Clearblue Fertility Monitor support group buddies!!

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Hi all - thought I would start this as it would be great to haveothers to share this with.

This is me:

me:28, dh 37, dd 3.9, ds 2.1!
ttc no. 3 since aug 08
mc sept 08, dec 08
UCL 34 days
1st month of CBFM currently CD12

Anyone care to join me..??

OH ive just updated me , didnt realise it was that easy!!

maybe im not that clever didnt get the clever grads in sorry!

Hi all! HI justshaggy.....my details seem to have got a bit out of bonk on the list there -

Heffieanna TTC#1 Cycle 1 (with CBFM but TTC 6 months) UCL 34 CD31.

Well.....sitution is this....did a test this morning. It was negative. Then got to work and had some bleeding and thought AF was here. Now no bleeding. Had this a few days ago too when I thoguht AF was on her way. Still think she is to be honest. Just don't think I'm ever gonna get there and its only been a few months!!!

Will test on Wed/Thurs if AF hasn't arrived. What do I do? Just sit tight I guess......

Know what you mean ladies about babies- everywhere..went to bnfire on Sat night and had to steel myself before saying hello to friends who arrived with babies. We are the only ones without......

Hi to all the girls,
feeling a little better today, yesterday was just one of those really bad days.
hubby wants to go on holiday so am hoping maybe if we go away in a relaxed setting it might work. still too early but i'll update you.
yesterday night was awful, i was getting ready to go to bed, and i had this wierd stabbing, poking pain on the right, it hurt when i move but i tried a hpt was a bfn. Pain stopped after lying down. bbt temp is up from yesterday to 36.6 celsius.Lets hope it carries on rising and staying there.

hey heffieanna hmm, well it all sounds positive no aunt flo yet, some spotting, just hang in there, x

Evening Ladies,
I guess it?s my turn now to need a few words of encouragement. The scan did not go as I?d hoped and I shed a lot of tears today and struggled through work trying not to fall apart. A very bad day. I think because Thursdays scan was so promising I?d built my hopes up for a good result today and thought for sure I?d get my trigger shot. Well the scan showed that my follicles haven?t grown any more and my ovarian cysts are starting to enlarge due to the drugs. But the nurse today seemed sure that I?d get something to mature eventually, so more injections and more scans! My 4th scan this cycle is on Wednesday and that will be 13 days of FSH. I think deep down I just can?t see it working, although I know I should trust the nursing team and think positively. It feels like it?s been a long time since we?ve had anything to smile about. I?m tired of all the drugs, injections, scans and operations; I just want our baby!
My life feels like I?m in some kind of limbo and I just can?t and don?t want to move forward until I have my family. Sorry to lay that out there, I just needed to.

hey vikks dont know what to say darling, dont be upset, your making me cry because i can feel your emotions. Please stay positive, all good comes to those who wait, i keep saying that to myself. I believe this is true, trust the medical staff, hang in there. Remember you can cry if you want cuz it helps with the pain, sometimes screaming in to a pillow works. your not a mess, stay positive, cuz, positive vibes will sort out all problems, release the energy, relax and listen to some slow music, am doing that right know and breathing calmly. I am so fed up witj trying am trying to divert my mind. x

I understand what you mean by putting everything on hold so that you can have a family of your own. Sometimes it doesnt work that way. I put my fashion bussiness and job on the side thinking i want a family nowww!! but it looks like i aint getting my way

Kairo - Thanks X

Vikks. So sorry it didn't go well. Really really sorry! It must be devastating to have your hopes built up and then dashed like that. Easy for everyone to say 'try and stay positive' to you - especially rich of me who has a very low tolerance threshold for anything medical and you're right in the thick of it! - but you MUST stay positive.

Are you doing things to 'distract' yourself from all the goings on? Relaxation exercise, walks etc.

My experience has been NOTHING like yours but this year I've been dealing with a lot of medical cr*p. I've been trying to cope by keeping busy busy busy to force the worries and fears out of my head. Having said that, I also allow myself limited time, in the shower, to just bawl my eyes out and wallow in my misery before I pull myself together again. It has helped especially getting out and about and filling my head with things other than worries.

I am really hoping with all my heart that things go well for you. Hang in there hun. And keep talking to all of us. x.

Oh Vikks I'm so sorry that it didn't go well You're really going through the mill, and then to go and be told that... It just doesn't seem fair.
You have to focus on the fact that the nurse seemed sure that it would happen - this is your first month on these injections, and I suppose everyone must react slightly differently to them. Is there something they could do differently next month do you think? Obv upping the dose doesn't sound like it would work because of the effect it's having on your cysts, but maybe a different drug?
I am thinking of you and am willing your follicles on to maturity...
As JustShaggy said, you must keep talking to us. We're all hoping that things start looking up for you, and are here for you to just let things out when you need to xxx

Hi to everyone else, it's a Bank Holiday here tomorrow, so will try to come on again then x

AF has arrived this morning so only another 4.5 weeks of waiting again!

Quick CBFM specific question - I have been spotting since late last week, around Fri morning. AF has arrived as an actual flow today and not just a slight spot....so do I put CBFM on CD1 today or......??

Kairo, Monkeybumsmum and JustShaggy, ladies thank you. You are all so lovely and you just know what to say to make me feel better. I don?t think I?d get through this if it wasn?t for all of you. My mum and sis have been checking up on me all day via text and DH is so supportive even though he?s going through all this too, he?s still strong for me. I?m back at the clinic tomorrow morning for another scan, so this time I?m trying not to expect too much. I?ll let you know how is goes, come on follicles!
I hope everyone else is staying strong and positive.

