The WIMBEWAI(N)F Club

[Bucky2008]

OK, so how about we start of on a positive....

I bought the test.

I did the test.

BFP .

Job done.

got hiccups

pissed

speak yomorrow

GGx

oops

How's the head GG?

GOOD MORNING GG!!!!

(Did that hurt? [wink}

arggghhh, don't shout. My head, my poor head

will pop back in later when I feel better

GG

Your poor head indeed - bet it's thinking "yomorrow is another day" . Still, nothing like a good drunken night/awful hangover to clear out the cobwebs and relieve some stress

MOB am glad to hear that you're well bar the tiredness. I hope those little boys are growing away. I've been lurking on the Multiples board (can you tell I'd love twins!) and mothering twins sounds great (once you survive the exhaustion!).

So period finally arrived today - I practically yelped with glee in the toilet just now when I wiped. So I'm in for my date with dildocam on Friday afternoon - fingers crossed for everything being shut off and my lining being thin!

Big waves to everyone else

Hurrah Caitni! That's fantastic your sort-of-period arrived. The dildocam will become second nature after a while . I wasn't fully shut down so they put me on Buseralin for a little longer in cycle #1.

On dates, I think I'll be about two weeks behind you [exciting emoticon]. My down regging drugs start on 31st May, which is why i am rather at my alcohol binge last night. I blame the stress of work etc for falling spectacularly off the wagon, but no more for me now. I need to get healthy as possible.

I couldn't believe it when I checked in this morning and found I had posted at 11.30 last night. I remember having TERRIBLE hiccups though and trying to stop the room spinning

hello to everyone else. Big wave!

Ei - how is your Dh? Is he coming to terms with his redundancy and I hope you are ok and can convince him to have another little one.

I had a date with the dildocam today. Don't all get jealous now..LOL . I went on for AGES. Like half an hour?

Never thought I would say this but congrats Caitni on your AF .

And GG glad you let off some steam you defo needed to.

Bucky did they tell you anything after dildocam? My scans always took forever too. Even at the one where they could have said "theres a gestational sac in the right place" right away the woman said not a word and spent 20 minutes (or so it seemed) trying to get a good view of my left ovary which was hiding behind some gut (ouch). I don't think those things are ever quick. And once the sheet fell off just as the consultant and a trainee midwife wandered in...

GG hope the head is ok. The first time I got made redundant I spent the afternoon drinking vodka and cranberry and when my boss called to see if I was ok I told him I was too drunk to care and that he should try it too. Ho hum. I think it is a good idea to let off steam now, before you have to go all virtuous for the IVF.

Caitni yay for the period (don't get to say that very often). I hope it is all full steam ahead for you - I like hearing about people's IVF adventures.

MOB I am glad to hear the boys are doing well and I hope you are getting a chance to put your feet up.

Ei I hope you had a good birthday (Bucky too) and that things with your DH are looking up.

PnM how are you going poppet?

Not much news from here. Lovely midwife was round this morning and, as the nanny is away, DD was here to listen to the baby's heartbeat. I am convinced that this one is a boy which is a pain in that I am not really grabed by any boy's names (although of course any baby will do - won't complain because it has a dingle!) and the midwife thinks so too because of some old wives' tale about the speed of the heartbeat or something. Well I have my 20 week scan next week so will soon find out!

Hope everyone is well.

Our birthday is tomorrow...woo hoo . Actually, not woo hoo, as I am getting super old.

MrsH the dildocam people didn't say anything. I asked them what they could see, if they could see any follicles etc.. And was quickly told that no, they could not tell me anything until they have reviewed the pictures afterwards.

If anything they freaked me out with all the whispering and pointing.

Glad the midwife visit went well...LOL at 'any baby will do' . Perhaps not 'just any' baby...the alien baby wouldn't be too great, nor hitler's baby. I'm glad its all going well hun. xx

LOL - am being quite the cow these days so some people might say that this baby is Hitler's baby...

Happy birthday for tomorrow. It's going to be a sunny evening. I predict cocktails outside after work...

