Ttc #1 - cycle 7

[rosiej95]

Really fed up of AF showing up month after month now 🤦🏼‍♀️ we've been taking the see what happens but dtd lots approach. But now going into month 7 so We've decided to use the clear blue opk's to see if it gives us a better chance. 🤷🏼‍♀️
Now to just wait for AF to disappear 😀

Any one else ttc #1? 😀

Most days I could probably test in the afternoon it’s just easier in the morning. I was planning on testing twice a day once it’s starts getting higher - what time do you test?

@AZ1992X my strips say to test between 11am and 3pm so I try and do it once a day around then if I can, with maybe 2-3 hrs hold. Then twice a day closer to expect ov day and when I see it start to go up, I test it every pee until peak (normally that day or the next).

It probably doesn’t really matter, I know the CB say use fmu but what’s why I stopped using them - you miss your peak if you do that, because by the time it goes static the next morning, you’d never know if you peaked at lunchtime the day before 🤷🏼‍♀️

Thank you that’s really helpful - I always used clear blue and that said morning but I’ll try and do them a bit later in the day now I’ve moved to these strips - just checked and they say after 10am so need to resist testing till then at least 😂

How's everyone doing? I'm CD9 and just fed up really. I've been really down and emotional recently. Pretty much crying every day. I know part of it is due to loss of my fur baby but I know a lot of it is just feeling stuck and really starting to worry that there's something wrong or bad that I'm cycle 11 and nothing. I can't believe in 4 months or so my SIL will have given birth. Meaning she's tried less, been successful and carried successfully and I'm still here trying. She did her public 'its a girl' announcement. I literally bought things for an announcement over a year ago. I don't ever feel like I will get to use it and I don't feel like I can now after everything. Its so pathetic but I just don't know what to do any more. Its too difficult.

Hey @Loops01, CD5 here so half way through my soy course and have a pretty weird af (heavy for 2 days, pretty much disappeared for 3&4, back light today - strange) but other than that, nothing to report.

It’s not pathetic at all, especially since you’ve mentioned feeling like that for a while now - it can’t be easy constantly feeling like you’re failing or that it won’t happen for you. I saw on another thread some women talking about fertility counselling being part of the ivf process, and thought that sounded like a great service. Definitely something I would be interested in if we got to an assisted conception stage. I don’t mean that to sound like I’m implying you should talk to someone, just that the service is out there if you wanted to chat with someone who understood what you’re going through. I feel like that’s half the battle - no one gets it.

Hi @Loops01,

I’m ok thank you, CD13 here so I’m hoping I haven’t got too long to wait until ovulation, tests are gradually rising but still low - it’s 0.42 today.

I’m so sorry you’re having a rough time at the minute ❤️ , it’s completely understandable to be upset with all this going off in addition to loosing your cat. Always here if you need anything!

Oh @Loops01 I'm really sorry, you sound so down :( I completely get it. Is your OH being supportive?

I think the vaccine may have also messed up my cycle a tad... I usually get a positive opk on cd15 but didn't get one until cd18 which is so unlike me. Its either the vaccine or coming off soy isoflavones but I'm hoping it's short lived & I don't have a super short luteal phase. On top of that, husband is away this weekend right in the middle of my fertile period so I'm probably out for this month!

Sounds depressing but I prefer having a negative mindset so I don't get my hopes up!

Hope everyone else is doing well!

@AZ1992X ohh that sounds promising, hopefully you only have a day or two to wait before it starts to really rise 🤞🏻

@J1990 I totally get what you mean, I think the months where we do everything right or try a new supplement are even harder because I get my hopes up. It’s almost easier to accept defeat before it even comes sometimes.
Fingers crossed you managed to catch it before your husband went away, or if you didn’t that your cycle is back to normal next month. I had my vaccine yesterday - arm is killer today!

Thank you all so much. You're all so supportive. DH has been good after our convo. A lot of hugs. He just doesn't know what to do as I am very much a science person who likes to solve my problems but I've got a number of problems that I can't solve so just losing my mind a bit. I have actually signed up for counselling @Amy259 to see if it might help. Ultimately it doesn't help getting pregnant unless the person is male and up for it 😂. Jokes. I love DH greatly. Today is a bit better than yesterday. Still too early for me to know if the vaccine is wearing off or if soy is helping as only Cd10. Im hoping even if ovulation is cd20 as predicted as least it would be getting back to normal.

@J1990 I hope it is just this cycle its out. This is cycle 3 of vaccine and I have no idea what it'll be like now. My friend had no difference cycle 1 of vaccine but her 2nd one she was 3 days later ovulation wise but it was just a longer cycle, nothing else changed much. It makes sense, body is fighting things off and it's good for us long run wise. I've been offered my 2nd but going to pass this month and maybe August or Sept but I'm worried it might throw the cycle off again!

