Just MC'd. Starting it all again.. Come and join me for the long haul.

[MumOfBaby]

Hi all.

Needing some extra support this time round as have just had a MC. We are trying again straight away. But I've a feeling it's going to take ages. Got pregnant first month trying last 2 times. I have 1 DC- 11 months.

I want some people to join this thread who are ready to hold hands and help each other through the TTC.

Good luck to all.

CM = cervical mucus. Should be lots of it and with the consistency of egg white when you ovulate, and it should tail off afterwards. Right before af and a little afterwards you should be fairly ahem dry if you see what I mean. In other words, I should be heading towards the dry stage right now, and I'm clearly not.

I'm only being restrained because I've managed to convince myself that I've got pregnant this cycle, and I don't think I can bear the heartache of discovering I'm not. So, I want to put it off as long as possible. Don't think I could stand to see DH's upset face again either - he was so excited about being a Daddy

Hi all.

I've come for a bit of a grumble. Mum minds my DS and sister's DD while we work. I sometimes finish early on get long breaks in the middle of the day and I pop up to help out. Today I did and mum went out to put washing on the line. My DS was on the sofa, crawling up and down and getting on an off etc, and DN was getting in the cupboard, so I was seeing to her when DS siddenly fell of the sofa. He's never done this before. He wasn't hurt or anything, he just carried on doing his thing, but he'd kicked DN on the way down and she was having a half hearted cry and I was cuddling her.

Then mum marched in and said 'what's going on?' I explained and she shook her head and said that I just can't cope with them and I said 'thanks, that's a nice thing to say to a pregnant lady with PND' and she said 'it's not my fault you can't look after them.'

I asked to be taken home but now I feel like such a crap mum. I always pride myself on being a good mum but obviously I'm not. I just want to cry and cry.

Anyway, welcome to the new people, glad you've joined us. Sounds like you've had a tough time but you'll get nowt but support here lovelies.

so monday's the big day for you boodle and amy? we'll focus all our positive thoughts on there then....
i will probably test next thurs or fri, CD24/25 as we're away for the weekend and i guess i'd like to know before i get started on the gin & tonics!!
how you feeling nolonger - any easing of yuck symptoms?
how's everyone else?

ooh ooh ooh. i've got lots of CM then....that could be good....

totally - you are at the mercy of your hormones my love and really really being flooded with them at the moment.....cut your self some slack...i am a fair believer in the power of doing your best on any given day and obviously some days that is really good and others really bad....generally inbetween.

mums have a way of making us feel crapola at the whole game of parenting but i don't for one second think you really think you are....its just bonkersbrain. we all get it. i was yanked into the headmistresses office yesterday {after walking the walk of shame across the playground with my daughter...} for her to tell me that my DD has been telling all the year ones at afterschool club the ins and outs of conception and contraception and what 'special cuddles' actually are so to speak....oh the shame....she must have got it from hearing me talk about it {plus they have just had the sex talk in PSHC}Apparently it is beyond inappropriate and a mother has complained....i wasn't sure who was being told off me or my DD tho ha ha

is that bad parenting???

Hee hee boodle!

totally you poor thing.remember that in reality exactly the safe thing would have happened if your mum was in the room! Kids fall about a lot,it's one of the things they do best (know my ds does!) Sounds like an overreaction on your mum's part so try not to let it get to you...hard I know if you are feeling low.

trixel it's still all a bit shite tbh.but have decided am going to be all positive which should last..oo at least 5 minutes. And I hope you noticed,we are almost the same age.74 was obviously a cracking year

amy have everything crossed for you,hope you get good news.boodle too.

Ps think I'm on cd15 or 16/28 so no testing for me for aaaaages.feels like I couldn't poss be pg this month what with everything else that's been happening,but did do the deed a couple of times at what I think should be ov date if I'm working properly again!

hi totally - not sure how i missed your post earlier on when i just posted up chatty nonsense.... i didnt see yours at all. perhaps i'd written mine then got distracted by the two blighters and pressed "post message" a lot later.
anyways, please don't worry. boodle is absolutely right - you're hormones are raging and there are times when shampoo not lathering right might make you weep inconsolably!! your mum was possibly feeling self-conscious that she had left them getting up to mischief under her "watch" maybe? but whatever it was she should have been a bit more sensitive, but mothers dont seem to to be very practised at that do they?! the incident itself was just one of those things that happen, and should in no way make you worry about your parenting skills!!!
boodle - think that's hilarious!! how old is your DD? sounds like she's understood quite a lot!! clever girl! i bet none of the year ones believed her anyway, they'll have thought it sounded the most ridiculous thing they'd ever heard!!

