Month 12, 6 DPO, fed up and loosing hope

[fingerscrossed91]

Hi all,

I apologise in advance if this post is negative but I'm so so fed up with TTC. We have been trying for 12 months and haven't even had a hint of a line. My three best girlfriends (and soon to be bridesmaids) have all announced they are preggers this past month. Whilst I'm genuinely ecstatic for them I'm hurting so much as I don't believe it will ever happen for me.

I had to take a few days off work at the start of the week when the third told me they were preggers as I was just so overwhelmed and upset. A few days eating rubbish and watching Netflix made me feel a bit better but I have just lost hope that I will ever see a second pink line let alone have a baby.

I'm currently 6DPO and even though I know I won't be pregnant I'm still working myself up about it. I (stupidly) did a test today which was obv a BFN but it's like I can't help myself. It like a weird form of self torture!

I'd be so keen to talk to any hopeful mummas in a similar boat - let's keep everyone sain!

xxx

@fingerscrossed91 Aw hun I'm sorry about AF. It really is devastating no matter how much you expect it. Hope you're being extra nice to yourself and have a lovely weekend with your parents. Sounds like you have lots of nice thing to distract yourself on this new cycle, I wish I could say the same! I live a plane journey away from my family and most of my friends so it's hard, especially during Covid. I miss my little niece and nephew so much!

Good to hear that your OH is now registered and things are moving forward with the tests. How do you feel about taking the first steps? I think I actually enjoy going to appointments now because it makes me feel like someone is helping me, even if it's just a blood test. I'm a weirdo I know 😂

I agree that telling people you are ttc just adds more pressure. I haven't even told my mum as she'd probably ask me about it constantly and I'm not all that comfortable discussing it with her. Hopefully your maid of honour can steer the conversation during dinner then if it starts getting a bit too much. Your wedding will be such a lovely thing to look forward to and I'm sure you'll get a baby out before!

Oh I'm based in North Hampshire so the sea is at least an hour and bit away but it was a nice day trip. I grew up not far from the sea and OH knows I miss it! Where are you based?

@HJen22 are you gonna keep testing hun? I would say you're still not out as I've read so many stories of no period and BFNs for days after and then that turned out to be the month. I was going to ask if either of you ladies had the vaccine so I'm keeping my fingers crossed it's not that. I still haven't got my first dose (I'm awful I know!), I just don't think I could handle the stress atm if it did have an effect on my cycles.

I would love to cope better this month too, funny enough that's the same yoga vids on youtube that I was doing! I liked her a lot but felt I had to stop for a while as I think it was making me focus on ttc even more. I almost feel like it won't happen until I'm not thinking about it but that has to be nonsense, and also never gonna happen haha!

Hope you have a lovely family lunch today and sounds like you have some things to look forward to coming up! Your holiday sounds fab, how long is it for? I would love a trip to Scotland, I haven't been for so long and keep meaning to do route 500.

Aw how old is your puppy? I'm busting to move house as our current place really isn't suitable for pets and I want a dog!

You ladies are inspiring me to stay positive this cycle! Going to try so hard not to cry about it. I actually find just after ovulation one of the hardest times as I convince myself it hasn't worked. Hoping I won't track this month and that would make it easier, depends if I need to redo progesterone bloods though. I'll find out on Monday. Have a lovely weekend you two!xx

I hope you ladies had a lovely weekend! Monday comes round so quickly doesn't it!

How are you both? After saying I was feeling positive i had a bit of a meltdown on Friday night to myself, OH was out watching the football, i watched a film that had a nice happy ending and it set me off and i howled a lot haha! So it didnt last long, but i am hoping thats it out of my system! I hope you both are doing good and staying positive :)

AF finally appeared for me yesterday, which I was glad about as i didnt want it to be 10days late like one month last year! Its kinda messed up my predicted cycles though and i had given dates to the clinic for my scan and hycosy in August. I called and they've sent me a letter so im to call back when i get it and i think then decide what date in August is best, she said there are 4 Thursdays to choose from. Cant TTC beforehand, so it would be better before Ovulation so we can try after! I hope!

