Hi all
Just back from holiday last night and I fortunately booked this morning off as holiday and working from home this afternoon, so I have time to put the house in order and catch up on important stuff like this thread!
Have just spent about 30 mins reading back to see what you've all been up to while I was away.
Firstly, congratulations to Poppy on your BFP! That is fantastic news and I really hope you have a problem-free pregnancy and can put any fears out of your mind. Good luck and let us know how your scans go.
Also congrats and good luck to Amber on the twins news. I hope the bleeding has disappeared now and allowed you to relax a little, but I can imagine what a terror it is.
Italian, it sounds as though you have had many wobbles over the last few weeks and getting away for a holiday would be a good idea, so I hope it does you and your OH and DD good. Try to just "be" for a few days, don't overthink things and tell yourself that you have to decide right away between adoption and trying again. I think you need a bit of a break from all that, it is obviously stressing your mind and it sounds as though you are trying to force yourself to be happy with adoption when emotionally something is stopping you from fully embracing it. Deep breaths my friend, enjoy some quality family time and be kind to yourself too.
Mojangles! I was actually thinking about you while I was away and wondering how you were getting on. Please come back and see us again. Sorry that you had some depression and angst after your scans but hope it has settled down and you can enjoy being a pregnant lady, you did enough to earn it.
Was also wondering about GGG and wondering where she is...are you there? Are you contemplating a FET yet?
Penguin, good luck for the 2WW and try not to write off the cycle as someone else said. If you were distracted by work that need not be a bad thing, sometimes I think our wombs like us to be focusing on something else for a while and not giving them our undivided attention. When I got pg in January I was stressed out trying to organise our renovations and moving into rented accommodation, so it need not be a problem!
MM good luck for continued embie growth and ET shortly. You had a good haul from EC and I'm glad the complicated logistics with your OH worked out fine. I know what you mean about the difference in male and female perspectives in all this and would imagine your OH has needed huge praise for playing his role (getting on a plane) compared with yours (running the household, looking after your DC, injecting, clinic visits...). My DH is a wonderful person and very supportive on everything, but apparently not giving IVF a second thought! Perhaps he is trying to keep worries at arm's length, but at the moment it is clear all the thinking and planning about it is going on in my head and very much NOT in his. I'm sure he will get on board in the end, but I think at the moment it's a purely theoretical exercise for him.
BB I'm very excited that you are finally almost at EC after what seems like a really long run-up. If it feels long to me, it must be a lifetime to you! Fingers crossed no further samples are needed from your OH given the difficulties there - let us know how you get on.
Ginger, Idream and Horton - hugs for you all and I'm so sorry to hear that you have all had hard times of late. I know this infertility lark does leave us all feeling isolated and full of hate/jealousy/stress, nasty emotions that are hard to acknowledge and hard to dig ourselves out of. Hope you all have a good friend somewhere who you can talk to in real life and that you all know you can come on here and rant, offload and cry. It is time for you all to have some good luck now so when you are ready to move forward I'm sure you will do so.
Lissy sorry to hear about the infection after your biopsy but hope the anti-biotics are getting that under control. It must feel good to think that that difficult step is out of the way, and hopefully you will have good news from the docs (I presume you have more appointments to check progress?) and in a few months will be able to try again. Enjoy your trip back to the US!
Hello to newbies vadercat, Kezia and Loujalou. It can feel very daunting being told that you need assisted conception but everyone on here is unanimous that the process needn't be that bad so I believe them! Unless there is a conspiracy and they are all doctors masquerading as barren women! It is also difficult to be told that there are things wrong with you or your OH when you see friends getting on with their families so easily, but I do believe a lot of the time the experience makes us stronger than people who haven't been tested in the same way, and I hope we will all get there in the end.
This is already long but my update is that I am now on day 15 of birth control pills (yes, as predicted my period came on day 1 of my holiday! If I hadn't been given the all clear to make a start while out of the country, I'd have been howling in rage at the predictability of it). On Friday I have my scheduling appointment at the clinic so I guess will start the sniffing shortly after.
We had a fabulous holiday - Egypt was unbelievably hot but we love the sun and got very brown, the sights were fascinating, and we both feel thoroughly relaxed which was much needed. You can blame me for the rain this morning in the London area - I only got back last night and seem to have broken the drought! Sorry...
Hugs and choccy biccies to all (sorry, they are some dodgy Egyptian things with pistachios and apricots, not proper chocolate either...)