The last of the GFJ members - no one gets left behind all will get a BFP

[C1NDY]

Hi All,

New thread, a new beginning...

Hello - just wanted to catch up with you girls if you still around?

Bump is fine - is actually a bump now rather than just a general ate all the pies look

yellow have you made the private appt then? Sounds like a good plan.

daisy any news? How are the dogs?

yellow have you an appointment date now? I'm guessing you have if you've gone down the private route. I'd be a ball of nerves now if I was you .

iggy a proper bump. How fabulous - much better than the fat bird look I think. I've managed to avoid another puppy so far - although the urge is strong . My Black Betty has excelled herself at picking up this last week. If it's possible for someone to burst with pride, I'll be it.

I'm on CD29 now and feeling as sick as a dog. I am too scared to test and really, really don't actually think I am up the pole.

I am weeing more often than usual, but I've noticed that I tend to do that on the second half of my cycle anyway. I am wildly thirsty and having the most incredible dreams.

I think all I can do is hold out for that beginning of March test date. That'll put me on CD37 which (if AF stays away) will make me properly late.

hello,

sounds positive though daisy - everything crossed for you.

How are you jools, and iggy?

I have made a private iui appt date though not until mid March. This is because dh is away for my fertile time in March so couldn't do iui then anyway so first month we can start is April. Am pissed off actually that March cycle is complete write off before it's even begun but I suppose that if we are then going to start iui in April then I just have to be patient. Am not in a happy place right now however.

Why are you not happy at the moment yellow?

Because I want a baby - waaaaaaaiiiiil. And I want it nooooooooow. And I want it conceived naturally and easily and just like everyone else. Waaaaaaaaaaaiiiiil.

I'm so with you there.

Wouldn't it be wonderful to actually, somehow just get pg? With no thought, effort or heartbreak?

If it's any consolation at all, you're not alone. I can identify with every second of your wail - and am only just managing not to join in!

I've had to take it one minute at a time sometimes. And if I can't do that, then I force myself to get outside and do something that involves fresh air and distraction. It helps.

Hello all

I was on here last year. Would you mind if i came back? We put trying on hold as we are getting married in June.
Will read through what's happening for you all.

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Hey kitty - yes please come back. How are wedding plans?

Hello yellow. Plans are going very well thanks. It's only 3 months away now. We are sending out our invites next week . going to start ttc in the next month or so. Never went back on the pill and have recently developed dry skin on my face i think as a result of it still leaving my system. Well done with the weight loss (and jools and daisydot. I am on weightwatchers and have lost 8.5 1bs this year. Doing alot of walking too.

Congrats on the imminent arrival of your baby girl C1ndy very excited for you. Not long now.

And congrats Iggy

Hello to all.

Hello everyone. Goodness me we are all quiet. Where are you all at? I am cd31 today, was expecting period yesterday and had teeny bit of spotting and nothing else. Not excited though - had bfn and temp drop this am so am just waiting for it to start properly now.

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Hi Yellow

It is quiet on here isn't it. I'm on CD11 and am a bit ashamed to admit I had a complete melt down last weekend.

We both thought we had a good chance this month, and in light of what I'm sure was a chemical pg last month were feeling really hopeful.

Trouble is, my hormones were all over the place - Clomid is hard for me to tolerate. I was so low at the end of last week and couldn't do anything about it.

AF started at the end of the week, and we went to stay with my parents for the weekend.

While we were there, my brother and SiL announced they were pg. And I didn't even know they were trying. And even while I had to tell them about my grapefruit and all the investigations, they didn't say a word. I feel a bit betrayed about that tbh.

I am so pleased for them and so sad for me. I managed to hold it together until we went to bed but then cried and cried and cried. I didn't sleep for crying all night. I so wanted to have the first grandchild.

It made it even worse that their due date is only a matter of days away from the due date my chem pg would have had if it had gone anywhere.

It's one of the hardest things I've ever had to come to terms with.

How are you doing though yellow? Has AF arrived?

Oh Daisy I'm sorry - those melt down days are horrid aren't they. How are you feeling now? Have you gone back to doc and asked for monitoring while on clomid?

Sorry about SIL too. I don;t think it was unreasonable for them not to tell you they were trying because it's up to everyone whether or not they want to keep something secret but I feel your pain. I will be the last of my friends to have a baby but I am holding out ope to at least produce the first grandchild and I am terrified my SIL will get there first too which is stupid I know because my kids will be as loved whatever order they come in plus I live near my parents and they don't.

