9dpo and cramping ttc driving myself mad hoping this is baby number 2 on the way

[Nls90x]

Hi everyone,

As above 9 days dpo and experiencing cramps. Stupidly bought 20 one step tests online and have been secretly testing every morning for two days.

Recently had a chemical I have a 19 month old and we are ready for bundle of joy number 2 .

Is it normal to be this crazy and hiding testing so you don’t look like a mad woman lol

For all those trying I wish you all baby dust in the world :) :) :) I just needed to get it out there x

@Kitkatb0808 I decided to take a break b I was routing for all you guys! No one has updated :(

I started a new thread but that went quiet also.

I'm going to start TTC again in December / January hoping to go on our first family holiday in June so don't want to be too pregnant I don't mind being around 5 months.

I'll still stay with you! I liked my chats with you all it's a shame there's no private message option! 💗 xx

@Minnie296

Thanks!! Appreciate that it’s a lonely old 2ww then so far just crazy mind and disappointment!!
It’s a shame there is no private chat option
I am greatful for your support!!!
A holiday sounds nice and not trying sounds better!!!
We were not officially trying but not not if that makes sense!!
Lost the twins that was a mistake but a good one then realised how much I want a family I had to leave it until 42!!! 🤦🏻‍♀️
I run don’t smoke hardly drink am the right weight so lots of good and after the twins had an mot and everything is still working down there all healthy etc it happened by mistake but can’t make it on purpose 😂🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️☹️
Missed chatting to everyone!!!
And thanks so much again for sticking with me hopefully good news soon!!! Dxxxxx

@Kitkatb0808 I feel like sometimes we put too much pressure on ourselves I was the same back in June we weren't officially trying trying but we were if that's made sense it was a hectic month and no word of a lie we DTD once! And I fell pregnant unfortunately it was a chemical it didn't progress.

Then we have decided we should have w family holiday as when we do have another one we won't be able to go abroad for a few years yes people do but I would find it stressful would prefer them to be around 2 years old. Plus my little girl is at an age where she is sleeping sort of through the night , starting to talk etc so she isn't as dependent on me she can run around we don't have a babysitter so I think me and the OH need a week off chores etc.

I'm sending all my baby dust to you! Xxx

@Minnie296

Sent a crazy email to doc asking for clomid not even sure if they can or it will help but I am at my wits end and panic now I may have missed the boat 😰 why did I live my life back to front!! 🤦🏻‍♀️

@Minnie296

If I don’t reply please send help I have probably been locked up crazy woman alert 🚨

@Kitkatb0808 of course not it's completely normal to feel that way! No one can call you crazy for having feelings.

This probably won't help matters but one of my friends has two little boys and she only had them because of clomid! One thing I will say is you can purchase it online but please get advice from a DR first as some people can't use it you've probably already seen you can order it which is why I've mentioned it there is a correct way to take it etc

I know it's a stressful time! Do you want to download kik or something where we can talk but it's not as personal as texting or Facebook? I feel like you need a friend ❤️❤️ xxxx

@Minnie296

Hi your lovely I have no idea what that is but a friend sounds wonderful!!!! Xx thank you xx

@Kitkatb0808 its an app it's like Whatsapp / texting but you set a username instead of giving your mobile number out :) xxx

@Minnie296

I have WhatsApp am I allowed to give tog that?! X

I got a solid smiley on day 14 Try clear blue rapid digital I was getting backache headaches Cramps and feeling sick I got a bfp 9 that was yesterday the cheap tests from savers for about a pound for 3 I could see a really faint line which disappeared over the day no other test has ever shown a positive for me until dpo14 I’ve had 3 strokes so I’m really high risk of having another one we have been trying for 6 years after the first stroke so I didn’t think it would ever work good luck with a bfp

@Kmsmith

Congratulations!!!! Baby dust!!! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Xxxxxx

Thank you 😊 xxxx

@Kmsmith aww how amazing! Massive congratulations! Wishing you lots of good luck and a sticky bean 💗💗💗 xx

@Kitkatb0808 I don't think it would be a good idea putting your mobile number on here :( we will just talk on here.

How are you feeling today? Did the drs reply? Xxx

I went to the hospital today I don’t understand the test anymore because it’s clearly a positive test and I went for bloods to day and they said it’s less than 1hcg I’m not due on for 5 more days Has anyone else had this I took clomid this month

@Kitkatb0808 how are you getting on? Xx

@Nls90xHello!!! Long time all bad still no luck lost again last month only 6 weeks but still so sad 😭 how are you getting on?? Xx

@Kitkatb0808 aww I'm so sorry it doesn't matter how far along you are it's still heartbreaking, especially when you've been trying and trying and finally get that BFP from that moment it's real!

I'm still having time out going we were meant to be going on holiday in June and trying after then but it's just becoming ridiculous needing private tests before you fly so that's an extra £100 each. I feel like cancelling having another baby and waiting a few years the worlds just too crazy!

My little girl is 2 this month and I just think now would be the right time well she would be nearly 3 I don't want too much of a gap!