TTC 35+ thread 11

[VixFromThe6ix]

New thread! I dunno how to tag everyone from the other thread 🤣

@Marvellouslymadmum they didn’t want to give us it because of his iffy sperm and we’re still waiting on latest results from urologist. But I’ve just requested it now, I’m so tired of doing nothing to help.

Could you spotting (if it’s that?) be low progesterone?

@thislittlebird if you request it o don't see how they can really say no!

I honestly don't know? I'd say it's more than spotting but not full flow if that makes sense 🥴 I've got to ring the docs today to ask for my iron blood test results so I'll ask for another doc appointment then I think

@thislittlebird Yes saw a nurse, she spoke very rapidly, it was hard to understand a lot of it! Definitely a frantic vibe! Would just like a nice calm meeting at some stage where we don’t feel rushed!🤪
Attached a pic of what I was given which yes includes the sharps box. Due to start beginning of August.

Called the GP and praise the lord, she agreed to all my blood tests (although I don’t think she realises I had them done a year ago- here’s hoping she doesn’t notice!)

I hope they agree to your request. All the waiting is very hard to take.

@Marvellouslymadmum I hope so. I know they said it might not be for us but nothing is for us so far, because we can’t get appointments. I feel like we should try, maybe it’s just throwing money away, I dunno. DH said we could go elsewhere if they say no.

Have they referred you to a gynaecologist? Maybe they should 🤔

@Misty84 ugh frantic is not what you want. It’s so soon, it’s scary but at least it’s progress.

They haven’t replied yet, I don’t know what they’ll say. 🤨

@thislittlebird something will work it's definitely worth trying everything at this stage! Yes I have a gynae appointment in august (the one that was supposed to be November originally) I was referred originally
For infertility but with the suspected endo it's kind of for that too, I've made an appointment to speak to the doc on Monday as I just feel like I need to report everything now so it's all there for the appointment.

@Misty84 that's quite a little haul you have there!

The price of my drugs is £1800…I am just gobsmacked at the expense of all this. 🥺

3 more days until AF/no AF 🤞🙏🤞🙏

@Misty84 yikes. who is that with? Did you try the ASDA trick?

@thislittlebird That’s from the clinic, can I get them at Asda pharmacy for a reduced price then? God we will make savings anywhere we can!!

Took a little break from TTC googling.

@thislittlebird
I read Ur updates and was thinking about my life. I guess my life is literally at a standstill because of ttc. It's like I stop seeing any meaning to my life until and unless I get a bfp. When I wanna eat something, plan to go somewhere, do anything really - the first thing that pops into my mind is - how does that affect my hypothetical baby.

It's like my life has no purpose apart from trying to achieve a bfp. It shouldn't be so ...but I can't help it. And I make my partner's life all about it too.

I'm just ranting because I just broke down all of a sudden today ...I was calm and ok and the next sec I'm all in tears ...sigh

Btw I got this textbook ovulation when I'm under letrozole. I ovulated on cd14 (not sure if I missed it coz we bd two days before and that night of ovulation. Sigh. Kinda feel like I'm out this cycle anyway.

But it feels good to have textbook ovulation. I used fewer opks and am visibly less stressed over..have I ovulated lol

Exactly the same @AnxiousWannabe. Everything is on hold, everything revolves around our nonexistent bfp.
Would love to let go and be able to enjoy life again (eg. get drunk!) but the guilt isn’t worth it. It sucks!

@Misty84 apparently yeah, if you’ve got time and you know what you need find an Asda pharmacy and ask for a quote. It’s one of the ivf tips I’ve seen on here. They do them at cost price (I think) but it’s a bit slower so not something you can get in a day or two or that sort of thing.

Here’s a link www.asda.com/baby-club/pregnancy/the-abc-of-ivf

First time I’ve googled it too. I didn’t realise why they did it. They give an example there but £500 less is not to be sniffed at

@AnxiousWannabeim i think I’m quite relaxed about how things would effect a hypothetical baby because I don’t expect to have one at this stage. If ivf works I’ll worry about what will effect me then. But either way, my life is on hold and it’s hard and I hate it.

I also had a meltdown today, it was about work and I think all this is just making me generally emotional and sad.

Did you have to do anything to get Letrozole? Any monitoring? Tests?

I keep breaking down today and it's hard.

Looks like my post wasnt sent out!

My letrozole cycle worked like this:
Cd2-7 one letrozole pill per day
Cd 10 scan 1
Cd13 scan 2
Cd14-15 ovulation
Cd21 day 21 test

My scans were to check my womb lining and follicle growth. My womb lining was borderline on cd 10 so I did more exercise and drown myself in pomegranate juice. I ended up having a pretty good lining and follicle growth on cd 13(not sure if it's due to what I did or just natural progression).

I usually ovulate late (cd22-23) so letrozole definitely helped in that sense..

@AnxiousWannabe That all sounds really positive and maybe this will work for you. How many cycles do they suggest you try it for?
Hope you're feeling better today x

I've also been putting my life on hold over fears that things I do might harm a tiny embryos chance of clinging on. Absolutely kicking myself that I delayed getting my first jab thinking that if I had it in the tww it might cause some kind of damaging inflammatory response or something. Now I'm not going to be able to get the second one done before I start ivf, unless I can find somewhere that will give 2nd jabs to people who 've had the first less than 6 weeks previously. So I'm going to be absolutely terrified of catching COVID during IVF cycle and will probably lock myself away entirely

@thislittlebird Hope you're feeling better today as well
@Misty84 🤞for no af
@Marvellouslymadmum Hope everything goes well with doctors

@KatRee So sorry about the Covid jab, when are you due to start ivf?

Thanks…one app said AF due yesterday but another says not until tomorrow…no spotting yet and I’m in that horrible limbo/hopeful/waiting phase. Ugh there’s no point hoping!!

@KatRee
I plan to only do one cycle. I can't go on like this. It's just too depressing.

Do take your covid jab. If u live in ldn, a lot of my friends had their second jab within five weeks. Some protection (from 1st jab) is better than no protection. Pls do it...u won't want covid to cause a miscarriage.

@Misty84 That bit's the hardest part of the cycle- the not daring to hope, but not being able to help it. I'm doing a lot of hoping for you over here 🤞🤞

@AnxiousWannabe Ah, ok- is the plan on to ivf after this one go then? I would have liked to try ovulation induction first, but the consultant gave me a higher chance of success with ivf (mainly on account of blocked tube) and advised chances would be higher the sooner we started as my ovarian reserve is probably declining rapidly .
I have had my first jab, but only 3 weeks ago, 4 weeks later than I was first eligible due to probably completely unfounded concerns. I heard of places offering drop-in jabs with only a 4 week gap a couple of weeks ago, but think they might have stopped as they got a bit of a telling-off from the government. Looking online everywhere seems to say 8 weeks now.

Due to start ivf in early August- not really sure what I'm letting myself in for yet. Feels like it's all moving very fast, which I am grateful for when I see what others come up against, but mentally not sure I'm prepared

@KatRee Yes I find the days when AF is due the absolute worst as it’s crunch time.

We will be starting IVF at the same time! I’m first week of August xx

Ok! Great that u had Ur first jab! I had my second at 6.5 weeks via a walk in. Will that work for you ?

I haven’t read up yet. I’m so devastated, my doctor I spent ages choosing because I’d read about her dealing with high AMH is retiring. I saw her and was so pleased to finally have a good private doctor helping me but no. She’s retiring. She won’t be helping me and I need to start again. I’m a mess, I don’t think I’m coping with this anymore.