Nov Bus 21 - C*m stains, period rage and MASSIVE bullets

[Juno231]

Come join us on our TTC journeys - all you need is a (filthy) sense of humour!

Bus history:
June - 24 BFPs
July - 11 BFPs
August - 18 BFPs
September - 4 BFPs
October - 7 BFPs

November BFPs so far:
@AKC88 - November 3rd
@purplesky18 - November 3rd
@dippyegg32 - November 5th

Upcoming testing dates:
@pebblesinthesand - November 11th
@siana97 - November 16th
@nestinginNL - November 18th
@missgoldilocks - November 20th
@Franklydear - November 22nd
@Juno231 - November 22nd
@vil10 - November 23rd
@djmum83 - November 23rd
@clairey844 - November 27th
@mrsbear1122 - November 28th
@katao - December 4th
@Hopeful110 - December 12th
@minster2012 - February 14th

@Vil10 thanks lovely x

@notyetamumbuttrying ah good luck to him tomorrow! It all takes so long doesn't it 😒 I'm fully expecting a long wait ahead.

@lucyrp @paintfairy haha I'm glad it's not just me then. I do wish I'd "experimented" more when single, but at the same time I wouldn't change anything now!

@Newbie0818 same!🤣🙈

@Vil10 oh yeah boobs are my thing too, I love when OH sucks my nipplez and he actually has his tongue pierced from years ago so I get him to flick them with the ball on his piercing and omg😫 when we're at home I randomly plop my boobs out and tell him to suck them 😂 and boob orgasms are defo a thing. If I'm on top and I'm just sat on him with him inside me and he's focusing on just my boobs I will orgasm🥺

@Juno231 you 100% need to question your TSH with the dr as NICE guidelines state it has to be below 2.5 to conceive so could well be causing you not to get pregnant. Currently having mine checked as I read this info too x

@Franklydear we are glad you are ok, definitely! And hope it wasnt too bad & you got rest afterwards...wonder what they'll say at the review?

Well after Mr Hancock's email telling me to stay home last week yesterday I got a phone call saying Leeds can't get my 3rd oncology scan on the same day as my other 2 & I got a mole clinic letter through for the same week. So stat fans...that's 2 x appointments in a tier 3 area which is 1.5hours away from me (each way) on the 17th at 1.50pm & 5pm so not great times or that close together then driving back late. 1x mole appointment same hospital 1.5 hours away each way on Thursday 19th. & Friday 20th 1 x appointment at LGI (different hospital still 1.5 hour away each way).
4 appointments, 3 x lots of 3 hours driving
3 x days involved (only one a nursery day for DS)
3 x going into hospital or 4 if I sit in my car in between CT scan & MRI
2 different hospitals.
1 week

I would love to stay at home mr Hancock. Yes please.

Morning all! Anyone else feel like they could crawl back into bed and sleep for another 6 hours or is it just me? 😂

@Minster2012 that sucks!!! Hope the review goes well though

@Franklydear your workplace sounds a bit crap - are you feeling better now?

@LaceyMermaid thanks for that, I should have a call with my go today so will push for it. I've checked the NICE guidelines though and can't find anything on it 🙊. Do you have the source at hand?

@InkyPaper not just you! I feel dreadful! Anxiety all night so kept waking up and had to go sleep on the sofa 🙄
@Minster2012 oh jeez honey, that's a lot of navigation! Hope all goes well x
@Newbie0818 thank you! It's this afternoon at like 430 so gotta wait all bleeding day. Hope you don't have a long wait ahead hun x
@lucyrp I would LOVE to experience a boob orgasm! I'll have to get Dh to not let them go and see what happens!!

@inkypaper deffo not alone there I woke up with a banging headache this morning and just feeling general exhausted... Went to bed at 9:45pm and up at 6:30!

@minster2012 that really sucks with the appointments, they don't make things easy do they!

@franklydear they sound bloody awful, exactly like you said the other day, just a number to them. Hope you are feeling better today, take it easy and rest up.

I feel ok,ish, I am just lazying around at work, why wouldn't I, and at home DH has the fort

@notyetamumbuttrying omg it's the best! Depending on what mood I'm in I like him biting them too 😳🤣

@paintfairy well I'm glad we aren't the only ones, gonna have a full thread dedicated to girl porn at this rate😂

@notyetamumbuttrying hahahaha yes!!

