been ttc #1 since forever...

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Feeling very fed up with failing every month and wondered if there's anyone in the same boat? It's a lonely boat on a journey to nowhere at the moment, but if anyone else wants to join me, some company would be nice

Thanks Viksam, I will definately ask about day 3 tests when I go in.

My GP has been really good, I was expecting her to tell me to go away and come back after 12 months but she didn't. She has also mentioned referral to gynae depending on prog test results. I am 33 so perhaps that made a difference?

Just a quick post as very nervous re new job tomorrow. Usually office based and now going to be driving round the country!!!!! Actually nervous would be an understatement - f*ing petrified would be more apt. Have visions of getting hopelessly lost and phoning boss to admit I am incompetent fool who has managed to hoodwink them them all!

Oh and the bitch arrived today - she really picks her moments!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway hope everyone is well

minnow1 I too was 33, so really took his comment badly, as you can imagine.
Gilly ur post was really interesting, you really got alot from ur appointment, this wasnt private i take it. They really cramed alot into one day. I think that is really good, saved u soooo much time waiting weeks for appointments. 9th April does sound ages away, but you know it will be here in the blink of an eye. I am waiting for 10th March for the exact same sort of appointment, it seems like forever!!
kd73 you will be fine, we all suprise ourselves with our own ability from time to time, Im sure this is one of those times for u. Get some rescue remedy from Holland & Barrett, it works a treat. Let us know how you get on. Good Luck x

Hi Gilly bloody hell they really went to town didn't they - must feel better to have someone taking you seriously? It does seem like ages to wait though - this whole thing is a nail biting waiting game isn't it - don't know about you but when I decide I want to make a change in my life I generally want it NOW . Sounds like they are on your side though and are going to help you get through quicker - I'd be doing the same as you - may as get a private session first and rely on NHS later - means you have less waiting around in limbo!

Minnow I have very irreg cycles - ranging from 34-48days since a MMC in March 07. I was hoping they were going to put me on clomid when we went to see the fertility people last week but turns out I was PG anyway - and I think that was from taking melatonin for jetlag over Chrsitmas - as my dates are bang on for a 28 day cycle which has never happened! I have tried reflexology - it was super relaxing but also got very expensive and I think I also got a bit obsessed with it - thought it was my easy answer - saying that when she was working on me twice a week my cycles were at their shortest so you never know...I do know there was almost zero chance of me getting PG when they were really long so go see the doc - they seem to refer you quickly if you've long cycles! Good luck!

gilly, glad your appointment went well. I think your right to go private first, we waited 7 months for our IUI and it seemed like ages... It was wasted time and I wish I had done what your talking about. Go for it!!! Those appointments take ages, the clinics have guidelines of 3 month turnaround on each appointment, its a joke really! Anyway glad you are on track and have a plan We could be IUI buddies )))

Ok... please forgive me, but I am not going to catch up properly (except to say Gilly, I am soooo pleased your appt went well, they sounded so good and thorough, and my fingers are crossed that things move quickly for you)...

I feel drained and heart-broken at the moment. I feel distinctly pre-menstrual (spotty chin, moody, crampy) and my temp dipped again - which confirms that CD1 will be tomorrow or the next. Sigh. I just cannot face another cycle of disappointment

I might not be on the thread for a little while, well, at least not in my usual perky way - I guess I am having one of those phases when I just need to shut myself away - I am sure you all understand.

So anyway... sorry for being crap, and not catching up with everyone, but I am going to go and lay on the sofa and do as little as possible for the evening.

I will be thinking of you all Back soon, I promise

Hi all - yep stil lurking and always sending lots of positive vibes to you.

Ready honey - just wanted to say I know everyone understands - especially on this thread. Your words could have been mine just a few months ago. Take a break if you need it but come back as soon as you need some support too - it is so hard to find RL friends who really understand what it is like.

my love and support to you all

Choc xx

Sorry to hear you're feeling so yucky Ready.
I think it's only right to grieve a little every time AF rears her ugly head because it's yet another potential opportunity lost.

Don't worry about feeling like this. Just accept it as part of this infuriating TTC circus and treat yourself gently.

