TTC THREAD 16--THE BEST CHRISTMAS PRESENT EVER!!!

[kizzy212]

OH MY GOD

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT GIRLS, MONDAY NEGATIVE, TUESDAY NEGATIVE, I HAD GIVEN UP HOPE.

THURDAY 16TH DECEMBER BFP

Hi Rudy, we are off on the 21st Jan and I honestly cannot wait. Just worked out that if all goes to plan, I could be doing a hpt while we are away as well!!!!! Think we might have to call the baby Ozzie if we do happen to have a miracle happen

Sorry for my ducking out of the recent threads, feel really bad for retreating and leaving you all but sort of needed a break from it all. Felt like the right time to step back, seeing as there was no way anything exciting was going to happen my end......Looks like you have all been busy chatting in my absence though!

How are you - anything new to report since I've been away with the fairies?

cheered up a bit now (ok a LOT!!)

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oh my you should have seen the look on dp's face this morning. i waited for him to take the dog for a walk then i tested. he got back before the time was up and brought me a cup of tea in bed.....so the test was burning a hole in my bedside cabinet....didn't want to look at it while he was there.

i got the test out and looked at it with total disbelief.....then came running into the living room waving this little white stick in the air with a huge grin on my face!!!

i keep looking at it....still can't believe it was positive......i am only something ridiculous like 13dpo so it really is early days. dp doesn't want to tell anyone in RL because he doesn't want to tempt fate. having seen a friend suffer a miscarriage and the questions after (but i thought you were pregnant?) i can understand though, and its part of the reason i want to keep it quiet too.

after the madness of the wait to test now i'm going to go crazy with the madness of waiting until a suitable time to tell friends and family!!!!

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sory moschope - took me a while to read everything.but wow CONGRATULATIONS!! and thank u also for not wanting to quit ur posts.funny just when u giv up hope and bang it comes on a bfp. very very very happy for u!!big hugs..

jb - is it ur first month of persona?

Morningpaper read through the info again and it says that 70% of block tubes is caused by chlomidya so what about the other 30% ?????????

What great news moschops. I hate being 8 hours behind you all, everything happens when I am asleep.

Well, AF came not too long after my last post yesterday. Or at least I think she did. So far it has consisted of about 6 drops of blood, and slight reddishness when I wipe. (I guess that can't be too graphic against all the talk about CM, can it? So now I am just even more confused. And pretty cranky, too.

Oh god, you know that pregnant friend I mentioned ... the poor woman! She had her first scan yesterday, I just found out that there was no heartbeat and she's probably going to have a d&c, I think I put my foot in it big time!! I feel so so awful for being a bit jealous of her! She deserved a baby so much more than me, she has a history of m/c and her sons's older than mine... I just got so caught up in selfishly trying ttc my baby!

well done to moschops and kizzy!!!!!!!!!!!!

thanks you for all your measseges.

well done to moschops. i know how your feeling. our babys dates are close. i am due on 20th aug 05. i have made doctors appointment for 23rd dec. Does anyone know what the procedure is now, with dates for scans etc.

i was informed today that i am at risk from pre-clap again as i had it with first pregancy and was delivery a month earlier, does anyone know to this being true????????????

good luck to all testing this weekend

baby dust to all.

congrats kizzy, that is such great news! Good luck with it all, keep fingers crossed for the rest of us!

Moschops you star! This is going to be a very lucky thread, I feel it in my bones. Moschops, we will be thrilled if you hang around a bit - we don't want to lose you and we'll be needing the babydust - so stay as long as you like!

oopsanta - you have NO idea how much your news cheered me up. I don't know teatime, but I love her already.

Tania - I think your doctor was probably wrong to suggest that blocked tubes can ONLY be caused by STD; I'm sure that's not right. It is true, though, that chlamydia is a major culprit and that it is very easy to be asymptomatic (specially for women). I had it for years (at least six or seven) before it was picked up during investigations for pelvic inflammatory disease. I know it was that long because they told me I could only have got it off sex with a man and... well, it had been that long. I had no idea at all and would still have it today had I not gone on to develop PID (which thankfully did not leave scar tissue in my tubes). They do not pick it up during routine smears; they have to look specifically for it. But you shouldn't get hung up on that - it may very well not be chlamydia in your case, so don't you and your dh start looking suspiciously at each other! SO sorry you're going through this.

Colinsmommy - sorry about AF, but don't give up entirely until it moves beyond spotting.

And as for me - AF arrived today. In the end it was almost a relief when it came. This week has been such hell - I was so convinced for a few days that I was pg - I FELT so pg - and then so devastated when the symptoms went away. I didn't know whether to I had conceived and then it failed to 'take', or whether it was just my mind playing tricks - I was so, so desperate to be pg for Christmas, to get back the baby I'd lost. Now I'm feeling that it doesn't much matter what happened; the fact is I'm not pregnant and I will have to accept that I am still in deep grief for the miscarriage and liable to be a bit crazy for a while.