@lucyrp ohhh I bet the tongue piercing on the nipple feels amazing!! Hahaha I'm exactly the same!! If we're just sat in the sofa or whatever I get them out and ask him to mess with them😂 yesss they are!! Nothing beats a bit of boob and nipple play!!

Thanks @Sausage1990 @Minster2012
When I say 3 mc, it's not as bad as it sounds, the first was when I was 16 the night before I was booked in for a termination, probably about 8 weeks (can't really remember!), so it was a good thing (still emotionally turbulent!) and then the second was about 18 months ago but it was a chemical at 5 weeks, the most recent one has been the worst as thought I was 8 weeks but it had stopped developing at about 5 and my body had reabsorbed it but carried on developing a placenta etc 😩

But when I told the hospital about all this they said it all counts and referred me no issues.

@Sausage1990 I had bleeding for just under 2 weeks but after the first 5 days it was light. Very gradually tailed off. Then after the bleeding stopped I had a normal period 30 days later. Bleeding for a month sounds horrendous 😫 I'm sorry. It's probably your body having a good clear out and a sign of a super comfy nest?

@Juno231 I had TSH tested as one of my million tests, my levels are 1.90 and it says the standard range is 0.35 to 5.50. A quick google does suggest that 2.50 or less is better for TTC - can you speak to a doctor about your result?

We started watching you me her last night too - does anyone get turned on by foot jobs? That scene was hot and not hot at the same time as I am not into feet!!

@Franklydear glad you are ok after your asthma attack. Must be scary 😕

@lucyrp boob orgasm sounds amazing!! Wish I could do that!!

@lucyrp a boob orgasm? Jeez, I can't even manage one through just sex, let alone that! I want your life. 🤣

@Vil10 well...... it wouldn't be a bad thing. 🤣 And @Newbie0818 I'm secretly gutted the opportunity never presented itself. 😆

Ohhh girls! Af is a right b!$ch! These cramps are awful and I actually think they are worse than when I had my mc in June! Im only CD2 so atleast another 4/5 days of this :( ive decided this time I'm not using tampons... kinda feel like to make it as healthy as possible in there I need to let everything just flow rather than tryna plug it all 🤭 plus being in lockdown means I don't have to go out so can just potter round the house.
Some of you may laugh at this but we put our Christmas 🎄 up yesterday, after such a crap year I need something to cheer me up and its working so far :)

Can't wait for this bleeding to stop so I can get back on the 🍆. Another 22 days until ovulation though lol xx

Hope everyone is doing ok. P.s those wooden buttons plugs are a tad expensive... I have a silicone one and does the job just fine...and a bonus....no splinters 🤣

@Hopeful110 I'm sorry you are having an awful AF ☹️ good excuse for sofa wine and chocolate?

Can't believe you've got your Christmas tree up already!!!! That must be a record!!!! 🎄🎄🎄

Are butt plugs good? Do I need to ask for one?

@lucyrp I'm a whimp with the biting 🙈
@Vil10 good to know I'm with like minded pervs 😂
@Franklydear glad you're feeling ok now! I always remember my sister having asthma attacks as a kid and they were so scary!!
@Amy00 ahh sorry to hear this, hope you're ok!
@paintfairy I can't through sex either. It has to be all clit for me!
@Hopeful110 it's the pits isn't it! Painkillers are your friends today! What's with all the butt plugs ladies?! 😆 should I be looking into this...👀

@notyetamumbuttrying yeah same. And even then mostly I need a bullet. 🙄 But we just do that. Whatever works!

Butt plugs definitely worth trying!

