Now, apparently even though there was ALWAYS available slots there are now none, ever. They've just stopped delivering to their formerly loyal customers. Rather than doing everything possible to increase capacity and offer additional help to those who need it.
People need to start realising that this lockdown isn't equal. We're not "all suffering". We're not "all in this together".
I think I would be far more obliged to think I could keep this up if I was still working and my kids were in school, or I had a husband for some actual adult interaction, or even if I had a bloody garden so I could have a cup of tea in the sunshine. Maybe if I had a car and could actually buy enough shopping in one go to last me a week. Or if I lived in the country.
But I don't have any of those things.
And the cold, harsh reality is that I could not care less about this virus. People can shout and scream all they want that it's killing young and healthy people, but that's just not backed up by statistics. That's a way of making themselves feel better. Yes, some young and healthy people may be dying but the risk is so minuscule it's barely worth thinking about. People don't like this opinion but I don't really understand why I'm supposed to sacrifice so much for something that doesn't effect me, when nobody else has ever done that, ever
do you see people sacrificing to end malaria, which is killing children in Africa? No, you don't. But now suddenly it effects a proportion of us, so we're all supposed to shut up and put up?
And I know a lot of others who think similarly. We just can't be vocal about it. People who are even worse off than me, who as well as not having a nice garden or whatever, have also lost their jobs. People who are actually in the high risk category - over 70 - who couldn't give two shits and would rather take their chances than spend months of life with no human contact and nothing to look forward to.
And I'm afraid I have reached my limit.
They're not telling us anything. I'm inclined to think that's because they don't have a plan.
I will follow the guidelines for the rest of this three week period and then I'm out. I'll take my less than 0.02% chance with the virus, thanks very much.