Hi everyone
Sorry I've been so quiet - been a hell of a ride, I'll summarise....
I'm still pregnant (I think) - my test lines are nice and strong and my nipples are exceptionally sensitive.
Sickness has basically gone, not sure if that's down to hormone changes, loss (I'm hoping not) or some pressure bracelet things I've been trying.
I've been extremely crampy - basically been attached to my hot water bottle, not really been sleeping and scared to take painkillers.
I've also been bleeding on and off, sometimes heavy enough for a pad sometimes just spotting.
I can't for the life of me get through to my doctors to even tell them I'm pregnant. I must have called close to 500 times this week, and each and every time my call is cut off before it can even get into the queue because 'they're full to capacity'. So I can't speak to anyone to see what's going on (though if it's anything like when I miscarried last year, speaking to someone would just be horrific and rude).
I'm off work next Thursday so if I can't get through on the phone then, I'll be turning up to at least tell them I am pregnant and see if they can see why I'm cramping and bleeding.
Went to my EPU Wednesday morning and they wouldn't see me - said it's too early (4 weeks) but to go back in a couple of weeks if I can't speak to my doctor.
Ended up in A&E yesterday evening, after a horrible 20 minutes of heart palpitations. My DP could feel my heart 'fluttering' through my chest, I was breathless, dizzy and had the sharpest pain in my head. He rang 111 concerned about me and they sent me to A&E. Got there and it was an 18 HOUR estimated wait - every single seat in there was taken, so I came home.
Today I am just exhausted. Sick of not knowing what's happening to my body but 99% sure this little bean is going to end in a loss. Call it women's intuition but I feel like it's a waiting game.
Sorry for being so quiet, I have been checking back in here and there and really wishing you all well. You are all a wonderful support network x