Shackets from yesteryear, baltic crotches ❄️ and lots of ostriches 🐦 TTC bus 48

[bez91]

It’s been thirteen million years & Minster & the good time crew are still here…its September, autumn in full swing and we haven’t done too bad so far this month compared to previous months but I still think we are owed ladies.

Oh and we don’t just talk TTC, we’ll chat about anything. In fact that’s positively encouraged cos TTC can be bloody boring sometimes!

It costs an embarrassing life (or TTC) story for your ticket please then you can hop on board

Agency bus driver at the wheel.…

All aboard bus number 48

Plugging @minster2012 blog \\\___, we’ve had cancer, travels & ivf so need to get to the fun stuff, more ivf, surrogacy and more! #shamelessplug
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Aw @Minster2012 breaks my heart to think of you there weeping with your notes! No point telling you to relax I know but you are reaching new milestones, has to be good 🤞 I swear I have more symptoms than most you pregnant ladies and I'm on af, raging! Felt so sick yesterday, insomnia last night and awful cramps. I've also had a weep, what's the point of all this hormonal crap when I'm basically barren! (Possibly have mood swings/homicidal rage too 🤔)

@bez91 I'm just hoping and praying we find something soon🤞🏼 theyve managed to change his head appointment to 3 weeks after, feel a bit bad but it was his decision I suppose!

@Minster2012 I thought that, my step goal will be amazing next week! He's managed to change it to the 10th November! It's understandable but hold onto what they told you the other day and try and relax, we're all here with you❤️

@paintfairy he's doing it there I think! He's managed to change his head appointment to the 10th so that's good!

Realised too that according to flo ov is next Thursday, but my Fitbit says ov is next Tuesday, and OH goes away on Sunday morning for the full week!!

@Vil10 i think paintfairy has a point on the SA timings! Christ your dog situation isn't ideal - typical that OH just assumed!

IT wise I'm okay today, I'm still just bleeding like a stuck pig... I wish I could sleep the whole week away!

Welcome @MrsBiddy - no smep here as it would kill OH 🤣

I had a look at the mat leave policy and it's super hard to decipher as per usual but I think it's effective immediately...

@juno231 can't believe your new place didn't give you a laptop surely that's standard! Hope today went better.

@Minster2012 put the notes away in a drawer for today, they'll still be there to fill out in a few days time but for now if its causing you upset just hide them away. Big hugs.

I'd like to tell you not to worry and be chilled like me but that's 100% a lie given I'm sitting in the car park wanting to actually throw up with nerves 🙈 Managed to get the afternoon off work to get a private scan booked while DS is at nursery, it's not for another hour but I couldn't focus at all in work so my boss let me sneak out early so sitting in the car park dutifully sipping my water trying not to be sick (and not from morning sickness, I'd be happy if I had that!) All symptoms have still ran away, still getting intermittent heavy cramping but no bleeding. As stupid as it seems I'm forking out for a private scan as I couldn't actually face phoning EPU, I think the lack of tact or NHS support with all the previous losses has actually traumatised me from wanting to have anything to do with them. I know due to the cramping and spotting I could have phoned and had a free scan but I just couldn't face dealing with them yet unless absolutely necessary. Anyways that's my ramblings over will report back later, keep everything crossed ladies, I need it 🙈🤞🤞🤞🤞🤞

Lots of luck and good thoughts @DKDK123 thinking of you

Good luck @DKDK123 everything crossed for you 🤞

@DKDK123 good luck 🌈🌈🌈🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Minster2012 if it makes you feel better book it 💕 you sound very much like me. Up and down, every day is a bloody rollercoaster. I thought I was going to have to tell someone at work earlier I had the strangest vision issue and couldn't see properly for about 40 mins (apparently can happen due to hormonal changes 🤦🏼‍♀️)

@Vil10 glad it got moved, shame it's so far away. Feels like lesser of 2 evils 😔 oh not ideal timing on his little getaway, just get in as much as you can before and after

@Juno231 oooh that sounds promising like what as soon as you start you're entitled to full benefits? Mine was 2 years hence why we thought we'd time not to try until a certain date, if I knew it we'd have issues I wouldn't have postponed 🤦🏼‍♀️

All positive vibes for you @DKDK123 💕 thinking of you xx

@Juno231 your nose is still bleeding??? And it would be great if that's the maternity policy...let's hope it is 🌈🤞🏻

How annoying he'll be away @Vil10 always the way 🙄

@paintfairy won't be long 🤣😂

@Manifestingbaby I think you do have more symptoms! And I did during AF too, it's such a cruel twisted joke isn't it??! Do you have anyone to aim your rage at??

We might be on fish finger butties & chips tonight Cos I'm in just such a malaise I can't face pouring over a risotto 😔

Oh that's good of the EPU @bez91.

You don't need to do them yet @Minster2012, why not leave it until Monday?

God even reading that has blown my mind @Vil10 but it's a lot of walking and a lot of dogs!

Oooh @Juno231 that would be incredible!

@DKDK123 fingers so tightly crossed for you sweetheart 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼

@DKDK123 ooooh best of luck ♥️♥️

@Minster2012 yup, sat at my kitchen table catching blood in tissues as per the pic...

@DKDK123 got everything possible crossed for you girl 🤞🏻🤞🏻🤞🏻🌈

@DKDK123 everything crossed for you xxxx

@dkdk123 positive vibes ❤️😘

Sorry haven't been on ladies been really struggling last few days to cope, not doing well at all. Tablets are making me feel worse atm and counselling isn't really helping too. Just feel useless and keep arguing with DH as we are tired. Fed up of relying on my parents to help me every day. Why can't I do it alone, others manage fine?!

