TTC after MC - Feb/March 2021 (Thread 18)

[bez91]

New thread ladies as the other is almost full.

Tagging everyone I can....

@Bellabubble
@Pancakes7
@TheDaydreamBelievers
@PumpkinEverything
@NatJ24
@NatNoo96
@ELMcg
@RichmondLady1981
@susiebluebell
@Garman
@bumptobean
@bubblybrit
@PrettyPinkPansies
@chloedancer897
@elsimo
@HereWeGoooo
@ttcrainbowbaby1
@Seasalt1984
@Strawberry08

Congrats to those with BFPs on the last thread there was a lot of you 🥳

@bez91 definitely seems that way so I’ve done quite a lot of research off my own back and will be happy to pay for bloods privately e.g medichecks etc.

Has anyone had private progesterone testing on day 21 before?

@MeganChar1 so sorry for your loss. I think after a loss most of us get anxiety in some way, and your own personal experience will trigger it for different things. When I had my scan it was with a big screen and I seen it up there and there was no heartbeat and it was always something I wish I didnt see so I know where you are coming from. Maybe if you did get an early private scan in future you could ask them to turn that bigger screen off.
It normal all the worries you have, just take each day as it comes 🌟

@SamBass sorry about your MMC.
I think a few of us on here use the CB one with the dual hormone detecter? The purple stick one. I've used it a few times and its worked well, easy to follow 😊

@bez91 how are you today?

Hey @NatJ24 I'm ok thank you. Feeling absolutely exhausted, fell asleep at 8 last night 😳 and today has been a struggle. Not reading too much into it as I seem to get fatigue at this stage in my cycle anyway just not usually to this extreme. I might test on Sunday at 12dpo. How are you feeling? Has it sunk in yet?

@SamBass Hi, I’ve been using the easy at home ones (Amazon) which are really good alongside clear blue advanced digital. Used them for the last 2 months and had my peak on both months.

@ELMcg and @NatJ24 wow congratulations guys that’s amazing news. I’m really happy for you both. It gives us all hope!! Fingers crossed for sticky beans 🙏

@SamBass I use the clearblue digital advance opk I tried various cheap strips but could never get any decent results

@bez91 hope you are taking it easy! At least it's nearly the weekend and not long until you can test by the sounds of it! 🤞 For you!

Hey Ladies,

Congratultiins @NatJ24 @ELMcg, so happy for you both!

AF, the witch, caught me so I’m CD3 now 🤦🏼‍♀️.. here we go again!

@MeganChar1 @SamBass so sorry for your losses

@Marvellouslymadmum @Florence15 @NatJ24
Thanks for your replies ☺️ i only had my surgical management on the 15th so still waiting for a negative test but I'll certainly have a look at those recommended so I'm prepared for when its time!

Got up super early, couldn't sleep so tested, BFN. Feel pretty gutted more so this month don't know why 😔. Got back into bed with DH for a bit and sobbed which isn't like me 😳 may take a bit of a break next month tracking, it's so emotionally draining 🤦🏼‍♀️

FFS @bez91, I was really hoping for u this month 😭😭.
Take care of yourself today. It's just so so tough to find the strength to keep trying every month.
Xx

Thanks @elsimo 😊 you're right. Heading out for a walk to give myself a lift. Did AF show for you? 5th one since MMC right? Same as me I think? X

Morning @bez91 ohh, I am so gutted for you! I was hoping so much for you this month 😭 its such a rollercoaster of emotions. Its good to have a cry and let it all out, it can help and better than keeping it all in. Fresh air is always good too. I hope you are ok, sending hugs 🌟 xx

@bez91 so sorry, it is totally emotionally draining and taking a month of may definitely help. Sending hugs

Sorry to hear this @bez91. I also dip in and out and find it helps because otherwise I found it all consuming and felt like day by day, week by week I was wishing my life away if that makes sense.

I am on cycle 6 since my MMC. I had previously had an ectopic and fell pregnant with my MMC two cycles later which in a way made it all easier as it felt like it was just bad luck. On reflection I am finding this the hardest as it’s been 5 months now with nothing. I am actually seeing a therapist now which actually really helps.

