Infertile donkeys hoping for the endo the ttc journey. Longing to be fertile unicorns!

[notyetamumbuttrying]

Buckling up for the ride of their lives, our infertile donkeys 🐗and some stats below:
@Annny27 29, no1 since June 19
@RobinRose 27, no1 since Oct 2019
@kerrym87 34 no1 since sept19

@Motherofkittens28 39 no 1 since aug19
@Yutes 34 no1 since aug19
@Crazydoglady123 32 no2 jan19, ivf started in April
@Marvellouslymadmum 42 no3 since April 18
@Tofu35 35 no1 since sep19
@Hayley19835 38 no1 oct18
@Narwhal88 32, no1 since jun19
@Dogmum13 29 no1 since dec19
@SlothMamaToBe
@Theawkwardblonde pregnant 🥳
@CreativeThinkerTequilaDrinker 15 months ttc ivf in June, ov 8th April
@2020mission pregnant 🥳
@Sjhigs 37 no1 since sep18 ivf consult mid April
@crazycatlady1981 39 no1 since Oct18, ivf in May
@PeanutButterBrownies
@Juno231 33 no1 since jan20
@clolo 31 no1 since jun19
@Aimzie 28 no1 4 years NTNP 22 months ttc
@VenusStarr 37 no 1 since nov17 ivf started in May!
@minibaker 30 no 1 since May 20
@paintfairy ttc no 1
@polejunkie
@MIW01
And me 😊 notyetamumbuttrying 35 ttc no1 for 20 months. Ivf started in May. Long protocol.

@polejunkie I'm on the menopur and ovaleap until they give me the go ahead for egg collection, so at least another 7 days. Unfortunately the pool only has morning sessions so I've missed my chance today. I normally do the 6:30am session but I just couldn't bear it this morning!

@RobinRose sorry to hear you are have a low day, I know exactly how you feel and some days it's just so much worse than others, hopefully tomorrow will be a better one. My nearly 41 year old friend had her 3rd baby on Sunday and I'm so jealous about it and raging about how unfair the world is

@RobinRose Sorry to hear you are feeling rubbish! I’m due af this week too! It’s bad enough without all the announcements on top of it! They always seem to come when you’re at your lowest! 😔 A former colleague of my DH announced her 2nd on FB yesterday (her first was an accident 😩) and I just felt anger towards her!!! People don’t realise how lucky they are!

@Motherofkittens28 sorry you’re feeling so exhausted! Hopefully it’s a sign that the injections are taking effect though! When’s your first scan?

@Motherofkittens28 I hope it eases for you, perhaps your body is just in a little bit of shock - might settle down 🤞🏼 don’t beat yourself up over the swim, got to listen to your body sometimes!

@RobinRose we feel you, tomorrow is a new day, just remember that - everyday I wake up and in my head I’m like ‘here we go again’ another day of no progress on the ttc front 🙄 pregnancy announcements are the worst!!

@Annny27 no, I won't test unless I am late.

@motherofkittens28 it is just so draining, I find the few days leading up to af I struggle most with, seem to be ok the rest of the month. If/when af arrives today I will be fine tomorrow! I know what you mean, it's like..... Hello! 👋 im over here 👋 when's it my turn, can I be next?!?.... No? OK. well 🖕😤🤬!! 🤣
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@notyetamumbuttrying my husband had the AstraZeneca vaccine in mid March and then we conceived the next cycle in April. I would definitely say no issues with that and fertility! Although my guess is they aren't giving out AstraZeneca to anyone new 😅

@robinrose I was very ill after my miscarriage and had the start of sepsis so was in hospital and needed an emergency op so I did tell some people at the time so they obviously know about our struggles now but I dont like to talk about it often so only chat about it when ii bring it up!

@RobinRose I have told my closest friends mainly because I’m not drinking etc and I felt I needed to explain because I’m quite distant sometimes, my dad knows but I don’t have my mum - I thought I’d feel better for telling but I have to be honest it made me feel worse initially (I kind of feel more sorry for myself) they don’t understand and I think I was kind of expecting them to, not fair really on them really... maybe I was just having a bad couple of days 🤷🏼‍♀️ x

Aww @polejunkie I felt so sad reading your post there. I can completely empathise. It’s sad when you feel like sharing the burden should lighten it, but it doesn’t.
Feel free to vent here if you need to. (My pm is open. I have an Instagram if you want too. This is open to anyone from here btw)

Hi all. Feeling much more level headed today thankfully. Day 1 really is always the bad day for me.

