IVF Buddies: the next chapter

[RunningOnHope]

Hi everyone, thought I'd try making us a second thread now the old one is done -

Tagging @Triselly @lemons44 @CR7 @Flowerlover010 @pongom @WholeZebra @TheBirdintheCave @SarahShorty - will go back to the thread and see if there's anyone else to add in, but do tag those I've missed!

@TheBirdintheCave Well done for surviving egg collection! Hope you're happy with the numbers when they come, and you feel alright over the rest of the day 😁

Thank you @RunningOnHope , how are you doing today?

I seem to be in the same boat as you, according to the clinic this morning. Another blood test tomorrow morning but it’s looking like a very early miscarriage for me, and am absolutely gutted.

How is everyone else today?

Thanks @RunningOnHope how are you doing today?

Thanks for the tag @RunningOnHope I hope you are ok?

So sorry @Triselly 😢 sending you a huge hug.

Well done on getting through egg collection @TheBirdintheCave xx

So sorry @Triselly so gutting. Xx

@Triselly very sad to hear xx Sending big hugs

Sorry @Triselly, it's such a hard place to be in. Hope the blood tests will give you answers sooner rather than later.

I'm still bleeding heavily, and although it feels like an absolute lifetime since it started, it is only day 5. I wondered if the fact that yesterday I seemed to pass some 'tissue' as well as blood would mean that hcg would finally start to fall.

But I've just done a cheapie to see (saving my final clear blue for Thursday when the clinic want me to retest) and it's stronger than ever. So still rising I guess. Which means I might have quite a wait before it all disappears completely.

For the ongoing record of my many many tests 😅

@RunningOnHope I've heard that subchorionic hematomas are common in IVF pregnancies. Sometimes a cavity forms between the placenta and the uterine lining which fills with blood. Hopefully it's just the blood from the hematoma that's coming out. My fingers are crossed for you xx

I'm not having a good day today mood-wise. I'm trying naturally this cycle during a break between transfers and I'm currently 3DPO. With DH's sperm count being low and knowing that conception is already a lottery as it is, I'm just not hopeful at all. TTC shouldn't be this fucking difficult, but here we are 😫

Only got 25 eggs from 44 follicles so I'm feeling a bit shit about it. Obvs no idea how many are mature and then it gets cut down even more in terms of how many fertilise and how many are still going at day five so I'm not expecting to end up with many usable embryos.

Husband sperm results were the best we've ever had however. From 13% motility in 2020 to 65% today. Just hammers home that I am obviously the problem.

Also! I might have to stab myself for five additional days. So not only do I have no embryo transfer to look forward to I have to be in more pain so that's fucking fantastic.

Gosh I'm sorry @RunningOnHope that must be so confusing for you ☹️ I'm so sorry you're going through this.

@TheBirdintheCave 25 eggs is a lot 💗 even with all those follicles your ovaries probably never would have had room to grow 44 eggs. Keeping everything crossed you will get a good number of mature 🤞🏼what do they want you to inject for 5 days?

Sorry you're having a down day @SarahShorty I hate the term 'self care' but maybe treat yourself to a nice bubble bath or something to relax. My go-to for days when I feel hopeless is to binge watch Sex and The City with a blanket on the sofa x

@lemons44 Just more Fyremadel so more thick needles 😭 The last three on Sunday hurt so much can't believe I have to keep going.

@Triselly Shit I missed that update, so sorry :(

@lemons44 thank you xx I'm keeping busy. Work is doing my head in, though it still counts as something of a distraction.

@TheBirdintheCave Fyremadel blocks LH, so my best guess is that they want to stop an LH surge because they're afraid of your body trying to ovulate and additional LH could trigger OHSS. I have no idea, I may be talking out of my arse.

@SarahShorty Shit, I didn't even think to ask whether it will delay my period or not. There is no way on earth I would have bought them or agreed to take them if I thought it would do that. I have wasted FAR too much time already.

Helllo!! Just found this thread xx

@Triselly I'm sending you all the love I'm sorry it's been such a rubbish last week.

@lemons44 how are you doing

@SarahShorty yesterday was my hardest day ever through doing ivf for the last four years. I got the positive as you know but as I'm now in uncharted territory the anxiety is unreal. Please don't think I'm being ungrateful. I'm absolutely not. I just want you to know that up and down days are sooooo normal. Just need to ride it out. One day at a time.

@TheBirdintheCave please take my words with lots of love now. The results from your EC are up there with some of the highest I have ever seen. Many of us would have been weeping with joy at your numbers. On my first egg collection I only got one egg. I am not trying to dismiss your feelings in any way I just want you to realise you're in an incredible position. Yes some may not be mature and yes some may not fertilise and yes you have a lot of drugs I'm in your system so you're allowed to have all the feelings but we are all here to keep each other grounded and positive.
I am currently injecting multiple times every day and will be doing so for the foreseeable few months. Potentially for the whole nine months if I make it. Five extra days will be a blink in time and if you have to put off for another month then so be it unfortunately. You body has to be in the best possible position. My last unsuccessful cycle was in November and I wasn't able to transfer again til now. At my age of 42 I was incredibly conscious of time but you have to do what is right for your body and the embryos.

I know this is tough love and I hope you take it from the kind place it is coming from x

@CR7 I think it's because of the miscarriages :/ Everyone else sees a high number but I know a lot of those won't be genetically sound.

I know what you mean though, on paper it sounds like a good number. Sorry for complaining.

@CR7 I completely understand. The first 12 weeks are the riskiest because the placenta hasn't finished growing yet and a lot of genetic issues can occur very early on. Getting that BFP is a huge mix of feelings and emotions and if you've been through the ringer fertility-wise, it's so much more hell. I'm 100% agree, one day at a time is the way.

@TheBirdintheCave you're absolutely not complaining, how you feel is how you feel. I just want you to know that everything is looking so promising for you. So much of the hard work is done. I never had high numbers but managed to get to a good-ish place xx

I just want you to be kind to yourself xx

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@SarahShorty I think I'm my tiny, tiny brain I thought if I ever got to a positive test I'd be so chilled finally. I could relax and start dreaming. Instead I actually can't sleep and I'm scared to go to the loo. I asked about a blood test but they said no. Just get through to scan day and hopefully all will be well. It's just a new chapter of worry as opposed to a relief. Silly silly me ha!

Agree with @CR7. @TheBirdintheCave i personally havent seen anyone with as many eggs as that so you and your clinic have done well to get that. I am in a similar position to u i have a high amh but have had 3 miscarriages from natural pregnancies so i too need to start with some high numbers, especially since we have opted to do pgta testing and so i absolutely need to have a good number to test and it has to be at day 5 so i know what pressure your feel under. Because of the testing and risk of ohss i had no option other than to do a frozen transfer too so i also understand the frustration of the long wait but i would take anything from the clinic to avoid getting ohss as it can be very, very serious. I also have to inject at least 14 days after EC because i am on blood thinners but i know how disappointing it would feel to have to carry on when u thought the needles were over, particularly the thick one!! The worst part is done now.

@Flowerlover010 perfectly put. Everyone's journeys are so different and come with their own set of challenges. I am also on blood thinners via injection every morning as well as steroids, patches, pills and pessaries

And lubion progesterone injections which are my least faves

@cr7 the worry doesnt even stop when its born does it! Kids are one big worry! 😜 on a serious note though, totally understand why you are still anxious, just take each day one day at a time and keep busy xx