Aww thats funny it was her yoga you were doing too! I like her, but i know what you mean, sometimes its nice to try and just not think about it!

We are away the Monday - Friday so that will be nice. Scotland is great, the weather can be a tad temperamental though! We've had a few staycations which we probably wouldnt have done if it weren't for covid so its been nice to see parts of Scotland we hadnt been to before. Route 500 would be lovely, ive not done it! Do you have anything planned?

Our puppy is 5 months old, she helped be a bit of a distraction, the month we got her we didnt even bother TTC and just took a break. She def brightens up my day! She is lots of fun, she's getting big, a german shepherd so they aren't the smallest of dogs haha!

Off to my acupuncture appointment today, see how that goes! Not sure what to expect, i didnt say what it was for so i just hope they can do stuff for fertility. xxx

Hey!

I'm doing as well as I can really, got a telephone app with the doctor today and feeling nervous all of a sudden about my blood test results. Also have so much to say and don't want to forget so currently making a list!

My weekend was ok, went clothes shopping and had dinner out for the first time in ages so that was nice. Other than that it was pretty uneventful and it rained alot here. How was your weekend? Honestly you wouldn't believe the amount of meltdowns I have so don't feel bad. And they can come on really suddenly too

Did you say you were in Aberdeen? We used to go every year when I was younger to visit family friends. And yeah I'm used to temperamental weather so doesn't bother me 😂 Only thing I have planned is back to Ireland in August for a couple weeks to visit my family. We were supposed to go to New York last Sept, which then got pushed back to May this year and obvs didn't happen. I'm ok with it though, I didn't really want to go abroad as I thought I would be pregnant by now but also starting to realise I can't put my life on hold

Sorry that AF came, but on the positive it means the vaccine didn't have TOO much of an impact with it only being a few days late. I've read some horror stories on here about no periods at all. Hopefully you can still get a date in August that means you won't have to miss ttc that month (if needs be) But this is gonna be our month ladies!!

Your pup sounds great💙 I really want a pet to cuddle and help distract me!

Oh and good luck with acupuncture today! I'll be interested to hear how it goes! xx

I hope the appointment goes well, and the Dr can answer all of your questions, I am sure they will!! I know, its totally nerve wracking, everything in this journey is just waiting isn't it. But positive thinking :)

Oh that sounds nice! Shame about the weather though, it's always better when its sunny or at least dry isn't it! It was quite a nice day here Saturday and then rained yesterday a bit, thankfully only got heavy just after our dog walk haha!

Ah are you from Ireland? But live in the UK now? That must be really hard not being able to see your friends and family :( something to super look forward to in August! Yes Aberdeen, well slightly south in a wee place called Stonehaven about half an hour from the city centre, but i'm originally from Aberdeen.

We had planned to go to NYC last year too, we hadn't booked anything and then covid hit so we never went either! And it was the holiday we planned before TTC. Same, i thought i would have been too, and i also always think like oh i'll maybe not manage this or that. My OH bought gig tickets for Edinburgh ages ago last year for this August and I had said I wasn't sure cos i'd not want to go if pregnant, but i will go now seeing as i'm not! I think you just can't help thinking and hoping about the future, but i guess we need to live in the now!

Yeah i had read some threads and was a bit worried it was going to massively mess up my cycle! Last months was already weird being only 1 day!

I royally F'd up the appointment ha! So it was done via email and i hadn't said, or was asked what exactly it was for. Turns out the lady doesn't do for that sort of thing, just like muscular and pains etc. She was lovely and so understanding and recommended someone else (who i actually already knew about) but i think i will just leave it for now!

xxx

Aw hun, sorry to hear the appointment wasn't what you thought. Did you have any sort of treatment today? I'm glad she was nice and understanding anyway.

