Infertile donkeys hoping for the endo the ttc journey. Longing to be fertile unicorns!

[notyetamumbuttrying]

Buckling up for the ride of their lives, our infertile donkeys 🐗and some stats below:
@Annny27 29, no1 since June 19
@RobinRose 27, no1 since Oct 2019
@kerrym87 34 no1 since sept19

@Motherofkittens28 39 no 1 since aug19
@Yutes 34 no1 since aug19
@Crazydoglady123 32 no2 jan19, ivf started in April
@Marvellouslymadmum 42 no3 since April 18
@Tofu35 35 no1 since sep19
@Hayley19835 38 no1 oct18
@Narwhal88 32, no1 since jun19
@Dogmum13 29 no1 since dec19
@SlothMamaToBe
@Theawkwardblonde pregnant 🥳
@CreativeThinkerTequilaDrinker 15 months ttc ivf in June, ov 8th April
@2020mission pregnant 🥳
@Sjhigs 37 no1 since sep18 ivf consult mid April
@crazycatlady1981 39 no1 since Oct18, ivf in May
@PeanutButterBrownies
@Juno231 33 no1 since jan20
@clolo 31 no1 since jun19
@Aimzie 28 no1 4 years NTNP 22 months ttc
@VenusStarr 37 no 1 since nov17 ivf started in May!
@minibaker 30 no 1 since May 20
@paintfairy ttc no 1
@polejunkie
@MIW01
And me 😊 notyetamumbuttrying 35 ttc no1 for 20 months. Ivf started in May. Long protocol.

Another one of my (younger) cousins is pregnant. Stings like a wasp 🐝

Just got to keep reminding myself that their baby is their baby and whether they have one or not doesnt impact me it's just a reminder though isnt it!

@MIW01 oooh I am so jealous you got it so soon!! Mine is gonna be atleast 6 months they said ugggh

Do you have any endo symptoms?

@notyetamumbuttrying sorry AF arrived but how exciting that this is your IVF cycle:D

@crazydoglady123 so exciting lovely! Do you get a 6 week scan?

@notyetamumbuttrying not a lot today my oh just bought himself a new bike - I know not great for the swimmers but he won't be riding a lot and it's good for his fitness and mental health so hopefully it won't effect them too much! He wanted to go for a ride but it's been rainy and horrible here too so we've had a relaxed day indoors

@Annny27 sorry you have another family pregnancy, they're definitely hard to take! I've got my gynaecology appt at the end of august so won't even be speaking to them about the endo until then, I'll prob be told I've got to wait 6 months for a lap from then! but I'm just glad things are actually moving even if it is at a snails pace and hoping it's not too late for my fertility by the time it's all sorted. My appt came through for 3 months earlier than they said it was going to though so you may have something similar too!

@paintfairy we were relatively lucky today. Had good bouts of sun so the rain wasn't too bad! The forecast has been so off hasn't it, odd! Very frustrating with the iui cycles, can see why you're fed up already ❤️
@Annny27 ouch hun, it always stings doesn't it! Thanks, and yes it's nice to know that af showing doesn't really matter when we're half way through an ivf cycle. First scan is on Monday to see if ovaries are switched off, ready for the stimming drugs!
@Marvellouslymadmum a relaxed day indoors sounds good! I was surrounded by babies today and nearly had a panic attack half way through the day. Took myself off to calm down and was fine after. Two babies, one toddler to be accurate so playing with the toddler was fun.

@paintfairy how are you feeling today? I’m so sorry you feel so upset by it all, it does seem rather unfair that you’re in such limbo when you would probably benefit from going straight for IVF 💕

@notyetamumbuttrying well done you for removing yourself from a situation that could lead to a panic attack, it’s really not easy but you are in control 💪🏼 Oh and good luck for your scan tomorrow, let us know how it goes!

@Crazydoglady123 how are your veiny breasts today 🤣 hope you’re feeling ok still?

@Annny27 sorry about the announcement, you’re right it does sting, hope you’re feeling ok this morning?

I called Oxford Friday to chase up my cycle info and then received an email to confirm the booking nurse / drug company will be in touch this week hopefully🤞🏼

@notyetamumbuttrying it's hard when they're all around you but yes toddlers are the best! I wish that stage lasted longer they're just so cute!!

@polejunkie that's great news! Glad they're getting on with it!

