Just MC'd. Starting it all again.. Come and join me for the long haul.

[MumOfBaby]

Hi all.

Needing some extra support this time round as have just had a MC. We are trying again straight away. But I've a feeling it's going to take ages. Got pregnant first month trying last 2 times. I have 1 DC- 11 months.

I want some people to join this thread who are ready to hold hands and help each other through the TTC.

Good luck to all.

Just to let you know I will be swearing a lot in this thread so avert your eyes now if you will be offended

All I keep thinking is what a load of complete fucking bollocks this is. I can't believe I am here again. It feels almost even more painful as the scan pic was v much one of a baby, not a bunch of cells. It is my baby and I can't do anything to help it while it dies. I just have to cuddle it in my tummy. It seems irrelevant that it is only 8 weeks gestation. I want to cuddle it and look after it as I would my ds and dd.

I am very very very sad and tearful.

I hope things go well for you amy and boodle. You really deserve it being such lovely ladies.

you poor thing, you must feel so wretched. what is the next step? when will they have you back in to see whats happened? how are you feeling physically? It is such a fragile process isn't it...so much to get through before we can hold a healthy baby. i had no idea how lucky i was with DS and DD. I just thought that was the way it always was...

I really am sorry for the pain you are in - i wish i could give you a hug.

there needs to be a hug emoticon on here....

lucky feel free to swear all you like. I know I did when it happened to me. And of course it was a baby - how far along you are has nothing to do with it. I had a scan at 9 weeks and very much saw a baby, so when mine died at 12 weeks I was devastated. Some inconsierate people will tell you it's only cells blah blah, but to you/us/people going through this it was a baby and that's all that matters.

I hope you have someone there to give you a big hug and whose shoulder you can cry on. I'm really sorry this is happening to you again.

totally I completely agree with boodle. This is definitely not a random thread anymore. I think we're all here to hold each others' hands, no matter what stage of ttc/pregnancy/mc we're at.

Hi everyone, any room for another one?

Could really do with some hand holding (and humour). I've been diagnosed with a MMC today after starting to miscarry (should be 10 weeks today but baby died 3 weeks ago).

Feel like a massive rollercoaster but just read the 17 pages of this thread and so nice to see some humour and sanity/insanity at the end of the tunnel!

Hope you don't mind the intrusion.

hello *fatlady welcome....trains a bit bumpy at the min as i'm sure you've read one of us is taking a bit of a hit. If its care and support you are after tho then we are the train for you. So sorry to hear about your MM. its absolutely gutting when your hopes and dreams for the baby you are carrying are taken away. we all know what that peculiar set of feelings feel like.

i have no idea if we will all end up with healthy babes in arms but i really really hope we ALL do. lucky how are you doing today?

totally hows the water retention?

i caved and tested yesterday [way to early....bloody amazon cheapies....] of course it was negative but i have felt sicky last two mornings on awakening and boobs are bit sore....the very earliest that something could possibly show would be the 22nd so don't know what i was thinking....

Thanks boodleboot. The madness of testing hey....

Lucky - I'd seen your thread on the miscarriage topic. Really hope you're Ok (as well as you can be) today. I hate to think what you are going though waiting like this. But I'm sure your little bean knows you are cuddling and loving him or her.

Sorry, one more late addition here. Mc at 6 weeks and finished bleeding

So, so, so sorry to hear that things aren't going well lucky. Lots of virtual hugs to you and positive vibes. It's a REALLY crap time, especially the waiting. Hope you have loads of support - you do here.

Hope friends and family are being sensitive and useful. Please let us know how you go next scan. Keeping everything crossed 4 u. xx

Welcome fatlady and oremstango wish you weren't here iyswim but you'll find lots great hand-holders - I have. I too have a close friend who's where I would have been (almost 20 weeks now) and it's SO hard.

Bloody hormones, bastard TTC, f-ing mc's - why is it SOOOOO hard? Spent most of my teen years having fear of god put into me that if I even looked at a boy I'd be preg. Nobody ever told me that when you actually get round to trying for one it's about as easy to get and stay preg as it is to get a grapefruit through the eye of a needle with both eyes closed from 2 miles away. (Sorry, bit random - think I need a lie down!) Oh %^&%$(%(% !!!

