Continuing conceptions and follicling ahead of Feisty, Fabulous Forty somethings

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Hello world!

Thanks loubi - I have heard of them putting you back a week or so and then you kinda catch up later. Do join us please, we are a nice bunch.

lia it was internal. When I got there i thought i was defo gonna wet myself cos my bladder was so full and I was so nervous. Then she said that I could go to the loo cos it was going to be internal - I could have put out fires with that wee.

I have found a great site where loads of people tell their stories about how they only saw a sac and then 2 weeks later - bingo there was the baby, heartbeat and all. I have already read about a billion of them.

I think the reason she wanted to make it 12 days was so we got a definitive answer and didn't have to wait and come back again.

I have been reading about retroverted uterus's and how they don't show good scan results and they are more common in women with endo. Also when I had a scan with my second son they were unable to see what they needed to and got me to tilt myself so my bum was in the air. So I am hoping that I have one of those tilted uterus's - I have no idea if I have one - but straws must be clutched at.

hippy - sorry to hear you have had a not so good scan, i have a tilted uterus and it is a nightmare when I get early internal exams. My dates almost always disagree with the measurements. But hey presto, by the time I get to the normal dating scan, I am back on track (or further along!) with the measurements for dates. If you do start taking the progesterone, just remember that you have to keep taking it until the 10/12 week mark. I hope you manage to find some positive thoughts over the next couple of weeks, it is difficult following a horrible early scan. Thinking of you.

I have tilted uterus too. Fingers crossed for you. Keep positive. x

I have no idea if it really is tilted but I'm hoping it is.

Sorry not to name check everyone and to be all me, me, me - I officially have my head buried in the strawberry patch right now .

Don't eat them LunaticFringe It's taken me ages to grow those strawberries!

Everyone on this and a couple of other threads I'm on has been so wonderful to me today - i'm welling up!!

That it has m' dear, that it has!

Hippy what a disconcerting day for you. Much good advice already sent your way I see. A big seaside squeeze from me, and hoping the next 12 days whizz by for you amongst the strawberries. (I have a couple of red ones already BTW, to change the subject in a hopefully diversionary way ). Much love to you x

Hi to all - off to bed, shattered. Unspeakably wound up with DP, thank the Lord it's not SWI time....

jolly we got our first red one today as well - I feel like Tom & Barbara!!

Yes it is handy that you don't have to SWI when you can't stand to look at 'em innit!

Hope you've made up soon. Still testing on Saturday????? Did you say you got the first BFP last fathers day?? Poor old you, you have been waiting so bloody long.

Seaside hugs.

Hippy, only just logged on and sorry to hear that the scan wasn't reassuring. I hope you get loads of juicy red strawbs to help pass the time.I have no luck growing them.Insects always get them before I do.

Well, I finally got a + opk yesterday. Glad that I did cos I then had O pain which I could actually believe to be "O pain" and not just wind!

However, I'm not expecting to get a bfp out of this one, because last SWI was Sunday a.m. So that's 3 - 4 days before O. My DH was up to his armpits with exam marking last night and I couldn't stay awake, so no SWI on O day. Honestly, I felt so shattered that I just didn't care! I thought, if there's a nice strong,live sperm still there, then it'll be a nice strong baby girl.

At least now I can relax and wait for my period to arrive. And this time I'm staying away from the tests unless my temperature remains elevated for 15 days.
Let's hope my resolve hangs on til then!

So, who is coming up for testing this weekend? Fingers crossed for all of you.

I think it was Deige who asked if I was ttc number 5? It's number 6 here. My number 5 was 9 years after number 4 and I'd so love him to have a sibling close in age. Also it is no secret that I'd love another baby before my time is up! My Dh jokes that my theme song is "All that she wants is another baby"...he's pretty well right. I joke that although a lapsed catholic, I'm totally catholic when it comes to having babies.Bring them on!

just popping in to see how the strawberries are coming on Hippy... hope you managed to sleep last night. You did make me laugh with your reference to 'The Good Life'... I think you have to be on this thread to remember that! You'd get blank looks from most other TTCers....

Hope the pessary is doing its job and nothing else untoward occurring... thinking calm positive thoughts for you

and calm, very positive waiting to test thoughts for Jollster

and ever darker lines for rainbowdays!

