Nov Bus 21 - C*m stains, period rage and MASSIVE bullets

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a (filthy) sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs
October - 7 BFPs

November BFPs so far:
@AKC88 - November 3rd
@purplesky18 - November 3rd
@dippyegg32 - November 5th

Upcoming testing dates:
@pebblesinthesand - November 11th
@siana97 - November 16th
@nestinginNL - November 18th
@missgoldilocks - November 20th
@Franklydear - November 22nd
@Juno231 - November 22nd
@vil10 - November 23rd
@djmum83 - November 23rd
@clairey844 - November 27th
@mrsbear1122 - November 28th
@katao - December 4th
@Hopeful110 - December 12th
@minster2012 - February 14th

@InkyPaper @notyetamumbuttrying thank you for you kindness & virtual hugs. It helps even from a distance.

@minster2012 it's truly a horrible feeling that empty but heavy feeling in your chest. Yeah I agree with the trying to reframe it. I try to remind myself that this baby was very wanted and it will always be missed but it wasn't baby we're going to bring home. And our healthy baby will come when the time is right. It's hard to think like that sometimes but I'm trying just like you do too. Our time will come. It makes me feel better knowing I'm not alone in these feelings. And yes in gojng to hide some Social media people I think - no need to add to the torture..

@katecolx I think what makes it harder is I'm still bleeding as it's only just 2 weeks since the 2nd dose of medication so my body is still recovering and nearly 7 weeks on from our dating scan, I still can't fully close this chapter. Thank you for saying I'm doing well.. I don't feel like I'm doing as well as I thought I would if that makes any sense. It's a 2 steps forward, 1 step back situation. But I'll get there.

@amy00 oh I'm sorry you've been through this too, and the close due dates. I think I could move forward with just a pregnancy announcement but it's the closeness of their due date to ours. Literally 11days apart. And it hurts. But Im sure it will get easier. I was talking to DH this evening and he said that we will feel better once we're trying again and hopefully we'll catch again soon. And atm im just holding on to his optimistic attitude because its what I need & hearing that you feel slightly better after your recent BFP too... I am so pleased for you. Praying I'm as lucky. Xx

@Gem176 hahahaha as if, crazy, he does get in hufs but he'll take the dogs out and come home and he'll be fine😂 there's 7 between us and I think the same with my parents too, have to say though it's great seeing them get on like they do!!aww bet you had a perfect bump!! I think I'll be huge😂x

Thank you @KateColx he's a good egg when he wants to be! How are you doing? X
@Franklydear hope you sleep well! 😴
@Sausage1990 glad they helped 😘
Finally meme of the night from me 💤

Final* not finally

@Sausage1990 I just want to say I totally feel your pain, a girl I know announced her pregnancy a couple of weeks after my mmc (which was discovered at my 12 week scan) and it stabs a little bit in my heart every time I see pics on fb thinking that would have been me doing that about this time. I saw her today walking with the pram and I actually just felt happy for her (as in no feelings of comparison which I have done from her announcement) which is definitely progress. Nothing anyone says can make you feel any better and the longing to be pregnant again is unreal but I know it will get easier with time, and hopefully we'll get our rainbow babies really soon.
Sending so much love and understanding xxx

Thank you @Clairey844 💕 that means alot that you've shared that, I'm sorry you had to go through this too. I am however grateful for the perspective and knowing it will get easier. And yes we will have our rainbow babies 🌈 sending lots of love to you too. You girls are really the best xxx

@Sausage1990 🥰

Ladies I have found the perfect crackers for everyone on the bus...

@notyetamumbuttrying 😂 keep those memes coming please!

Hello, made it from 9 till 2.30 doesn’t feel too bad, dh is getting worried, as if it COVID, I may be getting very poorly in a week time, starting to plan ahead.... I don’t know it could just be a cold that triggered a response in my lungs, could be a chest infection, I have plenty of those , the steroids are helping already,I don’t have a fever, I have a nasty cough, but I always do, sore throat is unusual, oxygen saturation is low, but I never had the oxymetre before so I couldn’t check it every five minutes, I’ve been on oxygen in hospital before, but never ventilated in icu...

Oh and funny thing my heart beat is up, I mean I woke up now on 70, normally around 55 in the proper morning, about 60 when I go to bed... also not feeling anything pms related and af due Tuesday or Wednesday, feeling very wet cm, dh thinks this could be it, he is normally hard to convert, I am not so sure....
I had a good cry yesterday morning so feel a lot less worried tonight, in respect to the test I am making use of my Chinese friend Lisa, confucio: if you have a problem, and you found a solution, you just have something to do, if there is no solution, why you worry?

Arrrg, I fell asleep before trump speech started, and apparently he almost conceded and corrected himself, also coloured his hair white, and I can’t put the telly on as dh is proper asleep and I don’t want to wake him up as he was working, doing everything at home and being my personal butler

If dh was right, what would annoy massively is that the first pregnancy, he also ‘knew’ I was pregnant before me.... he didn’t the mmc, but it wasn’t in our universe then, that was an accident on the pill

Oops, I did it again, well, I at least I know you won’t throw me out and today is in a happier tone....

I think you are becoming my conscience, or my diary
Dear Diary,
....

Dear Diary,
Very happy with my night internet search, I found what I’ve been looking for for some time, dr Michigan Kaku’s documentary ‘life 2.0’ is showing on Amazon prime and right now I have a subscription, guess what we are binge watching this weekend. Disclaimer: this is about nasa, space exploration, future of humanity.... not embarrassing illness style.

Damm damm autocorrect, dr Michio Kaku! Damm

Still awake, I think I'll make a tea...

The good this that today, I can actually go to sleep at 6/7 in the morning, I don't need to get up, at all actually until maybe Monday

I decided to have breakfast and watch a bit of Netflix , I’ll just have to sleep in the morning I guess

I know this might be really annoying, but it is really helping me get through the sleepless night, so bare with me, I am reading everything even if not responding right now, it’s all good

Morning @Franklydear I hope you are asleep now and not still awake! I might look up that documentary so keep the late night rambling recommendations coming. If DH has a premonition you are pregnant that's good let's hope it's right however annoying that might be!

I fell asleep last night without taking the done washing out- do I need to wash it again? 🤔

@Clairey844 I'm currently trying to source a load of crackers for our local food bank....would they appreciate them? That's basically my Xmas list there!

@Minster2012 noooo just get it out on the clothes horse ASAP 🥳

@Sausage1990 2 steps forwards,1 step back is plenty! 💜 better than 1 forward and two back. Take it easy!
Although I do hope AF arrives and you can jump back on the ttc bus!