MC Avengers - Chocolate cake anyone?

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I've started a new thread as the old one was full - hope everyone finds their way here OK.

this helps thankyou

Quarkee, I think you should be proud of yourself - you obviously do a great job by staying true to yourself - what's a 'high flyer' anyway, if you think about it? Someone who earns more money to get more shit and be more stressed. The people I most respect in my industry are those who have stayed close to the authors and the books and stayed away from the number crunching and pontificating (and quite often the best people (female and male) actually end up going back to the less high-pressure jobs they love after taking on promotions that just make them miserable).

And even more to your credit you have clearly arrived at a similar conclusion, and you know your bosses and your clients appreciate you. But I do know that awful feeling of having 'failed' - we know it's not true but we feel it anyway. Big hugs. xx

Hello Ladies, It's been months since I was on here and I am sorry to see so many new ladies have joined. I had to take a break from ttc whilst I had scans and other tests to try and find out why I kept getting pains in my right side. Tests are all ok so I can get back to ttc.

I have just finished my level 2 Reiki so I can be let loose on the public so I will be sending some distant healing to everyone!

dustin hello - great that your scans have been good - am intersted to know what level 2 reiki is...

daisyj and mistle thanks v much. Clare its a long story but no, that's it basically.

BIG headache this morning due to fizz but worth it - very cathartic - still feel like curling up and licking my wounds but hopefully will get a sense of perspective soon have decided I might ask for the firm to sponsor me to do something like an MBA or some kind of research - I need a new challenge now. Oh yes, and ttc of corse at least I can focus on that.

quarkee - an MBA might be just what you need. I felt as if my career was stalling about 4 years ago, and decided to do an MA. In the end it was just as much about doing something for myself as giving my career a boost, but fortunately it did that too. I felt so much better about myself and astonished myself with what my brain could do when I stretched it

Glad you enjoyed the champagne - and it sounds like you have a sense of perspective already Hope the headache fades swiftly .

And welcome back dustin - that's great that your tests are all OK .

hard weekend for me
went to visit bf who is due in 7 weeks.
they are so happy I'm really dreading the whole holding the baby stuff.

due date is now one week away
I'm so desperate to be pregnant I'm going to be really devestated if I'm not.
It doesn't help that My cycle is so stupid it can be anything from 26 to 36 days. so technically I could test on a sensitive one now and I might get a positve, but on the other hand I don't want to know too early in case it doesn't stick.

but I think I may need to process it before May's dues date.

as you can see I just don't know where my heads at.

dustin it's great to get that all clear on tests isn't it

kate hope your doing ok and getting through each day

quarkee I am sorry that you haven't gotten through to the next round of interview and don't think you are being 'hoity' at all. Focusing on an MBA or MA could be a good idea...something for yourself as much as for work? You certainly haven't failed at anything...

aquababe I am so for your weekend - it does sound rough. I also saw my BF this weekend and she is one week ahead of us - showing a gorgeous little bump and getting very excited. I found it torture to have to smile through the conversations, even though I would never wish her ill - so I have a little sense for how you feel.

dustin congratulations on the tests coming back positive...

My AF started yesterday - incredibly heavy & painful...I think it is heavier than the days immediately after the miscarriage! I felt a little bit down - mostly because all the bleeding & pain brings back horrible memories of the mc, but also feel a sense of relief that I am moving on physically and am now 'CD2' instead of 'XX days after the mc'. As my husband (who is just starting to understand how the whole pregnancy dating thing works) said yesterday: 'So technically today could be the first day of your next pregnancy?'