I think I'm out Having a bit of brownish discharge this morning - it's CD28. I had this last month just before af arrived, so I'm guessing she's on her way tonight/tommorrow I'm so sad. I really wanted this to be my month. I just want to be pregnant again

oh amy - bugger. that is rubbish. never say never til AF properly arrives tho....

oh amy - bugger. that is rubbish. never say never til AF properly arrives tho....

Hmm, am trying to stay positive, but just cried in my office instead. I got pregnant the first time on our first cycle of ttc, so it's really hard not to think it would happen as quickly again after my mc. I knew I shouldn't get my hopes up, but it's impossible. Am so sad

Oh Amy I am really sorry to hear you are feeling sad. The thought of disappointment can make you feel so sad. With my first mc I got pregnant trying the first month but then took me 4 months to get pregnant with my ds. It is frustrating and upsetting and I wish I could fast forward time for you. But as Boodle says, it might be ok. I am keeping my fingers crossed for you. I really want it to be ok for everyone on this thread.

Hi all, thanks for being nice. I think I was quite hormonal yesterday- just worrying I'll be a rubbish mum when I'm coping with 2 under 2.

Amy, sorry to hear you are feeling down. Sometimes the brownish stuff can be a sign of implantation. As soon as AF arrives, i find I just carry on as normal until after OV so you will probably feel much better in a week or so if AF does arrive. It is a horrible waiting game- both TTC and the 9 months. Hope it all comes together for you soon.

Boodle, your daughter sounds so funny and no that's not bad parenting... perhaps bad teachering though on headmistress' part? It's hardly your fault! If they're going to teach them these things so young, this is what is going to happen I guess. I think Mrs-Complaing-Mum was being a little precious.

ChunkyPudding- I think you were in my antenatal thread last time round? It would have been the May 2008 thread?

Aw amy sorry things not seeming so hopeful this month.it's hard when it all seems out of our control but you will get there.

totally nope,ds was born in jan 08 so not the same antenatal thread...think we have met before somewhere in the land of mn tho...I used to spend a lot of time on the 'sleep' thread (and ds still crap sleeper,joy) so maybe we met there?

I've had a rubbish day today.still recovering from whatever the vile yucky thing was and got no sleep cos of ds.really lost it earlier and have been questionning why I want another baby when I can't cope with/don't deserve this one!

Think it's just the past couple of months catching up with me.it really has been hideous.

On a brighter note went to pizza express with ds n dp after dp finished work and stuffed my face (sleepy fat emoticon) it was nice and I was a bit calmer...

Sorry prob overburdening considering I just crashed this thread v recently! Am just having some serious lows at the moment,and everytime I pick myself up some other big pile of shite is chucked at me!

Sorry.I know I'm not the only one feeling rubbish.

Nolonger don't apologise. That is what this thread is for, its good to have a place to come to when you are feeling low. You have had a hideous couple of months and it is no wonder you feel sad. Do what you need to do and if eating a lot of pizza and letting rip here then do it. And you will be a brilliant mother to another baby. You are just having a bad time at the mo and you can't always keep it under control.

I feel shit on alternate days at the mo!

nolonger there is absolutely no need to apologise!!!! venting is essential and, as lucky says, completely understandable given your recent experiences.
was concerned at you saying that you "don't deserve" your ds - why would you think that? i reckon lack of sleep and this ttc malarkey can cause havoc with your emotions, never mind all the problems you've had. of course you deserve him, and he's lucky to have you.
how's everyone else? i'm up far too early with the kids, especially after a late night out last night!!!

well if my four day early non digital test is right then i am not pregnant this month....bugger. i still cling to the hope of monday when i will use the CBdig but not very hopeful really....my lady at work that is due on my due MC baby due date has really sarted swelling in the stomach area and has just had her twenty week scan....very pleased for her but that i am not half way through.....

oh well. onwards and upwards.

