Started Ttc in July 2019

[Missgoldilocks]

Hey! Looks like our thread filled up

@Positivity2019 @Wearenotyourkind @hwotsit @jx0x0

@Wearenotyourkind nothing us women can't handle. It was just like an uncomfortable smear but nothing to faint over how some women were saying it was but then again everyone is different. I didn't feel the dye go in or anything :)
How are you?? X

@Missgoldilocks I’m so sorry to hear that you are feeling well and truly fed up with all of this. 15 months is a long ole time to be plugging away at something with only disappointment. I think it sounds like a great idea to step back a bit from all the routine of it and just enjoy being with your partner. It is so hard to maintain the constant month to month crap of TTC. Like @hwotsit says, doing it every 2-3 days will give you as much a likelihood of success as using all the sticks and tracking. I wish I could give you a hug, you can do this and one day you will be having baby cuddles and this will all be behind you. ❤️

@hwotsit how frustrating about your referral. That’s just what you need, delays!! As if things aren’t slow enough with Covid holding everything up. Hope it doesn’t hold things up too long.

Thanks for all the kind messages about my house. We are incredibly excited!!
I am just entering my fertile window and we are busy DTD and trying to stay relaxed. What will be will be I guess. I have to try to shift some weight myself, especially if we end up going down the IVF route but it’s so hard.

AF has arrived in full force this morning. I am feeling okay about it though. I am trying to be kinder to my body and not at war with it. I'm trying to think that it's a good sign my cycle is back to normal now after the MC and I'm trying to thank it for working properly. Also trying to think that it gives me another month to get fitter and lose some more weight. I'm keeping up with swimming twice a week and gym twice a week. I'm finding it really helpful to have something else to focus on. I've had my first 2 counselling sessions now and am finding this helpful. Im also thinking of giving acupuncture a go and might book in the consultation with the fertility specialist guy I've found in my area. All these things will hopefully help me feel that I'm taking more control over my life and my body. Sorry that was so long! 💜

Happy belated birthday @Positivity2019 🥳 so exciting about your house! And great to have something else to focus on. I absolutely hear what you're saying about getting older - I turn 35 next month and am dreading it. Good idea to try and stay relaxed during FW...easier said than done though!

Sorry AF got you too @Missgoldilocks. I don't know about you, but I'm definitely not bothering with the SI again this month - they caused way more stress! Are you still trying self insemination?

So annoying to hear of further delays @hwotsit - as if you haven't waited long enough! Let us know how you get on with seed cycling, I'd be interested to hear! Funnily enough, I already take magnesium supplements to help with restless legs at night, so hoping it has a dual benefit!

So hard not to fall into the frantic FW sex trap @MF1981 - we are definitely guilty of that too. Hope you're doing well so far this month!

6 normal blastocysts sounds really positive @jx0x0! Sorry to hear about your thick lining though - it's such a bloody emotional rollercoaster, isn't it. Don't blame you for having a few glasses of wine after all the poking and prodding you've been through, good on you!

Much love to you all - amazingly strong and resilient women 💜

@Wearenotyourkind so sorry I'm only getting back to this now. Over the weekend we found out my mum has cancer so it's been crazy. They found a tumour in her rectum and we are waiting on another appointment for a ct scan to see if its spread or not which is stressful.
Sorry af got you xxx no I won't be using SI again it made my cycle 31 days instead of 28

Sorry 33 instead of 29*

@Missgoldilocks
Oh my darling, I am so so sorry to hear this. Sending much love to you and your family xxxx

@Wearenotyourkind thank you. Its just surreal you never think it will be you or your family going through it, I've always been scared of cancer for her though because she has always had a drinking problem and smokes loads. I just hope this is a wake up call for her and that they can cut it out and she can change her life around 😔 it hasn't really hit me yet. Once we know more details I think that's when it will hit me so for now I'm trying to look at the best case scenario and just hope to god that it is that and not further along. We will know more on Friday xx

@Missgoldilocks
Gosh what an awful shock for you all. I'm not surprised it hasn't sunk in properly yet. Just be kind to yourself and make sure you do what you need right now. Thinking of you xxxx

@Missgoldilocks I am so sorry to hear this. Sending lots of love and strength. X

Hi everyone and thanks for the bday messages.
@hwotsit sorry to hear that’s more delays. That’s must be very annoying. That’s interesting about the magnesium, I’ve never read that. So much advice out there it’s so hard to know what is the right things to do.

@Missgoldilocks I am so sorry to hear about your mum. It’s such an awful thing and you must be feeling so worried. I hope she can have successful treatment and be on the mend.

@Wearenotyourkind how are you doing? Glad to hear you are finding counselling beneficial and you seem so positive going forward which is amazing.

