Do you see what I see?

[DoraBella88]

5 days late, had slight blood the day after I was due when wiping then spend last night in tears as had some brown when I wiped.

woke up this morning and decided to test again as no actual period yet.

i did 3 tests 🙈 husband can see them too but says we should just stay calm and relax 😂 we’ve been ttc for over 10yrs so we’re both extremely cautious

I've come here to check up on you and to let you know you've been on my mind..
I will be thinking about you and your DH tomorrow...x

thank you ❤️ im ok.

I really want my mum right now but she’s in Italy having an amazing holiday so I won’t disclose any of this to her whilst she’s away.

my husband works in agriculture so hes working long hours which sucks. He spoke to his manger yesterday about going to the hospital tomorrow with me for a scan. I had to tell him he had to disclose more to him as he’ll be thinking pregnancy scan. Im so anxious about tomorrow. And also worried about them saying I need to have a full bladder for the scan, that’s at 8.30am and we all know you wake in the morning needing a wee.

im feeling like a deer in headlights right now ☹️

I think it's generally done via transvaginal ultrasound and every time I've been for one I've been requested to empty my bladder. Would you be able to call first thing in the morning to confirm?

Thank you ❤️

she specifically said I need a full bladder so I’m assuming it will be a tummy scan. I’m so terrified. I honestly thought the first time I’d go for a scan it would be to look at my little baby bean 😢 not to look for the left overs 😢

Thinking of you both tomorrow - it’s never easy. Big hugs

All the best for today!

Have been following your thread and cried for you, OP. Hope you’re ok today x

Keeping you and your husband still in my prayers, OP.

Been thinking of you today @DoraBella88. I hope you and your husband are as well as you can be ❤️

Thank you ladies ❤️

we got to the hospital at 8.30 and I wasn’t called through until 9.10. My anxiety was through the roof. They did an ultrasound and couldn’t see anything so I had to have an internal scan. That was fun 😢 but it wasn’t painful, just a touch uncomfortable. She couldn’t see anything although did note I had a cyst on one of my ovaries but she said these could come and go and as I have no pain she isn’t worried about it. She said my womb lining was thin which was good. She sent me back to the waiting area and said I would be called through soon. We sat there another 45mins before being called back through. Had my blood pressure taken, I warned them it would be through the roof and it was. Then had yet another blood test. Sent back to the waiting area again but called through within 10mins.

they are classing it as a pregnancy of unknown location. They can’t see anything left behind which is the main thing and there isn’t a new pregnancy there (which we already knew) they are going to call me today with the results of the blood test and hopefully my levels have dropped more. If not then I will have to go back again for more bloods and possible scans next week.

The nurse also said if I’d of had 3 miscarriages then she would be able to refer me to recurrent miscarriage but as I’ve only had 2 she can’t. However she did say that when we are ready to go again, the second I find out I’m pregnant I need to call them straight away. She said they would be putting me on progesterone straight away and monitor me closely. She also said that if I do get pregnant again I need to call them with even the tiniest single spot of blood and they will check me over.

I cried a lot today. But they were amazing there. I do feel better that they will look after me if I am fortunate enough to get pregnant again. She told me to bypass the GP and go straight to them the moment I get a positive test. She also said if I get a positive test then bleed the following day to still call them.

im exhausted from all of this. I went to work after the hospital and met my boss. She’s been amazing with me. She sent me home early so now I’m curled up on the sofa. Luckily I have tomorrow off anyway so don’t have to face the world until Friday now.

thank you all again for your love and support ❤️

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

I'm glad you finally have some answers and that they have a plan in place for any future pregnancies. Sending a virtual hand hold xxx

You must be exhausted with all that today. I know it was a difficult day but it sounds like they were very supportive and helpful, and at least you now have some answers and a plan in place. I wish you and your DH all the very best if you decide to try again and will keep everything crossed for you. Big glass of wine tonight and hope you can have a rest tomorrow before you go back to work.

Oh my darling. What a day.
I'm so sorry, but you have some support in place now, for when you get pregnant again.

I'm so glad they're looking after you now, and have told you to bypass your useless GP. That's positive.

and tonight.

Sending you so much love. I hope you’ve got your fave snacks and a nice film to watch to take your mind off it all. Xxx

I am convinced that progesterone is what led to my healthy baby after 3 miscarriages. Im glad you won’t have to fight and it will be there for you when the time comes.

Sending you gentle hugs, I’m so sorry OP x

Much love to you. You have been through such a lot. Please be kind to yourself and your DH.

Thank you as always ladies. Honestly your love and support has been a massive comfort to me and I don’t think I could of got through any of this without you all ❤️

I do feel better now knowing they are there to look after me if and when I need them again. I’m just anxiously waiting on today’s blood results. I’m assuming no phone call yet is good news as the call I got on Sunday was within an hour and a half of having the test. And it had only dropped by 7 in 48 hours.

im curled up on the sofa with a glass of wine, my husband is working still so im drowning my sorrows. Honestly he was amazing today. He held on to my shoulder whilst I was having both scans, helped me out of my jeans when I got stuck, pulled my shoe off my foot when I somehow knotted the laces trying to get them off and just held me hard when I burst in to tears in the final consultation. Hes not perfect but honestly, he’s been amazing with this whole situation. Seeing your husband cry has been so heartbreaking, but he’s been incredible.

My heart is so broken right now, but we still try to look at the positives. We’ve done it at last, we got pregnant. and now if we manage to do it again, we know we’ve got the help there. My husband took his vitamins this morning and I plan on starting the folic acid again in a few days. I will test again maybe tomorrow.

who knows. But I’m so greatful to each and every one of you ❤️

Oh@DoraBella88 it sounds like such a rough day but hopefully you are coming through the other side now.

I had 3 miscarriages and was treated with aspirin and progesterone and had a successful pregnancy. The 3 losses feels like such an arbitrary number so I'm glad you will be getting support for next time.

There is hope but I totally understand it's so hard to believe this when you are going through the worst of it.

I am so heartbroken for you. I hope wine and nice food is helping you tonight. I am glad to hear you are going to get help from the hospital directly next time and you have now knowledge what to do the moment you get a positive test. Your DH sounds amazing and I am so glad he is there supporting you through all this.
Besides folic acid have you thought about taking Ubiquinol?

Ladies!!!! Talk about a spanner in the bloody works.

hospital called. My levels have risen!!!!!

So tomorrow they are going to discuss my case with the specialist and then call me.

Oh @DoraBella88 you really are on a rollercoaster aren't you. Did they say what levels have risen to? Hope they call nice and early x

Oh my goodness OP, what a rollercoaster. Big hugs and I hope you get some answers soon

I have been reading your thread and haven't yet commented but felt I had to comment now - genuinely hoping the best for you and all my best wishes are with you for a happy result. I can't even imagine how hard this has all been for you. You've been amazingly strong. I am thinking about you and hope this is a good sign! Xx

Omg!! I honestly wasn't expecting that!
Did they say what they've risen to?

I really hope you have a little miracle and everything works out 🤞

Thank you ladies. The levels have risen by 9 so are still really low. But they’ve risen which has concerned them again.

the lady that called has already told me that if this is a pregnancy then it won’t be a viable one.

the rollercoaster continues and I really want to get off now. I’ve cried so much tonight. I called my best friend who is a midwife and she’s confused and googling away. I asked the nurse who called if they were worried about eptopic and she said she couldn’t rule it out.