Nov Bus 21 - C*m stains, period rage and MASSIVE bullets

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a (filthy) sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs
October - 7 BFPs

November BFPs so far:
@AKC88 - November 3rd
@purplesky18 - November 3rd
@dippyegg32 - November 5th

Upcoming testing dates:
@pebblesinthesand - November 11th
@siana97 - November 16th
@nestinginNL - November 18th
@missgoldilocks - November 20th
@Franklydear - November 22nd
@Juno231 - November 22nd
@vil10 - November 23rd
@djmum83 - November 23rd
@clairey844 - November 27th
@mrsbear1122 - November 28th
@katao - December 4th
@Hopeful110 - December 12th
@minster2012 - February 14th

@Minster2012 yes, doc said to have a low threshold to isolate,...I called work and they got a bit panicky about the test, it’s not even the first one
Dh is good, since yesterday he took on childcare, cooking and cleaning and I haven’t lift a finger, I also get my coffee delivered

Hope you are ok @Franklydear.
Yes @Minster2012 I'm sure I'll be popping up a chart at some stage looking for @chartwizardjuno to help 😂 so far its just a short jagged line!
@lucyrp yes I checked and cd9 so we are very close but then again we are both very unpredictable so that may not last 😂 I was referred about 2 weeks after you so we will see.

Well I've already had our referral letter! 🙌🏼 they said they'll contact us by 26th at the latest, which is a lot faster than I expected, but let's see whether it happens...

As for relationships, dh was my first proper relationship although I've had others for around 1-2 years in school etc. Child love haha. Don't think about any of them now as I find it weird, though one of them was obsessed with me for years so I had to sever ties 😖

@Amy00 aww that's nice to see, I hope you get a good progression over the next few days 🤞🏼 keep us posted.

@Gem176 sorry about bfn. I'd keep going, there's no time to lose with these things tbh, though that might just be me with all my fertility issues. If you're happy to wait you should. Or take the more relaxed approach and just DTD when you want and feel like it. It's so nice to take a break like that.

@2020mission im not really a night sweater but get very hot before af.

@notyetamumbuttrying that hot water bottle quote 😂 love it. Serial killers!

@paintfairy Oh no :( but surely that means you just didn't ovulate this month? I wouldn't think of it as a waste as you might have still ovulated at other times. What will they do for you? And your comment about bbt terrifies me :( I have pcos and always get a rise after ov, so now I'm wondering if I even ovulate at all...

@Minster2012 Eek, your ex's are turds 😖 glad you're with a loving dh now!

@lucyrp Lovely nails 💕 are they actually taking apts during lockdown though?!

@KateColx Hope your scan goes ok lovey x

These Friday nights are sounding lovely @notyetamumbuttrying & @Kirky658 😚you can def come to mine then. I'm not a fan!

@Franklydear DH def sounds like a keeper and I think most workplaces get panicky really

Loving the chart wizard @Juno231!

Here's the angry witch coming to my door

@KateColx it's my second one in a row that's been randomly long 😩 the last one was 62 days and this one is apparently never gonna end 😂

@Minster2012 no, that wasn't me. I'm still trying to get an appointment with the doctor at the minute. Basically if you don't mash the call button fast enough at 8am there are no appointments left by the time you get through! Nothing to do but keep trying, I guess.

@notyetamumbuttrying omg that's it exactly! My body is being a fuck boy! 😂

@Newbie0818 omg that is sooooo quick! I'm jealous, hope it goes well honey! Here's hoping it means ours is round the corner!
Haha glad you like the meme 😏
Hope you're well?! X

@KateColx thanks! Oh yeah you can't can you! Hope everything goes okay for you at your 12 week scan 💓x

@InkyPaper thanks. Feeling a bit more positive tonight 😚

@Minster2012 im having a party want to come ?!🥳

@Newbie0818 im in wales! So we're not in lockdown anymore, had to hang on to my last set for 5 weeks so I could get an appointment when we came out of lockdown 😇

@Skip86 anything counts if it meant you meeting your husband!! I definitely know what you mean, when you get treat like shit it teaches you to never get treat like that again!!

@Gem176 but just imagine how lovely you'll look with that growing bp or baby on your hip!! Aww the 3 rule is the same with you!! That's the same as me and OH, he's exactly what I needed and my parents adore him, helps that he's older too!! Hahahaha aren't all men grumpy gits!!

@Minster2012 wow that story made my blood boil!! Aren't some men absolute fucking ball bags!!! Vile little cretins!! It must be hard knowing you went through all of that to find your DH in the end, but everything happens for a reason right?? And now look, you have a DS, DH, a beautiful home and a sick crew of ladies on Mumsnet✌🏼x

@notyetamumbuttrying here's to our 3rd relationship being the 1!x

@Kirky658 That's literally the same as me!! What a lovely story!! So glad we found our soul mates!x

@Juno231 well OH has been to thailand twice and we've both alwayssss wanted to go to the phillipines for 4 weeks and because of other holidays and commitments and now the rona it's always taken a back seat, but it's something we have said we have to do, and would love to do together! If it doesn't happen soon and we have children first it's okay, it can wait, but I just know we will definitely get there some time in the future!x

@lucyrp Love the nails and so glad you've had your app through!! Has your OH had any tests??