Hellooooooo

Apologies for not being around much. Am truely exhausted, work is pretty awful at the moment, finishing at silly hours most nights

I'm so sorry to hear about your job situation GG, sounds like you needed to let off steam yesterday. But yay for the start of down regging soon

Ewwww at the dildocam Bucky - hate those things. "Just relax" has got to be the most ridiculous sentence ever uttered to me whilst enduring the dildocam. Grrr at the whispering and pointing without actually telling you anything though.

Sorry to hear about DH's job Ei, rant away as much as you like. Has DH had any luck with finding another job?

Hows the garden growing Caitni? We built a raised bed for veggies on Sunday and step dad brought round some of his home grown veg for us to plant. Yay for the arrival of af (does feel very weird saying that ), its good to hear the drug sniffing isn't affecting you too much. Will be keeping my fingers crossed for your scan tomorrow. Weather was beautiful down here at the weekend, had 3 () BBQ's and visited a beautiful gardens on Monday with DH - felt about 60 yrs old wandering round but was really nice not ot have to rush anywhere!

Wowsers MrsH, 20 weeks already??? When did that happen?! Seriously, I didn't realise you were already 20 weeks. Awww, was DD excited to hear the heartbeat? I know of someone who allowed her eldest child to name the new baby - maybe DD could come up with some boy name suggestions

Hope you're having a lovely holiday JB - don't forget we want to see some pictures of Jollycub on your return

Pleased to hear you're finally putting your feet up MOB and that the boys are doing well. at DH thinking about #5!!!

Am on a serious health kick at the mo - have been jogging and/or skipping most nights for the last 2 weeks, not that its made much difference yet! Cycle is still all over the place - think I might have ov'ed yest/day before as temp has just shot up but wouldn't surprise me if it goes back down again tomorrow...

Feeling terribly despondent at the moment (another reason why I haven't posted, feel bad for continually moaning). Think its because of the appt looming. Had my little bubble burst yesterday - a woman I was working with said "so why haven't you had kids yet". I just tried to brush it off ('not the right time' etc) but she kept pushing it until she said "well you've been married ages, its a bit weird you haven't had kids yet" (didn't realise people thought I was weird!)

Best go - I can smell dinner burning!

Such a long post and yet still I forgot to write a massive HAPPY BIRTHDAY to Ei and Bucky for tomorrow

Hope you both have a lovely day xx

Oh, and did somebody mention another meet up? Would love to make another trip into town again if anybody else is up for it? You coming down this way anytime soon Ei?

Big HAPPY BIRTHDAY to ei and bucky

PnM - i forgot to say hello to you on my earlier post. I am very impressed at the health kick. After my drunken slip up on Tuesday, i am now purely on healthy eating and no drinking. Feels great (so far )

I am sooooo for you at that bloody woman's comments!!! Really, I am stunned. i cannot believe that anyone would think that was an acceptable comment to make, implying that she thinks you've got "ishoos". In know people can be insensitive and make comments like "when are you going to start?", but her nosy judgments were outrageous!

mrsH - you have to post a picture of your 20 week scan on your profile here.

I am off out on a client lunch today - last one before I leave the building and wash this office outta ma hair . I am now really looking forward to the rest and relaxation of not working while undergoing ICSI cycle #2, although i am usually a super busy can't sit still person and i am worried I'll get so bored I'll start putting my tins in alphabetical order or colour coding my wardrobe in my descent into madness

hello to caitni MOB jolly digital an danyone else I have missed. I'll check in again later

GGx

p.s. - yes yes yes for a meet up! I have LOTS of time on my hands starting next week

Happy birthday to Ei and Bucky . Hope you have fun times celebrating!

PnM am totally of your raised beds (I day dream about building raised beds with railway sleepers). You'll be enjoying home grown veggies soon enough (our strawberries are just ripening up now so we've been having a little bowl each night ). Your bank holiday weekend sounded lovely, just what you need when work is crazy busy as well. Did you get to see any of the painted lady butterflies currently migrating? We were in a park in Highgate on Monday and counted about 40 of them in one flowerbed! And well done on the health kick - I wish I'd actually managed to get my pre-IVF health kick off the ground (instead I've actually put on weight ). But I'm sorry to hear you're still feeling down. Please please don't worry about that on here - you never come across as moaning and it's really important to have an outlet for the sadness you feel about ttc. I was sneakily reading this during a work conference call this morning and it struck me as very sensible. I'm not one for "self-help" type stuff usually but her columns generally struck me as good sense. I've had depression in the past and now do my best to try to avoid things getting on top of me again (and I do worry I'll get PND but will just have to cross that bridge if when I actually get a baby). It's probably why we went into IVF relatively quickly - I don't think I could have coped with waiting much longer before tackling our infertility. Anyway, enough rambling...hope you feel better soon ps WTF about that awful woman . Where the f**k does she get off sticking her nose into your business like that? Her behaviour is what's weird. God, I just want to shake people who are so insensitive .