Boodle- when I did my digital clearblue 4 days early it was 'not pregnant', 2 days early it was 'pregnant'. I think I ovulated late or something though? Coz it's still saying 2-3 weeks at the mo and I should be 3+ I think. Also boodle, you will get there. It must be awful to see that lady though. I'll be upset 9th Dec when I was due, but I suppose these things happen for a reason or so I prefer to think. If you turn out not to be pregnant, at least you and Amy are sort of in sequence so there's a huge support. And I'm sure you will be pregnant by your due date, don't worry.

I'm feeling poorly sick and tired today. Take That really took it out of me. I've cried at least ten times in 3 days and I keep saying things I don't mean.

NoLonger- you can write ranting essays on here and no one will judge you.

How are you today Lucky?

thanks totally, AF arrived this afternoon with a vengence {bloody thing....literally and figuratively } and whilst i am gutted for this cycle at least she is here and i can just concentrate on mext month. DH is under strict instructions that no football or rib breaking is allowesd this month.....we really were down on our usual amount of BD let alone upping the stakes....as you say at least Amy and i are in same boat this month so we can begin again and also i now know that i am a 28 day cycle as its the 28th today....i never really knew that before. i am sure that you are fine, you just need to get to your scan date. i think it miught be best if you don't do anymore clearblue digitals and just trust that it will be as it should be when you get to your scan....it seems like its unecessary guess work and stress.....you need to chill hun and let the bean bed down for the duration....stress is not good for anyone. i am praying for all of our little babies, whenever their birthdays may end up being...

Hi boodle. Sorry to hear that af got you as well and that you're having to cope with watching a colleague reaching the points you should. A friend of mine has the same due date as me, and just had her 20 week scan and found out she's having a girl. I'm of course happy for her, but very and that I'm not at the same stage.

Af arrived for me with a vengeance yesterday So, I guess at least we can carry on being moral support for each other during July boodle? I think my body's still recovering really, as this af seems much heavier than last month

Anyway, we'll be away in Italy on holiday for my next mid-cycle, so hopefully all the relaxing and sun will be conducive to baby-making (fingers crossed).

Hello to everyone else. Sorry you're feeling rubbish nolonger and thanks for the support.

hello...just checking in to say sorry amy and boodle, tis rubbish.

and trixel, thanks for being concerned, it was really what i felt at the time, i was being really shitty with poor ds which was pretty crap parenting and it made me pretty pissed off with myself.

am quite nice really tho...

thanks to everyone for the reassurance

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ps i have 2 really good friends who were a month-6 weeks ahead of me when i was pg, they both now well over halfway, had 20 week scans etc etc and tho am v happy for them it is hard...

so i know where boodle and amy are coming from!

hey everyone,
really should go to bed now, but just checking in after a mad busy day!
grrrr that af got you boodle and amy - how frustrating. it's so very unfair that the very fact of af arriving is so sad and disappointing when you're TTC, but then it has to go and add injury to insult by being heavy and painful and mind/emotion-altering to boot!!!
nolonger, you sound happier, that's good news. i know exactly what you mean - sometimes it's really easy to let your mood or stress affect you when you're with the kids, and take it out on them, and you know you're doing it, but can't seem to help it - and then you feel guilty!
totally - i reckon, in an ideal world, you should stop doing tests. ban yourself - think of something you would love to buy yourself, and put the money you would be spending on those damned expensive tests in a tin every day until your scan - then go out and buy it to celebrate! would that work? maybe give you something else to focus on, and may stop you from stressing about growth rates. i completely understand the need but i dont think they're exact enough, they just do ballpark, and they'll just get you in a tiz needlessly.
lucky- how are you doing?

ok so today is day 1 of 2nd cycle TTC. i am going to need some clear cut intstructions of the best times to BD {i refuse to give in to temperature charting....me and thermometers do not go well...} I am as we have discovered a 28 day cycle. lets say i ovulate like a normal person, when are my likely ovulation days going to be.

i was considering going every other day for the month but every day on my potential ovulation days....

i need a shagplan girls and you are just thje people to draw me one up....*amy feel free to shag along.....

lets have some positive vibes this month for all of us trying to conceive and blessings and minisqueezes for the beans we have already created {completely feel like we can take some credit for the lil beans existence in a MN Godmothery type of way.....}
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