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been ttc #1 since forever...

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nomoremagnolia · 17/10/2007 18:24

Feeling very fed up with failing every month and wondered if there's anyone in the same boat? It's a lonely boat on a journey to nowhere at the moment, but if anyone else wants to join me, some company would be nice

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jess1996 · 23/11/2007 08:12

Well AF arrived yesterday as expected. I wasn't surprised.

I know what you mean about drawing a line under 2007. It's been unrelentingly shite. But I'm scared 2008 will be worse.

I had blood tests done in the summer which confirmed ovulation, but doctors aren't interested in doing any further tests on me at the moment. As far as they are concerned I've conceived twice in the last year so therefore there isn't anything wrong with me. Maybe they're right. I guess I feel so worried because I conceived on my 2nd cycle last December and now it's been 9 months with just a weird suspected ep. I know I was lucky to conceive so quickly to begin with so maybe I'm just having a run of bad luck now. My DH just thinks we need to be patient and can't understand why I feel so bad. I think I coped with the m/c by thinking to myself that I'd get pregnant again quickly, but unfortunately that hasn't happened.

TTC has totally taken over my life this year and I'm so fed up.

Chocolatedays · 23/11/2007 14:53

Hi Jess
I completely understand - I have felt the same - that ttc has completely taken over my life. Feeling this has stretched my and dh's relationship and I have at times fallen into a very deep depression.
Sometimes you can breakthrough the depression by having very open and honest talks with yourself, your dh, on mn and if you have any RL friends who are struggling ttc or have other reasons to understand depression.
Sometimes you just have to go with it - just accept you are sat under that evil black cloud of ttc.... sometimes there is nothing you can do until the clouds lift a bit.
Thinking of you
Choc x

kd73 · 24/11/2007 22:13

Hey Jess,

1997 was a shite year, 2007 has been a shite year and in 2017 - I will hide!.

I understand entirely with ttc, dp considers himself to be my personal sperm injector. My friends don't seem to understand me or my predicament. They tell me I am being sensitive and should "chill". Its a horrible process. AF is now late but am testing negative, which then gives "false" hope. I have only had 2 cycles since August and its driving me bonkers.

Do I feel sick? Are boobs sore? Do nails appear stronger? Am I more tired than normal? The answer changes with the wind.

I am sure 2008 will be better for us both

Ready · 26/11/2007 11:27

CD2 here. Gutted. Will be brighter soon I am sure... but until then, thinking of you all.

coggy · 26/11/2007 18:17

I'm joining you (again) Ready. CD1 for me today I'm afraid.
Who was I trying to kid that I'd not need IVF??!!!

This month I am doing NOTHING...NOT A THING.
Then December - all systems go for the treatment.

Hope you're okay.
X

kd73 · 26/11/2007 20:24

Sorry to hear about AF catching up with you Ready and Coggy.

AF continues to evade and avoid me -

tested (again) yesterday.
negative (again)

Ready · 26/11/2007 21:15

Hang in there kd - Some people don't get the bfp very early. So until AF arrives keep hoping.

Coggy - Bug hugs, flower. I can't believe I allowed myself to believe I might have cracked it. I am with myself for that. I like your thinking of doing nothing this month, just enjoy December, and Christmas and see what happens - fingers still crossed you won't need the IVF. xx

I feel so low at the moment, it has hit me harder than I thought it would

jess1996 · 27/11/2007 08:13

Sorry to hear about AF ready and coggy. It's awful when you get your hopes up. I was hopeful last month as I had mega sore boobs and nausea at 12dpo, but by 13dpo the soreness was gone and I knew it was all over for that month. My boobs really give it away every month.

Fingers crossed for you kd.

I'm still feeling quite down. I was all for giving up for a bit, but DH looked so disappointed that I've decided to press on. After all I've only had 3 months of trying since my ep so it's not really long.

I'm going to keep away from MN for a bit as I'm suffering from BFP-envy. I used to follow the ttc after m/c thread, but it's got to the point where almost all the people on it are different to the ones on it after my m/c in February. I'm really struggling to be happy for others and it make me feel terrible, so I'm going to keep away for a bit.