Yeah I'm from Northern Ireland and moved a few years back for the OH (he's from Hampshire). I enjoy certain things here but sometimes feel really lonely and miss my family so much. In my head when we have a baby we'll have to move back because it just won't be any fun without them! Not to mention childminding duties 😂

Can't believe you were meant to go to NYC too! Have you been before? I've always wanted to go but would give up any trip for a baby right now. I remember saying to my OH back in December that we can't go to NY in May because I'll be 6 months preg lol

Well had a lovely long chat with the doctor. My bloods were all normal and she's referring us to the fertility clinic for further help while we wait to get the SA done 👍
xx

Ach it's totally my fault 🙈 I should have asked if they did that, not realising it was a physiotherapist as well! Silly me! They also said they normally ask so kinda both of us! So no treatment, she was so nice it almost made me cry though and she said it took her a while so she understood the whole "just relax thing" isn't easy. I did one of the meditations on YouTube instead. So I think I'm just gonna leave it for now.

Does your OH have a big family here? Aw I know, handy for babysitting duties haha! Is he open to the idea? How long have you been in England for?

I've never been no! Have you? I had said we should go before TTC and then I wanted to start, we then kinda decided we couldn't be bothered with a really jam packed holiday and we'd maybe just have a week away in the sun and some weekends away, then Covid! I would like to go at some point though for sure! Same, I'd give up all holidays and anything for a baby!

That's great news your bloods all came back and she's referring you, it really helps when they are understanding. Was she able to answer all of your questions? Hopefully you'll get some info re the referral through soon, I'm sure we got a form to fill out a week or so after the GP referred us. Any update on your OH getting his SA organised? Xxx

I'm glad she was really nice though. A nurse at an unrelated hospital appointment recently told me it took her over a year to conceive and though it doesn't 'help' as such, I find some comfort in small things like that. It's nice when people are open and honest about it. Would you not be tempted to try the person she recommended?

Nope OH is an only child 😭 and it's basically just his mum here. I've been here 4 years and have been talking about going back for a while. He's willing to do it but it's just a pain to sort things out esp during Covid and now with the ttc thing it'll have to wait a while. The healthcare is better and less wait times here so willing to stay for that for now!

Never been to NY and was really looking forward to it last year but now I'm just so blah about it! I love travelling in general but as you know ttc sucks the life out of everything that was enjoyable.

Thank you, I'm quite relieved! She told me that we should have heard something about the SA by now, so I'm instructing OH to chase up again - I don't know why the receptionists can't even look on the system and tell him. Otherwise she told me where he would have been referred to, turns out it's not the local hospital at all but a clinic in Southampton (bit of a drive so he better be able to perform on demand lol). And she gave me a number for there too so we can ask them. She also said the fertility referral would take a couple of months at least so not to panic if I don't hear anything after a few weeks. Hoping I get something through the post soon like you did, even if it's just a form to fill in! Feeling quite relaxed about it this evening, I'm sure tomorrow morning will be a different story as I wake up with some new worry my mind concocts 😂 I'm having really vivid dreams atm about telling people I'm pregnant and last night I dreamt I was sitting with our baby in my lap.

Do you remember the days of thinking if you'd like a boy or girl and how many children? I always wanted one of each but now I'd just be happy with anything! xx

Yeah it's always a bit of a comfort, a nurse that did my bloods had some stories too and it makes you feel a bit more normal I guess. I actually think I had called that person but didn't get through, and my friend had recommended. But I was trying to get somewhere closer to home rather than city centre as can take ages going for appointments. I'll have a think about it. But I've also done reflexology and hypnotherapy (which cost a fortune, it helped me feel more positive for a little it then I was just back to normal worry and up and down moods) and it all adds up doesn't it.

Oh that's a shame; and yeah not so easy with Covid. That's good that healthcare is better here though and you can make the most of it!

Yeah there's been a few times we've been away recently and ive been like oh I'll maybe be pregnant. I remember thinking oh if I get get pregnant a certain month I'll be due when we go away with family; and that's almost here!

