I feel so terrible when I see those of you who have been through real trauma, and I am moping here and all I have is a few failed cycles under my belt. I am so sorry to all of you who have suffered so much pain You are my inspirations.
Rattlingchains - I am sooooo pleased to see you, chick!! I have thought about you plenty, and put the odd comment on the temp buddies thread for you, in the hope that you might have a lurk. Having a break from MN is sometimes for the best. That said, it is so wonderful to have proper support - it's not something you want to discuss at length with RL friends, well, I don't. How are you? I am pleased to hear that the ball is rolling at the fertility clinic. What is the ultrasound for? Good luck with the HSG, I had mine a couple of months back now.
Herbaceous - I am so sorry that you keep miscarrying, and late too I can't even begin to imagine how heartbreaking it is. I can see why you imagine if it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all. It is something a lot of us have been thinking about - just to have a fertilised egg would feel like a step in the right direction. I hope that doesn't sound cold
Coggy - Never apologise for essays - they are the best posts I am notorious at the long posts - once I am on a roll, there's no reigning me in!!
My heart just breaks when I think of what you have been through, and I know it is mad to think that we can feel such emotions for people we have never met.
Of course you are right, I won't give up, it isn't an option is it. It is so hard to be faced with the disappointment every month, but I don't need to tell you that do I?! I am very tempted to have some vino this evening, and I am kicking myself for deciding against the goats cheese tart when I was out for dinner last night
Jess - I hope that you are not going to be joining me in another cycle, fingers crossed for you. Don't beat yourself up for having a reaction to the threads on here. I am with you, it takes every ounch of strength for me when I see these "flavour preference" threads - I can not and will never understand why people would actively try for a certain gender to 'balance' out their family. You are not alone in that. Hope you are ok?
Gilly - How are you feeling, chick? Agree that it must have been totally surreal listening to people talk about ancient history when you are having to deal with sadness and try to conceal it as best you can. Hope you are ok. Big hugs.
Noooomooooore - Where are you, sweets? Still bored at work?
I hate the thought of you going home and balling your eyes out Our DHs have a lot of emotion to cope with from us all don't they - I bet it is hard sometimes for them.
Orchidgirl - I know what you mean, sometimes charting can make you feel satisfied that you are doing what you can to maximise the chances. I go back and forth, the last few months I wasn't temping every day and I think that is possibly what made it more stressful for me, as I wasn't getting accurate graphs, or less so. But this month not temping and still no luck - so it doesn't seem to matter what I do.
Rah, Choc and Poppy - Hope you are all ok??
Rainbowdays - Thanks so much for thinking of me. Hope you are ok?