Nov Bus 21 - C*m stains, period rage and MASSIVE bullets

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a (filthy) sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs
October - 7 BFPs

November BFPs so far:
@AKC88 - November 3rd
@purplesky18 - November 3rd
@dippyegg32 - November 5th

Upcoming testing dates:
@pebblesinthesand - November 11th
@siana97 - November 16th
@nestinginNL - November 18th
@missgoldilocks - November 20th
@Franklydear - November 22nd
@Juno231 - November 22nd
@vil10 - November 23rd
@djmum83 - November 23rd
@clairey844 - November 27th
@mrsbear1122 - November 28th
@katao - December 4th
@Hopeful110 - December 12th
@minster2012 - February 14th

@franklydear sounds like a really bad chest infection, glad you've had the covid test though so least you'll know for sure soon. Interestingly my DH is getting very optimistic too.. My cm has been different the past week or so and I'm starving... Also this morning woke up and my RHR overnight was 55!!! Normally at night mine is about 35-40. I'm trying not to get his hopes up but only a few days before we know for sure... 🤞

I'm not fully caught up but just wanted to send you a hug @Sausage1990 you poor thing. All you can do is feel your feelings. You are still going through this miscarriage and it has been so drawn out so of course everything is raw and the pain very fresh. Maybe a little social media break (but not from us!) Would help. It will get easier, it's still early days. Are you familiar with 'the ball in the box' analogy of grief? If not give it a Google, it might help. hope you are feeling better this morning 🥰

@Newbie0818 wow at your referral already! Making up for lost time.

@Minster2012 what cd are you? Hpwlong before you will have to get the tablets if af hasn't started?

I was asleep, for 3 hours, I am afraid it’s going to be little sleep often...
@Minster2012 just give a rinse with softener and another spin, or they will smell

@Kirky658 mirror sister, my dh is also questioning my eating habits, he call it cravings.... as for the chest infection, I’m afraid this is quite mild for my standards, I do get quite poorly with them, pneumonia is a big threat for me, I do get vaccinated against it, hopefully it isn’t covid, one test at the time

@Kirky658 we all hope optimistic DH is right & signs mean something

@Katao yay we've missed u! I'm CD30, & Femometer is saying I'm 15dpo but it doesn't really matter, I will leave til end of next week & test I guess then phone clinic. They wanted to wait until CD40 last time so will test in between so I'm sure

@Franklydear I just hung it up 😬we'll see!

Ffs I just typed out a massive response tagging everyone and then the app crashed. This epitomises how I feel right now lol.

Both apps now think I ovulated on Wednesday (if I actually ovulated given it seems you can get a rise and not ovulate 😖), and we lost DTD on Monday so we're fooked. Yes sorry can live upto blah blah but with our issues it's unlikely isn't it. Feeling like a useless sack of crap tbh. We both have colds and I'm in a foul mood. Currently watching an advert where a woman has put up her baby scan on the fridge, making me feel so much better 🙃 Picture below demonstrates me right now!

Thanks to those who replied to the referral thing, god knows when the actual apt will be but it's nice to know we'll find out soon at least 🤞🏼

And @Sausage1990 I wanted to say, I've never been through that but I can completely understand how shit you must feel. It will take time to heal, but like others have said, be kind to yourself, your time will come ❤️

We don't have any softener @Franklydear we are heathens (it's cos of DS eczema)

@Newbie0818 not fucked if you did ovulate on weds, that could be perfect but who knows!

@Minster2012 ok, I forgot about the eczema.... that is my trick and it is always fresh.... see if smells ok in a couple of hours
@Newbie0818 chill with me, I’ve been mostly ranting to myself out loud ... eventually tag someone too

Oh god our lovely neighbour just WhatsApped me a pic... She's 11weeks pregnant! So happy for them both as they've had a horrendous year but also really jealous... Is that bad 😔

@Kirky658 it's not bad at all!! Every time someone I know or a friend announces their pregnancy I feel happy for them but at the time sad for myself, it's okay to feel jealous or sad for yourself, it doesn't take away that you're happy for them too!

@Katao thank you doll. The ball in the Bix analogy is new to me but I just looked it up and it's the perfect analogy for it. Thank you for sharing 💕

A diolch @blodyn91 I will take it easy & hope af shows up sooner rather than later. Nai anfon neges preifat i ti dros y penwythnos, cwtch mawr xx

@kirky658 oh hun those feelings are normal. I've felt that many times. Don't beat yourself up about it. The jealous feeling gets smaller I promise. But it is a shit feeling & you're in good company because we've all felt it. Just give us a baby already right?! X

@Minster2012 aw nice to be missed 🥰 I been here but just a day behind all week 😂 I'm at that place early on in my cycle where I don't get quite so obsessed with ttc so fell behind. Ok so cd30, not too bad but still a big wait if you need the tablets. All my fingers and toes crossed for a natural conception of course! Wouldn't it be fantastic! There's so much waiting with ttc but ivf takes the biscuit. You must want to scream

@Kirky658 definitely normal reaction when you want a bang yourself it's very natural...& as others have said we all feel that so good company here!