That's good she's said to chase them and also given you the number for the clinic. I hope it's not too far away from you! Your first appointment (other than the SA) might be video like mine so at least that was no travel time. I think the GP referred us around mid March and we can the call 1st June. I think there's a bit of a back log but it could have been worse I suppose. I'm glad you're feeling ok, I feel ok today too and hoping it continues this week. I'm going to do my left over clear blue OPKs I have as although it's not worked so far, at least I know when I've ovulated. If I don't and then AF is late it moves the predicted date which is annoying. Still DTD in fertile week but not on day of ovulation and day after like it had been originally.

Aw vivid dreams are so strange and real feeling aren't they! I hope soon it won't just be a dream 🥰

Yeah I'd be so grateful and have said I'd try my hardest to not moan in the slightest about anything whilst pregnant cos I'd feel so lucky. I'd love two; but as time goes on and my OH is a little older then me, it might not happen, I guess we'll just need to wait and see. He has a 12 year old from a previous relationship too. How old are your niece and nephew? xx

Ah I see, didn't realise it would be farther to travel. If it's going to stress you out getting to and from appointments it's not worth it for now. I think we get good at convincing ourselves that if we just do this one extra thing, that's the thing that will get us pregnant when sometimes it might just add to the pressure. I know it's also nice to feel we're doing all we can though, there's just no winning!

I know what you mean. Sometimes I can't quite believe that we're halfway through 2021 and I'm still not pregnant. Never could have imagined it would be like this.

The clinic is just shy of an hour away from us so not ideal but I'm not complaining. Just grateful for any help we can get. Was the consultant on your video call nice? Did they say what they plan to do if the hycosy gives the all clear and vice versa?

Going to try not to do opks this cycle but think I might cave 😕

Same! I think to myself when I get pregnant I won't moan about a single thing even if I'm sick as a dog. Famous last words!

I'm sure you will get your two. Men can keep having children for ages so keep positive! 38 is still young! Aww that's nice, are they a boy or girl? My niece is 8 and nephew 3, so there'll be a huge age gap as cousins to my ones! It really won't matter though, just your brain thinks everything doesn't it 😅

Have either of you ladies used preseed or conceive plus?

@fingerscrossed91 how are you? Hope you're keeping positive!

xx

@suzy124 hey lovely, I'm OK thank you although feeling a bit sorry for myself today. I'm annoyed that I have long cycles so it feels like forever between each one. It means I don't get 12 tries a year if that makes sense. It's silly as I know no amount of feeling sorry for myself will change things.

I had my day 3 blood tests the other day so at least that's something positive. I've also booked in for acupuncture this cycle, I'm willing to try anything now haha.

How are you lovely? xx

@fingerscrossed91 aw hun, that must be really frustrating. How long are your cycles? It might be worth asking the GP for clomid, I'm surprised they haven't suggested it?

It's good your first bloods are out of the way, things are happening and that's something positive to focus on. When is your acupuncture booked for?

I'm doing OK thanks, just trying to distract myself as much as possible really to avoid the meltdowns! Is the dinner with your bridesmaids this week?x

@suzy124 yeah I like the idea of trying new things but I've done quite a few so maybe if I just stop "trying" to do these things to chill out I'll be more chilled?! Who knows haha.

Yeah our consultant was absolutely lovely, I really liked her. The video was playing up so she called my mobile but just muted the video so that was good as we could still see her. She said if all clear on tests it will just be a case of keep trying til 2 year mark. And then if something does come up we should meet all other criteria for treatment should we have explained infertility. I think because they didn't actually do anything it felt like a tiny bit of an anti-climax but then she put me forward for the scan and HyCosy so it was productive.

Yeah I didn't bother with the OPKs this month but then wished I had cos my late AF. Did your day stay the same in your app?

I agree, age to me doesn't matter at all; I think it's a personal preference thing that he doesn't want to be feeling old and knackered. He has a super stressful job!
Never know though, it's just if first is taking this long and some more, just delays everything doesn't it.