Heffieanna - It's CD1 today x

hi all, just popping in to say hello and see how everyone is doing... i am 19 weeks now and have a scan next week... the worry never goes away.... but i hope evryone is doing ok and keeping positive.... try and remain upbeat...

xxxx

Dear vikks!!! keep the hopes up honey!!!! Keep the faith. You will have your baby soon!!!! Don't despair!

Big!!1 Nice to see you!!!! As you can see some of us haven't graduated yet.... It is nice to see you around... I hope the scan goes great!! I am not using the CBFM anymore... four months and no luck.. so I am trying to do it on my own... hope it takes the stress up a bit..

baby dust to all!!

Still in Ghana...... one more week here at least...

hey vikks your welcome, we all here for you.
Your right, try not to go in with high expectations, as high expectations often leads to dissappointment,
TTC consumes so much of our energy and time, we need to fight back. Keep yourself busy with other things, i know easier said than done, but we all got to do this.
heffieanna if your flow is bright red more than spotting then its counted as day 1.
hey every1

Bigbrofan ? Good luck with the scan! It?s so nice when PG buddies come back, you give us all hope.

Cyncan ? Thanks for the support, all the way from Ghana. I?m sending you positive vibes too.

Kairo ? I took your advice and went to the clinic today with low expectations?.it worked?I didn?t cry when they told me it?s still not working. ARGH!

The nurse said she could see one follicle that was about 7mm! Which is shit!!! So more injections and more scans!!! 5th Scan Friday and that?ll be 15 days of injections. I may have to double the dose too.
WTF is wrong with my body!!!!

hy can i join this thread?
i have just started using the monitor
this was my second day off testing,i have been ttc no2 for a year i was on depo in june07 i only took 3 jabs and i had to wait a full year for my periods to come bk
and still no baby'i have been to the doctors and my hormone levels are low i need to go bk in dec if not concevid before then
so iam hoping the monitor will help
fingers crossed
xx

Hi girlies, sorry for slackness of posting I have today returned from the land of no t'interweb after moving home, I didn't like it much! Takes a bloody age to get everything reconnected though, but finally it's up and running.

I have an absolute stack of catching up to do so am off to read through your posts to see what's been happening.

Vikks I read your last couple of posts, I'm so so sorry to hear you've had a kick in the teeth again, I know it's so easy for me to say but stay strong chicken, you can do it. Can you spoil yourself with some pampering? Reflexology or Acupuncture I hear is all good (and good for fertility too) I'm going to give Reflexology a go and see what happens. Thinking of you matey ((((hugs))))

Hello to all the newbies barrenbrook waves sorry for briefness of post, will post more later when I am fully up to speed on the goings on!

Re my last ramble about Reflexology, look at this page

vikks Thats it girl, expectin less helps to control a few emotions, am proud of you. Your probably feeling more frustrated and angry than crying because you feel theres something wrong with you.
All you can do is just remain positive, say to yourself if its meant to be then it will happen. Having a realxed body sometimes changes our chemical functions, maybe your follicles mights change. Be optimistic hunny, see if that changes things. There is nothing wrong with you, dont be defeated.

Hello gina84uk
I went to see my phsiotherapist today being seeing him for a while due to chronic aches and pains. I spoke to him that am trying for a baby but its not working, he recommended acupuncture, said a few people he knows have tried that and it worked. Also he said something about not to drink pineapple juice hmm.
What else he told me to do pilates and yogo type of aerobics to relax myself and get my internal body warming up.(will def try that, i brought a gym ball today)
Also he said to seek a homeopathy doc, to get a few tests done to clear out any underlying health issues such as diet.

Gina84uk ? Hello & welcome!! Grab a cushion and come and get comfy, it?s super nice in here. I hope the CBFM works its magic on you and while you wait there?s some lovely ladies here to offer support and advice. Are you CD2 today? What your UCL? Do you think you?re ovulating? Is the monitor still reading ?low?? Sorry I?m nosey?..

Barrenbrook ? Hi!!!!!! Its been so long, I thought you?d done a runner! It?s lovely to have you back. Hope the move went ok. What stage you at now? Is the CBFM on or off?
Thanks for the pampering suggestion; I?ve tried reflexology back in the ?old days? of TTC. I did enjoy it but the only thing that happened was my bank account shrunk! I?m trying a new form of relaxation tonight and it comes in a bottle and it?s red! Anyone care to join me?

Kairo ? I want to know more about pineapple juice? I drink grapefruit juice because I heard that help your CM (I try anything). What have pineapples ever done to us?
Sorry to hear about your aches and pains, I hope the gym ball helps. When you?re PG gym balls can really help get you ready for labour. You?ll be using it for that soon. X

Damn it, and there's me thinking I was being useful, I should've known you'd have tried it already!

CBFM is still on, am on CD16 of Cycle 6 (I think, I've completely lost count) The last two months I have had spotting the week before AF (the first month making my optimistic side believe it was an implantation bleed) last month it happened again and AF showed up 4 days early. I don't know why, the only thing I can possibly attribute it to is being stressed about the move. Hopefully now it's all done and we're in they will settle down again. Only time will tell!

You know me...seen it, done it and bought the t-shirt!!

I think I would have thought the same if I'd seen spotting, how cruel our bodies can be. I hope you're stress free now, good luck this cycle.

hi vikks
iam on cd8 my ucd are between 30-35 i think
to tell u the truth i have no idea but it is ruffly in about there
i don't think iam ovulating as the doc said my hormones are low so i got this monitor
to see if iam
xx