Hello ladies, apologies now for not remembering who has said what since last Wed.
Sorry you didn't get the job Quarkee, but sounds like it will benefit you in the long run, to change direction etc.
It's hard isn't it Aqua, I wasn't looking forward to my edd in Feb, and now have another one in Nov to look forward to Definitely hoping to be pregnant by that one.
Welcome back Dustin, good to hear you're in the all clear with the tests.
Well my saga continues. I went back to gynae last Wed, to find that my hcg levels had reduced to 420 but they should be below 5 now that the bleeding has stopped. So I had more blood taken today and am having another scan and gynae appt tomorrow, and if that doesn't give them the results they want, then I may need to have a bloody erpc anyway, after me trying so hard to avoid one
Frustrating but what can I do, I gave my body the chance to sort things out itself and it's taken this long and still it's not over
But we had a lovely long weekend away at the beach so that was well timed, know what you mean about the fizz headache Quarkee, I had one of those as well on Sunday

so sorry, quarkee that you didn't get the job. But I think everyone here has given good advice. Soemtimes the pressure of something being over - even if it didn't go the way you had hoped - is a huge weight off your mind. {{{{hugs}}}}

Hello dustin I'm a newbie and we haven't met! Welcome back. and glad to hear you're all clear!

Scully about your HCG levels. Hope they can sort out whats going on and you can avoid an ERPC.

Had a lovely weekend - well, Saturday anway - in the sunshine. Babysat for nephew who is 14 months and took him to the park. I think DH really enjoyed it. bit of a trial run

Scully - my 2nd mc took ages to get HCG levels down (that was particularly worrying given mp past) - it took 3 months in all, quite a few scans and follow up with blood tests etc - but it got there eventually without any other intervention. Hope yours drops similarly, although it is a real pain that our bodies can't sort it out more quickly.

Had 2 people on Saturday evening say 'so, are you planning another' - felt fed up 2nd time and said, 'well, 2 miscarriages down, who knows...' so felt a bit - but she had asked! Even wondering about adoption at the w/e - trouble is that ds is such a bright spark it might be difficult to get a good balance - wouldn't want dc2 to feel unhappy if ds does do well easily - and really would want another bright spark otherwise ds might not be as interested - really in a quandry on this one though.

mistle - that's interesting what you say about adoption. If you're seriously considering it as an option, why don't you have a word with your local council adoption team? It's a really good place to start, and particuarly if you'd like to discuss the kind of concerns you have before you take it any further. Also there are a couple of good books that were recommended to me that I think give a good idea of what you might be in for!

We were really keen on the idea and went to an adoption information meeting to find out more. Would still really like to adopt a second child, but would also like our own first - hopefully now we know we can get PG we'll have more luck next time . Anyway, I always knew I didn't want IVF, so it's always been something DH and I have discussed.

Thanks Daisy. Perhaps should talk through with dh first !

Mistle DH might be interested to knwo, I agree!

Just got my feedback - I wasn't enthusiastic enough (hard to be perky at the mo ) and came across as v nervous (pesky PD shaky hand ) and they thought I was towing the party line too much grrrrrrrrrrr Have had enough of corporate hoops for a lifetime - am going to get some balance in my life - this thread always makes me realise what's important and quite frankly internal shennanigans arent. Hob Nob anyone??

Quarkee I'm sorry about that. But it does seem to confirm what you said earlier about acting the way you're "meant to" doesn't necesarrily pay off.

I'm going to pass on the Hob Nob trying to eat extra healthily in the run up to ovulation this week Sounds awful, doesn't it?

CAn I ask a question - I havent had any blood tests and so know nothing about my HCG levels - if they are not right does that mean yuo have to wait until ttc again? Are there any other ways of knowing when you can ttc?

Mistle well done btw for your retort on Saturday - increasingly i think its such a shame more people don't say they have had mcs. Its such a lonley sad time and the lack of openess means its even worse and then others dont think to consider whether you are affected partly because its such a hidden issue. Despite its commoness mc is most certainly not mainstream. What do you think?

PrePG - i havent had caffinated coffee for a month now...we're all doing it

hello all, sorry been a bit manic. Hope all okay...
Reflexology was good i felt really dopey and relaxed afterwards, so that is good. She also talked to me about changing the way i eat for a GI based diet, cos of my PCOS. She said it has something to do with odd insulin levels for those with PCOS. Am having it again next week, need to find a good acupuncturist now! Have eaten really quite well this week, more fruit and veg than you can shake a stick at!