There is no rolling this situation in glitter! It is just shit!!!

I was lucky with my therapist as it was provided with my work private healthcare. I would really recommend it if the opportunity is open too you.

Contemplating acupuncture now too but I am sceptical about it!

Thinking of you and sending love xxx

Thank you @NatJ24 @Marvellouslymadmum 💕 I really appreciate it.

@Mustkeepgoing2 you're right it truly is shit. We seem to be a similar amount of cycles post MMC. I do have some paid healthcare available, I think it only amounts to £100 though for counselling. I've thought about acupuncture too just nowhere that local. I've bought an acupressure mat this morning to cheer me up. It was either that or a new car so I've probably chosen wisely 😂 where are you up to this cycle? X

@bez91 I'm so sorry, I had everything crossed for you this month and was hopeful you would get a positive!

You've done all the right things, sending lots of hugs and hope a walk manages to clear your head a bit ❤️. Fully understand wanting a break too, it's an exhausting journey each month!

@bez91 I’m sorry to hear that too 🥺. I totally understand how your feel. It’s just so emotionally draining when you get the BFN isn’t it. I hope you feel better soon and sending you hugs 🤗 xx

@bez91 nope no AF here 🙄 2 days late but a BFN - excellent lol xx

Thanks @ELMcg 💕 feeling much better after a walk, chilled afternoon and chat with DH. Hope you are feeling well 🤗

Thank you @Florence15 ❤️

@elsimo urggh sorry about your bfn too 😔 we can wish our AFs on together 🙈

Congrats to the BFPs and commiserations to those of us who got another BFN (me again)! CD 6 here and trying to think positive for this cycle. In 3 months time it will be a whole year since my first BFP which I then miscarried at around 11 weeks (mmc followed by the surgery). Thinking it surely has to be my turn soon!!!

Sending positive thoughts to all! x

@bez91
I am 1/2 DPO today. Always my happiest part of my cycle. The excited hope before the wait gets a bit frustrating and the random google symptom checking takes over!

I had to pay £100 excess too. I have had 5 sessions and get 10/16. So it works out, at most, £10 a session which is not to bad particularly if it cuts my FRER habit down! Might even make a saving!!!!
It has really helped me though. It lets me deal with it and then put it away for the week if that makes sense rather than the kind of all consuming feeling hanging around all the time. It is also good to talk about the impact my loses had on me as well as my burning desire to be pregnant again because for me personally there is a lot of grief for my losses and I had quite a lot of hospital intervention over the various lockdowns which has left trauma which I need to deal with. For me this is also an important emotion and my hope to get pregnant again is separate. They are two situations that both need focus in their own right and it just feels nice to be able to address it all.
All of my friends that were TTC are now expecting and whilst I am very close to them it is not the same talking to them about it anymore. They have their own worries of course and I respect them and am happy for them but at the moment all I desperately want is my BFP so it kind of feels like I am stuck on level one. I think in truth it is hard being a longtime seeing people conceive so quickly. I have the British mentality of Oi I have been in this queue forever it is my turn now 🙈

I have gone off on a tangent here but it is just good to talk to some who actually is also older and not TTC and get some perspective.
It took a lot for me to see the therapist as I almost feel there is a stigma attached to it but I am so pleased I did because I think it is having a positive impact on how I move forward and departmentalise everything.

xXx

@Mustkeepgoing2 ahh that's not too bad if that's the excess but mine is literally £100 towards treatments so doesn't work out great. Yes definitely you do right and if it's making you feel better about it that's great.
I always feel good at around that time too! Going to try more exercise this month just to distract me (and DH if I can pursued him to join in)

@Fingerscrossedfor2021HK really sorry for the BFN too ☹️

@Fingerscrossedfor2021HK posted too soon! I meant to say, anniversaries can be hard thinking what could have been. Sending love and strength 💕 I'm sure it'll be our turn soon x