finally i resigned yesterday as the contract arrived and everything was in order... it caused abit more of a shitstorm than i expected but it feels like a big step forward into getting on with my life and not making it be all about babymaking.
Shame it took 10 months and 3 miscarriages to get me to the place where mentally I was willing to put my life ahead of trying for a baby, but it feels good.
In some small way it makes it seem like the latest mc has enabled me to go down a different path than I would have as i that pregnancy had gone ahead I would have missed out on this opportunity. If that pregnancy had gone ahead I would have not had the guts to move jobs for a long time and I think I am going to be much happier now
that said i am scared shitless and have no idea how i am going to manage the increased travel and responsibility - but as DH say 'don't worry hon, we'll manage!!"
In other news I got a peak on CD15 and again today D16 so am studiosly avoiding any SWI or SWOI - which is easier than I thought, I thought I would be tempted to try but am glad I am not. next month or even the month after will be fine and at least i will know my cycles are back to normal ovulation wise as CD15 is as was before mc and the day we concieved DS.
there has been so much news since I last posted I have read through but can't comment on everything except to say
LAF hang in there, it gets bearable
hairy glad they are looking in to things - how mad - you must not know wtf is going on, hope they get you answers soon
barrenb thinking of you alot - think your erpc is looming, i found the weekend between finding out about mmc and erpc strangely cathartic, something about looking after the bean, even though it had not made it, until it was time for it to go, it was quite wistful for me anyway - feel free to call me a nutter
viv pain au choc - ma favourite, hope you doing ok lady
whose testing soon... news news
ds has a cough and has been sleeping for the last 90 mins so best go wake him up. laters.