Just MC'd. Starting it all again.. Come and join me for the long haul, vol 2

[thefatladyscreams]

Hardly the most original title but I didn't want to loose anyone (well that's my excuse for the lack of originality!)

Evening

I think I'm now in the 2ww. Period should be due on 9th October +/- 30 days!!!

I'm 75% sure that I'm pregnant:

problems sleeping;
enhanced smell;
blue veins on breasts;
have put on weight around the tummy;
feeling very protective of my tummy;
have nasal congestion/runny nose;
had a dream last night about eating an egg - apparently this symbolises fertility and new life.

I'm going to look very silly when I get my period.

Anyway, just in case I ovulate later than the average, DH and I are going to have sex again tonight. And just so you all know, I've not drunk any water in over 2 hours.

oooooooh mrsr you even sound like you're pregnant - I am also feeling protective of your tummy.

dh away, have been clenching pelvic floor all day to keep the boys in - then lying on my back with legs in the air at every opportunity to send them back up - how much of a freak am I!!!

will be at friends tomorrow so will be gunning for a silent shag in order to not let them know whats going on and not wake ds in next room

i also have a runny nose but a) am not sure i have ovulated yet and b) have only had sex once in the last 2 weeks so I think i haev a cold coming on!

night all

The fat lady has sung, it's game over for me again. Bollocks.

Morning

I'm so sorry barrenbrook, don't worry I'll no doubt be seeing you on the July thread .

I forgot to put on the symptom list, increased urination.

It's all in my head. I thought it was the ttc that was hard, but it's not, it's the 2ww.

Good morning!

barrenbrook I'm sorry AF got you. I was so hopeful! Why is nature so cruel to us? Giving us hope time and again, just to crush it all soon after?

tiger so what did the EPU say?

MrsR My respect for your stamina! Ah, the eternal symptom spotting game! Well my fingers are crossed for you

cheepz while it is always good to BD when you have fertile CM, it is much more common to have several patches of EWCM before ovulation (the last patch being when you soon ovulate), than to have EWCM again after you ovulated. So if you always have EWCM around CD9 AND around CD14, I'd expect ovulation to be after CD14. But it's not an exact science, so who's to say for certain? Anyway, good for you for having one in the bag! Lol at your pelvic floor exercises - just make sure you don't squeeze the little swimmers too much!

chamois any developments since the negative test? Given the ? for your UCL, could it be you tested too early?
Re: Adoption, well for now we are continuing our attempts at the home-grown variation. It just would be nice to know that adoption is indeed an alternative in case it doesn't work out - relieves the pressure. My worries about being "foreign" is that the agencies might not approve of an English kid not being brought up in a proper English manner; and that as we haven't been here for very long, they would doubt that we have enough of a support network. We don't, really. All our really close friends are back in Switzerland, family too; we know very few people locally. I'm sure that would change once we had a child, but I worry that adoption agencies would see that as a problem.

Anyway, here is FRIDAY'S LIST

Chamois TTC#1 UCL? cycle 1 CD32
MrsRigby TTC#2 UCL? cycle 2 CD25
Louisesh TTC#1 UCL? cycle WTF CD24
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD24
Zayja TTC#1 UCL 24-27 cycle 5 CD21
Cheepz TTC#2 UCL 28 cycle 2 CD12
Apples TTC#3 UCL 28 cycle 1 CD10
TFLS TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle 3 CD5
Meita TTC#1 UCL 30-45 cycle 2 CD4
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle 6 CD1

WTTC
LeeWT
Justbeenforapromenade

MIA
em22 TTC#? UCL 28 cycle 3 CD59
trixel TTC#3 UCL 28-35 cycle 7 CD59

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
leewt (mc)
boodleboot (ectopic)
Stressy BFP 22nd August
becky78 BFP 4th September
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September
VivCliquot BFP 10th September
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September

Hi ladies,

MrsR You are one of our only remaining hopes for now, stay positive, you never know! I have everything crossed (until ovulation of course!). Hope the dreaded 2WW passes quickly for you.

Meita Sorry that AF got you too. THIS month is ours. I can FEEL it!!! And here endeth my positivity!

I am still Mrs grumpy pants, I am hoping this may pass quite soon as DH and I are off out for dinner and have a good drink.

It seems, as I am sure it does to all of you, that there are preggers women EVERYWHERE smugly rubbing their protruding bumps, dammit, even at the gym last night I saw a heavily preggers lady, that was my last place to hide but alas, that has been stolen from me too [feckedoffbeyondbeliefanddyingforadrinkemoticon]

Have a good weekend

hey ladies,

did you notice that the right hand edge of our list forms a neat zig-zag line?