@Vil10 it so does! He took it out the other day and tried it without and I was like absolutely not put it back in now 😂 I love OH playing with my boobs its the best. Especially just caressing them😳

@Amy00 you'll have to try it 😏 got to make sure the D is inside you at the same time tho 🍆 butt plugs are good but only if you like a finger or a thumb in the bum 🤌🏼 OH always tends to put his thumb in when we're doing doggy😂

@paintfairy really ?! 😳 I don't even need clit action penetration alone is all I need 🤣 clit action puts me off my legs are everywhere 😂

@Hopeful110 im with you on the ages until ovulation my app says 9 days but it thinks its clever when really it's going to be more like 30😫

I need a rant ladies. So pissed off. So I know I've mentioned before that my OH has an inferiority complex over the fact I own sex toys. Cut to last night....it was my birthday and when we went to bed he's saying "tonight it's allllll about you". So we are in the middle of DTD and I asked him to slow right down because it was feeling good. And he looks at me and says "oh, sensitive? Been having a busy day with your toys instead?". I was F#%*ing FUMING.
I'm sick of this shit. I will not ever EVER apologise for my personal sexuality. I do not think of other men when I use them, I don't even use them regularly. I am not responsible for his insecurities. He needs to address the origin of his insecurities rather than trying to suppress me to feel better. NO ONE suppresses me. Learnt that lesson already. I love the man but I really feel that if I wasn't stronger this would be very unhealthy.

@Amy00 I see what you mean with regards to them being spread out but it’s still not a nice thing to go through and as your Dr said – it still counts. TBH I didn’t realise that a chemical counted as an early miscarriage until after I had this miscarriage. When they asked if it was my 1st pregnancy I said yes but actually it was my 2nd because I had a chemical in January at 5week (like you). But it was literally our 1st time trying and the 1st positive test that was faint so when it didn’t get stronger and then bled a week-ish later I just assumed it wasn’t “a real positive”. I hope to god I don’t have 3rd experience. I think we’re both due a healthy pregnancy now.

Ohhh @hopeful110 I’m sorry this af is so painful & shit. She really doesn’t need to make herself so known – I mean we get it!!! But yay to the Xmas tree making you feel better 🎄💕 I’m going to wait until December but I’m already looking forward to it!!

@Amy00 haha I dont even drink so il settle with some orange juice and printers 🤣 and yes butt plugs are a must! OH loves it when I ask him to put in my a hole lol! Really turns him on and me to be fair lol. @notyetamumbuttrying

@lucyrp yeah the apps like to pull a random date out of the hat lol but I've looked at my past dates and average is 20-22 days so just gonna dtd loads and hope for the best lol when does your app say your ovulating next?

@Sausage1990 yeahhhh I wasn't gonna put it up but dd loves Christmas and I thought today we will make Christmas cakes and make your own Stockings, house feels really cosy now haha ❤

@Hopeful110 it says I'm ovulating on what would be CD15 but considering my cycles have been long and irregular for the last 3 then I highly doubt it. My app has no idea as it thinks mr cycles are 30 days as that's what they were when I first started using it but not anymore🤣 I can't even predict when I'm going to ovulate I'll just have to keep an eye on my temps and if I get a shift il have to get on the D🍆

@notyetamumbuttrying @paintfairy I'm with you ladies I can't orgasm just from sex! Wish I was more like @lucyrp tho and can just come while thinking about it 😂

@Hopeful110**@lucyrp Maybe I'll pop a plug on my Xmas list 🧐

@Joanna1009 omg as if he said that right in the middle of it! Urgh how ridiculous!! As you say you don't need to apologise for your own sexuality- who cares how much you use your toys - I think it's the same as guys having a wank, as long as it doesn't impact on his performance with me then he can do as he pleases, I actually find it a turn on for him to tell me about his shower wank fantasies!! Sounds like you have it all under control - he just needs to sort out his ideas!

@Sausage1990 yeah chemicals do count as a positive is a positive, and there could be medical issues with implantation they can help with 🤷🏻‍♀️ touch wood this won't happen again to either of us, but if the worst happens just make sure to push it with the doctors to get referred for tests as it can't hurt.

@Amy00 I literally probbaly could. If I thought about it enough bdfore OH came home and he touched me and then put his fingers in me I could probs O then 😂

@notyetamumbuttrying @amy00 @paintfairy oh thank god you ladies have been honest... I am also incapable of orgasm unless clit stimulation is involved and it is something I've always felt so insecure about, DH doesn't mind, says he thinks it's hot but I always worry... I also struggle to get turned on unless I've had a few drinks but DH always goes down on me without fail, every time... Well aware I'm a lucky lady 😜