9 months+ trying to conceive, still losing hope, still trying

[BritInNZ]

Continuing the earlier thread ladies before we run out of room... will tag in who I remember but feel free to tag others I may have missed. And newbies always welcome!

@Aubyone - pregnant! Adding in case she wants to keep in the loop 😊
@kmbegs
@FlyOnTheWall89
@Hopefullywaiting01234
@Tinkerbell098
@LucyAnne34
@MaryTeenOfScots

@Indianna2006 I am so very sorry to read this - sending you love at such a horrendous time. I hope you’re being well supported. Thinking about you x

@Koalie - Welcome 😊 sorry to hear about your miscarriage and everything you are going through, it really is so hard and a very lonely experience. I would definitely look into some tests to get your levels checked, your GP can do this or you can get some private at home tests done through mecicheck, you can also pay for a private scan to check all is ok, i only paid around £60 and was worth the peace of mind.

@Carla2601 i am so glad everything went well, amazing results! You are totally allowed to feel this way i bet it really is a rollercoaster if emotions. What happens next now? X

@Indianna2006 i am so so sorry! I know there no words to comfort you. My heart really sank when i read your message, you are in my thoughts 💗 xxx

@Carla2601 that sounds like a very emotional day. Well done you for getting through it! Lovely idea about the gift you bought 🥰 and Thankyou for the honesty! Good to know what to expect if needed.

@Indianna2006 I am so sorry to hear your news. There really is nothing anyone can say to make it better. Thinking of you ❤️

@Carla2601 💕 I can imagine how overwhelming it all is. I was overwhelmed just by running to ACU with semen (in a tube) down my top (keeping it warm), seeing loads of pregnant people walking around. Looking forward to more updates! X

@Indianna2006 I'm so sorry, I can't even imagine how you're feeling right now. I appreciate how hard it must be and how you feel like giving up completely. We're all stronger than we know though, and you've got this 💕

I am so sorry @Indianna2006

@Carla2601 amazing news again! You can have a whole army if you want! Well done for being so brave with the transfer and glad you're feeling better. All the best for the rest of the week, take it easy xx

@Indianna2006 I have no words. I'm so sorry for your loss. It broke my heart when I read your update. Please don't give up hope. You're stronger than you know. Lots of hugs xx

Thanks all for you’re well wishes. I think it’s finally sinking in.

I have until next week to see if anything happens naturally. And then an appointment next week to make decisions if it hasn’t.

DH is like we can just try again straight away. Maybe it won’t take as long but..I highly doubt that.
He was so very upset. And it was truly awful.

But hopefully within a few weeks. I can readjust my head and think about ttc again. And all of what that contains which is bloody hard work 😭🤦🏻‍♀️

@Carla2601 very exciting to hear about your IVF news! That’s fab!

@Indianna2006 you sound like you’re being incredibly strong - be kind to yourself this must be such an impossible time, let people help you I’m sure lots are keen. And remember we’re always here to listen x

Had a friend, who started TTC 6 months after me, message today to tell me she's 3 months pregnant 😭 it's an absolute punch to the guts isn't it. I've had to take myself off to bed to have a cry. She even started going on about how horrible being pregnant is - I messaged and said I'd take it all if it meant I hadn't been through the last 14 months. I was going so well emotionally this month too, just heartbroken.

Oh that's hard @BritInNZ ☹️ it hurts so much doesn't it. I have a friend who said similar to me the other day after giving birth last week. She said she was so happy she was no longer pregnant as she didn't realise the toll it was taking on her body. Comments like that cut so deep.

I have also found lately that I feel really angry towards friends and family who have got pregnant easily. I will be doing something like cleaning and in my head I am just seething at them. I could never admit that to anyone in real life but feel comfortable sharing it on here as I know you all won't judge me. It's such an emotional roller coaster with so many strange emotions.