Still no AF but above rant must prove she's on her way - have been in a right one all day....

Fingers crossed for you boodle not long to go to 22nd!

Hello lovely girls. I am lying on my bed mumsnetting as mil is next door and I just can't face being polite to her. I cancelled going to a wedding on Friday as there was no way I was going to manage to do anything else but sob in the toilets and fil's response was 'You should have gone, it would have taken your mind off things'. And he's a GP for frigg sake. The other v helpful comment I had was, 'well that's what happens when you have all these early scans, you girls know too much these days'. wtf???

Anyhow thank you all for your lovely words. It is nice to know I can sound off hear and you all know how I am feeling. Its really been so helpful so thank you, lots.

I am still keeping my fingers crossed for all you ttc-ers. We need more bfps.

Lucky, oh my God - please tell me he's retired for the sake of his patients . Clearly he's had an emotional lobotomy at some point.

Furious for you. Sorry. Stay in bed, forget about anyone who is being a tosser and do what is right for you.

well....this can't be right....i have tested on first morning wee with a cheapie from amazon and it is showing a very faint line.... but it didn't straight away. when i went back to it about an hour later just to triple check there was no line i can and DH can see a definite but very faint line. I read the packet instructions and it says that these hormomes are detectable from 7 days after implanting so i am reckoning it is prob not showing a true positive yet....will test tomorr with the morning wee and see what that does...am not even going to get hopes up yet....i will do clearblue digital on friday NOT BEFORE ha.

lucky - people say all sorts of well meaning but infuriating things when they are trying to console someone. we know there is no consolation to be had at the moment but a man is never really going to are they....just bite your tongue and smile. we are all with you in spirit hunny x xxxx

Evening ladies. Thanks for the kind words and well wishes to you all as well in your next steps. Feeling soooo frustrated as I'm having bleeding again 11 days after the miscarriage ended and now going on 72+ hours. Given timing seems odd to be my period but can't figure out why this would start again. Just ready to have my body back as normal and move on here.

orem that happened to me too after my erpc bleeding was over i started bleeding about 12days later for about 3 days, really thick heavy and very 'bloody' IFYSWIM - don't worry tho, i'm sure it will be fine. i had a proper period two weeks after that....your cycle will get back to normal eventually but i totally understand the impatience to start again....

Hi all,

Lucky I'm so sorry. How come you went for another scan? Did you stop feeling pregnant? Hope the scan was some kind of blip and it picks up. Really feel for you. Please vent as much as you can to get it out a bit.

Hi to the new people, glad you've joined us for the journey.

I'm really poorly all the time and starting to think it's not pregnancy sickness. I'm ill 24 hours a day and can't sleep for it. Now I'm starting to get a sore throat, headache, rashey face.

We fly to cyprus for the wedding this week and I'm in a panic because they've got swine flu out there now, and also in our town and I'm terrified I'm going to pick anything up and lose the baby. I've read all kinds of grim stories in the papers about swine flu and pregnant women I need some kind of concrete reassurance.

Boodle good luck for the 22nd.

oremstango - sorry you're in the same boat. I've been googling and searching old MN threads this weekend and the reappearance of bleeding sounds quite common like boodle says. Must be horrible when you just want to get on with things.

boodle - good luck with the testing. I am very, very impressed that you've not got the clearblue digital out yet. My doctor was laughing the other day about how much money the testing companies make out of us - apparently 3 plus digital tests is the norm!

Question from a newbie - can you just get cheapie tests from Amazon and Ebay?

yeah you can . i got 15 realy early ones that register from just 10mg pg hgc in your urine - non pregnant state is 5mg so these are reaaallly early - it was 1.99 for 15. never done ebay tho...no need amazon so cheap.

Hello to oremstango and fatlady - welcome, but sorry you're here if you know what I mean.

I can't believe your fil lucky - poor you having to deal with comments like that. I think some people just don't have a clue what it's like going through a mc. Hope you're feeling better soon. Sending you more hugs.

totally - sorry to hear you're feeling so rubbish. Get yourself to the doctor now and get checked out!

Keeping my fingers crossed for you boodle. A faint line does sound good. Have you done another test since?

