Started Ttc in July 2019

[Missgoldilocks]

Hey! Looks like our thread filled up

@Positivity2019 @Wearenotyourkind @hwotsit @jx0x0

@Wearenotyourkind nothing us women can't handle. It was just like an uncomfortable smear but nothing to faint over how some women were saying it was but then again everyone is different. I didn't feel the dye go in or anything :)
How are you?? X

[Wearenotyourkind]

Thanks for the new thread! Ah you're a trooper - glad it was bearable and brilliant that you got good news. How do you feel about it?

I'm okay - good days and bad days. Some days I still feel so sad about losing the baby.
I'm on day 12 of first AF since MC, light now so hopefully coming to an end. Hoping I'll ovulate next week, so we can get back to trying.

[Missgoldilocks]

@Wearenotyourkind I hope it ends for you soon and you can start trying again! I I can only imagine, of course you'll have good days and bad days and you need all the support you can get xx

@hwotsit no worries! Where are you in your cycle? Cd12 for me, will start dtd from Friday ready for ovulation Sunday I think x

[Wearenotyourkind]

We are cycle buddies now @Missgoldilocks!

Had a good cry yesterday and feeling a bit better today. Lots of people I know having babies at the moment, which is hard. I've been reading a really good book, if anyone is interested, it's called: 'the inpatient woman's guide to getting pregnant'.

Also got some extra vitamins. I've started taking high strength CoQ10, vitamin b6 and DHA. Also continuing with Agnus Castus. Still desperately trying to extend my rubbish LP.

Hope you're doing okay lovely @Positivity2019

[Missgoldilocks]

@Wearenotyourkind I've heard about that book, glad it's helping you. Great we are cycle buddies! Let's hope for some good news xx

[Positivity2019]

Hi guys, thanks for the new thread @Missgoldilocks. I was in the old one just now then realised it was full and was like oh no how will I find my peeps. Then I went into emails and had links to the new thread.
So glad to hear your hycosy went well and you got some good news from it. Also that it wasn’t too uncomfortable. How are you doing just now?

@Wearenotyourkind I’m so sorry that you are feeling so sad at times and I can absolutely relate. However, I am glad to hear you’ve had your first AF and are looking to a new cycle. I’ll check out that book. I’m reading a lot at the moment and am always on the look out for something new and interesting to read.
I am also away to start taking Coq10 along with Vit B6 and Vit B complex and the pregnacare vitamin. Plus I still take iron for my blood loss.

@hwotsit @jx0x0 hope you are both doing fine. Happy belated birthday @hwotsit. I was upset when I turned 35 and now I’m nearly 36 and just have to keep rolling with it.

I am doing ok. Physically feel nearly 100%. Emotionally I have some ups and downs, however AF arrived on the 6th and it’s finishing today and it’s a relief to know things have returned to normal so quickly and that we can now start trying again safely.
I was incredibly emotional when I went to the supermarket the first time I could drive. I found two gorgeous neutral baby outfits and I bought them. I came home and unpacked the shopping and toyed with not telling my DP and just put it in the wardrobe. But I decided to tell him I’d bought it and that I needed it. It was so gorgeous and I was just so sad that I keep missing out on buying lovely things for us. I cried and he just hugged me for ages and told me he understood. I thought he might think I was crazy. Anyway, I’m not going to go mad buying lots of things. In that moment I just needed those little outfits and I have promised myself and him that I have bought them for a tiny person that we will have one day.
Talk about a mini essay. Thanks for being supportive and caring. I feel lucky to have found a good solid group. I’ve been a little absent but I’m feeling good now about moving into this first cycle TTC. ❤️

[jx0x0]

Oh well done @Missgoldilocks for setting up a new thread!

@Positivity2019 - How are you doing? x

@Wearenotyourkind - I am sorry things are so up and down for you. It must be such a testing time. Hopefully next week you'll feel some sense of renewed hope when you ovulate. Nice that you and @Missgoldilocks are cycle buds now!

Good luck to you all. I am on day 22 of 28 (or 29 normally). Not feeling any different to other months so not feeling too hopeful but keeping everything crossed.