@KateColx very similar to mine!! And if the nurse has said she isn't worried try not to worry lovely, I knows it's easier said than done though! I hope your scan goes well next week though, please let us know!x

@Kirky658 fingers crossed your dip is implantation🤞🏼

@Amy00 I’m 6weeks 2days. The doctor really tried to get me in but they said they couldn’t do it for repeated miscarriage. It’s making me very anxious. I initially found out at 8weeks too last time but needed to wait another 2weeks as they where private then eventually got referred to nhs. OH doesn’t want to go through that again though which is understandable but I’m scared I will have to go through with the 12week one on my own xx

@InkyPaper lucky in love 🥰
@KateColx sorry to hear you are having bleeding, must be stressful despite being reassured. Hope things settle down for you and all goes well at your scan.

@Newbie0818 a fertility referral i think. And yeah - I get ewcm and a temp rise and I just thought that was a given? Who bloody knows.

@lucyrp ah that's not too long then. God luck with it!

@Minster2012 it sounds like you've had some right ones! Most men are dicks to be honest.

And whoever said about relationships and number 3 (I struggle with this tagging and keeping up!) I have heard that. But I only count this as my 2nd really so maybe it's not the end for me! 🤣

@Minster2012 oh yeah he was a real treat!! Made me feel like I was losing my mind and imagining things until I found his car outside her house one night 🙃😂 bellend! Oh really? Did they ever find a reason for it? The constant worry is exhausting isn't it?! Pjs and wine sounds like a great Friday night x

@notyetamumbuttrying thank you lovely, hope you're okay x

@Kirky658 definitely enjoy a drink! TWW are bad enough as it is without alcohol to see you through 😂 x

@Newbie0818 thanks hun, so pleased you've had your referral letter and the 26th isn't far off at all, hope it all goes quickly for you x

@InkyPaper oh no!! There's nothing worse than unexplained cycles, so frustrating! X

@lucyrp thanks hun ☺️ it just feels like the next week is going to drag 😩 x

@Vil10 oh really? Did they find a reason for yours? It did make me feel a little better them saying not to worry but it's really hard to put it to the back of my mind. X

@Runnergirl1 sorry to hear you're feeling anxious! These first few weeks feel like they take forever don't they?! X

@Katao thanks lovely! The nurse said sometimes it's just a part of some women's pregnancies but you just instantly think the worse don't you. Hope you're okay x

@InkyPaper damn it my doctor is like that "in normal times" but not now fortunately! Keep mashing it, I mat have to take northisterone again to bring on AF (I did before last IVF) as my cycle was also looking like being like that...I had to get to CD42 then admit defeat, get it then if that happens again I will be taking it to bring AF to start IVF, then taking it again to stop AF coming & control it fir AF! Bloody horrible stuff though

@Newbie0818 whoop another referral that's super speedy! And I just lol'led at your "not a night sweater"...I'm imagining the softest warmest loveliest cuddle of a jumper for a night sweater 🤪

@lucyrp I'm there!! I have wine, gin & I can bring half a dairy milk with crunchie bits in bar??? Not sure where the other half went 😉

@Vil10 vile little cretins 😂🤣🙌🏻Yep & its right, I have a lot & then you lot...all we need!

@Runnergirl1 we are rooting for you & baby & it's rubbish not having them there I'm sure. Especially when worried

Sorry to just jump in but I need to share... Remember I told you about my friend who announced she was expecting a few weeks ago? Well she posted a nice innocent photo on Facebook this evening in some new pj's and added #16weeks and has this lovely little bump... And I'm not OK.

I have genuinely been feeling much better about it all, wasn't feeling so sad about her pregnancy. But this evening I saw that photo and in about 3 seconds my brain went "I should have a bump now", "I should be nearly 18 weeks", "i should be nearly half way through", "I want my baby back" and I automatically just put my hand to my belly and burst into tears. It completely took me off guard, like a splinter to my heart and I just said to DH "I'm not going to ever be ok seeing her pregnant, its like watching what we should be going through but we're not". I honestly had no idea miscarriage & baby loss could hit so hard. I am.haooy for them and I will be happy for them when their baby arrives and I meet him/her but God I hope I'm pregnant by then because just knowing I should have had a newborn too by then... Fuck me I just can't even go there . Please tell me this gets easier. 😭💔

@KateColx sorry I meant the relationship similar to mine! I can imagine but stay strong!x

@Minster2012 definitely girl💪🏽

@Minster2012 I will! Mine used to be pretty good in that you could book an appointment for a later day but now they've gone only the day only and it's such a pain!

