POAS: Showers Quickies and Rainbow Babies 🌈 💛💜

[FfoxRedN]

Ok here goes!
Advanced apologies if I miss you in the first message 😆

@MrsJGrealish @bringmearainbow @TheBirdintheCave @emhope @Indianna2006 @LuckyMoonstone @Alexis7890 @bunnykins123 @calimc83 @curliegirlie

@FfoxRedN it's totally normal and ok to worry about symptoms I'm a lot lot more chill about this pregnancy which I'm quite shocked at but I still go through the day thinking do I feel normal or pregnant 🙈 as much as you tell yourself stop doing it it's silly it's just a normal reaction ❤️ have you got plenty to try and distract you today? The fair was busy enough but I made a loss. I've only done a couple but the general consensus from other traders is that people are just not spending like they used to. I think I'm going to concentrate on promoting in other ways and go again towards the end of the year. I'm taking the plunge and telling work today 😬

@MrsJGrealish ahhh yes def could be that throwing it off. Lol hopefully you have a little while before it starts 🤞🏼

@TheBirdintheCave good luck for your scan. What does the baseline scan show? Love the outfit 😍

@MrsJGrealish I think trying to deal with your emotions surrounding the first miscarriage is a good idea. I basically just ignored the first one and I think a lot of that came out when I had the second one. Don't force yourself to look at the scan picture if you're not ready though ❤

@bringmearainbow Good luck telling work today! :D Sorry you made a loss at the fair. I think most people buy online these days. Do you sell on Etsy too? I can't remember.

The scan is just to prove that my body is ready to start the meds at the beginning of my next cycle. I think they're checking for cysts or fibroids or anything that might cause it to not work/be dangerous to take. I start a week tomorrow! 😱

@TheBirdintheCave I have my own website and I'm on Etsy too. Im just trying to find other avenues that might work. I've got a couple of school fetes booked in but I might leave doing big fairs until later in the year in time for Christmas well maybe not quite Christmas because I'll be ready to pop 😂 but just before I might get a few in

Oh wow a week that's not long at all. How are you feeling about it?

@bringmearainbow Just blah really. Not looking forward to buying the medication on Friday (after I get my negative FRER) as it's £1k but I can't leave it any later in case it doesn't arrive on time :/

@bringmearainbow have you worked out your due date? I can’t remember if you’ve already said

@TheBirdintheCave ahhhh I see. What dpo will you be Friday?

@LuckyMoonstone 22nd Dec 🎄I've been super dizzy last night and all today this is a new one for me 🙈

@bringmearainbow 10dpo on Friday so it should be accurate.

Also, wow! Could be looking at Christmas day! 😬

@bringmearainbow ooh that is cutting it close to Xmas 😅 DS is 16th Dec and it’s lovely having all the decorations up, I think it’s a great time of year for a birthday!

@TheBirdintheCave could be 😬 least I don't have to cook Christmas dinner 😂

@LuckyMoonstone I know lots of people are weird about dec but I don't mind it. Im a November birthday so maybe because I've always been close to dec it doesn't bother me so much. I was induced with DS at 39 weeks so be nice if it happens naturally this time but at the end of the day I just want to make it to close enough for a living baby I'll have it however

Ok all good to go. Lining is nice and thick, ovulated from the left hand side (of course, righty is such a slacker 😂) and had 29 follicles this month.

Learnt how to do the injections. Very scary stuff! Really don't want to have to to through this 😭

@TheBirdintheCave lol does righty not do much work 🤔 hopefully you won't have to lovely 🤞🏼

@FfoxRedN good luck today at the scan! Don't worry about fluctuating symptoms - mine were really up and down at the beginning and I got myself in such a tizz about it!

@TheBirdintheCave wow that's an amazing amount of follies! It's really good you have a plan now and can crack on next cycle. Do you need to wait for AF to arrive?

@bringmearainbow I think it's nice to be able to link Xmas and birthdays personally. It wouldn't have bothered me if I had a Christmas baby!

@bunnykins123 Yeah stims start on CD2 so Wednesday.

@FfoxRedN Everything crossed!! 🤞🏻🤞🏻

@TheBirdintheCave great news about your lining and little follies!

The scan was bittersweet, one twin has vanished, the other is right on dates and had a heartbeat. I just don't know what to think. If it was chromosomal then it's only a matter of time before the other one goes, I just can't be positive. Another scan booked for 10 weeks which I can only in-visage will be like all the others. xx

Oh @FfoxRedN sorry it wasn't 100% positive News, but everything crossed for you. One of DD1s NCT buddies had a vanishing twin I think, but all was well with him xxxx

@FfoxRedN so sorry lovely is it def gone and not just hiding? I know it's hard to stay positive when it all seems a bit hopeless but hang in there ❤️ sending so much love and good vibes your way xxxx

@bringmearainbow yeah deffo gone, the shadow was measuring 5mm (only 1mm more than at 6 weeks) the other one about 15mm. xx

@FfoxRedN oh hun I'm so sorry you had disappointing news today. I hope you're okay. I have heard of this before, I think it's something like vanishing twin syndrome and I think it's quite common? I don't think it necessarily means anything is wrong with the other babe but completely understand how you feel. Did the sonographer give you any insight into their findings? Was it NHS?

@FfoxRedN Oh shit I'm so sorry :( If the remaining twin is measuring correctly then surely there's a good chance it will go the distance. You so deserve some good news for a change ❤️❤️

@bunnykins123 yeah that's it, it was NHS, she just said see how it's doing in two weeks but should be ok. I just don't have any faith anymore x

@FfoxRedN sorry it didn’t go perfectly for you, one of my friends had a one twin vanish but all is good for her with the other twin at 15 weeks now so everything crossed that happens for you!! Hope the 2 weeks goes fast for you until you find out

@FfoxRedN oh hun I'm so sorry they weren't more reassuring. I had a quick google and the vast vast majority have positive outcomes, it seems to be really common. I would take some positivity in the other little babe measuring bang on for dates. That has to be a good sign. I've got everything crossed for you 🤞

Thank you ladies 🥰. It does help to have all your positive vibes, just will take a few days to settle again I think and not be thinking the worst again. Much love 😘 xx

@FfoxRedN big hugs lovely. Saw this update and wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you ❤️ will pray that this little one stays healthy. If I had any baby dust I'd send it your way but I'm afraid all I can send you is hope and love 💕

@TheBirdintheCave really glad your scan looked well too 😘