Aww lovely! And they will love a cousin no matter what the age gap! I'd have liked a small gap with my nephews too, but hopefully we will have our dream soon! What cycle day are you now? I'm on 3 and AF is coming to an end, it's never very heavy or for very long.

@fingerscrossed91 I'm sorry to hear you're not having a great day, I hope you have a nice relaxing evening planned; bath, tv and early night will help. When should you hear back about your bloods? It's good to get the ball rolling and hopefully all comes back ok. And great you've acupuncture, it will probably convince me to try and book somewhere if you like it! When do you go?

Xxx

@suzy124 forgot to say, I've not used either but I've done a little bit of reading. Are you thinking about it?

OH's daughter is 12, going on 25 haha love her to bits, she lives in England but comes up for school holidays (she was here for 6 weeks at Xmas and we had to home school haha that was interesting!) so she'll be up in August 🥰

@HJen22 that's good your consultant was really nice, things like that really make a difference when it comes to medical appointments. I'm really hoping you'll get the all clear but it's also kind of a scary thought that you'll be told to go away and keep trying? I really thought even if unexplained after a year you'd still get some help? Yikes now I'm panicking!

Even though my period came early the day stayed the same in my apps - I use 3 now! Fertility friend and premom seem to get it bang on, femometer seems to completely disregard opks and just use temp. So sometimes it pins my ov day before I've even had my surge. So stupid. Which app do you use?

Glad AF is coming to an end for you, always good to get her out of the way! How are you feeling? I'm currently cd 9 and been having a wobble today. No one can seem to help us about the SA referral and it's stressing me out. Don't understand how hard it is to type something into a computer and check. OH says he'll try ringing again tomorrow

That's lovely that you have a great relationship with your partner's daughter, something to look forward to in August! 🥰

I was thinking about conceive plus this cycle but I'm hesitating. I used pre-seed one month and went to the doc thinking it had given me a yeast infection. Turns out it wasn't but it didn't agree with me anyway. Don't let that put you off though, I'm usually quite sensitive to things and definitely in the minority! Was just wondering if conceive plus would be any better but don't want to risk messing up another cycle. I just get so tempted when people say 'oh I used it the cycle I fell pregnant'. Then I also remind myself that the human race got this far without fertility lube! xx

@suzy124 hey lovely, sorry for the late reply. Ive been having a bit of a meltdown which is ironic as at the start of this cycle I was determined to be more chilled and positive 🙈 the feelings just kind of happen though and you can't really do anything about it.

I didn't know the doctor could give you clomid without your blood results? I have an appointment a week after my day 21 bloods to discuss the results so will suggest it then for my next cycle.

I'm on CD 7 but have been averaging 38 day cycles 😭 so I'm not due to ovulate for 18 days. It just makes it so drawn out. The doctor has said that my cycle length shouldn't be a problem as I have regular periods and OPKs suggest I am ovulating every month but who knows.

Dinner with bridesmaids was last night. It was nice to see the girls but in honesty it just felt a little too much as everyone was trying so hard to make me feel better it was a bit overwhelming. The others girls obviously know about my situation, I assume my mum or maid of honour told them, I suppose to explain why I've been so distant. I'm not mad at it as I'd rather someone else explain than have to do it myself. One of the girls was complaining about feeling nauseous at one point, I could have slapped her 🤣 (I didn't to be clear lol)

OH and I argued last night as he thinks I'm just being silly and the stress I put on myself is what is making it take so long. Him saying that though just makes it more stressful 🙈 what is wrong with me, I honestly feel like I'm going through puberty with my emotions atm 🤣

What cycle day are you on lovely? And how are things with you generally?

I'm so so pleased we have this chat. It makes me feel less alone ❤️ xxx

@HJen22 I'm pleased to hear your consultant was lovely, it really does make such a difference. Do you know when you hycosy test is going to be?

