been ttc #1 since forever...

[nomoremagnolia]

Feeling very fed up with failing every month and wondered if there's anyone in the same boat? It's a lonely boat on a journey to nowhere at the moment, but if anyone else wants to join me, some company would be nice

evening all.... I'm feeling pants today. Just feel everyone one has a sodding baby/kids and I'm getting older.... GRRR
Went shopping on my own and there was mums and buggies everywhere!

How does everyone cope with these feelings?

Hope everyone is well.......

Today I feel like the title of this thread

Hugs Rah - I have had my moments of despondency - it is hard seeing other women pushing their bugaboos

LOL, you make me laugh... I decided to have a bugaboo.... your so on my wave length!

By the way I'm rather drunk. Treated myself to a £12 bottle of wine and it was sooooooooooooo nice I drank it all!

Hi, Can I join your thread. I've been ttc no.1 for 15 months. Have been pregnant twice in that time. First ended with a missed m/c. Then second time ended up having major surgery for a suspected ectopic. Doctors never found the pregnancy (although after the op hcg levels fell back to 0), so it's now considered a pregnancy of unknown location. I feel I've had nothing but pain, fear and unhappiness for the past year and what scares me most is that there may be more to come in the future.

Anyway, I don't want to spread my misery round this nice thread. I am still ttc. I'm currently about 9dpo and I find this the most stressful/depressing time of each month.

Rah Rah you asked "Went shopping on my own and there was mums and buggies everywhere!
How does everyone cope with these feelings?"

Well... on bad days I count them to see how many babies there are compared to "normal" (ie me-like!! ) people. Most of the time (but not always) it makes me realise it is not as bad as I feel it is ... though on really bad days I start to wonder how many apparently non-kid women are secretly pg!

It is damn tough. I go through stages of feeling totally psycho... and this often combines with the 2ww when the progesterone levels are higher.... and that's when MN and FertFriends chat rooms really help.

love CD

Afternoon all, I have a hangover

I am so cranky and DH is being a ARSE today as well....

Thanks for the advice CD, you make perfect sense. I will get counting! I think I'm feeling a bit psycho at the mo though! I'm going out will my mate tonight, so no babies there! Should be fun and we can put the world to rights!

Hi jess1996. I agree 2ww is defo the hardest part. Especially when you realise you are getting symptoms for AF. Really crappy time! {{{HUGS}}}

I am so glad I'm not the only one. 2 mths ago I sensibly moved to London's Nappy Valley/Bugaboo Land and it can be agony. It is a real family area and most 2wws I just want to scream 'I want what you've all got!!' A day rarely goes by when I don't see at least 1-2 pg women and now I am sharing an office with one too!

My latest technique is, instead of feeling jealous, I just tut tut and toss my head in disbelief. People must think I actually disapprove of pg women

But there are a hell of a lot of them about so I just think it is the peak conception time of Dec/Jan when everyone of partying or has no money to spend after Christmas hence there are a lot of babies due around Sept/Oct.

Rah enjoy your night out!

Hi Jess - feel free to moan on here, it's not easy to be cheerful all the time and we all understand that
Gilly/CD/Rah - I count them too
Rah/Ready - I was covertly sussing out a pink bugaboo yesterday and though they are low as a pram, the seat is quite high as a seat. I saw a 18 month(ish) old looking around quite happily (in that she had quite a good view) and she was higher up than most of the other buggies I saw.

I'm feeling rough today. For the past 24 hours I've had nausea, terrible indigestion and horrible metal tasting mouth. It's so similar to symptoms I had at about 6 weeks in my 2 previous pregnancies, but I'm only 11dpo today. I think it must be just a bug, but I can't help but wonder...

Please help me to keep away from the hpt sitting in the drawer.

Oh gawd Jess - don't ask me - I have cheapy HPTs from internet and really don't need much excuse to use them.
If you want to resist you need Ready.... she'll give you a right ticking off.

Hope it is good news. CDx

I bought cheapo hpts from Ebay too. But I have just 1 left so I don't want to waste it .

If you don't want to waste the one test you have got then wait - if you're pg you're only going to get more pg (hcg levels will increase) so if you wait you're more likely to get a BFP. If you get BFN now you'll only tell yourself that you tested too early
Have a look here if you want a positive story of waiting...