@Katao it would be a bloody miracle conception def! Not unheard of but I feel nothing anyway so highly unlikely as well as all the "I'm faulty" things! Alwaysssss waiting, we all are! Ridiculous 😂😫

@Sausage1990 is talking crazy stuff to @blodyn91, they could be making a pact to kill us all...who knows!? Either that or someone has made @Sausage1990's fingers go crazy!

@Sausage1990 hope it helps. I find it a good to make sense of why these things hit us like a ton of bricks sometimes.

Welsh looks nothing like anything else 😂 mind boggling.

@Minster2012 you so often hear of people falling naturally after an ivf baby don't you. Never any harm in hoping anyway 😃

@vil10 @sausage1990 @minster2012 thanks ladies. I just feel terrible today. DH is convinced I'm pg but I am convinced otherwise, don't want him to get too excited and I'm trying not to get too downbeat either. Today calls for a pj day and chill I reckon. We are having an at home date night tonight and cooking 3 courses together so hoping for a nice evening, sod it I will even have a glass of red x

@Kirky658 that’s the spirit, and yes to the wine, frustratingly I got a bottle in my weekly shopping but in my current meds I cannot drink, I am trying to change my setting every friend that gets pregnant means it can also happen to me

@franklydear I hate when you can't drink on meds! That is a good way to look at things for sure. I'm just a negative person at heart, can't help it really I always expect the worst. I suffer really badly with anxiety too which always puts its two penneth in!

@Kirky658 that sounds great & totally understand you not wanting to get hopes up, what CD you on? I think you said you were waiting out on AF than testing right? That sounds like our evening too, we are cooking duck pancakes together

@Katao yes you do, my MIL kept telling me that after my friend had done our IVF...I was like "I don't think the theory works if the IVF was to a surrogate 😂🤔" but I guess after two rounds now it could do

@minster2012 thanks hun I'm CD25 now, expecting AF to show her face in next couple of days or so. Oooo yummy, we are having garlic mushroom bruschetta, homemade meatballs and I'm doing a chocolate orange mousse 😍

Life 2.0, not available in the uk, gutted!
@Kirky658 I have anxiety too, and like to plan every minute months in advance, funny enough, the lockdown has made it better as I had to accept the lack of control in shielding and the uncertainty of not knowing if I am back at work next week literally for months, I completely get you
I slept in pieces, but this morning I don’t feel sleep deprived, just normal tired from ill, now text me already, test people

@Minster2012 do you think so? Would it not be useless as there's a day gap between the last DTD? I can but hope I suppose.

@Franklydear I shall try 😔

@Kirky658 not bad at all, I feel the same every time I see something like that.

Also, I walked past the condoms in ASDA just now and actually laughed out loud. Is that awful?? People must have thought I was insane 🤣

@Vil10 look what came in the post today 😁 we didn't realise it would be so big and OH was like "holy shit" 🤣 that's cheered me up a bite

Oooo that sounds lush @Kirky658 you'll have to share date night pics (not sexy ones of course I mean the meal!)

@Newbie0818 of course, even the SMEP says do it alternate days then on positive OPK day do it more & after that so yeah course 🤞🏻

@Franklydear some I know has just finished the queens gambit I might watch that next, we are watching the fall.

Well DH gone to work & so far this morning DS & walked dogs in which he tumbled off scooter & got mud all over him (including his dressing gown he was wearing under his coat as he wouldn't take it off!), then pointer dog wanted to chase my friends cat but I wouldn't let her so instead of her strangling herself on her lead & pulling me over I sat down with her in the street, with DS too & tried to calm her as she does blood curdling screams like "let me at it!" She lives with that cat last year for a week FFS. So DS & I just done some painting of Xmas trees & cards a couple of ppl we know might get one...And that descended into chaos paint everywhere then shouting of being dirty but not wanting to be washed. Gotta love kids eh! Honestly they are amazing!

Just a normal morning here 😆🤣

I am still watching better than us, as a family we are watching season 3 of Star Trek discovery and then will do the mandalorian, I’ll give the gambit a try after better than us
Dh is happy dancing as he manage to fix his computer