Bucky I am at the behaviour of the dildocam operators. I've only had one scan so far and she was lovely - pointed out my ovaries, explained about the follicles and pointed them out, showed me the womb and the lining etc. She didn't give me an official "diagnosis" so to speak but said not to worry, things looked healthy etc and the consultant would review the results properly (she's doing my scan tomorrow too and am glad about that). There should be no surreptitious whispering that makes a woman feel uncomfortable - it's especially annoying considering how much we pay for this (and that's on top of the fact that, er, it's our reproductive organs doing their thing on screen). Hope you get your results quickly.

MrsH I was at what you said to your boss when you were made redundant. And I'm glad that your daughter got to hear the heartbeat, she must have been amazed! Hope you get a lovely view of the little courgette at the 20 week scan (and can't wait to hear if it's a boy or girl ). I'm glad you're nearly half way .

GG yay for being practically cycle buddies [excited][excited]. You picked the best time for falling off the wagon, though my consultant assures me that drinking in moderation throughout treatment is not a problem. Since I've always been terrible at moderation () I've sort of unofficially decided to avoid it during stims except for a friend's birthday celebration on 6th June.

Big hello to Ei MOB JB and everyone else

Rushing in to say....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Bucky & EI!!!!

Hope you lovely ladies have good days.

Back soon to read & catch up with everything!

Evening ladies

I hope the birthdays were good and that cocktails were had.

PnM at that rude woman. How stupid can anyone be? Even if you hadn't had an issue TTC it defies common sense to think it is ok to make those sorts of comments. Well done on the fitness kick, though. Am sitting here devouring home made chocolate chip cookies so could use a jog...

GG when is your last day? Am that they would have you on client schmoozing when you are on the way out. Hey, not long to go and you can concentrate on your IVF. I used to be one of those busy people too but you would be amazed - or maybe appalled - by how quickly I have slipped into a life of sloth...

Caitni Your scan is tomorrow, isn't it? Lots of luck with that. Be sure to come tell us how it went. of your strawberries. My garden is such a total mess who knows what's in there!

Hello MOB, hope all is well.

Well I have a Mumsnet dilemma! Today I was reading a thread and realised that I recognised one of the posters from RL. She's not someone I know now, but we were at Uni together, were pretty close and sort of lost touch (and in fact ended up not speaking for years). Do you think I should drop a couple of hints so she realises who I am? It seems unfair for me to have identified her and for her to not realise, but then I would be mortified if someone I know in RL found out about my secret MN habit. Oh, complicated...

GG so I totally managed to not see your post until today . Hope the client lunch went well (I'd have found it hard to bite my tongue around clients if I was in your shoes!). I was also at your worries about alphabetising and colour-coding.

MrsH god, total dilemma. I don't think I'd want someone to tell me if they recognised me...would make me all paranoid and I'd possibly want to go back through all my posts and delete anything too personal...which would be a shame cos I love MN (and would have gone cuckoo without it I think).

Well ladies, good news from me - I'm officially stimming . The scan was fine - all shut down, nice thin lining (and plenty of follicles already). And my first injection was amazing - totally painless. I was so proud of myself (and DH was too ). Though I expect I'll be ages assembling all my bits and bobs tomorrow - honestly, the bag of kit is better than anything my inner nurse could have dreamed off. The sharps box is the best (my own sharps box!) but am also rather taken with the little cardboard tray and all the needles and what have you (I feel like a walking episode of casualty...).

Also had a good session with the acupuncturist this morning - feel so much more comfortable with him than with the last one. Which definitely helps keep the old stress levels down. We had a great chat and he's helping me feel quite calm about everything.