Lets hope it's a lucky month for one of us.

x

[Missgoldilocks]

@Positivity2019 oh hunnie that is so sweet 🤗🤗🥰 I totally get you having that urge!! So so glad your partner is super supportive and understands. Bless you, I'm really hoping you get some good news of a very sticky bean soon! You do hear of people miscarrying and having ectopics and going on to get pregnant shortly after because they become more fertile. I totally have my fingers crossed for you and @Wearenotyourkind that it happens quickly!!

@hwotsit fingers crossed you get some good news but I do get that feeling of "nothing" in and thinking you are out. Xx

[jx0x0]

@Positivity2019 - Sorry our messages must have cross fired just seen yours. Made me feel quite emosh. Your partner sounds amazing and you sound like such a lovely loving couple. I am positive your time will come.

Also I know most of us are 34/35/36 but I really think we don't need to stress about age. A lot of my friend who are 34/35 don't have kids yet. One of my friends said she was the youngest in her NCT group - we have time.

X

[Positivity2019]

@Missgoldilocks I have read lots about people falling quite quickly and so I am hoping that happens for us. I also feel like I am going into this next phase of TTC with more knowledge. I’m not so worried about if something might be wrong because a surgeon has been in and had a good look with a camera and confirmed all looks good. So yea, definitely feel up for it. Of course the first time we started trying I was all gung ho and as we know time chips away at the positivity. I’ve set my positive thoughts on a pregnancy before xmas!!
How you feeling after the Hycosy? Fingers crossed what you’ve read about it leaving people more fertile after they’ve had one rings true for you guys!!

@jx0x0 😂 we must’ve pressed post at the same time. My DP is amazing, I feel incredibly lucky. You’re right about the age thing for sure, we’ve still some years ahead of us definitely. My auntie had her kids into her 40’s so fingers crossed I’ve some of her fertility genes. Hope you’re doing fine.

[Missgoldilocks]

@hwotsit hey! I sounds like a good plan me and my OH really struggle with the dtd part, he has a hard time finishing so it leaves me quite bruised as it takes forever. I've decided we are definitely going to do self insemination if we don't catch this month as well as dtd so it takes the pressure off us. I've got inositol and evening primrose oil ready in my basked in case it's needed, obviously hoping it isn't. But 5dpo today and feel like I'm not, I know its too early to tell but I can't shake the feeling. To be quite honest this whole process is really getting me down and I find it hard to be positive, sorry that sounds so crap!
How are you? I xx

[Missgoldilocks]

@hwotsit 😂😂😂😂😂 omg I get so excited when I have good mucus and I'm like "honeyyyyy I got the mucusssss" really excited and he's like 🤢🙄😳 hahaha I've got to stop telling him everything hhaah

[Wearenotyourkind]

Hey everyone. Lol @ the sexy mucus.

A relaxed approach sounds good @hwotsit. Fingers crossed it works!


Equally sounds like self insemination might be worth a shot for you @Missgoldilocks.

I'm afraid I'm in @Missgoldilocks gang at the moment - not feeling very positive. I'm really feeling so down today. My husband is away and I thought I'd enjoy the time to myself to just chill out, but I'm struggling. I've spent most of today in bed. I feel so sad about the miscarriage and all I want is to be pregnant again. Plus my cycle is all over the place, so hope of conceiving soon after the MC is evaporating. I'm CD21 today and no sign of ovulation at all. And today I've started spotting. I imagine my hormones are also affecting my mood. Plus I've had a headache every day since CD1, so that doesn't help. Since the MC I'm not sleeping well either, so that always makes things feel worse. Sorry to have a moan. Tomorrow is another day and I am going to try hard to keep busy. Think I'll clean the house from top to bottom.

[Missgoldilocks]

@Wearenotyourkind that is what we are here for this journey is long and hard. Of course you will feel down, I don't have advise for that though because its nature try and do some things that make you feel better. Get your nails done, get a massage or acupuncture,try to relieve some tension and stress. I do hope you feel better soon ❤️❤️

[jx0x0]

Hey guys,

Also lolling at sexy mucus!

I am sorry you're having a tough time emotionally @Wearenotyourkind. It must be so hard to go through the joy of a pregnancy and then have it taken away. My heart goes out to you. Agree with @hwotsit I hope you have a best friend you can speak to. And definitely make sure you look after yourself. Have a movie on the sofa kind of day if you need to. Perfect weather for it today!

