@NiftySheep, thank you, I hope so! 🙏🏻
@SureLook some of them could be progesterone, but there are some very specific things I never normally get, apart from last cycle. The watery discharge has started again (loads of it, feels like I need a pad!).
At the moment the team don't have a particular preference, if I've conceived again already, then we know the path, if I haven't, we have to have a think. The main issue is that they're pretty sure they're going to have to treat me at some point during a pregnancy, but my usual treatment can't be used during pregnancy or breastfeeding, but they have an option that is safe (it doesn't cross the placenta, all studies show it actually decreases risk of miscarriage too). It's not usually well tolerated by the mother though so baby will be fine, but I might be very sick. It's not ideal, but if baby is ok, that's all that matters. I've never had it before though, so they don't necessarily know if I'll respond to it, so if I don't, we enter risky territory, the longer the cancer goes uncontrolled, the more likely it is to switch into the more aggressive mode, which is not good 😬 there's no reason to believe I won't respond to it either though, it used to be the main treatment for my disease before new ones came out. I'm also one of those people that probably wouldn't even want to take a paracetamol whilst pregnant, so the thought of any kind of cancer treatment whilst pregnant doesn't make me feel great tbh😫 My biggest worry about it though is that it's prone to causing depression, and PND is already one of my biggest fears. I am generally such a happy person, but I have a very traumatic past, so when I have experienced a depressive episode (last year I was on some meds for a while that caused depression) it really gets dark pretty horribly. I know I'm strong enough to get though it though, I just really don't want the first years of motherhood to be feeling horrendous and depressed.
Another huge post. So sorry, it's all coming out today! 😆