She could see the top of the gestational sac but couldn't tell if there was a heartbeat. However she couldn't get a clear view because of the size of my fibroid (tried internal and external) so it's either a mmc or the fibroids blocking too much because it's so small at this stage. All I can do is wait 2 weeks and rescan to see if anything bigger can be seen but it didn't sound hopeful. Think it was actually worse hearing the limbo land than if I were just told outright it was bad news, as least I could process it and move on, really wish I hadn't gone for the scan now. The scan lady was lovely tho and she was over half an hour proding and poking trying her damn hardest to see something I could see the determination and desperation in her face really wanting to find something and not being helped by my wobbling abdomen as I'm trying my best to hold back the sobs on the table the longer she's looking 🙈😢

@DKDK123 an external scan at around 7 weeks with fibroids will be very difficult to see darling. I would really urge you to go to the EPU (or one in another hospital if you have another you can get to) and tell them you've been bleeding, got pain & tried to get a scan & they couldn't see anything & they urged you to go get it checked. I know you e had bad experiences before but it's over 6 weeks so should scan you & it might help not be on the limbo anymore

All the love and hugs fellow ostrich ❤️💓🌈🤞🏻🤞🏻

Oh mate that's not the answer I hoped for @DKDK123. I second @Minster2012 and say perhaps you could brave the EPU - is there a different one you could try? They should be able to do a TV scan?

@Kirky658 there's so much I can't do that others can (lose weight, any sort of crafts, keep house plants alive, keep my bathroom clean...) so I don't think measuring yourself against others is a useful comparison. You had a really traumatic time of it. Could you get back out running or swimming? Might really help?

@larrythelizard I saw my counsellor today and just bawled my eyes out because I just feel like it's so unfair I have to struggle with feeling this way. I can't run till 12 weeks and would love to swim but don't have the time 😭

Oh mate it's completely unfair, you're not wrong there. Could you go swimming on an evening when DH is on daddy duty? @Kirky658

@dm91 I’m glad to hear they are looking into things with hormonal screening it’s a step in the right direction :) I never knew they were blood test shortages :o what are things coming to!
@Minster2012 that’s what I think we’re gonna do, ride it out for the NHS IVF and then pay private if we need to after as I’m not in a particular rush as I’ll be starting my new job and they’ll be judgey if im quick to go off no doubt! Sending hugs for your down day today you don’t have to think about filling the forms yet you can do it in your own time when your ready 😘 I love five guys there small chips could feed the 5,000 🤣
@Manifestingbaby sending hugs for AF it sucks big time xx
@Juno231 it looks like you had a really tough first day! Could the nosebleeds be linked towards stress? Sending hugs regardless xox
@bez91 that’s such a lovely thing that she picked up on it 🥺🙌🏻 strong sign there girl x
@gcat16 my last cycle was a shocker one, 117 days in total 🤣 and the cycle before that was medically induced from northisterone as no show for 3 month, but this cycle length has been 35 days :)! My pre coming off the pill life varied between 32-35 days which is my normal so happy days, thank you metformin! Ps deffo chase the appointment
@mrsbiddy welcome lovely! PCOS and metformin is my best friend, we are going together at the moment like biscuits in a cuppa!
@vil10 bless your OH wanting to sort everything out so the SA can go ahead! Snap with the dog sitting thing my inlaws are currently in KOS, we have 4 dogs at the moment at mine 🙃🙃🙃 I have the same feelings at the moment on here on MN my progress is so far and few between it’s hard sometimes to keep in line 🥲
@DKDK123 jumping in the bandwagon of the majority to say can you reconsider EPAU to see if they can see anything differently on another occasion than just waiting the 2 week as they’ll be able to do TV to see if they can maybe see past the fibroid? Sending lots of hugs over to you xx

Nothing to update guys, handed in my notice today so officially working my notice period! Felt like a weight was lifted.. got to work 8 week.. my new job said they are only giving me 2 week supernumerary which I don’t know how to feel with that one but I’m sure I can ask for more time if I’m uncomfortable :) looking forward to the fresh start though.. as for AF wish she’d bugger off she’s being a pain in my arse today

On a lighter note this made me laugh today 🤣

@Minster2012 thanks! How you feeling? Any luck? 💩

@larrythelizard thanks! I'm struggling to think of doing next week tbh 😂 but I can do it 💪🏼💪🏼

@larrythelizard if I wasnt so knackered I would 🤣

@Kirky658 you're not useless, I've been there and it's not until I came out the other side I realised that. You're doing the most important job in the world in keeping a small human alive; it's 6:30pm and you got through another day. Do something for yourself though, even just a walk alone or getting out the house alone shopping - no excuses! My inbox is always open 💕

@DKDK123 I'd echo @Minster2012 about contacting an EPU and tell them what the private sonographer saw/said. I found after I'd gone to EPU a day after a private scan the diagnosis was slightly different, not that private ones aren't as good/qualified etc but NHS will certainly probe more ❤️ all the love to you.

Wahoo to normal cycle @kaylsd this isn't half an improvement!

Argggh the nosebleeds @Juno231 do you usually get them? I used to suffer terribly as a child and still have spates of them now

@DKDK123 minster said all the clever things, listen to her wisdom! Sounds like spotting a heartbeat that early on with big fibroids would very difficult

@bez91 no until this cold I think I've only ever had one nosebleed before. It was last August late in my tww and I was desperately hoping it was a sign of pregnancy

@kaylsd nah I wasn't even particularly stressef yesterday, just wasn't a nice day. I think it's the cold dry air combined with me blowing my nose a million times a day.