(Is it obvious that I have been staring at the page, waiting for something - anything! - to happen?)

ah, BB I truly believe there has been an invasion of pg women. At least where I work no-one is pg at the moment.

me again.

I'm feeling quite upset. My sister is very frail psychologically and has had all kind of difficulties and problems. Never has had a real relationship. Until recently... she was over the moon, sooo happy. Although she is currently not very well, maybe bordering on clinical depression. Now her new love has gone and broken up with her. She is completely falling apart... And there is nothing I can do. I soooo feel for her... I worry that this is going to break her... I worry for my parents (with whom she lives) because they are losing the strength to deal with it all... Oh if only I could do something.

(did I just write before that, that I was waiting for anything to happen? Should be careful what I wish for.)

Hi All!
meita, I know how you're feeling honey, my youngest brother has had all kinds of problems with substance abuse, has low self-esteem and depression, is 30 and lives with my mum. There are times it gets so bad that I would worry about him hurting himself - well he does that all the time when drunk - what I mean is ending his life. You're somewhat helpless in the situation, but I do think saying a prayer or two and letting her know you care is the best you can do. My brother has recently gone back to school for computer repair, got his first grade report and is getting all high marks. I think this could do wonders for him though he's not out of the woods yet.

Back to the busines of ttc, I'm currently in the tww with chamois, MrsR, louise and tiger. Is it as bad for you ladies as it is for me??? It is CRAWLING by at a snails pace. Can hardly stand it! I don't feel I am pregnant, and don't want to get hopes up, yet hopes seem to go up all on their own. [Godpleaseletmebepregnantemoticon]

Sorry barrenbrook that AF got you, I fear I may join you within the week. Whether I do or not, fingers are crossed for BFP's this mo.!

Hi all Hope everyones well? Yes on 2ww however don t think for 1 minute i m pg this month BD 3 times at the important time, tailed off a bit since then though!!!!

Off on my cruise next week yeh can t wait soo much more focussed on that than the 2ww...

Just concentrating on putting my latest mc behind me.Does it drive anyone else crazy experiencing the same "deja vu" every month???

We too have looked in to adoption and still think its a viable option.In our area theres a shortage of babies , in fact if you want to adopt a baby the adoption agency will not take you on at present however i m not that fussed about a baby we d be happy with a toddler soo its still an option.

Recovering from a hangover from last night, finishing my packing then off to the cinema i think.Have a nice weekend all

been away again, back now and home for a while so catching up on things and will have my life in order by the end of the week - we have just had so many weekends away.

good weekend on the bd front day 13 so thats always a plus and thinking might try for 15 too (tomorrow) then will have been 10, 13 and 15 which seems like should cover most bases!!

CM not back so wondering if 9 and 10 was the day and it was early... will see what happens next few days

meita sorry you sound like you are having crap time. hope things have been better over weekend

barren sorry - grim

off out for dinner with friends tonight - thats three nights in a row - bet i have gained 4 pounds this weekend - everything i lost since france [dietssuck] will be back on the lean regime tomorrow

hope all you ladies had good weekends xxx

morning all
back to work tomorr....as i work for a local authority they have very kindly arranged for some couselling sessions for me...six to begin with. This will be good for getting my head around whether i personally want to try again. to be honest i still swing between thinking yes then no then yes....DH and i got back on the horse so to speak and used a condom and had a wonderful reconnection of why we used to have sex as opposed to BD...i quite like the idea of no baby to be honest but worry that long term it will be the wrong decision for our little family, ooh its all so complicated now....i wish i could just obsess over CD with you all, believe it or not that was far less stressful...

hope you are all doing well and that we get some BFP's this month....xx

Updated list ... Chamo, MrsR, Louisesh, Tiger we are waiting

Zayja - step away from the early tests

I had my little ovulation sign on the persona yesterday and today - is only indicative but also had cramps this morning so planning to jump dh tonight - we did manage saturday night too so that would be 10, 13 and 16 and CM has indicated 10 and persona day 15/16 - not so much CM yesterday so if it materialises today will know that was ov cramps this morning

Boodle - great you are going to have counselling and I think you should bide your time and make the decision in your own way as and when you feel ready.

