Emmsy's onwards and upwards part five.....white coats and pee sticks at the ready for more BFP's

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Here we go a shiny new thread.....

Maybe we could club together and buy an Emmsys scan machine and then all our pregnant ladies could sca themselves to their hearts' content!

scan unless sca is an actual word.

Gracie just sent you an email. It felt quite naughty to contact someone outside of MN!!!

Did you get this pain before you were pregnant? It's a big relief that it's not ectopic but they really should be keeping an eye on you right? I would definitely push for that scan just for your own reassurance. Waiting is just so hard.

Neeko step away from the cupboard. Be strong though Tuesday does sound like a good day to do it... or maybe Monday

Curly I sense that you might be no good for me!

lol Neeko... or maybe kate could sneak us all into the gynae ward

Curly I've forwarded everyones email's to you with phone numbers on. No never had this pain when not pregnant, though did have it briefly for about 30 mins 3 nights running last time I was pregnant. Trying not to compare my pregnancies too much.

Yes neeko I want an emmsys scanner! There is an ultrasound scanner in A&E generally used for checking for patients with abdominal trauma or aneurysms - I can just imagine me and MrsKate trying to sneak it out and take it home.

evening girlies

i am loving the idea of an emmsys scanner! how much heartache would that save - brilliant! you are all sounding very upbeat today, which is good, it puts me in a good mood too

had a bit of a wobble last night, when i think the events of the last couple of days finally registered, and i cried for ages in bed with dp, he must be so fed up of me by now, i seem to have done nothing but cry this year. we have decided (reluctantly on my part) to wait a few months before ttc again, he initially said he couldnt put me through it again, but i think once he saw how distraught i was, he said we would, but he wanted us to wait to let my body recover and our heads sorted out. i know he is right but i am

hope everyone else is ok

Hi Mon sorry you had a wobble, although completely understandable under the circumstances. I tthink we all understand the NEED to be pg again after a MC, but you've had two quite close togther and should maybe give yourself a little break? Maybe concentrate on your health for a month or so and do some decorating of your lovely new house? I know it's easier said than done though.
Send Gracie your number and then we'll all be instantly on hand for wobbles.
Take care. You're doing really well.Honestly

Of course I meant Moon

Moon I'm so sad for you going through this I still get teary sometimes when I remember back to the awful first few days (and weeks). It's good to get it out and just keep saying to yourself that it will get better. A break will give you a chance to be you again, before you give in to the relentless obsession with TTC

And there's no limit on our hand-holding so take as much time as you need xxx

i know he is right and i know you are right, i just dont know how i get through it without having a new bean to think about. its just feels like the whole world is against us. when i was in hospital, there were 2 girls on the same ward who were flasing their baby scan pics about, i just sat there looking at them with tears streaming down my face. if i'd have been a bit more with it, i swear i would have said something.

Ah Moon, sometimes it seems like there are two types of people in this world... those who have experienced MC and know better, and those that haven't

How about you give it a month, and in that time you and DP concentrate on doing nice things for each other (especially him doing nice stuff for you!) and enjoy drinking wine and eating blue cheese etc. Then see how you feel next month

Moon I'm sorry you had to share your ward with people with happy scans. In my hospital where possible ladies having miscarriages get a side room so they can hide from the world.

Moon your DP is just worrying about you. My DH said exactly the same after my miscarriage. I'm sure he'll come round to the idea once you've had time to heal a bit. I would say your body will need to wait until you are physically back to normal before thinking of TTC again. I know you would worry more if you were still anaemic when you conceived. So maybe waiting till you've at at least 2 AFs might be a plan. I'm sorry you've hd to go through all this again.

gracie thanks for sending on the numbers. I've had to put in my phone with the nicknames so I remember who's who I may have to stick with the MN names if we ever meet up!!

How big is that scanner? Could we get into an extra large handbag??!!

curly gracie and neeko i know you are all right in what you say, even in my head i know its the right thing to do, my heart just doesn't want to wait. i guess a couple of months is nothing really is it. and a glass of wine would be nice, i dont actually think i've had one since just after Christmas, due to either ttc or being pg.

gracie i did originally have my own room, but i got moved onto the main ward as there was a supposed 'emergency'. so i didnt mind, til i realised the girl who was in there was one of those who was flashing her scan pics round, was very mobile on her feet, and went home at about 5pm.

Moon maybe you could concentrate on getting back to good health and just wait till you've had your first AF and see how you feel then. I'm sure if it was your DP who had gone through what you had you'd be worried about him too and wouldn't want him to have to go through it again.

Curly the scanner is about 4 foot tall, do you have a handbag that big?

i might be able to fit it in mine dp calls my work handbag a suitcase

moon crack open that wine fast. Is there any chance of you and dp getting away on a break?

For what it's worth, when you do get back to TTC, don't do what I did and turn up your nose at OPKs and the like. It's 8 months since my second MC, and finally.... the first month that I try opks, it works

Worn out curlywurlee is falling asleep over the keyboard here so I will say goodnight I'm going to be good and concentrate on the studies till the exam on Monday but I will lurk when I can xxx

Moon stay strong and there's a hand here whenever you need it.

Gracie and Neeko I'll leave it to you to finalise the cunning plan to hijack a scanning machine

Gracie needs a lap top she can carry round with her, sitting at the computer makes it hurt more. Heading off to pace round my house for a bit.

gracie I keep cross posting. Take care hon. I wish this stupid pain would ease up for you. It's totally understandable that you would compare to previously, but the pregnancy hormones are probably just playing havoc with your bowels. I'm sending you some hot chocolate and marshmallows to soothe your aching tum (well at least make you feel better ) xxx

night night

Evening all just a quick message before bed as on long day at work tomorrow . Sorry to hear about your terrible experiences moon I agree with the others just take some time out from ttc for a few months spend some time with dp then you can come back ttc to renewed energy and inversed iron levels! Look after yourself x. Have emailed my number to gracie after many failed attempts! Anyway speak tomorrow too tired to think now x

Evening ladies it's so lovely we're all exchanging numbers so hand holding can happen even from halfway around the world! My DH is quite happy I now won't be asking to go find internet cafes And I've put you all in under your MN nicknames too; way too much for my brain to cope with knowing your real names

Moon so sorry you've been down. I haven't been through this twice so can't say I 'know' how you feel...but as neeko said, we all understand the need to be pg again and it just feels like a cycle takes forEVER when you are ttc and then each month is a major disappointment when you don't (we only tried for 3 months before I got pg last time, but I still got really upset every time af got me) so we understand why you want to get started straight away, honest. But yeah, focus on yourself primarily right now, that really what is important. Sorry I'm rambling but jst want you to know we are here to talk to!

Curly so lovely to see you back on properly, your posts always make me smile Congrats on first exam being over (what are the exams for btw?) yes AF is still very much here, but I'm glad she'll be gone before our hols.

Sorry gracie, forgot to wave hello to you hope the pacing around helped... and I hope you get your reassurance scan too!

Oh forgot to say love the idea of the emmsys scanner we have a scan machine at work must be like your gracie and Kate but even if I could carry to huge thing home don't even know how to work it thinking of it don't even know how to turn it on! x