My AF arrived - bleurgh. In other news though we are hoping to start iui very soon.

Oh daisydot big hugs

Oh no yellow

yellow I've not had a meltdown like that before. I thought I was doing OK with the emotional side of TTC. Clearly I am wrong!

However, I am pretty much fine now. If I think too hard about my M&D looking at buggies and baby things for their impending GC, then I do struggle but mostly I try hard not to.

All I hope for is that if I do finally get pg that it is not compared in every way to my sis in law's pg. The same thing happened for my wedding and if it is repeated I will probably lose the plot .

I'm very glad that you understand the feelings though. My mum did say that there will be nothing like a daughter's first baby.

Sorry you have AF with you - it's always a disappointment. Have you decided when you're going to start IUI? I was wondering why you're going for that instead of IVF? Is there a big difference in proceedure?

Kitty welcome back and thank you.

hi daisy. we went to iui clinic - they want to do some more tests this month - another semen analysis and an ovarian reserve test for me (bloods and scan). Then we have a follow up appt in a couple of weeks and hopefully start iui in a couple of months though yet to be decided whether with super ovulation drugs or not. So all systems go... but now I am just hugely impatient for it to start asap. On the good news side of things, my period was a little late meaning I probably ovulate the day dh gets back from his march business trip so we can still shag that day and have chance of march conception - wasn;t sure how I was going to face a month with no hope whatsoever.

The IUI sounds quite full on -but I totally understand why you want to just get on with it.

I am wondering how long I should take Clomid before we decide to give up on it and pay for IVF. I am very aware of each month passing as I get older and older.

And as I've had no monitoring at all, I don't even know if it's bloody working.

Hi Daisy - I really think you need to insist on monitoring. Imagine if you ended up conceiving octuplets. How are you feeling though? (emotionally and physically).

I will just be relieved to start iui when we do start. I want a bay - scream, shout, wail.

Hiya
daisydot agree with yellow. Kick u a stink and get them to monitor you. hugs yellow good luck with all the tests. keep us posted.

I wonder if I do need to push even harder for monitoring. It does seem to be a bit hit and miss at the moment. But, I am not feeling bad at all this month - I have had less discomfort and so far seem to be much more like me.

I think temping is helping - it does give me an illusion of knowing what's going on. Although I do think that the consultant has given me Clomid as a fobbing off exercise with the rider that it's not likely to work too well because I don't have the ideal BMI.

God above knows what I'd do if I conceived at all - let alone with multiples. If I do ever get a strong BFP, I think I might just collapse with shock . I know there's an increased chance of twins because of the Clomid, and there are twins in my DH's family though so I suppose it's possible.

Provided of course I get up the pole in the first place.

Keep on shagging. Until of course they start fiddling with you yellow .

Glad to hear you're feeling more yourself daisydot you sound cheerier

Thanks Kitty - life is much brighter here at the moment.

I know you're planning a wedding, but are you also TTC at the same time?

Finally some news - I am starting iui with clomid next month (providing that is that I do not get pregnant naturally this month). Here we go...

Daisy, the nurse who gave me the clomid said that it's best to take it in the evening to minimise hot flushes ie so they happen while you are asleep.

Wow yellow. What fabulous news. I bet you're full of nerves and excitement now.

You and I can do the Clomid thing together!

I do take it at night - and it probably does help with the sudden heat surges. They still happen at night, but I suppose they're more manageable at home when things are calm!

I'm on CD19 and still no ovulation (going on temps) - but having finally paid a subscription to FF and spent some time overlaying charts etc, I think that I have always ovulated far later than I thought. . It seems to be anywhere between days 17 - 21 on average.

I can't believe I didn't already know that. All of our efforts have tailed off by about CD16.

I don't know whether I'm cross with myself or relieved.

Hi Daisy - yes we can be clomid pals. Don't worry about previous cycles, just concentrate on getting timing right from now onwards.

And you are right - nervous and excited. And so very very relieved.
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Hi All,

Sorry have not been online much as DD keeps me busy since I have been on maternity leave. I am now having my baby on the 31st March, so am relieved that they have moved it two days forward as I am struggling now!! So only two weeks to go before blast off ... well its something like that!

Kitty welcome back and so excited for your big day, it is fast approaching!

To you all lovely ladies I will pop in now and again and see how you are all getting on. I will of course let you know when the little one is born.

All the best for now and hugs.

Cindy
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