@RobinRose I'm actually very open about my fertility issues. I'm a talker so it really helps me. I've not told family though, just friends. My mum does what she can to be supportive of me in every aspect but very much has that 'oh my poor baby!' Attitude and that's not what I need really. I need a 'oh that's shit but hey, we'll get there' attitude.
Everyone is different though aren't they and we all have different coping mechanisms. I offload onto my friends about it whether they ask or not! 🤣

@sausageface that's exactly what my MIL is like. She is very "oh that sounds so tragic how can you even bare to be alive" kinda attitude haha. Like I already feel shit I dont need someone else pitying me. Also she is very "I am so sad for you" all the time

Like get over yourself it's my sadness not yours 🙈🙈

@Yutes bless you 🤗 I didn’t mean it to sound so depressing lol I feel a bit better atm I had just come on and my friend messaged to see if her and her kiddos could come stay for a weekend soon (they live a fair drive away) and I felt I should explain what was going on beforehand... she was really nice but I just felt a bit worse for pouring my heart out when there’s nothing anyone can actually say / do to help, ya know!

Glad you’re feeling better @sausageface

@RobinRose I’ve told a couple of my friends about ttc. Two of them have been through ivf so they are really understanding, the other one is a fertile unicorn so I try not to talk to her too much as she doesn’t really get it at all! It’s good to have someone to chat to about it all outside of your relationship, so definitely worth telling a close friend or two.

I’m putting my head in again, not great at keeping up here 😭

I’m putting my head in again, not great at keeping up here 😭

@RobinRose I’ve told a couple of my friends about ttc. 2 of them have been through ivf so they are really understanding, the other one is a fertile unicorn so I try not to talk to her too much as she doesn’t really get it at all! It’s good to have someone to chat to about it all outside of your relationship, so definitely worth telling a close friend or two.

@RobinRose I’ve told a couple of my friends about ttc. 2 of them have been through ivf so they are really understanding, the other one is a fertile unicorn so I try not to talk to her too much as she doesn’t really get it at all! It’s good to have someone to chat to about it all outside of your relationship, so definitely worth telling a close friend or two.

@Yutes bless you 🤗 I didn’t mean it to sound so depressing lol I feel a bit better atm I had just come on and my friend messaged to see if her and her kiddos could come stay for a weekend soon (they live a fair drive away) and I felt I should explain what was going on beforehand... she was really nice but I just felt a bit worse for pouring my heart out when there’s nothing anyone can actually say / do to help, ya know!

Glad you’re feeling better @sausageface

Oops! I think my internet went loopy! Didn’t mean to post my message 3 times! 🤣🤣

@polejunkie I don’t think it sounded depressing at all. All emotion is good to identify. Even the not so positive ones.

@crazycatlady1981 the friends I plan on telling both have children and neither of them struggled so I'm not sure how they would respond to me telling them? I don't want a pitty party or the 'it will happen when it happens 'just relax'.

@sausageface
Oh god no, I could not tell my mum! Every Tom, dick and Harry would know! We also aren't close. Great you have friends you can just offload to!

@polejunkie that's my worry, wanting them to understand but knowing they can't possibly understand! And I don't want them to treat my any differently either,? Do you feel better now knowing they know?

@annny27 does it help now your friends know?

I think my timing to tell them might not be great... i planned on telling them when we have our zoom catch up but my friends due any day, i don't want to rain on her parade? I also feel waiting till after she has had the baby won't be great timing either🤦🏼‍♀️. am I over thinking this?

Hey sorry been awol! My sanity is struggling now with the tww 😬

@RobinRose I think it helps telling someone real who knows you. Makes you feel like you have someone on your team (apart from us MN lot)

@Motherofkittens28 when's your next scan?

@RobinRose not overthinking I had the same with the whole before the baby is due / after it’s born scenario... neither is ideal and I didn’t want to steal thunder, they were great and I felt better for telling them. The others I just feel a bit like I now have to keep them updated on top of all my other mental baggage because they know what’s going on, but it didn’t change the fact that we’re ‘struggling’ for what of a better term... so in a way I feel no better but the burden feels a bit heavier. I’m quite down atm so I’m well aware this is probably me and not that I have shite mates because I really don’t, they are genuinely top notch - urgh I’m such a bitch atm!

@Crazydoglady123 the ivf tww is torture of a special kind! How are you feeling?
My next scan is on Monday, which seems early as I'll only have done 7 days of stims but maybe its all just totally different on a short protocol!

@RobinRose @polejunkie I've told quite a lot of people and have varying levels of support, particularly around ivf. Some friends make a note of all my scans etc and message to ask how I've got on and some just say they don't know anything about ivf and you almost feel bad for daring to mention it. I've been most surprised by men at work (that I'm on a project with so I've told) they all seem really interested and have lots of questions, I think I was expecting it to make them feel awkward but no.

@Motherofkittens28 my gosh isn't it! I was doing really well until yesterday and now I'm Googling everything and checking my RHR every half hour 😩 my only symptom is sore, veiny boobs but it's prob the progesterone. My progesterone test from transfer day came back at 527!
Not long now then! What dose ovaleap are you on this time?