The positive bit is that I did ovulate and I did then menstruate at day 30, which is only slightly longer than my usual cycle, so my system seems to have settled down again very quickly.

The negative bit is that this is the fifth year running that I have promised myself, 'You'll be pregnant by Christmas'. There won't be a sixth, because I will give up at some point over the next few months. I am struggling to stay optimistic but it is feeling very hard right now .

Really hoping kizzy and moschop's babydust will hit me soon!

God, I'm sorry about the length of my threads.

so to speak

congrats to moschops too! Send the baby dust our way!

Hester, I've been thinking of you again! I'm sure you'll get the child you deserve, it may not be through natural means, it could be through your dp, adoption, or surrogacy (if you're open to that kind of thing)....but I'm certain you'll get to be a mum, and you'll be a fantastic one because you'll realise just what a gift a child can be! HUGS I've been sending you good luck vibes so much that if you decide to stop for your sanity I could actually see myself lending out my womb to you guys!! Lol!

That sounds kind of defeatest now I've re-read it! shouts a hearty 'come on Hester!! You can do it!!'

Now THERE'S an offer, fastasleep - almost as good as oop's offer of her baby!

Seriously, thanks so much. Am currently sitting at work on my own, crying. Trying to pull myself together so I can go and get the tube home. Your message came just in the nick of time - made me laugh just when I was getting really self-pitying. Thanks, doll

(((Hester))) don't have anything helpful to say but just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and sending you as many positive babymaking vibes as I can. It's strange as in a way we are all in the same boat on this ttc thread but at the same time we all have such different stuff going on. So I send you all my heartfelt sympathy and support in whatever way is useful to you. I can't begin to imagine how you must feel, I just know that it is worse than I feel even at my most down. Yes I worry about having endo and not having another baby but that's the point isn't it, I'm worrying about #2 and I am so blessed to already have an angel child.

Sorry this is a bit rambling but you really are in my thoughts and I'm not sure how to communicate that without it sounding crass and insensitive and making you think "you've already got a baby - how do you know what I feel like?!" (which I'm sure you wouldn't as you seem to be too nice a person but you know what I mean!)

Thanks so much, Rudy. You're a sweetheart and NEVER insensitive

right, then i'm up to speed now, u guys can really talk when u wanna! lol,

Firstly, any word from Jedds today? how she's gettin on with her apt etc..?

cockenzie - It is my first month of using person, I bought it last month, but wanted to do it from day one of my cycle. but it picked up O on the first month which i'm assuming is a good sign.

Rantus - hopfulyy you will be PG hon, but honestly, If u did name DC ozzy (i'd have visions of him lookin/ speaking like ozzy osbourn, so might not be a good idea for him main name!) lol.

FS - don't be so hard on urself hon, u were not to know what would happen to ur friend, how far along was she? just comfort her the best you can and help her thru it. It's just our nature that we should be jelous of friends who get PG first.

Col mum - ((((hugs)))) sorry about AF hon, (at least u can have a drink now thou!)

and finally hester...
What to say hon, My heart really does go out to you, and all the others how have had M/C perhaps it mayy be best to stop TTC for a few months, rather than stop all together? either way thou i'm sure u'll decide whats' best for urself, but as i keep sayin to you, don't be so hard on urself, u'll have ur good and bad days like everyone else, but hon, it will get better. might not be today or tomorrow but eventually things will become bearable (I only say that as I don't think the pain truly goes away) either way hon, don't give up hoping you will one day be a mum, might not be for a few months yet, but there is always hope, and as long as u believe that I think anything is possible (then again thou as i've said b4 that might be my neive outlook on life with regards to some things). take care hon. Keep ur pecker up. and it's ok to have a tear now and again. ((hugs)) sendin u over as must postive thoughts and healing vibes as I can.

ooh and finally do we know if there's any change with bonkerz, i've been thinkin about her as well.

ooh and hester - don't worry about the lenght of ur posts hon, it's not like can make another thread/ will run out of space!

tania, I have something here that will blow ur drs ideas of blocked tubes = STD out of the water hon... it's from our NHS and coves some operations as well, i'm not sure how much u'll be able to have done abroad thou.

{http://www.besttreatments.co.uk/btuk/conditions/12356.html\PID Blocked tubes}

will keep looking for clymida for u thou.

Blocked Tubes

Oh hester (((hugs))) so so sorry about AF.

She was only 9 weeks Jingle...but even just she and I had discussed so many things about school years, clothes, girl/boy, names (never mind what she'd imagined etc with her dh!)... I want to do something really special for her now...and I can't think what to do at all! She's in hospital on Wednesday, she has a little 14 month old, I think she's already got something lined up for him though...

Hester made you laugh? I was serious! I absolutely love being pregnant and since I'm not allowed any more after this next one for at least 10 years - anyone want a womb? It's comfy apparently