@DSC1 that's good news and fingers crossed for you this month. Thanks ladies for the tips on the amazing OPK price. I have stocked up.
I got my positive this month but no celebrating as it was very short lived. I was around a week late and had lots of negative tests with a couple of faint lines so it was all very confusing but deep down I did feel pregnant, I was fairly sure I felt implantation around the right time earlier on in my cycle and no AF symptoms.
I got my faint line within the time late on Saturday night and confirmed another faint but visible line (both confirmed by OH) first thing Sunday morning. I was just gearing up to get excited and mid morning went to the bathroom to lots of blood. And I mean lots so no uncertainty and it has continued so I'm very much out this cycle, to say the least.
This one has hit me a lot harder than the last chemical and than all other AFs arrivals because it was really without warning, no cramps (TMI but I even had the CB digital in my hand when I went to the bathroom to finally confirm my BFP, I felt so sure. I think that was the worst bit of all, having the test in my hand!). And I was right in my feeling pregnant, but I should have maybe realised something was not right from the lines still being faint at 1 week late.
I had day of devastation yesterday, feeling slightly human today and with less puffy eyes but it's difficult to know what to do next! OH is keen to move on and try again (whilst still being very gutted too) but I just feel I've wiped myself out from this cycle's anxiety and the epic stress of the end of it... I can't even thing about getting in the mood to DTD in a weeks time!?
The main thing I've taken from this month is I really need to knock the early testing on the head. (Easier said that done obviously) I tested every day for the last two weeks and none of it changed the outcome for me this month, it just made it an enormous all-consuming focus that made the fall even bigger. I'm going to try this month and focus on what I can control - taking my vitamins, testing with OPK, eating healthy, and getting a doctors appointment to start exploring if there's a problem now we're in month 10, AND no early testing.
I didn't do any of this in June. And I'm sure the outcome wouldn't have been any different but I may have felt different. Good luck to those still in this month. I'm not sure I have it in me to hope for July yet, but I'm sure I will in another week.
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