Hey all, 6/7DPO today I think, although peak was low at CD11 I haven't had any surge since and I think the signs at the time were ovulation. I'm having some symptoms that feel all too familiar from last month 🫣 twinges, headaches, stuffy nose, bloating, allergies, pain in hips, aversion to any alcohol and coffee. I don't want to get my hopes up, I'm trying to not, could it be possible I just get these symptoms after ovulation every month because of progesterone and I only noticed last month when TTC for the first time and I was pregnant, so now I'm assuming same symptoms mean same thing? Obviously I know there's no point speculating, but that's why we're all here so that's what I'm doing 🤷🏻♀️😆 no pain in boobs yet. But last time that didn't start till 8/9DPO I don't think. This month I've been on the Beetroot juice, pomegranate, pregnacare conception max, seed cycling, and super healthy as possible, so I'm hoping for the best!
Sadly my appointment with oncologist this week confirmed cancer levels are rising, so I am definitely up against the clock with being able to carry a pregnancy without meds, already on slightly rocky ground to be honest, and I'm not sure how long I could breastfeed even if I can, so I was a little shaken. They have said I could consider having my eggs and partners sperm frozen and go back onto cancer treatment for a year to put me back into remission, then time embryo transfer for as soon as I come off. It's an unusual protocol, but they had a meeting with top oncologists from the country and thought in my case they might try it, the issue is 1.) we had already tried this cycle, so I might have already conceived before meeting 2.) there's no guarantee I wouldn't be in exactly same boat when coming off treatment next year, it might just get me an extra month or two without treatment whilst pregnant, but quite probably the same progression, and if the embryo transfer isn't successful and it takes months, I might be in an even worse situation 🤷🏻♀️
I also wonder if I'm being incredibly selfish wanting a child in these circumstances 😔 just to clarify, the leukemia I have is in no way hereditary, it can't be passed on during pregnancy, and I respond very well to treatment so outside of the pregnancy issue, it's not likely to kill me if I'm on meds for it/can possibly reach 'permanent' remission. I am a very strong person that has kept my life and business running for 4 years of cancer treatment despite being exhausted/unwell, so I have no doubt that my child will get every ounce I have, no matter if I'm sick for a while during the early years.
I'm sorry that was such a long post, just needed to offload that into the ether somewhere as carrying it all is a little heavy sometimes! Sending lots of love and baby dust to everyone today 😘❤️✨