The Hopeful Hearts Circle 1 - December 2025🎄💖

[Iris2024]

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@Taysonicthat’s amazing news and I’m honestly sending you so much love and luck. I hope this is your time after all you’ve been through.

Well…I don't even know where to start. I’m stressed to death as our recurrent loss appointment has been cancelled and I seem to be back of the list again. I didn’t cancel it, it’s due to strike action. So I’m waiting to speak to PALS.

But…I tested earlier and got a positive. I’m 10dpo. I’ve not told my partner yet, I can’t put him through the stress again at the moment as there’s a lot going on in life in general. I intend to wait until next week IF this pregnancy progresses. Again, same as you, I have my doubts.

Have you spoken to EPAU? They routinely scan at 7 weeks in my area if you’ve had more than 3 losses

Holy moly @Fullofconfusion - congratulations. How are you feeling? Have you told your partner yet?

Sadly, I don't think it's looking good for me. Again. Same old story. Had persistent dull cramps all afternoon and some bleeding when I went to the toilet earlier. I'm expecting the worst. Partner is trying to hold on to hope but I'm being far more realistic.

Maybe this just isn't meant to be for us.

Oh @TaysonicI’m still hopeful for you. I know how you must feel though. It does feel totally hopeless at times.

I’ve still not told him. I’ve not told anyone. I’m only 12dpo so it’s still super early. I ovulated earlier this cycle as I’m usually late to ovulate and then have longer cycles because of this but I’m only cd29 today and I usually have 31 day cycles so it all feels a bit too soon to pin any hope on it.

I’m also restricting myself to testing every 2 days to check progression as otherwise I think I’ll drive myself nuts. Today’s test is darker than 2 days ago. We had a chemical in April that didn’t get any darker after 12dpo and then faded from 14dpo so I’m still not quite believing it.

@Taysonic Oh my gosh, only just catching up on this, how are you doing? You must feel so drained!
@Fullofconfusion tentative congratulations, i've got everything crossed for you x

There's only been a very small amount of red blood but it looks like HCG is going down. Did a clear blue today, and despite getting 3+ on Friday, it was 2-3 today. Both done with FMU.

I know urine tests aren't exactly the most reliable but... I don't want to hold on to any sense of hope when I think theres little to no chance of this being viable.

Still taking progesterone for now. Will do until HCG drops down significantly I guess.

Just feel like I must be absolutely insane to be going through this again. Who does this to themselves this many times?!

Oh @Taysonicsending you the biggest virtual hug. It’s so very unfair that you might be going through this again. Is it worth asking for HCG bloods so that you’ll get a more definitive answer?

I’m still hanging in here but feeling so stressed. I took another test this morning (after promising myself that I would limit testing to once every 2 days) and I think it looks slightly darker. And if I compare to 10dpo (I’m 13 today) then it’s definitely darker. ChatGPT has become my best friend. I never “do” AI but the idea that a computer thinks lines are darker is somehow very reassuring.

However I am also aware that this is the 3rd time I’ve tested positive this year and after our results at the fertility clinic I can’t help but be pessimistic. So at the moment I’m taking the progesterone, trying to stay calm and trying to keep the hope at least a little bit

@Taysonic what a rollercoaster for you. I don't think you're insane at all, it's the hope that keeps you going isn't it, which seems cruel but there is always that 'what if' in the back of your mind. Hope whatever happens you get an answer soon enough to put your mind at rest ❤

@Taysonic @Fullofconfusion Hi ladies, just thinking of you both & hope you're doing ok ❤

Hi @LuckyDuck93how are you doing? Hope everything is still going well with your pregnancy.

I’m currently almost 7 weeks pregnant. I still can’t get my head around it. I’ve had 2 scans so far. One last week showed just a sac and a yolk sac so I wasn’t too optimistic but then a scan 4 days later showed a tiny embryo although the sonographer couldn’t quite confirm a heartbeat. She saw something (as did my partner and I) but only a flicker and not enough to make her 100% sure. I have another scan next week so hopefully that will give some clarity as I’m still sort of half daring to hope and half still expecting things to not progress

Oh @Fullofconfusion that sounds so promising and hopeful! Please keep us updated with what happens with your scan next week. Keeping all my fingers crossed for a certain and obvious heartbeat that will give you lots of reassurance.

How far along are you now @LuckyDuck93? Really keen to hear how you're getting on - I'm RIDICULOUSLY invested in your pregnancy and will be so excited to hear baby news when its time.

As for me - I did have a fifth miscarriage. I can't even believe I've now racked up five losses. I had a GP appointment today who was able to share more details of the fertility blood test results and despite them only telling me about the TPO positive result (thyroid antibodies), they hadn't told me that my T4 levels were also low. I'm now more convinced than ever that there's an underlying auto-immune issue that is the underlying cause of all of these.

She agreed to refer me to the Tommy's miscarriage clinic under Dr Quenby at The University Hospital Coventry. I really think she may be able to help me, and has previously helped a friend of mine many years ago with similar set of circumstances. It'll be a long 5 months waiting to be seen (at least) but... maybe I can go into the new year with a new sense of hope. In the meantime, I'm going to try and get myself as fit and healthy as I can whilst enjoying ALL the nice things - we've got three holidays booked in the next few months and just treating ourselves to all sorts of experiences and nice things.

@Fullofconfusion oh I bet this is the longest week of your life!! I've got everything crossed that you get to see that heartbeat next week!

@Taysonic I'm so sorry you're going through this again, life is so cruel. But that referral sounds really positive and hopefully they can get you some answers and a plan. Sounds like you're really focusing on yourselves and doing all the nice things, which is so easy to forget when you're ttc!

I'm just over 7 months now 😮feeling large and hot, but apart from that in no position to complain at all, everything has been pretty normal, I always say to my husband I find it so odd that after all the waiting and all the fuss to get here, things can then just seem so straight forward xx

Oh @TaysonicI’m so sorry. I’m glad you’re doing things for you and that you’re getting referred. Has your partner had any testing? Sorry I can’t remember if I’ve asked before. We always assumed it was my eggs being older but when we went for fertility tests we found he had a low sperm count and low morphology which may also have caused losses.
When EPAU confirmed my first scan she actually said “so this is pregnancy number 7?” It hit me quite hard as I have 1 living son. It’s just heartbreaking to think of all the loss.

@LuckyDuck93wow! 7 months. That’s amazing! Also invested in your journey. I bet the current heatwave isn’t particularly nice for you but so exciting to be so far along now

Im also checking in with everybody to see how you all are 🩷

@Fullofconfusion please keep us updated 🤍 and @Taysonic i really hope the next steps get you the answers you deserve ❤️