Been ttc no1 since absolutely forever part three (you'd have thought we'd all have either graduated or given up by now...)

[nomoremagnolia]

New thread for Daisy

[nomoremagnolia]

Hi Ready How are you? Been thinking about you lots recently
I'm not doing too well tbh, I've lost all my PMA for this cycle and am wondering why I felt so positive in the first place. Maybe it's the Clomid, it does make me feel very up and down.
Gilly You're not letting anyone down ((hugs)) I know exactly what you mean about being an all-or-nothing person though, it's something I find exceptionally hard about FTC. If it was a definite 'you can't have children' I'd throw myself into something else, but the limbo/not knowing is crap.

[Ready]

PMA. PMA. PMA.

xxxxx

[nomoremagnolia]

haha! knew you'd say that

[chocolatedays]

Nomore - are you, by any chance, in the second half of your cycle? That pesky progesterone is a rascal and can make all PMA fade away. Try to go with the flow, hun. Cxx

[chocolatedays]

Hi Ready. We went to a local farm so Minichoc could see how big cows, sheep, goats, pigs, chickens etc are - 'til then she'd only seen pictures and toys. There was lots of giggling from all of us.

SO are you doing long walks, hot curries, pineapple and XXXXX!!?

[chocolatedays]

Oooh, Ready, ask your GP for a prescription for Lanisoh - by far the best thing to sooth sore nips (once you start b-feeding) and costs c.£8 over the counter.

[nomoremagnolia]

oh yes it's day 25 here how did you guess?? (of cycle 44 I've just seen - had to get my cycle calendar out to check CD) I feel even more miserable now. 44 cycles and what exactly made me think this one would be different? Harumph!

[chocolatedays]

I'm impressed you're still counting cycles - once it got over 3 years I gave up it was too depressing. Remind me - where are you on tests / drugs / interventions?

[nomoremagnolia]

I can't say I knew what cycle it was until I looked at my calendar, it's a photocopy of the front of my diary with the past year, this year and next year on it, only it's last year's calendar so it covers 2007, 2008 and 2009 period dates, cycle lengths and cycle number. How sad am I??
Am 3 1/2 yrs into ttc, had 6 months of Clomid July-Dec 07, one go at IVF (NHS funded) in May 08 then was saving £££ for a private go (planned for Jan/Feb 09) when I had a EP in Nov 08. After that the doc wanted me to have a L&D and HSG so we've been put on hold for the last 9 months and now I'm waiting for the follow up appt from the L&D/HSG before they decide what to suggest next. I'm on Clomid at the mo simply because I had some laying about and Rah kindly sent me some of her left over supply too and the IVF doc said there was no harm in trying it but he said not to get my hopes up about it!
Sounds depressing written out like that doesn't it?

[chocolatedays]

Actually it sounds pretty constructive to me!

Waiting for the follow up apptmt is a bit of a killer though - we had the same problem too. Our NHS doc was also the private consultant so we chose to spend (£160 I think) to review the results and move things on. The private consultation (and this is a champagne socialist here!) was interesting and useful. As we had paid for it I felt we could take as long as we liked and ask anything we liked. It helped. We then went back to NHS for our first IVF. Worth considering?

[nomoremagnolia]

The follow up is next week now, most of the waiting has been and gone now Would have happily paid £160 to move things on, it's not much when compared to the cost of IVF charges. Now it's been more than a year I expect we'll have to pay for another pre-IVF consultation anyway, which is about the same cost.
Thanks for the virtual kick up the bum though, you're right, we have moved forward, if ever so slowly and hopefully the follow up appt will provide some answers or a way forward.

[islegrin]

I can identify with a few of the recent comments regarding the letdown, and scheduling the next procedure to reinstill hope. My DH is also (luckily for me) very supportive and positive, but he also recently asked if I would be OK if we didn't have kids - I won't kid you, it was a big blow. But he needs to know that I won't be permanently depressed or go into a tailspin if this really doesn't happen. I told him that 85% of me wants a baby, either of our own or adopt, in order for me to get to the point where I would just be happy without any kid would be a stretch, but I could do it.

I was bummed due to my CD10 scan revealing 6 small follies on my blocked tube side, and 8 follies on my good side - but all immature. The largest two were only 8mm. Normally, I'm busting by day 10 at 24mm, but this was a different protocol. Travelled back home yesterday and had another scan - revealed much more hope, some of the smaller ones were shriniking (yay! because I'm not into the thought of octuplets) and we've got 3 maturing (12mm now). So more muscle injections for 3 days then another scan on Friday. This cycle is just moving slower than the others, but we still have a ray of hope, and that is what we all cling to!!!

This result has really made us talk about reduction and the real maximum number of babies we could handle both during the pregnancy and afterward - has anyone else had this talk seriously yet? Are most of you against or for reduction? I'm just curious.

Good luck on the birth Herbaceous!!!

[chocolatedays]

Hi Nomore - have you had your follow up yet?

Hi Islegrin - by reduction I assume you mean discovering you have a multiple pg and decide / or are advised to reduce to one or maybe twins. I really think this is only something you can decide upon if you are in that position. It is also very rare now if you are using UK clinics - though some overseas clinics are more prone. For many long term ttcers it is hard to imagine that dilemma - as a pg often feels a very long way off!

Any news of Ready?

Hi Gilly and everyone else!

[nomoremagnolia]

Great news about Herby
Consultant rang, they want to run one fo the tests again. Am seriousy fed up about the whole thing, sorry for the lack of update

[chocolatedays]

Nomore - how frustrating - though the consultant clearly thinks the test is needed and could be useful. (quick reminder about a single private consultation is it looks like it'll drag on)

A boy for Herby - how lovely

[RahRah1]

Hi all

Sure Ready won't mind. Heard from her hubby

she had a girl at 2.02am this morning 9lb 3

So excited for them.... Many congratulations Ready!!!!

Woooooooooooohooooooooooo

love Rah xxxxx

[chocolatedays]

WHOOOOOO HOOOOOOOO
(blimey - that's not samll!!)

Rah - please can you send huge hugs from me.

FANTASTIC!!!!!

[Scorps]

Ready What amazing news, enjoy your precious girl, and well done on the baby's weight, fabulous!

[AppleAndBlackberry]

Hello - just wanted to let you know I had a baby girl on Sunday weighing 9lb. Feeling shattered so I'll post more details at some later point. Congratulations to Ready too. xxx

[Ready]

Thanks very much girls

Congrats Apple&Black Looking forward to hearing your story.

xx

[nomoremagnolia]

congratulations A&B another girlie in the gang