Afternoon . Hippy hope that you are coping ok, have been thinking of you xx
Gumblossom Good for you going for no.6 - that's the number I think I'd like (have a thing about even numbers!) Lots of people in RL think I'm mad to want more than the 4 I have already, but to me there's nothing better than seeing a little person grow and develop - yes, they are hard work but the good def outweighs the bad!
Jollster I had a chuckle about what you said about dh/dps and SWI.You are so right - I am secretly relieved when I'm grumpy with dh and ov time has passed. It's a little harder to quash the mood when it's time to SWI though!
Hi Lunatic I am a day ahead of you re: af. Spotting yesterday and full-on af today. Another 26 day cycle,and going by opks and 12 day LP which I think is just about ok??? My Marilyn Glenville supplements arrived today, so let's hope they do what they're supposed to. They're horribly expensive (and I'm not buying the men's version for dh - men need to take 3 a day - can you imagine any man being able to remember to do that? )and I remember not being able to stomach them when actually pregnant last time as they are a little horse-pill like.
Lovely weather here, so going to have lunch out in garden. Back later x

gum I hate to tell you to SWI if you're not in the mood. But it really isn't too late. A pos on an opk means you are about to ovulate - usually within 36 hours. So do it woman!!! Don't be fooled by the pains they don't definitely mean you are oving at the point you get the pain.

When i conceived this little monkey who is currently doing his/her mother's head in (see I'm trying to think positively) i had pains on one side whilst in the midle of SWI on the wednesday night but my temp didn't go up til the following Sunday - so the pains were pre-ov pains IYSWIM. it's up to you and yuo might want to just wait and see this month but I just didn't want you to miss out.

alba yes most people in 20s and 30s would be like, "Who the heck are Tom and Barbara??"

diege sorry AF got you again. But if I remember rightly you weren't keen on having awful sickness on your holiday so next month is better for you - schedule that BFP in then!

As for me. well i swing between thinking, it was just a little early and it will all be there next time - and thinking WHY ME - a mmc and now a blighted ovum! So you can see that I'm totally pschysophrenic (sp?) at the mo.

Still at least i have some one to talk to .

Still spotting a bit but it is only a tiny bit. Here is the TMI bit. The thrush pessary I put in last night is of course working it's way out today so i feel very moist in that area (ohh er mrs) so of course i am constantly running to loo to see if I am bleeding - it is totally doing my freakin' head in .

love to all.
xx

Hippychick - just posted on your other thread but just to add that just because you're charting it doesn't mean your dates will still be 100% accurate.

I was charting religiously yet my dating scan gave me a 6 day difference. So your dates could be still be out - and hence no fetal pole yet despite everything being fine. Hold in there - it must be so horribly scary at the moment and it's so maddening not being able to do anything. But we're all here for you xxx PS - very impressed by your strawberries - we just have a wildlife zone outside the backdoor despite all our mutterings about vegetable patches!

Welcome to Loubilou.

Hi everyone,
sorry for being away for ages. I just wanted to say hi and that I will be back, but just need a break from thinking about TTC for a bit longer. It had become a bit of an obsession.
We are off for a week in the Highlands so hope to have time to just chill.

Hippy I saw that you were a bit worried about the scan and just wanted to give you a virtual hug and say these kinds of scans can be so worrying, but there is every chance that everything will be fine by the next scan.
A lady on one of my IVF threads had a suprise, natural pregancy and exactly this happened and she went on to have a normal pregnancy.

Love to all. Huge hug and mwah mwah (poncey air kisses). Waves.
Speak again in a week (when you will all have gone on holiday and it's like a tomb on here).

Rowing, thanks for dropping in to let us know you are okay. I can understand you wanting to have a little distance from ttc at the mo.Have a wonderful time in the highlands!

Hippy, I definitely missed my window of opportunity, we should have had SWI on the evening of the positive opk, but we were both so tired and I couldn't stay awake waiting for him to finish marking! By the time I had the O pain my cervix was closed and the fertile mucus was gone (sorry if TMI). Also had a temp rise yesterday and today, so I'm sure of it.
I guess I am feeling more philosophical these days about ttc. I want to approach it in a very relaxed manner and I feel confident that if there's a good egg to be had we'll get it eventually!

Deige I know what you mean about even numbers.I would prefer to have 6 rather than five and, if I have a girl (which I have a feeling we will) we'll have even numbers of each. Not that I care, a boy will be just as welcome. I always thought I'd have 6 kids, but when I had kids I changed my mind for a while - thought I'd have three, then had a 4th surprise, then thought we were done, only to have a change of heart. And, yes, it is hard work, but the most rewarding work and the joys def. outweigh the woes...

Hippy I loved your reference to Tom and Barbara. I just love that show, and always wanted to do the "good life", I still toy with the idea, but know it is totally unrealistic with my brood of kids!We hope that one day we'll move to a farm( my Dh grew up on a farm near where we live) and try our hand at it.

I saw my sister yesterday and she is still pregnant.I just don't know what she'll do, because despite her BF saying he doesn't want the baby and can't support her 100% if she has it, he says he loves her. I wish he'd stop telling her that because it gives her a spark of hope and right now that it isn't helping her to make a decision. I would be happy for her if she decided to have the babe, but I know her, and I know she hasn't coped with the children she already has, pretty well abandoned them to find herself, so isn't really in the best place to have another. In the end I will support what ever she decides. I just wish her bloke would 'man-up' and do the right thing by her. What a mess!

really good to hear from Rowing - have a great break away - hope to hear from you soon.