I just posted the following on another thread im on but wanted to share on this one too. (hopes people wont think she is a bit crazzzeeeeee!)
Feel really weird - dropped BF off at hosp earlier as she is a week overdue and feeling really rough. She just texted to say she is being induced tonight. Feel really happy for her, just so for me. I will have baby cuddles soon though, which i love.
Just funny mixed emotions.
Also found on facebook that my ex boyfriend (from 10 years ago) is going to be a father very soon. The weird bit is it made me panic as thought - oh, was SO lucky not to get pregnant back then as he can obviously have kids! LOL very odd thoughts racing round my head today! And now - would give anything to be pregnant, although by my lovely DH of course!
Cant believe ex has grown up enough to be married and a dad! He told me once he would save his guitar over me in a fire!
Ah facebook, love it or hate it, it's a minefield of gossip!
Anyway enough of that nonsense, have not used CB monitor this month, just BD every other day and trying to relax. Dont know when OV will be - between CD16 - 23. We'll just keep going till AF is due I think. Needed a break from CB monitor, it was making me focus too much.
Sorry for extremely long rambling post - havent used my word count today! love to all, hope you are having stress free thoughts to encourage those sticky beans! xx

sorry Quarkee I don't know the answer to your question. I didn't have any blood taken either. I'm assuming everything's okay as I've had a normal-ish cycle where I've ovulated round about where I used to and had a period that was a little long, but mostly normal for me.

Has anyone here heard of eating carrots to help with CM? People on the US board I'm on talk about it all the time and the month I got pregnant I gorged myself on them - seemed to work, so I've just stepped up my carrot eating a notch! If anyone's interested in the science bit - beta carotene is meant to promote CM.

Quarkee - if pregnancy tests are coming out properly -ve, HCG levels should be fine. I could tell things were not right as I was still feeling really hormonal, cycle hadn't settled down properly and getting tests that I couldn't say were definitely positive or negative. If your cycle has reestablished and you're not feeling really hormonal, (as opposed to completely paranoid and concerned about ttc and all that goes with it, together with trying to get over loss), I wouldn't worry.

I think my gp did suggest at one point that I would need to do a pregnancy test a few weeks after the m/c to check it was coming back negative. But as I'm being monitored by the hospital now, they are checking via weekly blood tests. Off to the hospital now, fingers crossed hcg have dropped from 400 to something below 100, in and then they may be happy to wait and not have the d&c this week.
This will also be the first time I have had to take dd2 to a gynae appt, should be interesting

Hope it goes OK and blood test results coming down.

good luck scully

thanks re blood info - i have normal paranoia levels so think am OK

Have PD consultant appointment today...shuld be fun

Hello Ladies, Thanks for the welcome back.

Scully Good luck!

quarkee Reiki is a form of healing by channeling the energy flows. I have just completed the 2nd level. One of my friends has also completed hers so has been practising her reiki on me- hopefully it will help with getting pregnant and staying pregnant!!

Prepg The carrot theory is interesting. Before getting pregnant with the only one of my pregnancies that stuck I ate tons of carrots either juiced or whole. Right, I better get the juicer out again!

Wonder what with the carrots then, sounds like it's worth a try though and not so bad for us to eat anyway
Hcg levels have dropped from 400 to 200 and scan today did show m/c wasn't complete, but gynae is happy to wait and see, as levels are dropping and they are well below 1000. I'll have weekly blood tests for the next 4wks and then go back in 4wks time to see consultant again go confirm all ok. Think I might do a pregnancy test in 3 wks time out of interest to see if I get a negative, as the levels have been halving for the past couple of weeks so if that continues, should be back to zero by week 3.
Only time I will want the result be bloody negative
Thx Mistle, reassuring to hear someone else's body took a long time to sort itself out