Do you see what I see?

[DoraBella88]

5 days late, had slight blood the day after I was due when wiping then spend last night in tears as had some brown when I wiped.

woke up this morning and decided to test again as no actual period yet.

i did 3 tests 🙈 husband can see them too but says we should just stay calm and relax 😂 we’ve been ttc for over 10yrs so we’re both extremely cautious

Oh what a rollercoaster. Do you still test positive or has that completely faded now? I hope the specialist can explain what's going on with you tomorrow.

I’m so dreadfully sorry you’re going through this. I really hope you are being kind to yourself. Sending gentle hugs xxx

I hadn’t tested since Sunday when I was still getting a strong positive on CB and digital.

its 3.30am and i decided to test with the easy at home test, its got a faint line on it, which i did expect if I’ve still got the hormones in me, but these tests have never really had a dark line on them. Although this line isn’t a squinter 🤷🏻‍♀️ currently camped out in the bathroom with 2 of my cats for company trying to digest what the hell is happening

I've read your thread, and one hell of a roller coaster you've been on. I'm so sorry you're going through this. I can only imagine how confusing this is. Sending you a hug right now x

Oh my goodness @DoraBella88, my heart goes out to you, what an awful time you’re having. I hope you’ll get an answer soon and they can work out what’s going on.

Thank you ladies.

im so mentally and emotionally drained.

the hospital just called and said that the specialists aren’t concerned as my levels are so low. I’ve got to go back again next Wednesday for more blood tests which will hopefully show them much lower. There is a chance they could rise more (I doubt it) in which case they will scan me again.

they have said that if I get any pain or bleeding or symptoms I’m to call them immediately.

so another week of waiting and confusion.

@DoraBella88 pleased they are not too worried but so sorry you have been through all of this
Hopefully wednesday will be the last lots of bloods you have to have.

Thank you. I’m so tired 😪

really struggling with motivation at work at the moment. I just want to stay in bed and do nothing

Oh sweetheart, I'm sure your boss will understand if you need time off.

Work has been amazing. I’m currently sat outside the back of the shop in the sun. We’re fairly quiet today so I’m sure I’ll get through it xx

You're bound to be exhausted, both emotionally and physically. That's great work are being lovely, but don't feel guilty about taking time off if you need it. That's rubbish you're having to wait till Wednesday, hopefully you'll get some answers then.

Just dropping in to say thinking of you @DoraBella88, what a rollercoaster. Hope you’re able to do some nice things for yourself in these days

Beautiful way to look at things. I'm so glad they're going to help you now and in future, I'm sorry it's taken this long for them to do so.
Also, please don't feel bad if you need to take time away from work, thankfully you seem to work with good people, I'm sure they'll be more than understanding.

Sending you love and positive thoughts ❤️

Wishing you all the best OP 💗

Are you still having bloods today @DoraBella88 ? If so, I hope they can give you some answers - sending you best wishes.

Sending love and hugs @DoraBella88. Hope you're as well as you can be x

Thank you ladies. So kind of you to check in with me.

yes I’ve just got back from the hospital. Bloods done so just waiting on the results now.

I did a test this morning and had the faintest line I’ve ever seen. Hubby couldn’t see it and informed me I had line eyes 😂 but it is barely there so I’m feeling positive about the blood test today. Just wanting the go ahead to try again with a clean canvas really.

I’ll let you know when I’ve heard from them. I just want this chapter to be over with now

Completely understandable. Hoping this can all be over and done with soon for you so you can look ahead to the future. I'm sorry it's been such a rocky road for you, but the way you've coped and dealt is amazing. You should be proud of yourself x

Thank you so much. That means a lot. My husband keeps telling me how strong I am but I’ve never felt so broken. But I think where the hormones are dropping that has helped a lot. I was mentally in a very bad place last week but feeling a lot better now ☺️

I'm glad you're feeling better but don't underestimate what you've been through - it can take time to process the last few weeks. I really hope you get the outcome you want at some point in the coming weeks/months, and hopefully there will be more help going forward if you decide you want it.

@SirChenjins thank you so much. I think I try and convince myself that I’m fine then I get knocked back down again.

the EPU just called. My levels have dropped to 22. So that’s good news as a week ago they were 54 I believe. So I’ve now got to test again in a week and call them to let them know the results, either way.

she reinforced about any future positive tests and calling them straight away as they will prescribe progesterone straight away.

my best friend came to visit today. I’ve not seen her for months as she live 1.5 hours away and she is also my midwife friend.
she came with her 2 boys and I opened the door and they threw themselves at me shouting “hi aunty s”…. I cried.

we have a farm down the road so we went there and I didn’t realise how much I put myself in an uncomfortable situation until it was too late. Obviously children everywhere and I felt so alone. We were playing with the boys on the ride on tractors when a little boy came over to me, having seen me push my friends older boy off with my feet, he lined his little tractor up to my feet and asked for a push too. I gave him a gentle push then sobbed behind my sunglasses.

myself and husband are country bumpkins and we actually own vintage tractors (he brought me one as my wedding gift) and seeing the kids playing on what our own child would play on was so hard.

It’s been a long day. Back at EPU and then all the kids. I should add that myself and my husband are listed as my friends boys legal guardians if anything was to happen to their parents, so these boys are both extremely precious to us. And I would go through the pain of today to see them laughing and having fun.

im exhausted though. But still attempting to see the positive. EPU care and will support and monitor me going forward. So all is good ❤️

It will take time to recover and it's early days still so you are bout to feel down and have a cry at random times. I had my MC 5.5 years ago and I still get randomly emotional. You've been so strong and I love how your DH has been such a great support by the sound of it. Take it day by day and hopefully you will feel better as time goes by. 💔💞

Hi lovely ladies. It’s been a while 😂 Hope everyone is ok?

Ive had a hard few months with lots of ups and downs. We took our ttc up a level, I brought the clear blue fertility monitor (not used it yet) and my husband brought a ferti-lily cup, again not used yet. We decided to not really “try” this month as beginning of next month would have been when I was due and I didn’t want to deal with that and BFNs….

but anyway. AF due tomorrow and this month I haven’t tested like a loon for once 😂

woke up this morning and thought why not do a cheap test….. could see a shadow of a line so obviously did another one…. Another shadow appeared. So I decided to do a clear blue. Another faint shadow. These are so faint that the camera won’t pick them up.

but I had 1 ultra early clear blue digital left so thought what the heck 😂

results below….. called my husband in tears! Honestly I’m in shock 😭

Congratulations and best wishes OP xx

Oh wow! Congratulations!! Xx