I hope you've been having a good week and are in a good mindset. How's the yoga going?
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@suzy124 yeah she really was lovely. It could be different where you are, but up here it's 2 years :( it seems to vary across the country though! I feel like its a lose lose which is a terrible way to look at it, and I shouldn't look at it like that! I will try and be more positive!!!

I have just downloaded Premom and bought some easy@home OPKs to try this month, thank you for making me aware of it! I use Femometer but it alsways moves the days about depending on when my period comes. Unless i do OPKs and BBT. So i will compare with Premom this month! I have been using CB opks too with the smiley faces, i think ill do them and premom this month to compare that also!! Ive tried a few different apps, and then just kept the Femometer one.

I'm sorry to hear you have had a wobble :( it happens to us all! Thats so very annoying no one can help you with SA! What are the clinic saying about it, are they waiting for a referral from the GP? Keep chasing them up!

It could be worth a try! I have read good things! I did think about it, but I have a funny feeling my OH might say the same, plenty people manage without, and he will just thinking im trying something new for the sake of it! But where is the harm in trying!

@fingerscrossed91 aww don't worry, i said i was going to be positive and then had a meltdown that day! Put the bad days behind you, don't be too hard on yourself, we can't help the way we feel. Its such a hard, worrying and lonely journey at times. Hopefully ovulation day will be here before you know it!

I am glad your bridesmaids took your feelings into consideration, I can imagine it was still very hard for you though :( don't feel bad about how you feel, its totally normal and i have read SO many people say the same thing, and I feel the same.

Ugh my OH can be the same, I can tell he thinks i stress too much, they really don't think about it as much as we do, and it's our bodies! Sometimes they just can't say the right thing, when we just want them to say it's ok to feel sad and upset, and just give us a hug! Men! Sending a big virtual one

So I got my letter through yesterday and called today, I am booked in for August 19th and I'll get a call from consultant day before. No DTD before hand, but fingers crossed it will be a few days before ovulation and i can try after, and if not well that month is out! They did have 5th August available but if i took that it would mean the whole of July out as AF would be due anywhere from end of first week/start of second week August. Confusing when cycles vary but i found a good site that could predict and show different cycle ranges, and 19th should be fine. I hope so anyway as if not, and I had to change, it would likely be another 2 month wait seeing as they are doing August appointments now in June! Until then, just need to keep trying!

I am enjoying yoga, and trying to keep up the meditation. When do you go for acupuncture? xxxx

Hope you had a nice weekend ladies, it rained pretty much all the time here. Think I'm ovulating in the next day or so although haven't pee'd on a single stick so far. Just feeling like I couldn't be bothered obsessing this month and every other day will suffice. OH finally got through to his GP last week who referred him again for the SA, then the fertility clinic e-mailed him the next day with some kind of registration thing. No appointment yet, but relieved that they've made contact at least.

@fingerscrossed91 aw hun sorry you've been having a tough few days, how are you feeling now, any more positive? The meltdowns are inevitable in such a journey like this, we just have to let them come and go and know that in the end all of this pain will have been so worth it.

I don't know much about clomid, just that I was speaking to someone on here whose cycles were 35ish days and she hadn't had any bloods yet. The doctor put her on clomid to shorten them, it lengthened the first one (apparently that's a common side effect) but the 2nd one was normal and she fell pregnant that cycle. Definitely speak to your doc about it after your next bloods, 38 days is such a long time to wait and as you say you're not getting as many chances in the year.

I'm glad the dinner went ok, but yes I would have wanted to do the same in your position!! And don't worry about what your OH said, I know when people say that it's super frustrating because it really doesn't help and just adds to the stress. Just know that it will happen and you're not doing anything wrong!

@HJen22 that just seems crazy tho that it's advised to get checked out after a year of trying but they won't do anything until after two if unexplained? It's such a long time and meanwhile we're not getting any younger!

Yeah I like the femometer interface the best but I don't know why it doesn't take into account the OPKs? Like last month I had a temp dip at cd13 and it put that as ovulation, even though my positive opk was on cd15. Hope you get on well with premom, I don't like the way it looks but for me it's way more accurate, as is fertility friend.