@polejunkie yay so glad things are moving in the right direction hun! Thanks, I was just surrounded by the babies and screaming and the mums all cooing and I just went quiet and my leg started twitching so I knew I had to leave. Only took like 10 mins to gather myself and I was fine again afterwards and I was really enjoying the day so I'm glad I kept it together 😅
Thanks, will do! I reckon they'll say two more days and come bk again weds cos that'll be exactly 14 days on down regging then.
@Marvellouslymadmum she's 2 1/2 and just so cute and fun! She was really entertaining me! 🥰 how's your weekend been?

@notyetamumbuttrying oof well done you for not only de-escalating that situation but also being able to go back to it!

I don't know if I said but I got upset last week finding out one of my ex colleagues is expecting. I knew she was ttc and we'd been talking regularly about it so it hurt to find out through the grapevine that she's already far enough along to know the sex. I felt like I'd been lied to and that I had deserved to know before others told me. She said she just forgot to 🤷‍♀️

CD12 - jumped on OH on Friday morning and this morning - which is lucky as I just got my peak. Had a sneaky feeling it would happen today.

Sorry to hear there's been another announcement @Annny27 it's so tough! I've had painful periods since they started and they are heavy and clotty and dark and I get random pains elsewhere, ovulation pain etc. So lots of symptoms plus I'm diagnosed with ME/CFS and IBS and those have a lot of symptoms in common! But I always just got fobbed off and told to take painkillers or have a coil fitted - ludicrous!

@notyetamumbuttrying toddlers are so cute, when round to my BFFs yesterday for a couple of hours, she's 4 months pregnant and knackered so I entertained the toddler yesterday and she was so grateful!

@Marvellouslymadmum so expensive now!

@notyetamumbuttrying how was your bbq? Has your period pains subsided yet?

@paintfairy it's so bad that there's so much waiting between IUI cycles and you can't even start your ivf 😑

@Annny27 yeah the scan 6-8 weeks. Hopefully sooner rather than later though. Hope you're okay.

Amazing news @polejunkie!!! Are you on long protocol? Thankfully I don't generally wear low cut tops as my chest is very veiny still 😬

@Juno231 that's a strong opk line! Back to the two embryos I'd definitely recommended if you have enough quality embryos to freeze then go for two. A friend said it increases your success by 2%. On transfer day we had three A's and a C so used one A and the C so the other two A's got frozen and two more the next day grades as C's and was frozen. I don't think I'd want to go through a FET for a grade C so if this cycle hadn't worked I'd have done the same again.

I've just worked out on an ivf calculator that (obv if all goes well) I'd be due on 24th Jan but if twins 3rd Jan. My sons birthday is 27th December...Xmas is going to be a very expensive time of the year for us 🙄

Aww @Juno231 do you think she avoided telling you as she knew you were still trying? It's worse keeping it secret though and if that was the case it would be better if she was just honest and didn't pretend she forgot 🙄 Glad you got your peak today - hopefully this is the lucky month! Still think you're all better with the February onwards due dates 😅 I knew if it was ever going to happen for me that it would happen on the one month I'd have been ok with it not happening.

@Crazydoglady123 can't wait to find out if you've got twins in there! Will you be booking an early scan soon if the BFP sticks?

@Sausage1990 so sorry you ended up in there for 3 days I was hoping you'd be scanned and released after that first night of the bleeding and passing most of it. Good to hear that's you home now though to rest and wait for the test results to come back. Surely never again. You've got plenty of time 💕 take it slow.

@2020mission How are you getting on?
I'm the same as you-I couldn't think of a worse month than December to be due. But hey presto, my EDD is 26th December 🤦🏼‍♀️🤦🏼‍♀️ done really well there! 🤣🤣

I'm doing all right thanks @Theawkwardblonde I'm about 7+4 so still pretty early. How about you? Yeah my EDD is working out as 29th Dec right now so could easily happen on Christmas Day or New Year 😅 have to take what you can get though right?