@Missgoldilocks I am sorry your partner is having problems - the pressure must feel so enormous for the guy. It's not really surprising that it must get to them physically too. I hope insemination goes well for you this month.

No news my end. AF came as per usual. We are going away for a little staycation next week during fertile week so gonna just try relaxed approached (like @hwotsit.) I am still not drinking and I am also going for two walks a day which is helping me stay positive.

X

[Wearenotyourkind]

Thank you so much for your replies @Missgoldilocks and @hwotsit. You are so lovely 💗

I've woken up to what I presume is AF, which does explain the horrendous low mood yesterday. You are right, my hormones are all over the place. If this is AF, that makes my last cycle only 21 days and no ovulation - so I'm hoping it's still my just sorting itself out after the MC. I know I need to just take one day at a time but some days are easier than others.

Thanks again for your replies - the kindness of strangers on the internet is strangely comforting. Hope you all have a lovely Sunday.

[Wearenotyourkind]

Thank you also @jx0x0 💕 sorry to hear about AF, but sounds like you're trying to stay positive. Great idea about the staycation next FW too. Where are you planning to go?

[Positivity2019]

Hi everyone, how are we all?

@hwotsit thanks for your reply. I’m trying to keep positive but man it’s hard some days. The CM comments really made me smile though. Never thought I’d be enticing my partner with chat about CM.

@Wearenotyourkind I’m so sorry to hear your are feeling so sad and low. How are you feeling now after your big clean and day in bed? I absolutely get how you feel. I find myself longing to be pregnant again too. Sometimes it’s all I can think about. I went back to work yesterday and I just about cried all the way in and forced myself not to turn around and go home and call the doctor for more time off. I know I am ready to return but feel like by doing so I am closing the chapter on it all and god knows how long the next chapter is going to be. I was clinging to my little bubble where I stayed in the house with my DP and now it’s popped and it’s crap. I’m so sad that you are suffering with headaches and uncertainty about your cycle. It feels so devastating being back to the tedium and guessing game of tracking cycles and ovulation. I’ve got my fingers crossed that things will settle quickly for you and like you say it’s just all the hormones and things settling down after your loss ❤️

@Missgoldilocks how are you doing? Have you started with insemination?

@jx0x0 Hope your fine. Good job on the double walks and enjoy your staycation!! That’s a great idea for fertile week.

I am just a day or so past ovulation according to my Ava bracelet. Had a temp rise this morning. However, had no positive on my clear blue ovulation monitor. This is only my first cycle after my first AF so it’s more a test for me of how things are after the surgery. Trying to stay positive but returning to work has knocked me a bit this week. Hoping to settle back in and be fine by the weekend. Take care everyone.

[Missgoldilocks]

@Positivity2019 hey, no I haven't started insemination yet because I'm still waiting on bfp/af. I'm 10 dpo today and yesterday I had bad cramps and I felt quite sick, I feel fine today though so maybe a reaction to hycosy? I've read up that you can have a bad period after. Trying to hope I'll get a bfp this cycle but I don't know. I still can't get my head around the fact it hasn't happened yet when we are both healthy and my cycles are so clockwork and lp long. I'm starting to get scared it won't happen naturally but I need to try and be positive because the negativity I always feel is getting me more down! So finger crossed it happens this month I'm praying that it does and yesterday was a sign

[Positivity2019]

@Missgoldilocks I think those symptoms sound really promising!! Absolutely wishing you all the positive thoughts for this month being your BFP.
It’s so hard to maintain hope and positivity for this when it feels like it is taking forever and you’re doing amazing. You probably know the stats already but it’s quite a high probability that couples who don’t conceive in the first year will absolutely go on to do so in that second year. I’m buzzing that this month could be your month!!!

[Missgoldilocks]

@Positivity2019 thank you for the positivity, but af came right on time. I got a bfn on Thursday night so I knew anyway and I'm already over it pretty much. I've restocked on my tablets ready to go again and I've been super healthy this past week, trying to cut some weight with a friend so I'm sure it can only help the process