I'm CD24 today, but am trying not to symptom spot after the huge disappointment of last month. I am checking the size of my boobs about 15 times a day though, as that was the first symptom last time I got pregnant. My dh keeps telling me off though, as he knows how disappointed I was last month. Please everyone cross their fingers for me.

Thanks for the responses.

Totally - how far along are you?

I've decided google is the work of the devil - spent the weekend looking up miscarriage stats and as I'm 40 some of them are quite grim. Decided that is the path to madness and that I'll stop - but easier said then done. Am sure I used to be relatively sane before all this conception business...

amyboo - good luck for the end of the month. Fingers are crossed.

Step away from Google fatlady. It is indeed the work of the devil. And statistics are just rubbish. Me and dh are both in our 20s, healthy lifestyle, lots of exercise, healthy eating, non-smokers, etc. Our risk of mc should be stupidly low according to statistics, especially as we had a healthy scan at 10 weeks.

Age had nowt to do with it if you ask me - it's just random unluckiness.

amyboo - thanks! I've decided to go cold turkey.

Can't believe your bad luck, especially re the healthy scan at 10 weeks. That must have been so hard.

Given the stats in your circumstances, I'd say you've used up the next 20 years of bad luck and fate should be shining on you (where's the hopeful smiley when you need it??).

Yeah, it was really hard. Baby died (mmc) at 12 weeks (found out at 13 week scan) and I didn't really expect it to happen after having a perfect scan at 10 weeks. I guess it isn't any easier even if it happens earlier though. I think the hardest thing for me will be relaxing for the first 13 weeks if I ever manage to get pregnant again!

That's really hard. At least I went to the scan expecting the worst. Must be tough thinking things are going well and then getting the shock.

I'm also fearing what a worry bag I'll be if I conceive again. Cross that bridge when we get to it I guess.

Have booked myself in with an acupuncturist on Thursday. Also just bought the "Take Control of your Fertility" book that I've seen loads of people on MN suggest.

Not that I'm trying to exert some control over events at the moment!

amy - tested again since and no line whatsover....bah. i really don't feel pregnant at all now either....boobs normal...
i took my daughter to thorpe park yesterday as planned as i figured i couldn't sit around neglecting my real babies 'just incase'a new baby was beginning....thats just not on.

i weighed myself tho and have put on a stone since i last found out i was pregnant {march} that is purely down to a} eating what i wanted as felt so sick b}comfort eating as i felt so miserable after MC and c} continuing to stuff face.....

a stone makes a real difference to my figure....i was slim to medium now i am def medium to large....will be so miserable when AF arrives on sat as i believe now she will...
i still have one early response and one digital test to go but not feeling very optimistic...

how about you amy...hows your month panning out?

lucky - how are you holding up sweets?

totally - whats your update?

everyone else - hi - hope you are doind well...

Oh dear, I've been away for a couple of days and it doesn't sound like there is a lot of good news around!

lucky, so sorry to hear your news, when do you have another scan to find out where you are at?

totally - you have to stay on this thread, you started it and at the moment are the one giving everyone hope so hope you are feeling better and that your wedding is everything you want it to be.

boodle, sorry you aren't too hopeful but you never know, it could still be a bfp, I'll keep my fingers crossed.

amy - how long until you are able to test/AF is due?

stressy - has AF arrived yet? You'll be able to start the ttc fun again soon

trixel - how is the BDing? Having been away all weekend without DH I have missed a few key days but hopefully we can do our best this week and we won't have missed the boat this month.

Hi to fatlady and oremstango, like the others I am sorry you are here but hope you find it helpful.

Sometimes feels very surreal to know so much about the cycles of a collection of ladies around the country that I've never met but really glad I found this site and that you are all so lovely!!

Is it me or is Sarah Beeney (property ladder) permanently pregnant??

Sorry to hear that there was no line boodle. I'm showing a few potential symtoms, but I'm sure it's just af playing nasty tricks on me, or my imagination, or a combination of both. Af due on fri/sat. Thankfully I'm busy in work meetings all day today and tomorrow so I won't be able to think about it too much.

Nice to see you back becky. I'm hoping we get some nice good news on here soon - i think we must be due some more bfps....