I take it back, I've clearly got baby brain and have been posting replies to another thread in here 😅 sorry ladies. To be fair we have a lot of the same ladies across them all so it's hard to follow 😆

@Juno231 aw thanks 😊 I do feel proud of myself lol! How annoying of your colleague to forget to tell you when you'd been chatting about it at the start. Some ppl 🙄
Yay to peak! Glad you timed it all nicely 😃
@MIW01 they're good fun aren't they! Hopefully we'll get our own one day 🤞🏾
@Crazydoglady123 bbq was fun thanks 😊 yep they've subsided now thankfully 😅 how are you? Ooh very expensive time of year for sure then!! Bet you can't wait to find out!
@Theawkwardblonde haha no way! Sod's law eh!
@2020mission I didn't think sausage was part of here 😂 bless ya! Xx

@2020mission I had to scroll back and see if Sausage was on here as it really confused me 😂🙈 Yeah the clinic will scan between 6 & 8 weeks before discharging me over to the NHS.

@2020mission maybe but I have a feeling she has no clue how I feel about it all as her idea of struggling is trying for a couple of months whilst not tracking at all and being too tired to dtd due to her 3 year old...

@notyetamumbuttrying can I ask how long your stitches lasted? Mine are driving me nuts and show no sign of dissolving tbh! Getting a bit tempted to pull them out...

@Crazydoglady123 be weird going bk into the normal population of pregnant women won't it!
@Juno231 oh please don't pull them out 😬 I dislodged mine by accident with a towel and the scab came off so that scar looks rank! Have ordered some bio oil. All stitches are now gone apart from the one in my belly button. So give it two more weeks and yours will be gone I reckon.

@polejunkie yeah it's shite really.
@Annny27 sorry about another announcement. It seems they come thick and fast when you really don't want it!
@Juno231 yeah that would have annoyed me too. She must be like 20 weeks then?! How do you just forget to tell someone?

@Crazydoglady123 yes long protocol for me, already living up to its name 🤣 just feels like a constant waiting game and I haven’t even started meds yet lol

Evening all, hope everyone is OK?
I'm going for my first stims scan tomorrow morning and I've just started getting really nervous about it, I'm not sure why. Last time was such an awful rollercoaster and I had a really bad first scan, then a better second and third but all follicles but one empty on egg collection. I've been trying to tell myself it really doesn't matter what the scan showd tomorrow, so much can change by the second and they might all be empty anyhow. I dont want to be negative but I feel I've kind of written this cycle off before it's barely begun! It would be so amazing if I worked and I was pregnant for my wedding (but not showing!) But I just don't think that's going to be my story 😕

@Motherofkittens28 I can’t really help as I’m yet to even start a cycle so I don’t know how you’re feeling but I can completely understand why you’re nervous, it’s probably not a bad idea to not get your hopes up, in order to avoid any potential disappointment (as you felt before) but there is every chance this cycle will be complete different. Wish I could help but just think no matter how you handle it, the outcome remains the same, you can’t control what’s going on but you can control how you approach it. Just one step at a time, that’s the only way. Having said all that, of course you’re nervous and you want it to work, that’s why you’re here lovely 💐

Thanks @polejunkie, tbh it's just nice to vent about it. I don't feel like my friends are as interested now its our second cycle and sometimes I just really need to talk about it. I'm not really sure my OH is as invested either, maybe because he wasn't working during cycle 1 but now he has a full time job so isn't coming to any of my appointments with me.

@Motherofkittens28 vent away! I know what you mean, I think it’s nice to vent in a place where you know someone actually gets what you’re facing rather than getting the ‘yeahs’ ‘nods’ and sympathetic gestures when truth is they don’t get it. Have you explain to your OH how you’re feeling, he may think you’re ok as you know the process now and perhaps he thinks it’s less nerve wracking this time somehow? Are you going alone tomorrow? What time is your appt x

@polejunkie no not really, last Monday they told me egg collection was pencilled in for Friday this coming week and he told me he has an important meeting that day, which fair enough but egg collection day is non negotiable, I don't care what is happening at work. Just a little peeved. I should have a chat with him.
Appointment is at 10am tomorrow and yes going alone. I'm seeing my PT right after and I cried during my session last week after my scan so I'm sure I can do so again if needs be!

@Motherofkittens28 definitely have a chat, you’re not in this alone, you really need his support - sorry you’re feeling a bit down, we’re always here so do let us know how you get on, I’ll be thinking of you 💕 don’t underestimate what you’re going through and how you feel, that goes for all of us on this journey- it’s hard! Have a chat with him and lay out how you’re feeling, if you feel overwhelmed tomorrow then let the tears flow, as long as you have someone to lend an ear you’ll be ok x