The emotions of hope and excitement as a cycle draws to an end is so contrary to the disappointment and upset that AF brings that it's not surprising that we can sometimes feel so distraught and wrung out...especially us long-term TTCers.
((((((((hugs)))))))))) X 1,000 from me.
X

Gilly....I do hope my eggs are doing what they ought!
Day 7 in the 2WW....still feeling calm and surprisingly normal.

I'll probably be freaking out with excitment and fear in about 3 days time!!!!!

Gilly Hello was just wondering what other tests they did before your clinic appointment and when they decided to try IUI??? HAve had Ultrasound, ovulation and sperm tests done. This month have done day 1 blood test and will have HSG next month. Was wondering how they decide etc... MN is usually the most reliable place

Ready - completely understand. I too am feeling poo today, not af but just found out another friend is pregnant. V pleased for her, but wish it was me.

I am now officially the only childless (or not pregnant) woman in my whole circle of rl friends!

But I keep telling myself it will happen for me, it's just going to take longer than we hoped. When our baby arrives and I hold him/her for the first time it will all be worth it.

Ready
(((((((((((((((((((BIG HUGS)))))))))))))))))
As coggy rightly says look after yourself - it's only natural to feel sad at the end of eash cycle when you think of what might have been.
I feel strangely detached from the whole ttc thing at the moment - sorry I've not been around much but am starting to feel a bit of a fraud being on mn seeing as we won't be ttc properly until the hospital get their act together and do it for us. Does that make sense? I can't really explain it properly.

Ready, I know just what you mean. It's hard to be upbeat all the time, and you've been amazing - all positive, and perky, and supportive. I'm sure the sun will come out again for you very soon, but in the meantime have a good wallow and feel sorry for yourself. It's no good sweeping stuff under the carpet. I too have AF looming, and while I thought I wasn't bothered this month, I can feel a huge sulk coming on when she shows her face.

Had a sudden thought in bed last night that I wasn't even sure I wanted to get pregnant again if it meant losing it again. For the fourth time. I wasn't sure that I'd ever recover. Maybe I should draw a line under the business, and pursue adoption more wholeheartedly. Especially when I heard about my friend's 20-hour labour at the weekend, with forceps and non-functioning painkillers!

Perkypopsy - congrats to you! I am hoping the acupuncture will help me relax and feel less anxious at least and if it has any positive effects on cycles etc that will be a bonus. You are right about the cost, £35 per session The woman I am going to trained at the Zita West Clinic in London, hopefully she knows what she's doing!

Well after saying I was feeling like a fraud being on here guess what's happened? We've heard from the clinic we've been referred to (and it's the one I wanted) and they've invited us to attend a presentation/meeting to introduce us to the clinic/staff/process and it's in 3 weeks time! Unfortunately DH will be out of the country so we'll have to wait for the next meeting but I am really pleased that we are at least moving in the right direction and we didn't have to wait too long either! Hopefully the treatment will be this straightforward too Now off to look at acupuncturists/vitamins/anything that might help IVF...

Nomore - great to see you again, and good news that things are moving along quite swiftly. I am heading down the same path so will be very interested in all the ins and outs of your treatment.

Ready - Sorry to see you so down again, sadly I know there isn't much to be done when those feelings hit. I like the occasional self-pitying wallow - aided by fine wines and cakes . Hopefully the new job will keep you entertained.

I've not been keeping up with everyone else too well - can I send out a general hello hope you're well to everyone else? Sorry not Ready style personals

Hello guys

gilly have just read the article - it was so sad but echos just what we have all felt. It was so sad when he said how lonely he felt, we have all been through that for sure! I think this process has brought DH and I much closer and I agree you will definately value baby when it comes!

One of my friends had to have IVF due to antibodies in her husband's sperm, she said he took it so hard. I was really relieved when DH test came back ok, as I don't mind going through all the tests etc but he would be a nightmare for sure!!!

Anyway off to work now just thought this thread could do with a big sprinkling of baby dust -

sparkling over page

Heres to lots of BFP next month!

Afternoon girlies.... hope everyone is OK...

I'm just waiting for my AF and then onto my next cycle of IUI using clomid... PHEW! Glad we are starting it properly after all this time!

Better get off as working hard... catch up laters X

Where are you all????

Hope everyone is OK... XX