TTC after ectopic part 3

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@coffeewithmilk @HereIfYouNeedMe @myrainbowjourney

@Luan82 thank you lovely, me too!! I'm in at 08:40!xx

Hello ladies im back ( original poster from part 1)

I'm so glad to see the thread I started has really helped ladies feel able to support each other.

I'm still trying since my tube removal in Feb 2020 no pregnancy has happened since. Fingers crossed you all get your rainbows soon.

Nice to hear from you @Mumlili9, hope you are doing okay

@MrsB2019x I'm getting by. Hoping for the best and dealing with the worst. How are you doing

@Luan82 @HereIfYouNeedMe
Lots of love for your scans tomorrow 🥰🥰 xx

@Mumlili9 glad you found the thread ❤️

I am feeling super anxious tonight. Huge surprise but I got a positive test on Tuesday - very unexpected. I would rather hide under a rock than talk about it but I had to get my prescriptions so needed to call my nhs consultant.
Took another test today - afternoon not FMU, and the test might be marginally darker, but not what I expected so im now really worried this will be another loss, be it miscarriage or ectopic.

I had told myself I wasn't going to test any more after the first one, but here we are 😩 xx

@myrainbowjourney thank you lovely!
Oh I'm sorry you feel so anxious, when is AF due?
@Luan82 sending you all the luck today! 🌈 xx

I think today, but I'm taking progesterone so I'm not sure I'll bleed while taking that.
My test is lighter again today so I'll call EPU and see if they'll do some blood tests.

But less of that negativity, it's scan day ❤️❤️

@myrainbowjourney I hope you're ok! Let us know how that goes
Here now just waiting for the scan now 🤞🏼

@Luan82 best of luck today. Please let us know how you get on.

I am in shock this AM. 1st cycle TTC post tube removal in May, 10 DPO today and this came up.

I was not expecting it at all so pancaking a big time. Period is due on Tuesday but I am going to start my aspirin as prescribed today!

May help if I add the test!

Not ectopic and saw the heartbeat!! 🤭🥳🌈

@HereIfYouNeedMe that's such lovely news. Congratulations 🥰🥰

And same to you @Louise276. Will be keeping everything crossed for a healthy pregnancy.

First round of bloods done. I feel so sad about it all. Ugh, need to snap out of it xx

@HereIfYouNeedMe Amazing news!! 😍🌈

Congratulations @Louise276 😍 I think that’ll be a pretty decent line on a FRER

@Mumlili9 I’m glad you are coping okay, where abouts are you in your journey now?

@myrainbowjourney Wishing you the best of luck xx

@MrsB2019x thank you.

Sadly already confirmed a chemical as my blood was negative. Worrying as I'm still getting lines on an frer, albeit faint.

I've just become numb to it now. I'm emotionless about it x

I'm currently 17 months since my ectopic, no pregnancy since. Consultant said that ivf is my best shot but hubby will not entertain the idea as he's catholic. Today I think im either 2 or 3 dpo. We're continuing to try naturally ( well I am , he's given up) so keeping fingers 🤞

I’m so sorry @myrainbowjourney

Fingers crossed for you @Mumlili9 xx

I am so stupid. After 3 pregnancy losses the anxiety is crazy, stupidly took another test this AM, not FMU and my urine was pretty diluted but pretty much no line anymore.

I am thinking either chemical or a dodgy test. Why can I not have any self control and stop testing?

I am an idiot. I wish I hadn't told my DH I had a + but I keep telling myself that we are in this together and I cannot go through the anxiety all alone

@Louise276 don't feel like you're silly for testing again. When I got my positive, I said I'd do no more and trust it, but I just couldn't. I needed to confirm it and it was the right thing to do.

Mine didn't end well, but I'm so glad I tested again because I'd have had a ridiculously anxious 2 week wait until a scan to be told it wasn't there.

We need to do what we can to stay as sane as possible. It's so much easier said than done to just say test once.

Try and take another in the same conditions and take it from there. I also drove myself mad testing at silly times of day like an hour after I'd been to the loo and having had drinks, just made a difficult situation even more difficult. Stick to the same times and I'm sure you'll see a darker line xx

@myrainbowjourney thank you for replying. It's shit isn't it, shitty mc shit! My urine was probably more diluted than FMU which I used yesterday but I don't think the line should have just vanished entirely. I just know it's over, even before it began.

When you did your first test on Tuesday did you tell partner? I wish all of this stuff we were dealing with solo, I find it so hard that the disappointment affects not just you but your partner also. When I test again when AF due, if it is negative as I am expecting, having to disappointment my husband again will break my heart.

The way I am feeling today is I am ready to give up and stop trying. The rollercoaster of the whole thing is really difficult

@Louise276 I'm so sorry to hear you are feeling so defeated by it. I've certainly been there too.

I did tell him, I had to go and get injections and progesterone as the recurrent miscarriage clinic had said I was to have them from a positive. It's annoying as that's why I tested early - to get the treatment - but if I'd just waited for AF I'd never have known probably and I'd have saved telling my partner too.

The thing is, it is horrible to tell them and then possibly have to give bad news, but you shouldn't have to deal with it alone. And he'd rather have known than later find out that you went through it on your own.

Plus, we don't know you're going to have to tell him anything yet. Did you test again?

It's so easy for me to say don't give up hope - I have so many times - but I want my rainbow and will do what it takes. I now look at it as a determination that I won't let these experiences define me and the rest of my life.
It will happen 🌈🌈 xx

@myrainbowjourney thank you so much for your earlier message, it has helped me more than you know.

I am in the same situation, test early as I know I have to take asprin from a +. As you say, we are in it together and it is important that you get the support and don't have to do it all on your own.

Haven't tested again, I am going to continue to take the asprin as prescribed and will just see if AF turns up. Due on Wednesday so I may try to wait then until I test again.

I just need distractions, it's so hard isn't it. Have come into town for a "me day" to try keep myself occupied. Have brought myself a pair of new sunglasses and going to have a nice lunch out.

Yeah I don't mean I want to give up, it is just so tough. You have good determination. I seem to go up and down with it, but like you say, we will do anything. We can do this! Much love xx

BFN today. I am hoping it was a dodgy test and not either a chemical or an ectopic which is not producing any HCG (I know this is rare but it happened to my friend so it can happen). I know for sure that I will not be using the cheap tests anymore!

Due on tomorrow/Wednesday so I am hoping AF just turns up as normal!

X

@Louise276 So sorry xx hope you enjoyed your lunch and you got a nice pair of sunglasses x

I got my results back I have The PAI-1 gene 4G/5G gene mutation. I honestly can’t find much about explaining exactly it is. I just understand it is linked to blood clotting so when I get pregnant again I need to go straight into heparin injections until 34 weeks. I just need to get pregnant again which is doesn’t seem that easy !! But at least I know what it is now and that something hopefully can be done x
Hope everyone is getting the opportunity to be out in the sunshine xx