Do you see what I see?

[DoraBella88]

5 days late, had slight blood the day after I was due when wiping then spend last night in tears as had some brown when I wiped.

woke up this morning and decided to test again as no actual period yet.

i did 3 tests 🙈 husband can see them too but says we should just stay calm and relax 😂 we’ve been ttc for over 10yrs so we’re both extremely cautious

Thank you. I’ll keep an eye on it and see how it goes.

I’ve started bleeding properly now. TMI but just been to the loo and something dropped out of me. I don’t know if it was tissue or blood clot but it seemed quite large. I’ve taken some pain relief so will see how I go

I’m sorry you are feeling so awful. Call again if you feel you need to. You aren’t being a nuisance- they need to look after you. I hope they can answer if it’s the first miscarriage still or another one.

@Strictlymad thank you. I’ll keep an eye on it and call them if it gets worse.

I don’t think they will be able to tell if it’s the original pregnancy or a new one. I will certainly be asking the question though.

I'm so sorry @DoraBella88 😪

I'm so sorry @DoraBella88, this really isn't fair. I know this is such a difficult time for you but I hope it goes as smoothly as possible. I second contacting EPU if you need to. They're still there to look after you. Are you at home today? Try and take things as easy as you can, sending lots of love 💖

Thank you both ❤️

@2BabyOrNot2Baby no I’m at work today ☹️ my boss if off today and I’m kind of second in charge in her absence for 10 shops. So I need to be here. It’s a bit of a distraction to be honest. The pain has eased a bit now.

im just waiting on the hospital now. Im hoping i can book in for Wednesday as im training someone tomorrow so thats not ideal

Sending you a massive hug. Try and take it easy as much as you can xxx

Oh no I am sad to hear you are experiencing these pains and bleeding. Means something needs to come out (or it's what came out today) and once all is out you should start getting better. Hopefully it's soon. I am so sorry you have to experience these challenges. It's heartbreaking how difficult it is sometimes to get successfully pregnant and I never realised that until I had to go through MC and trying month after month with no success.

Thank you. Honestly I’ve never been through something as traumatic as this in my life. I know o sound like I’m overreacting but this pain and bleeding is something else. I feel really queasy but powering on.

EPU called and I’m booked in for a scan on Wednesday morning

You don't sound like you're overreacting at all, your thoughts and feelings are completely valid! You're going through something that absolutely is traumatising and you're doing so well! Your strength and resilience is something to be admired. Don't sell yourself short x

Thank you ❤️ holding it together whilst I’m at work, I’m sure the flood gates will open when I get home

Oh no - I think you have only read the first post 😥

@DoraBella88 do you really have to be at work tomorrow? You’re going through a really difficult time, physically and emotionally, could you take a few days off? Surely your work would understand? ☹️

Oh my god. I am so new to this app (literally joined yest) and honestly thought i’d read to bottom! I’m such an idiot I feel awful. I am so sorry to OP - sending all the love xxx (wish I knew how to delete a comment i cant find it! Im so sorry again)

Bless you. Please don’t apologise, no harm done ❤️ it’s a really long thread so please please don’t feel bad ❤️

Work is a good distraction. And I’m training tomorrow so will be kept busy and distracted. My boss has been brilliant. She messaged me late Friday night and I replied with an update Saturday morning. She called me (whilst she’s on annual leave) to check up on me and see if I needed to leave. My husband is snowed under at work so if I was home I’d be home alone so better being at work. Although having to deal with the public has been challenging today. I had a patient in today asking which pair of glasses made him look more studious 🤷🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

im scared about the scan on Wednesday. Husband is coming with me again but I really don’t want to go. I know I need to go but I just can’t face walking in there again.

my mum is on holiday at the moment so I didn’t want to worry her with anything so she doesn’t know what’s been going on. I really want my mum right now (35yrs old but still want my mum) but I won’t ruin her holiday as she’ll only worry. She doesn’t even know about the tests last week.

Feeling very lonely and sad.

Bless you. You sound so lovely.

Thank you. I’m just very honest and open with my feelings. I said to my husband last night that I’m so pleased I went through therapy last year as it’s helped me so much with this last 4-6 weeks. I’m absolutely devastated right now but I know that I could be feeling a lot worse.

thankful I’ve got my 3 cats to snuggle and cry on. Although my ragdoll cross is very annoyed about my tears on her fluffy coat 🙈

Bless you thanks for being so kind. Sending you so much love & what I keep reading ‘baby dust’. xxx

Kindness always ❤️

baby dust to you too on your TTC journey

That’s good work is a welcome distraction at the moment, even with the challenging customers!

Thank you ❤️ DM’s are always open! xx

Sorry @DoraBella88, I thought I replied last night.
3.5yrs or 35yrs, your mum is still your mum so it's only natural you'll feel that way. Until she's home (and even after), please do lean on the support system you have around you.
Wednesday will be hard, but you've got all of us cheering you on, you can do it! It'll help give you some closure and can hopefully help you with your future TTC journey and they may be able to offer you some support or tell you what is to come.
I have all faith that you'll get there one day, you absolutely deserve it.

Don't worry about coming back to the thread today if you have other stuff going on to keep your mind off things, but also don't hesitate to come back if you need to. Hope you have a better day today xx

Just read through this thread and the ups and downs, cried for you OP, really hope the next time is more successful
The positive is you CAN conceive, maybe bloodtests or advice from a specialist would bring you happiness

Thank you ladies.

today has been ok. The bleeding has really slowed down and the pain is alot less today which has been good.

I’m feeling very apprehensive about tomorrow. Luckily the scan is early at 8.30. So me and my husband can go and then I’ll come home and get ready for work. I’m meeting my boss first as she wants to check up on me, then heading to my shop for a quiet afternoon.

thank you all again for your kind words and support ❤️