Entering into 8th cycle..

[Indianna2006]

Entering into 8th cycle…ttc number 2.

Feeling defeated and deflated even though I know odds are still on our side really..
I already have a DD who is 3 years 9 months so very much feel time is of the essence. Just desperate for it to happen now.

Feel like either people seem to fall super fast or seem like 12 months plus and don’t find many “in the middle” types.

Ive fallen pregnant 1st cycle before. And then DD took 7 cycles. So hence why this failed 7th cycle seems like a miserable milestone!

Anyone welcome to keep me company. Sucks 😫

@Indianna2006
When I went for my 8 week ultrasound I ended up measuring 6 weeks 4 days
As long as there is a heartbeat that's a great sign don't worry to much about dates as they can change
At my Nipt blood test results I was actually measuring a week ahead
Fingers are crossed for you 💜

@Kiaa thanks for that hun.

I know it just seemed like such a huge discrepancy. I thought I’d be about 8+4 and get given 6+1. Like didn’t look anything like an 8 week baby whe I saw my daughter at that stage.

Who knows. I don’t have hopes. But good to know you’re measurement was coming off early too. How many weeks are you now?

@Indianna2006 no worries at all 😀

With implantation it can take up to 12 days after ovulation so could of just conceived later was there a fetal pole ?
I'm pretty sure the same thing happened with my dd1 as well

I'm still going off my 1st ultrasound I'm 19 weeks
Have my 20 week ultrasound next week hoping to find out if I'm still measuring ahead I'll let you know

@Kiaa yes there was a fetal pole. She took measurement of the fetus/embryo and showed us the heartbeat. Altho it seemed quite slow to me.
Just not sure what to think.
Think I’m expecting the worse.

@Indianna2006 that's great news
I felt the same at 1st since it took so many months to conceive
but it ment to be hun everything will be fine xx

@Indianna2006 did you manage to speak to the midwife today?

I can't believe they made someone wait to 12 weeks, totally ridiculous.

@OK92 yes and she advised me speak GP as I’ve not had midwife booking yet. So they’ve referred me to EPU. Just waiting to hear from them when they can fit me in.

Just literally feel sick with worry. And don’t think I can do another year of ttc. The age gap was gonna be big enough as it was.

@Indianna2006 I'm really praying it all works out for you. What an anxious and stressful waiting game. I can imagine the thought of TTC again is just overwhelming and so daunting. In all likelihood it wouldn't take a year, hopefully A LOT less but I totally get you don't even want to think about that eventuality.

@OK92 no I totally don’t. I thought this was finally it. But not sure it is.

I know I did say well all the things seemed worked that cycle we’d do again. So hopefully maybe it would be quicker. Cos we got there in the end. But I just dont know.

Next few weeks is going to be the worst!

@OK92 EPU saw me today. Confirmed it’s a failed pregnancy. No longer has a heart beat 😭

Have to wait now for a week see what happens.

Devastated

@Indianna2006 I'm so sorry. What devastating news. Life is just so cruel and unfair sometimes. Hope you take some time to heal and here if you need to vent

I'm so so so sorry @Indianna2006. How heartbreaking. Here for you when you need a rant or a cry. Really so sad. X

@OK92 @FlyOnTheWall89

Thanks girls. Ugh honestly.

My only tiny bit of shining light is my DD was a rainbow baby. And so there is hope at the end of the very long tunnel. But fear it may be a long tunnel again of ttc 😞

All seems so unfair sometimes doesn’t it.

@Indianna2006 so sorry you had to go through this, sending you lots of love & strength 🌟xx

@Indianna2006 there is hope and you WILL get your baby and it'll be so worth the wait when it happens. Just sucks you have to go through this again 😞

@OK92 I keep telling myself this. I WILL get my baby. Just not on my timeline. Nowhere near my timeline. But that’s life.

Nothing has happened still. Actually feel awful walking around with effectively a dead fetus inside me. Last time I Mc it was happening by time I knew. So this is a no t different territory for me.

I didn’t have to make choices on waiting even longer which is just beyond torturing. Or having medical management or surgery.

Wow. How am I even here again.

But only until Wednesday to go and I’ll be seen and will choose medical management. I’ve waited 10 days. Why wait 2 more weeks it’s just unbearable.

Have had a good think. And thought don’t think I can stop here. So think we’re gonna ttc straight away again. Back in everything we were on and doing in those last couple months. In hope we have luck much earlier but the gloom of another year of ttc whilst navigating also the baby that could of been is daunting.

@Indianna2006 thinking of you and hope yesterday went as smoothly as possible in the circumstances. Fresh slate soon and I'm confident it'll be much quicker for you this time round 🤞🏼

So tough @Indianna2006 - it must be just so exasperating. I am broken hearted for you. Big hugs xx

@OK92 I hope it will be quicker too. Just going to continue with everything that I was doing at the end. And hope it results in a quicker conception. Fertilily in the right place was maybe what did the trick 🤷🏻‍♀️ Or maybe that’s just how long we needed.
how are you feeling?

@FlyOnTheWall89 thank you. I feel a bit numb atm. I have taken first set of meds and have to main meds to take tomorrow morning. An then hopefully the worst will be over. And that’s that. All over before it even began. Knew I was pregnant for 5 weeks and then poof. Gone.

why is ttc so hard honestly. So envious of anyone who just think I want a baby and they get one each and every time. Either by falling quick and that pregnancy being successful.

i am taking hope in that we did fall though. So some of my anxieties of that my fertility had changed or DH had issues has vanished.

it make take some time again. But I’m certain we will get there. But the waiting after all of this loss again. Is not going to be a walk in the park.

I can do this. I can.

@Indianna2006 you can do it - positive mental attitude, you will be pregnant again this year. Re-sharing a quote you shared earlier in the thread as it really helped me at the time.

I am feeling OK. Good days and bad days and generally very anxious but just hoping all will be OK.

@OK92 @Kiaa

just a little update from me. I ended up having ERPC surgery. But all went as expected. And after a few days. I felt fairly back to normal.

my bleeding is tapering off and almost gone and my pregnancy tests are sooo nearly very negative.

So I will be back ttc very soon. And praying by some miracle it happens much faster 🤞🏼🙈

I can only hope right. I figure. Yes it took 11 cycles. But we fell pregnant. Our tests showed nothing wrong. Clearly sperm can get through my tubes. DH had a very good sperm count. I need to relax. And let nature do it’s think. It will happen when it happens.

hope you are both well and doing okay.

Glad to hear your nearly back on track
Fingers are crossed for your new Cycle 🥰

All is well here other then failing glucose test :/
Found out we having another girl 🎀
Hope the rest of you ladies are good

@Indianna2006 thanks for the update - I'm glad the long and difficult process is almost over (or hopefully completely over by now!) for you. Are you feeling back to normal now? Will you TTC straight away? Fingers crossed it's a much quicker process this time.

@Kiaa how exciting 🥰🥰 another little girl

@OK92 yes all feel back to normal now. Bleeding has stopped and negative pregnancy test. So now waiting for ovulation whenever that will be.
yes we’ve decided to try again straight away. Praying it doesn’t take as long. But we can only do what we can do hey. As we know..throw everything at it an sometimes it still doesn’t happen

xx