Well didn't buy conceive plus in the end, thinking I'll give it a go next cycle if this one doesn't work. We probably won't be able to try in August so thinking I'd throw everything at the next one before then😂 It's impossible to know what' really worked for people though, who's to say it wasn't their lucky month anyway!

Good news about your hycosy, and fingers crossed it won't impact ttc that month! Where are you in your cycle now?

xx

Happy Monday ladies! Oh thats a shame it rained loads! It was quite nice up here and sunny again today! Did you have a good weekend minus the rain?

Oh that's great news that the ball seems to be rolling now for the SA. It can all just seem so slow can't it, but that's progress and hopefully once he is registered he can then get an appointment made! How is he feeling about it all?

I hope you are feeling better @fingerscrossed91 and had a nice weekend too! And are feeling more positive! Yeah totally agree with what @suzy124 says, it will all be worth it in the end, and we need to not be too hard on ourselves when we have bad days!

Well done for not peeing on any sticks this month! I have done the opposite after not tracking last month and my period being "late" a few days. I used the Clear Blue OPK and the Premom sticks, as i was a bit worried the CB was wrong in previous months. Depending on my temp, i think ovulation might be tomorrow or the next as I got Peak on CB today! But like you say, just going to do it every other day as its likely the day will change so no point trying to pin point and then be disappointed if we didnt on the best days like predicted. Such a minefield! Today is Cycle Day 9, what day are you?

I got a letter through about HyCosy today, im not sure if my OH can come or not, its a standard info sheet and says partners should where they can, but what with covid im unsure. I have a consultation call the day before so i suppose i can ask then! August will probably end up being out for us with that booked, as now my ovulation is looking earlier on than it predicated, it might be after ovulation i get it done. But who knows, the apps jump about all the time! I really wont know until AF comes in August, but i guess i just need to be prepared that August will likely be out for TTC.

Do you have anything exciting on this week? My week is looking quiet. @fingerscrossed91 when do you have your acupunture? Look forward to hearing about it after my failed attempt!!

xxx

Yeah it feels so slow for sure! He was told on the phone that it's done at home and we bring the sample to them, but we're like an hour away from the clinic so somehow I don't think that's gonna work! At the same time I do worry a bit that he might not be able to perform at the clinic, it would be so much pressure in that environment. We'll see what happens! He hasn't said how he feels about it, he's not one to worry but there's bound to be some anxiety about it. How was your OH with it all?

I know what you mean about clearblue, I've only used them the past two months but I was making sure to do cheapies as well to make sure it was accurate. I find that I get my static smiley, then the opk peaks the next day and ovulation the following day. So it's nice it gives me more warning, but obvs hasn't helped yet even with perfect timing 😂 Are your premom strips getting darker too? I'm currently cd14 (I think!)

Aw I hope your partner can come to the hycosy! It's not nice to go through these things alone. I'm sure it will be ok if the letter said so. And I know it seems like missing a month is the worst thing ever but i's just one try at the end of the day and perhaps a break would even do some good? With me heading home in August it's likely I'll miss ovulation too so we can be out together! Hopefully we get our BFPs before then anyway!

Nothing exciting happening for me this week either, just trying to keep busy with other things really. Glad you had some sun at the weekend, did you do anything nice? We were pretty lazy 😐 xx

Yeah my OH had to go in and book a room at the clinic as we weren't city centre! And then they had it straight to the lab there! Perhaps ask them again, is he now waiting for them to call back with an appointment? My OH wasn't looking forward to it at all and was anxious about the results but it all came back Ok, hopefully your OH's does too!!

Yeah I just wasnt sure with CB at all, but after having 2 high results yesterday it updated the first one yesterday to Peak as well, so i will see what it says today at 12! All very confusing! But I also haven't had a temperature dip or rise, so who knows if the app will then update and push the day of ovulation forward?! Just need to keep trying to DTD the next few days as much as we can to cover all bases i guess! That is easier said than done sometimes though!