I am just having lots of ups and downs. Just trying to take the days as they come and not be too hard on myself. I’m trying to focus on my new house and the upcoming festives but some days I feel pretty down.

So sorry to hear this @Missgoldilocks x

Thinking of you @Missgoldilocks 💜

I still also have ups and downs, good days and bad days @Positivity2019. But what I am trying to do is do things that make me feel like I am taking some of the control back and trying to do positive things for my body, instead of what I was doing - hating it because I am overweight, hating it because I had a MC, hating it because I have fibroids, hating it because I have depression and ultimately, hating it because I'm still not pregnant. So I'm trying to take back some of the control - exercising, eating well, counselling and acupuncture. Don't get me wrong, there are times I still feel desperately sad about losing my baby, but I feel I am doing all I can now to nourish body and look after my mental health. Gosh, sorry that was so long!

Sending love to all of you on this rainy day ❤️

@Wearenotyourkind I just love your positivity. It’s amazing. It’s great you are focusing on these other things.

I hope everyone is fine. You are all amazing in your positivity and although we have hard days we all keep plodding on!!

Thank you everyone for your well wishes. We are still waiting on results.

How is everyone doing? I had a great break in Italy and we relaxed instead of doing loads of sex lol which feels really good. Cd15 today and dtd yesterday and will do this evening and leave it at that, it feels good to not be pushing fir loads and loads of sex and since it hasn't made a difference we may as well be comfortable!

Hope everyone is having a fab day xxx

@Missgoldilocks glad to hear you had a good time in Italy! Good idea re not going sex mad during your FW too 😂 I totally get what you mean though. We put so much pressure on ourselves (and our partners), that it becomes unmanageable. I take it you haven't bothered with the soy again this month? Keeping fingers crossed re your mum too.

@Positivity2019
I think it's your positivity that has worn off on me! How are you doing? Have you considered any counselling re the MC? I am finding it helpful to process the loss and grief.

I am also booked in for day 21 bloods next week to see what my Progesterone is up to - due to short LP. So will see what insight that brings.

Hope everyone else is hanging in there ❣️

@Wearenotyourkind no way. Actually I was going to ask you, has your cycle gone back to normal? I'm quite peed off really, today I should have ovulated as per my normal cycle but that hasn't happened and the ovulation stick is faint as anything! I think the isoflavones have changed my cycle for good 😤

@Missgoldilocks so glad you had a great trip to Italy. I bet that was just what you and your OH needed. Where about in Italy were you?
That must be very frustrating that you think the SI have changed you cycle for good. I hope that’s not the case though and it just needs a cycle or two. I hope you hear about your mum soon.

@Wearenotyourkind thanks for that, lately I feel like I’m thin on the positivity but I do try. I’m feeling myself relaxing more and more month after month and trying to just let nature take its course rather than stress. My B vitamins have ran out and I haven’t got any more and I’m not buying any sticks either.
AF due on Sunday sooooo I guess it’s coming up for that time of the month again.
Tell me, how do you go about booking that test? I’ve no clue how to go about all the fertility stuff. I presume it’s called my GP but I am really bad at this kind of thing.

@Positivity2019 we went to Bologna and Florence, it was really nice thank you.

How are you feeling for this cycle? I still haven't ovulated but we dtd last night for good measure. It might happen tonight or tomorrow

Hey lovelies - happy Friday.

@Missgoldilocks argh that is such a ballache 😫 have you ov'ed yet?? Funnily enough, I think I have ov'ed 4 days earlier this month - but think that is down to upping my vit b6 and vit b complex to twice a day. Feeling good as hopefully it'll finally lengthen my LP (even if no BFP). I def won't touch SI again though. How is your mum doing? Any news? 💗

@Positivity2019 so it was actually the acupuncturist that suggested I request day 21 bloods from GP when I mentioned my short LP. So I just rang GP as asked and she was happy to arrange. Any AF/BFP symptoms yet or are you trying not to think about it? 💕

@Wearenotyourkind Ohh well I hope it lengthens your LP xx
I don't know if I've ovulated or not :( my cervix hasn't risen and softened as it usually does the day of ovulation and I ran out of ovulation tests yesterday morning so I have no idea! We dtd cd11 cd14 (twice) cd15 and we will tonight at cd17 just to cover bases really but such a fucking annoyance!! I've been wet but no more ewcm so I really haven't a clue!! When's af or bfp due for you?
We got the news today that my mums cancer hasn't spread its within the bowels Thank god so they will operate to take it out xx

@Missgoldilocks that is great news re your mum! Really hope the op is successful for her. I think AF is due on 22nd, assuming I'll go back to 28 day cycle again after SI fucked it all up. My bday is on 25th, so would be amazing to get BFP, otherwise will be sulking with AF on my bday. I turn 35, so already feel shit about this as really though I'd be pregnant/a mum by now.