Phew - a voice of reason. These years of ttc ave driven me pee-stick bonkers.

Also the when you get BFN and know you should have waited should be enough to stop you

I am definitely not testing tonight. If I'm still feeling sick tomorrow then I may test first thing.

That's a nice story on that link. . Gives hope to all of us.

and bobbydazzler's at 12 weeks now

Hulllllllooooooooooo ladies

Choc - I was giggling that my reputation as a hard-line anti-early-testing has remained intact, despite my trangression a couple of cycles back - my first and only HPT incident. It wasn't early-testing really - but it was a very messed up cycle after my HSG... I do still at the thought of doing the test.

Jess - It's lovely to see you, well of course it isn't - I wish none of us were on a thread like this. But, you know what I mean, I hope. I am so sorry that things have been so tough. I am glad that you are resisting testing, resist for as long as you can petal. Big hugs. Are you temping at the moment?? I have had a month off and it feels good.

Nomore - I wonder where the clearbluefairy's assistant is hiding these days - Very sound advice on testing, it's what I always say, if you are pregnant, you are only going to be more so in a few days

Gilly - PMSL at you tutting and tossing your hair in disgust - and the thought that some people might think you disapprove of pregnant ladies!!

Rah - Hey chick, how was your night out? I hope you got suitably merry and thoroughly enjoyed yourself, you deserve it flower!!! Sorry to hear your DH was being an arse. Hope he has realised the error of his ways and made it up to you. Big hugs.

Coggy - How are you doing, chick?? Are you booked in for your IVF in January? If you don't mind me asking (if you do, just tell me too bogg off) will it be NHS? Or are you having to pay? I really hope that it works for you.

GryffinGirl - Are you still about? Or did we scare you off?? I hope not

Right... news here, busy, busy, busy, and I have been emotionally up and down like a blardy yo-yo the last week or so. Poor DH. Today I think I can feel so niggly cramps starting to come... and so today the mood is

Oh Ready - I do hope those aches are just too much excitment at the rugby last night and not the dreaded AF??!!

My IVF will be NHS (and no, I don't mind you asking at all )
The consultant said I could have two freebies but the nurse (several months later) said that it was highly unlikely that he had said that and they only do one???

I phoned up earlier in the week to see if it was still on for Jan and the secretary told me I wasn't on any list and my notes said that no further treatment was due!!!
Aaaaaaaaaarrrgh!!!
What's wrong with them/ me??

She then phoned up later to say that further details of 'stuff' were in the post........maybe tomorrow??

I am an idiot . Used up my last Ebay hpt this morning. I'm actually only 11dpo (miscalculated yesterday). Was BFN.

But, 30 mins later there was a faint line. Now I don't know what to think. I've seen evaporation lines many times before, but this looks different. It's thicker and has a hint of pink (although I'm possibly imagining that).

I should know better than analysing tests 30 mins later. I've read enough similar stories on MN over the last year!

Oh well. I guess it's going to be a case of buying a proper test in a few days time.

Please feel free to tell me what a fool I am .

Poor you Jess....most of us have done it you know.

Does that help at all??

Jess - you wally! You know you should have waited!
(mind you I'm feeling rotten - in a pre-period way - today (CD15), have been for a few days and was beginning to wonder if last AF was a real AF or not...)

Hello guys

I think I recognise a few of you from previous threads. I have been ttc to two years now and had m/c July 2006 at 9 weeks. I've had absolutely nothing since.

My BF has just had baby and she wasn't even with her DH when I started ttc. I'm really happy for her but get really frustrated. Don't know if this is common but before the mc I was so interested in work etc and now I am seriously demotivated.

Have had a break for 3 months and am going to ttc again next month, trying to be as healthy as pos but it is really hard to keep positive.

Hi poppy - I remember you from the ttc no1 thread Know exactly what you mean about feeling demotivated with everything that's not ttc

Evening all!
Just to be contrary I'm going to say - hey, Jess, what's the problem with testing? Don't feel it is just a different coping strategy .. and it works for some of us. There is no point feeling bad / beating yourself up about it. What is the harm?
So - you still don't know either way - but the ebay test are cheap and it may have relaxed you / given you hope.

There - that will put a cat among the pigeons!!