I'm just not too sure as its a standard leaflet thing that they will give out, but the actual letter that talks all about covid and rules doesn't say anything about someone coming so I will need to ask! Yeah it may do some good to have a month break again, this is cycle 17 :( so by the time of HyCosy it will be 18! I hope we do get our BFPs before then!

That will be great to head home though, how long will you be there for? Lots of fun things planned?

We had a bbq at my friends for her little boys birthday, which was nice, and other than that, Sunday I was dying bizarrely, I hardly had any drinks Saturday, ate plenty and went to bed not late but I felt horrendously hungover on Sunday so that wasn't fun at all! I think I because i hardly ever drink now, sometimes when i do i just don't take to it very well! Much on this weekend? xxx

Evening all, sorry I've been so rubbish on here lately. I seem to have been having non stop meltdowns atm. Has a big cry today but am feeling better for it. Sometimes you just need to let it out.

I went to a wedding yesterday which was a lovely distraction.

Random, but do any of you get spotting on CD 13/14? I randomly did but I don't think it can be ovulation as I'm not due to ovulate for over a week xx

Hey All

Mind if I join?!

Background story - been TTC for a year now!!

Has an early miscarriage in January (was a complicated mess) and started TTC again in April

Tested this morning with IC at 13dpo and BFN 😔 so guessing im out again this month with AF due tomorrow/Saturday!!

Honestly thought it was my month as I felt nauseous around 6dpo, been exhausted and had fluttering feeling in my lower abdomen!!

Fingers crossed for everyone else 🤞🏻 xx

@HJen22 that's understandable, I think my OH is probably more anxious about it than he's letting on but I am definitely more nervous than him! Good news though, the clinic texted him this morning to make his appointment so another small win 👍

How did things go with CB and opks? Hope the app is matching things up nicely. My ovulation appears to be late this month. Even though I haven't used opks I started off temping this cycle so just carried on, temp is still low and I'm cd18 so not sure what's going on.

Ah I understand, well August isn't far away now so hopefully they'll tell you he can come for support! And wow cycle 17, you are definitely due your BFP very soon!!

Re going home it will be for at least 2 weeks. I haven't booked a flight to come back yet haha! Going to go for lots of beach walks, get my hair done (yes I still get that done at home!), spend time with my niece and nephew, see friends and do some nice things with my mum. My OH will be coming but for maybe just a week, my parents haven't seen him for a year and a half. When is your week away this month and what kind of things have you got planned?

Haha I can relate, I've always been a total lightweight! That sounds nice though although I'm sure it's also a bit difficult to attend things like that atm. Nothing planned for this weekend yet, says it's gonna pour down again so probably alot of time indoors! How about you?xx

@fingerscrossed91 Aw I'm so sorry you're struggling lots this month, this is such a tough journey and it's ok to cry about it. I have had months where I've cried at least once every single day! Just remember that this will all be a distant memory someday.

I've actually never had spotting as far as I can remember, is this a new thing for you this month? Are you testing for ovulation?xx

@Lynne425 Welcome! I'm so sorry about your miscarriage, it must have been absolutely heartbreaking.

Remember you're not out till AF shows. Do you temp as well?

It's so tough in the 2ww as we notice every twinge and flutter but I find it's best not to read too much into them as there really is no way to tell! Fingers crossed that the witch keeps away for you!xx

@HJen22 I'm pleased to hear that your OH is able to get an appointment sooner. It's such hard working sorting appointments especially when you have had to wait a year before even contacting the GP.

I'm feeling OK today. I'm not temping or using OPKs this month, I think I needed a bit of a break from it all. I'm going away this weekend so hopefully that will take my mind off things a bit.

@Lynne425 welcome lovely. I'm so sorry to hear about you MC. Try not to get down-heartened with a BFN at 13dpo. There are lots of posts on this site with people not getting a BFP until much later so you aren't out 😊 when are you planning to test again? xx