Good luck to everyone for this month. I'll probably stop by to catch up in the new year.

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nomoremagnolia · 27/11/2007 09:33

jess you have to do what you need to, but I will miss you Hope the break from mn does you some good.
I like the phrase bfp-envy, can I use that?

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Ready · 27/11/2007 10:44

Oh Jess - Of course, if you need to take a step back, do. Have a wonderful Christmas and if you need us, don't hesitate to come here for a hug. I was nodding at everything you said, so please don't feel like you are alone. Love the BFP-envy - I have it in abundance - don't beat yourself up for it. Big hugs, take care.

nomore - You are too good asking for permission, I was just going to use it

Ready · 27/11/2007 10:45

I meant love the phrase... I don't love BFP envy. D'oh.

herbaceous · 27/11/2007 12:31

Hello girls

Jess - I know just what you mean. I joined that ttc after mc thread in March, and there are hardly any of the original girls left. I too have a bad case of BFP-envy. I'm only glad that thread entitled 'hands up who got pregnant first time, aren't we clever' has disappeared. I was going to have to go at it with a flame-thrower.

I'm now taking my temps, and was all excited. I got a big temp spike just after we'd been doing loads of jiggy jig, had what looked like an implantation dip, sore boobs at the side, ravenous appetite... but now my temps are going down so so is my mental state. I suppose it's better to know this month is another failure sooner rather than later. At least I know I'm ovulating, however.

Was 42 yesterday, and while tests show I've got the egg reserve of a young lady, I may have to face facts soon and think after four miscarriages in two years, someone upstairs may be trying to tell me something.

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nomoremagnolia · 27/11/2007 12:50

herby that such a thread exsisted!! Can't believe some people!! I'd have been next to you with a rocket launcher had I known.

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herbaceous · 27/11/2007 12:56

I'm not sure that was exact title - I may well be exaggerating for effect. But it was that kind of thing. Grrrrr.

gillydaffodil · 27/11/2007 13:50

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nomoremagnolia · 27/11/2007 14:26

hi gilly I'm not sure I'm your cycle bud any more I'm on CD19 after my long cycle last month.
herby was so at that thread title I forgot to say happy birthday

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herbaceous · 27/11/2007 14:35

It would seem I did exaggerate. This thread could really just be asking a quite innocent question. I'm a bit mad.

Trailed across London to my nephew's fourth birthday party full of cute kids at the weekend, so am feeling extra bitter.

Ready · 27/11/2007 14:45

Thank goodness we have each other for support!

Happy Birthday for yesterday Herby

Good job I didn't see that thread, the mood I am in at the moment, I would probably have posted something sarcastic and instantly regretted it

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Ready · 27/11/2007 14:46

Oh. I knew I would mess it up. Grrrrr. But I think you can see what I attempted. Drat.

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nomoremagnolia · 27/11/2007 14:47

very clever Ready

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gillydaffodil · 27/11/2007 14:47

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nomoremagnolia · 27/11/2007 14:48

well you've made two of us smile

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Ready · 27/11/2007 15:11

It could have been so much better if I had previewed it before posting. Darn.

kd73 · 27/11/2007 19:55

Dear Jess - hope I haven't missed you . Wishing you a merry Christmas and hope to see you on a more joyeous thread in 2008 .

Gilly - do you fancy spending 2017 with me in a cave hiding?

Herb - Happy birthday for yesterday. Glad that awful smug thread is no longer active. Do people NOT thing???

Ready - loved the artwork!

AF - still not piggin arrived. Still testing piggin negative

Ready · 27/11/2007 20:03

Ok. I am not very bright, but I will share it with you, to give you all a laugh, clearly we need it

Kd said "love the artwork" - and for the briefest of seconds I thought "what?" and looked round - You see, I am actually painting (an lurking on MN between brush strokes ) a masterpiece - so I forgot about my BFPenvy creation, and thought Kd was somehow privy to my RL activities

All together now - Ready is a twit!