Just want you to know you're not alone. I totally get it. It's just not fair x

@BritInNZ @lemons44 100% agree with you both. I am dreading the next one from the wedding I've just attended. Completely dreading it. AF due any moment and temps down. So sad I've been awake for hours already. 😭😭😭

@BritInNZ @lemons44 @FlyOnTheWall89 - Its just horrible isn't it, some days it just really knocks you, i am just on tender hooks now waiting for my brother and his partner to announce they are pregnant as i know they are trying. Obviously be so happy for them but you cant help feel upset/emotional that its not you.

@FlyOnTheWall89 - i was the same last weekend, so down this month! Will in FW next week - here we go again!

@lemons44 100%!!! I'm the same. So angry at other people for how easy they have it and how unappreciative they are.

Thanks for all the messages, I'm so glad you all get it and I have people to chat to, even if it's just the virtual world. The bonus to come out of all of this is how blessed and appreciative we'll ALL feel when it eventually happens for us. Although I'll be cursed with being a worrier for the whole pregnancy, I would be so thankful to even be pregnant in the first place. Hope you're all having a better start to Easter weekend than me 💕

Hi everyone. I haven’t been getting updates on this thread for some reason.

@Indianna2006 so sorry to hear about your loss. Thinking of you 💕

I had my HSG on Tuesday. Procedure went fine, tubes are all clear so none the wiser as to why I can’t get o pregnant. Consultant told me we haven’t tried long enough and that 90% of people conceive within two years. He said we can try IVF if we want but the success rate for me would be 30% per cycle vs. A 90% chance after 2 years of trying. They had already advised us to give it another 6 months to take us to 18 months as we’ve already had two children fairly recently.

Anyway, the bad news… I ended up in A&E all Tuesday evening after the HSG, never felt so ill in my life. Literally thought I was dying. All seems ok now though 🙏🤞🏻

@Hoping43 oh gosh, that sounds dramatic!! Hope you're okay now. I have mine a week Monday - dreading it. It's so hard to be patient when it already feels like a year of disappointment - I guess you have to weigh up the odds. Maybe put a timeline in place so you've got a bit of a goal? X

@BritInNZ I’m so sorry - it’s so horrid and nothing takes away that horrible feeling.

@NatW2021 siblings are the worst IMO - it’s like this experience robs you of what should be one of the most joyful pieces of news you can get that you’re going to be an Aunty or Uncle as well as all the other reasons it’s crap!

@FlyOnTheWall89 was also awake from 5 and all usual AF symptoms and it’s due on Monday so I’m not feeling super hopeful and had a good cry this morning. Day wasn’t all bad though, took my dog for ice cream on the common haha.

@Hoping43 sorry to hear! Glad you’re on the mend

@FlyOnTheWall89 well, to reassure you the procedure was fine. A little bit of cramping but otherwise totally fine. I felt fine after for a good few hours but then I got really bloated, my stomach went huge and I was in a lot of pain. It felt like trapped wind (TMI) but then I was shivery (we had come back from a hot holiday at 5.45am and I went back out at 7.15am for my HSG so probably didn’t help) so I went in the shower and suddenly felt all faint and starting throwing up. I was worried about infection so I went to A&E but my god I felt absolutely terrible. It probably lasted for 3 hours. Anyway, they said I didn’t have a temperature so didn’t think it was an infection. I hadn’t eaten much so when I called the clinic the next day they thought it could be the antibiotics they gave to me to prevent infection that made me sick. Who knows but by the time I left A&E I had pretty much recovered. Still felt bloated the next day but by Thursday I was ok. Still have a bit of bleeding still x

@Hoping43 oh wow that sounds horrible - not surprised you panicked. Glad the actual app was okay though. What cycle day are you on? Did they do a follicle count at the same time?

Oh @Carla2601 I imagine how nerve wracking it is. When is OTD? I think I'd be crying all the time. Or wanting to just sleep until OTD. Xx

@FlyOnTheWall89 not till Wednesday next week….although it has gone quite quickly - I’ve been so busy at work I haven’t left till 9 any night this week which would normally be annoying but at least it passes the time haha!

@Carla2601 ye it feels quite quick. Are you going to wait till OTD, or do it before? I am keeping everything crossed for you xx

@FlyOnTheWall89 tbc 😂! I’m not holding out much hope to be honest but tysm x