Hippy so sorry to hear what you're going through. I totally understand why you're finding it easier to think of it as over, but the most certain indicator will be if your HSG levels are dropping, so I'm glad you're getting that done. I wish the results would surprise the hell out of you babe but am glad you're braced for the worst. We're always here if you need us.
I believe an FSH test can be used as an indicator of overain reserve, but I have been told that the more accurate test to have for this purpose is an Anti-Mullerian Hormone test (AMH). I don't think you can get an AMH test on the NHS, and you're looking at between £100-150 for a private test. Here's a bit of info on it. The thing about age (and I'm nearly 40 and TTC#1 so am very pre-occupied with this as well) is that your chances of MC do increase. I am not sure that low egg reserve necessarily means that your eggs are ALL rubbish though. But being older, there is no getting away from the fact that you are more prone to MCs, because some of your eggs might not be as great as a younger womans. A friend of mine had 3, maybe 4 MCs (including one set of twins), before she managed to have her DC2 at 40. An AMH test might give you enough info to decide to go for it, knowing you may have to endure more MCs before you strike gold.
I am going for an FSH, LH and E2 tests myself later this week, and will be booking an AMH test too. I want the tests, but I am utterly terrified by what the results might bring.
bunder Congratulations!
danilou fingers and toes crossed for you for this month.
AFM - I am now 13DPO and FF is telling me AF should come today but no cramps or typical body AF signs so far. For the first time ever I have resisted early testing. If I wasn't charting I'd be really hopeful, but I am so I know my temps have been dropping the last few days and I know that I have pinkish spotting in my CM (seen only when I check my cervix - none in my knickers). This is consistent with previous charts for AF to arrive. I was so fed-up last night I had a glass and a half of wine, and today my temps went up above the coverline again (0.2'C rise). I know alcohol can have an impact, but I barely had anything so am a bit flabbergasted by the impact. Of course said to my DH.... do you think... maybe... He just very gently said "You KNOW you are not PG, don't do this". I know I'm not... but now I just wish AF would arrive to put me out of my misery.
(BTW - this is justshaggy now posting under a new name: I name changed because I think someone might have outed me in RL).