I also know someone who was pregnant when she got the vaccine (she had no idea) and she's been great!

@AZ1992X sounds like rise is happening! I always think 0.5 or 0.6 and it'll be close! Have you had any different symptoms or anything? Have you and DH been OK this cycle? Just trying to stay positive?

@rosiej95 how are things with you? Your ovulation was a few days later wasn't it but have you figured out how long your luteal phase is to see when AF would be due or not?

@Loops01 I’m glad he’s been supportive, I think it’s so hard for them to know what to say/do in these circumstances.

Nothing different yet but if ovulation is in next few days it would be earlier than my previous cycles (or earlier than I thought). DH is really up for it this cycle - hardly surprising given the break we had to have. I’m feeling good but I think a small part of me is still worried it will happen again.

Morning all,

@Loops01 sorry to hear your having such a rubbish time I totally understand it tho! :/
Pleased to hear you've able to go somewhere to speak about it.
Your not alone on this crazy journey ❤️

@J1990 I totally get the having a negative mindset! This time I feel like I've done everything in my power & am quite hopeful so if it doesn't happen this month I think I'll come crashing down 😞
Ive heard a lot of things about the vaccine & delaying periods ect, but mainly only after having it 😂🙈. Ill be honest... I have only had it due to working with the public & it not being great having covid whilst pregnant.
I've been lucky enough atm to not have been poorly & I know it sounds bonkers but have kinda got it in my head that I'll have a bfp before my second ones due ☺️

@Amy259 my arm killed when I had it to! Felt like I'd been to the gym 😂🙈

@AZ1992X got everything crossed for you guys 🤞🏻 hopefully your not waiting to much longer for your peak ☺️

I'm cd 23 today 🎉 my cycles are usually between 30-33 days so have counted from my peak & works out about 12-14 days does that sound right? 🤔 I still find all this completely mind boggling 😂😂
I'm so glad I've got you guys I honestly wouldn't have a clue about all of this stuff 😂😂😂

@Loops01 I feel you on the solving problems thing. I’m the exact same - got a problem? Figure out how to solve it. And I’ve got a few I can’t sort just now (we want to move but DH’s job stopping us, want to get a new car but can’t until we move, want to get pregnant but can’t seem to) and it’s tough! Whereas DH can coast along and let time tell… Thats good you’ve signed up to speak to someone, hopefully that’ll help hugely.

@AZ1992X it must be so hard to not feel like it’s going to happen again ♥️ But here’s to different egg, different sperm, different pregnancy, different outcome!

@rosiej95 it’s so sore!! Glad to hear you’re having a positive month, love a month feeling good! Luteal phase starts two days after peak, on 1dpo, so count from there to period xx

Hey everyone how you getting on? 🙂

@Loops01 how are you doing today? 🥰

Thanks @Amy259 , let’s hope so ❤️

Morning @rosiej95 , I’m ok no rise yet but I did think it would be slightly later anyways based on my previous cycles but also worrying my cycle isn’t back to normal and I won’t ovulate this month 😔. I know I need remain positive but just want to know what’s happening.
How are you getting on? X

Morning all!

@rosiej95 how’s the tww treating you this cycle?

All okay here, in the boring bit of my cycle now - CD8 so just waiting for fw. Feeling nervous about this cycle as I’ve done a few things that could change it (soy, acupuncture & vacc) and DH is away for a week with work so if ov is delayed much we could miss it. But no point in stressing over it before it happens I suppose!

Hi sorry been a busy few days as we are down to see DHs family and we have tried to organise and celebrate for our birthday. I'm Cd13 today and I had a 0.45 on opks yesterday. We were going to do it but I got a really bad migraine again and had to go to bed early. It's the first proper one I've had in about 3 months. I think stopping the massage and acupuncture for a month hasn't helped. It's just so expensive but hoping to go again at the end of the week. Will see what opks say today but if its still high then the soy really has worked because I've never had that high so early on. I'm just hoping cycle is getting back to normal. Feeling uncomfortable around DHs family since th subject is just brushed over 'when you have family soon' 'I'm sure you'll have grandchildren by the time your 60...' were 32 tomo and you just never know. Its just a bit odd. I feel some people don't want to know the negatives but sometimes I wonder if they just don't want to know full stop. Like they aren't interested in hearing the struggles and strains ttc has. I could be wrong but I guess it's just different people and different ways of seeing things. Just looking forward to today being over. Thankfully have the dog with us so I am quite happy to go give the dog long walks to avoid me coming across as the least bit miserable (god forbid) or asking something that they think is challenging them (that happened last night). I don't have the energy for this shizz. Ttc is hard and hopefully very rewarding!