First scan on Wed morning so am hoping those follies grow and grow...lots of eggscellent vibes please ladies

Big waves to everyone. Hope it's as hot as London wherever you are! Am tempted to make myself a sneaky pimms (the ripe strawberries are like sirens calling from the garden "caitni, caitni please put us in a nice cold glass of pimms" ).

xxx

Hello! I dare not show my face until I work out how to post a pic of DD on my profile. I haven't worked it out yet . It's shamemaking.

But I couldn't read the thread without sending eggcellent vibes for caitni and GG. My fingers and toes are crossed firmly for you both.

I'll pop in v soon to say hello to everyone properly, love to all.

hi ladies
just a quickie to say hi and i will catch up properly tomorrow
love and hugs
x ei xx

Hi all

JB I hope you had a lovely holiday.

Ei it's good to see you and I hope things have settled down a bit.

Caitni how eggciting about the needles. I guess that must make it feel like IVF proper IYSWIM. I am sure the scan on Wednesday will be eggcellent and will show eggstraordinarily fine developing eggs!

GG have you stopped working yet? Are you stuck for things to do or have you realised that you have a 10 year backlog of personal admin to do?!

Hope everyone else is well . Not much to report from this end. I have a scan later this week which I am looking forward to (with some nerves). I am probably taking DD with me to this one so will see what she thinks about it all.

hello everyone!

What a lovely sunny day it is (well, it's lovely here in London - I hope it's great wherever you are too . Lifts my mood no end

Caitni LOL at your "inner nurse" comment. Youa re so funny . Who would have thought it could be so fun playing doctors and nurses with your other half [grin. DH does mine for me (amazingly! he is so squeamish, but i htink he sees it as "doing his bit") I too am not proud owner (user too!) of a sharps bin. I strated the buseralin injections (no sniffing for me - I am HARD core ) on Sunday so i am at day two already. Where does th etime fly to?! I love the idea of a Pimms in the sunshine - I hope you succumbed and really very good for you with all that fruit

MrsH - yes, I am still at work, but working my ass off so I can (hopefully) exit stage left by tomorrow. I am afraid I have given up the fight on discrimination after a LOT of soul searchign and debating. The firm were holding firm and up for a fight. I am pretty tough and not easily swayed and any other month I would be up for a fight, but starting injections again for IVF cycle #2 means that I am lacking gumption and really can't handle the stress at the moment . Also Wednesday is my birthday, so i am trying to sinish before then - I am not having my lovely sunny birthday tainted with memories of redundancy for ever more.

Jolly - can i add you as a frien don facebook, so I can see piccies of Jolly Cub? I bet she is gorgeous. Ho many teeth does she have now?

hellooooooo to MOB Bucky and ei and all the others who lurk or look in. ei - I hope your DH is ok and not takign out his redundancy stress on you and that you have found a way through. It's tough and dare I say it possibly harder or men/main breadwinners to accept...? he will coem round to another child soon and you concentrate on looking after you Thinking of you both.

Bucky - are you going to organise another meet up? I'd loev to see everyone soon (

take care and I'll look in again later

GGX

oooh, sorry for all the typos - done in too much of a hurry!

Hi ladies

GG yay to hear that downregging has started!! Well done to your DH for injecting you - I reckon I'd be too micro-managee to let my DH inject me (it's that inner nurse thing ). How long do you downreg for? It sounds like you've made the right decision re work. It's hard, but you're prioritising yourself and your chance to have a family. And you won't be tainting your birthday with such memories!

MrsH thanks for the eggy vibes . Oh I bet your DD will be fascinated by the scan - what a lovely way to include her in the excitement of the pregnancy

JollyBear hope you had a good holiday (and don't worry, I also don't know how to upload photos )

Ei hi lady - hope things are good with you.

MOB hope the twins are growing nicely and you're not suffering too much in this heat.

Hello to Bucky PnM and anyone I've forgotten.

Not much going on here - managing the injections fine (quite proud of having no bruises yet) but am a little worried that it's not working. Roll on Wed morning when I can see what's actually happening to my ovaries . Am eating brazil nuts and drinking tons of water and trying to stay relaxed and happy (DH is being great and is really letting me laze about chill out). Keep forgetting to play the relaxation CD I bought last year - d'oh!

xxx