Gum your sister's situation is just so poignant .

Hippy how are the strawberries? DS ate all our ripe ones yesterday (about 6); it took a lot to stop him pulling off the green ones too! Hope you're doing ok?

Had some light brown watery "leakage" yesterday - not the usual pre-RTD spotting I tend to get but even so, I suspect it's on its way and I'm out for this month. Bollox, means I'm going to have to be nice to DP again to gear up for more SWI... .

Hi to all. x

hi all,

hippy already we are on day 2 of your 12 day wait so it's passing nicely.

No RTD for me yet, was due either yesterday if a 24 day cycle or tomorrow if 26, after that, god knows. Tested yesterday and bfn so assuming it'll be here tomorrow.

Lots vague symptoms though, feeling bit eugh on and off, if I didn't know better, I'd say I was preggers. Alas, I know better

Busy this weekend, so have good one everyone.

There's been some devaststing news on my due in August thread that I was on, I still follow it, > awful awful time.

Hi guys.

I got lots of positive replies to my post on the pregnancy thread asking for people in the same situation.

I agree with everything you've all said and would say the same if it were the other way around. It is just so bloody hard to stop those dark thoughts that come along at 4am!!!

tfls good to hear that even though you were charting you still couldn't pinpoint when you actually conceived. That gives me great hope (as do everyone's comments.)

Anyway 2 days down - 10 to go. As you so rightly say lia

I wish i would stop spotting though. it is literally a little bit of pink or brown but it makes toilet trips a suspenseful nightmare!

jolly I know everyone says it - but could it be implantation rather than AF??

lia Hope AF doesn't turn up for you. But if she does turn up - DON'T FORGET YOUR APPOINMENT (just shouting that so you defo don't miss it!)

rowing take care of yourself and come back to us when you're ready. We will always be here for you .

lia I'm gonna have to check that out now cos I knew a couple of people who were due in August cos that was my date for the last preg - I'm dreading looking but can't stop myself!!!

Ps. I have a confession to make. alba is gonna kill me!!! i poas and it was one of those devil stick conception indicators. I did it yesterday it said preg but only 2-3 and i should be 3+ by now. I know they are not that accurate and i wish to hell I hadn't done it. My thoughts are that either I am just a bit behind which fits in with the small sac or the whole pregnancy has just stopped sometime last week and will not progress past 2-3 weeks since conception!!!

I am now gonna have to do another one next week (pack of two!!) to confirm that it defo goes past 3+ - I AM AN IDIOT!

pps. I am trying desperately to think that the pregnancy cannot have stopped last week though cos the symptoms are getting worse.

The nausea is defo increasing - i even gagged this morning which i have never done when preg before.

lia I had a look at the august thread. I didn't know her but still feel terrible for her. Your post was very informative and kind - bless you.

Gotta go now - i am totally wellling up and am at work - so all very embarrassing!

Hello! Have to be quick as ds trying to get up the (stairgate-less) stairs, but wanted to say Hippy that I never got a 3+ on the conception indicator, even when I was 8 weeks, just came up 2-3 (I did it day before reassurance scan, and then the day after too, just to really torment myself - all well as you know, actually measured a week ahead at scan too).
Lia I've had a look at that thread - how heartbreaking But such wonderful support and very wise words too.

hippy - how ironic, I had one test left of those stupid indicator things, and thought, well I am five weeks now, so maybe I will see the 3+. But nope, I got a 2-3 this morning too. They are such rubbish, I won't be wasting my money on another one. Although it is nice right now to see the work pregnant beside me!!!! I have been having cramps today and constantly going over the negative possibilities, but trying to keep my mind focussed on the positives. I think hormones in these early weeks are a nightmare.

Lia - the august thread is very sad at the moment. So difficult to have such a late loss.

Lia, you're not sad... I lurk on August occasionally too, it's where a few of us should have been... I cried when I read the news, just awful, incredibly sad, and must be particularly shocking for those ladies all at the same stage too

Hippy, I won't get mad, I used the second of mine at 5wks... It only showed 2-3, same as you Rainbow. And my scans have confirmed dates aren't out. Does the 3+ actually exist? Or do they make it impossible to reach so you buy yet more of them?? Please ignore it. You're still pregnant. Hope the strawberries coming on well with all the attention too...

Lia and Jolls, whatever you say, I'm still crossing fingers for you both. Lia, with DS I didn't get a BFP till 4 days after AF was due. It ain't over till it's over...

Rowing, have a lovely holiday

Gum, that's very strong of you but fab sentiment to wait till it's all just right.

Waves to TFLS, Diege, Polly, Curly, GPS, DSL and Italian and sorry anyone I missed... Will remember and kick myself the second I post...