@AZ1992X what day are you now? I think it should be soon if you've had higher numbers although it'll just be good to get that peak this month whenever it is I guess!
@Amy259 the next few days will hopefully fly past and you'll be in fw in no time. That's what I found from cd9 onwards I think. The days are coming thick and fast but I need to dtd more so make sure you are and having fun with it too. Easier said than done.
@rosiej95 are you 5 days DPO now roughly? Your premom app should say. How are you feeling about it all? Again I feel like it's past so quick but maybe just me!!

@Loops01 I guess maybe people don’t know what to say, the negative tests are never talked about - we only ever hear the happy ending. So I guess if you grow up thinking it just happens then it does just happen for you, you’d struggle to relate to someone struggling? Glad it’s flying in for you though and hopefully you get a nice early ovulation!

@Amy259 you are right. It's hard to take at times but trying to not think about it any more. As in I'll keep the thoughts to myself or you gals 😂 nae luck. This am is 0.2 first morning wee so I'm hoping it will be earlier but I guess to early to tell.

That’s sounding good in terms of your readings @Loops01 , hopefully not long to go till you ovulate.🤞

CD16 now and I’m sure they’ve dropped slightly to 0.3 just - my previous cycles was always later I think maybe CD20ish. Have noticed CM last few days but it’s not ovulation CM as not clear yet (sorry tmi).

@Loops01 app is saying 6dpo but I'm taking that with a pinch of salt as that was my peak so could of been the next day??🤷🏼‍♀️
Hopefully the soy has worked for you this cycle 🤞🏻

@AZ1992X ooo that sounds promising though! 🤞🏻it'll go more clear soon & you'll get your peak! 🎉

@Amy259 as the cycles go on I'm actually finding the 2ww that little better & drags less? I think it's because I try & forget it's 2ww if that makes sense?
Before I would feel a little 🤢 & start Googling symptoms 😂 I don't do that much now ha just occasionally 😂
Ahh would be so annoying if he's away!
id deffo be dtd up until he goes jusssst incase it does happen but it's like the day after he's gone away 😂

Bit embarrassing & sorry for tmi but I don't know if I've either got a water infection or an infection because I've been a little sore the past couple of days.
I've never suffered with anything before so I'm not sure what it is 😞
But I'll be honest I'm feeling hopeful, I think the fact we dtd around my peak has given me hope & I'm now a little scared ill come crashing down when it's a bfn like it usually is 😞

@Loops01 I don’t really talk about it with anyone other than you guys, because I can’t been hooped trying to explain it to anyone else - it’s not their fault they can’t understand the ups and downs. Plus we haven’t really told anyone other than a few friends that we’re struggling.

@AZ1992X long cycles are the worst, I tend to ov around day 18/19 and I feel like I would feel much like impatient if it was day 14!!

@rosiej95 oh nooo, get yourself some cranberry juice! Aww I know what you mean, I feel like having hope has pros and cons - it’s nice to feel positive but i guess harder if it doesn’t work out!

I think I’ll start testing on Thursday, that’s CD10. Here’s to a week or so of wishing for a dark line 😂

Well the soy has definitely worked! This is the earliest I've ever had this high and I'm pretty sure I'll be peak in the next day. Happy with that. Only thing is that we are away and I don't have my fertilily nor lube and instead we have alcohol (bday tomo) and hottub... 😂. I guess just getting cycle on track is better than nothing. And it means we have a slight chance more than it happening when I'm away on course! If it happens great, if it doesn't that's OK. @AZ1992X dh told them about the scan we have on Sunday and instead of asking questions or seeing how we felt they just said oh great we can see you again and you can see your sister (pregnant sil). Just what I am could potentially find out a reason we can't have kids. 😂. Just my thinking.

@AZ1992X hopefully not too much longer... I totally recommend soy but best to see how this cycle goes. It'll be all over the place since mc but keep your spirits up cos it's good that you will be getting there soon!!

@J1990 how are you getting on?

@rosiej95 are you going to test early? You're probably about half way luteal phase now so not long. Fingers crossed for you!!

@Loops01 that's amazing to hear!
You never know you hopefully will get a bfp without them 🤞🏻
I was thinking about testing on Sunday that would make me 11dpo? But will probably test earlier.
I'll be honest... I'm terrified this time.
We have put so much effort into ttc this month & with my peaks ect I feel like I've got my hopes up.

That’s amazing @Loops01, very positive that you’re getting back on track.

@rosiej95 , you’re very patient if you get to 11DPO 😂, Got everything crossed for you it’s the cycle!

CD 18 and my CM is clear & stretchy 😂 hopefully won’t be much longer!