Here is Tuesdays list

Chamois TTC#1 UCL? cycle 1 CD36
MrsRigby TTC#2 UCL? cycle 2 CD29
Louisesh TTC#1 UCL? cycle WTF CD28
Tigerbear TTC#1 UCL28 cycle WTF CD28
Zayja TTC#1 UCL 24-27 cycle 5 CD25
Cheepz TTC#2 UCL 28 cycle 2 CD16
Apples TTC#3 UCL 28 cycle 1 CD14
TFLS TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle 3 CD9
Meita TTC#1 UCL 30-45 cycle 2 CD8
Barrenbrook TTC#1 UCL 28 cycle 6 CD5

WTTC
LeeWT
Justbeenforapromenade

MIA
em22 TTC#? UCL 28 cycle 3 CD59
trixel TTC#3 UCL 28-35 cycle 7 CD59

GRADUATES
amyboo
totally
leewt (mc)
boodleboot (ectopic)
Stressy BFP 22nd August
becky78 BFP 4th September
LittleOneMum BFP 7th September
VivCliquot BFP 10th September
Waitingisntfun BFP 19th September

Ok tested again today, not FMU as too impatient for that, if there's a stick in the house I must wee on it immediately
Very faint second line. Why do I buy these silly tests with lines?! Am now going to have to get clearblue digital tomorrow for a definitive answer. [sigh]

chamois

A LINE IS A LINE IS A LINE

congrats....

Hi all,

Been away for a long weekend with PIL who flew home today. So have house back to ourselves, a High reading on my monitor this morning but I'm feeling ill and DH is being a real grump so not sure it bodes well for us getting our act together tonight .

Still trying to get over my mental picture of what cheepz's [iseeewcm] emoticon would look like!

Sorry to hear about the AFs. I'd truly expected to see some BFPs as everytime I've not posted for a couple of days, they seem to appear. So was hoping to bring good luck with my absence!

Good to hear from you boodle. Hope tomorrow goes well.

How is your sister doing meita? I'm assuming she lives in Switzerland which must make it even more heart breaking and frustrating for you as you can't go round and give her a huge hug.

chamois - get thee to a pharmacy girl. We want news!!!

Hi Ladies!
Well chamois, how exciting, that is great news to hear. I second tfls - get some confirmation so we can add you to the official grads list!

boodle, so nice to hear from you, and hear that you're taking care of yourself and being taken care of too. It sounds like your work is good to you, hope your return goes well tomorrow.

cheepz - it's too late , I poas this AM - BFN - of course. I've had a bit of spotting yesterday and then some today, but still no AF. She is really dragging her feet! My birthday is this Fri. Oct. 9 - I'll be 34. I've been holding out hope though I know I shouldn't, that I'd get a BFP as the best present ever. Yes, louisesh, I am totally sick of the deja vu each month. This is something like cycle 5 post-mc for me, and each month the same: pleasepleaseplease...aw shucks!

chamo news news please!! sounds very promising

zayja sorry about that - what a drag, know exactly how you feel though

am now in 2ww - right at the beginning, trying not to think about it - but we have at least managed 3 bd in the window this month which is best since mc.

working from home today as meeting cancelled so thats a big plus for getting lots of things done

Well it's a definite positive. Feel really underwhelmed though, DH equally so. Last time I got pg, conversation with DH went like this:

Me: I'm pregnant
DH: Fantastic, we need names/buggy/car seat/to redecorate whole house/write wills etc etc

This time
Me: I'm pregnant
DH: OK. What's for dinner?

Such is the reality of pg after mc I guess! I think it's our way of protecting ourselves should the worst happen again.

[reallyshouldbehappybutjustcan'tquitemanageityet]

OMG chamois!!!!!

Such excellent news!

I understand you not wanting to get too excited. Instead, we will be excited for you, ok?

Come and join us in being excited for you when you feel ready!

chamois - yipeee that is fantastic news. I love meita's comments

It must be really natural for your reactions to be different this time - as you say, self protection.

Really happy for you. You might even inspire me to find the energy to do the deed tonight (have a stinking cold but the call of the monitor cannot be ignored!)

Hello!
How is everyone?
Congrats to Chamois!!!!!

Well, EPU was exactly as I thought it would be - did blood test again, and it was neg, no pg hormones left.
On a good note, I THINK AF is here - yey! So can start to work out when a good time for BDing.

tigerbear hope it was OK going back to the EPU. At least you know where you stand now. Good luck for this cycle

yay chamo whoop whoop

I am quite sure we will all feel the same - wanting to get the pg somewhat established before getting to thrilled about it - someone posted early on this thread that an mc steals your pregnancy innocence where you move from just assuming everything will be ok to assuming its all going to go tits up.

But like Meita said - you just join our Chamo party in your own time.

Cheepz rushed off to have a glass of wine for Chamo - (any excuse)