@Sausage1990 the biggest of hugs for you ❤️ I've never had a miscarriage but I've lost loved ones and the grief does get easier to live with. Your baby carried all your hopes and dreams so it's not surprising that you still feel the pain of their loss. Be kinder to yourself, you're still grieving and that's OK.

@KateColx your right these are the worst I just want to know everything is ok, sure your the same. I hope all is ok x

@Minster2012 it’s awful feeling like this. We hope and pray we all get out bfp and then suppose to enjoy it all I can do is worry atm. Don’t have my booking in appointment until 3rd December which will make be just over 9weeks and then need the scan. Hopefully before Christmas x

@Vil10 bloody hope so, I married him 😂
@KateColx yeah I'm good thanks! Dh told me he's been putting money aside for ivf! So nice to hear that he's willing to go private! He's gonna call docs next week for his repeat SA and then we'll know where we stand, at last!!
@Sausage1990 sorry you're hurting so much, totally understandable! We're here for these moments, whenever you need. I've not gone through it myself but see how bloody hard it is. You'll get there xx

@Minster2012 there is definitely a plot line in there somewhere.... practical strangers who agree to kill each other's shitty exes 🤔 might write it 😂 I'm trying to be zen, what's for you won't go by you etc etc! Ask me how it's going next months 🙈😂
Enjoy the vino! I sure am 😁 oh and I found pre made negronis with local gin 🤪

@Newbie0818 consider the thoughts of stopping trying a small break with reality this morning, I'll be a horny ball of baby making desperation by cd10 🤣

@Vil10 the bus I read in its entirety before actually commenting, I think your oh was in a bit of a huff and I swear I was reading it think omg they sound exactly the same 😂
9 years between us, I'm sure my mum & dad prefers him to me 🙄 they have their moments that's for sure.
I didn't really get a bump last time, just looked like I'd been at the pies 😂 woman in the building I worked in asked really tentatively if I was pregnant about 2 weeks before I went on mat leave. She didn't want to be rude and congratulate me if I'd just put on a bit of weight 🤣

@Sausage1990 I had similar, and also felt horrendous & "empty" & then like a failure when I saw a similar set up by an acquaintance on Facebook. It's totally natural & the best thing to do is think it will happen for you guys again, that baby wasn't meant to be & you will have a healthy happy baby in the future. That's my thinking anyway...but it doesn't make it easy or hurt any less. I actually "snoozed" a couple of ppl on Facebook so I didn't see them posting. It's so hard, miscarriage is awful & I too try not to think about the fact it's gone past our due date & yet here we are a year after starting that particular treatment with nothing to show for it & I have said before "what if that was our only chance?" But that's when I say, that one wasn't meant to be a baby for us...our baby is waiting. Same for you. Sending ALL the hugs lovely ❤️🥰

@Vil10 ah with you sorry, me getting confused! X

@Runnergirl1 I was speaking to my friend who's just had a baby and she said as soon as she had a bump and could feel them move she felt so much better, let's hope that bit comes round quickly for us! Do you have your midwife apt booked? X

@notyetamumbuttrying aw what a babe!! That's so thoughtful, what a keeper. It's so nice to feel supported! Fingers crossed you can get the ball rolling on whatever it is you need to do soon x

@Sausage1990 your message made me feel emotional, sending so many hugs. Can't even imagine how difficult it must be to not only deal with everything but to then have to watch a friend go through pregnancy. I can't offer any words of wisdom but it's 1000% normal to feel like this, and I think you're doing amazingly well to be how you have been. Knock backs like this are awful but to be expected and completely understandable. Try to spend time doing something nice with your OH this weekend 💛✨

@Runnergirl1 I'm not sure I get OH's reaction on this, if it's bad news wouldn't he want to know sooner rather than later? If it's all fine (as the odds say it will be) - great! As you say waiting to 12 weeks means you will be there by yourself - unless your hospital is letting partners in by then. It feels like he is trying to protect himself, without perhaps considering the impact on you? Is it something you could talk about together? He should be doing everything he can to support you x

@Sausage1990 I felt the same. One of my fairly close friends announced their pregnancy due end of April which would have been within 2 weeks of my due date. She even messaged to tell me in advance secretly that they were on their way to the 12 week scan and so excited, they don't know we are TTC. I meanwhile was still getting positive tests from my mc. I totally burst into tears when I got the message and it felt like a horrible physical reaction like a stab in the gut every time I thought of it. Which is so sad as I want to be happy for them really. Obviously their 12 week scan went well and they hadn't even considered getting an early private scan! I was practically hyperventilating in fear they would have to go through what I did in the scan. Not sure this helps but just know your feelings are totally normal, it's ok to feel that way. And while no use to you right now, I feel better now I have my tentative BFP, I'm sure you will get yours very soon 💗

Off to bed ladies, and actually quite tired, I don’t promise I won’t be up with midnight antics

@Franklydear loving your messages, i found them great waiting this morning! Stay cool, 🥒

@Sausage1990 that's rubbish for you. I totally get it. Hugs xx