Penguin huddle 🐧🐧🐧 TTC after pregnancy loss - Thread 35 - time for some sticky BFP's

[SomeBunnyovertheRainbow]

Welcome to the 🐧 huddle. This a safe place to give and receive support for everyone who has experienced the loss(es) of a pregnancy or baby. Pregnancy and child loss is one of the most difficult things we can experience and it can also be the most lonely time too. I hope you find this thread to be of some comfort.

I have found so much comfort from the lovely ladies on this thread and I’m hoping for lots of BFPs in coming months!

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Thanks @VenusStarr I suppose someone has too as I'm not capable of being hopeful any more. It's been too long and to many losses to still be hopeful.

❤️ ❤️ ❤️ @Mumlili9

Congrats @Kangaroo77

@FloDaffodil That’s great news, but understandable that you’re wary.

So something interesting happened. I’m on CD 28 so AF is due any day now, but earlier I felt like I was going to faint, was dizzy and my stomach hurt when I moved/sneezed. These were some of my pregnancy symptoms last time. I wasn’t ready this month due to using a new eczema cream, not to mention I’ve been using a nose spray for hay fever sometimes and haven’t been taking folic acid! I didn’t think I would ovulate so soon after the MMC and was only half TTC. I’m too scared to test and don’t want to see a confusing result so might give it a few days. Oh boy!

Sounds promising @Sakura54 🍀💕 hope you get good news in a few days

Hopefully we'll get some more good news from @Mumlili9 and @Esssa :)

Sounds like we could have some positive news on the thread soon 💗🤞

Hope you're OK @SomeBunnyovertheRainbow 💕 hoping that we all get positive news 🙏

I got blood test results today - normal

She said they don’t test on day 21 any more as that’s to test if I’m ovulating and early cycle bloods would show if I’m not...

That's strange @SomeBunnyovertheRainbow, not heard that before. But good news that all is normal with your bloods. Are you doing any more at this stage? X

@VenusStarr I thought it was strange as I’ve read other people on here having the CD21 test. She isn’t offering any more but said I can seek help privately but also was quite positive about us conceiving naturally. I feel a bit more positive about it happening naturally too and pleased bloods didn’t show anything untoward so let’s see what happens over the next few months...

I hope you’re ok? x

Hi all, fell off the thread. Difficult week after the PM.

@FloDaffodil I’m really pleased the scan went well but understand the anxiety. I guess all you can do is get through one day at a time

Sorry for the BFN @Mumlili9 but agree it could still be early days and not out yet. Totally understand and appreciate you don’t want to get your hopes up though I know that feeling.

Sounds promising @Sakura54 when do you think you’ll test?

How are you @VenusStarr?

@SomeBunnyovertheRainbow glad blood results were normal, sounds really positive I’m glad you’re feeling a bit more hopeful

CD 9 here, still a little while for me before I’m likely to move into fertile phase with my longer cycles .
Need to get my head round actually dtd, not really feeling interested at all at the moment after last week. Hopefully as my hormones gear up it will help

@marmitecheesetoast I’m sorry this past week or so has been tough since getting the PM results and probably also the time leading up to it is so emotionally draining. See how you feel when you get to FW.
I understand not wanting to miss a cycle of TTC but I don’t think you should feel like you can’t just have a break if you need it 💕

I'm sorry things have been difficult @marmitecheesetoast be gentle with yourself ❤️

@SomeBunnyovertheRainbow it's good to get checked out, plus knowing that there are options, should you need them

How are you @Mumlili9?

I'm OK, just feel like I'm bumbling along - the hospital still haven't sent my notes to the clinic, which is frustrating. Need to prepare for our consultant appointment this evening...
I've got a journal that I started yesterday, trying to focus on things other than infertility and pregnancy loss x

Im sorry they hospital are still delaying but good luck for later @VenusStarr I loved journaling when I was younger and have thought about doing it again as I find it really helpful to have a release for my thoughts and feelings whether that’s speaking to someone or writing them down journal 📔 x

@marmitecheesetoast I keep saying it but I’ve just been waiting and hoping 2nd AF comes on time so I’m a bit confused/surprised. Probably test in a few days when I'm brave enough, but will wait to see if AF shows first. I’ve only ever tested when AF was completely missed as that’s what I read we were supposed to do lol.

I’m also wary because I wasn’t told to test after my MMC so never checked my HCG as I wasn’t rushing to TTC, although its been nearly 2 months so you’d assume it would have all gone...

Thank you @SomeBunnyovertheRainbow appointment was a wash out - the secretary hadn't given the consultant access to my notes so he had no idea why I had an appointment! Luckily he's booked me in for a zoom call on Thursday 🤞
And some ivf news - I sent a message to the fertility team via Pals and the director called me today, there's a delay with the ccg and contracts still being agreed but he's sending me my hospital notes in preparation. I called Create and she's noted my details and essentially we're top of the list so that when it all goes through we'll be contacted - hopefully in the next few weeks 🍀
Been for a walk this afternoon and there were loads of butterflies, felt a bit lighter after that ☺️

@Sakura54 🍀 When's af due?

Hope everyone is OK xx

@VenusStarr definitely a bfn for me 12 dpo and nothing. Hope @Esssa has better luck x
Fx your phone call happens soon then you can get started on making baby venusstarr's.

I'm sorry @Mumlili9 ❤️ it's bloody shit. Hope you're OK. Have you heard any more about the hysteroscopy?

Fingers crossed we all get some good news and can move forward 🤞 🌈❤️

That sounds promising VenusStarr. Pleased you've got them on the ball.

I'm 8/9dpo @Mumlili9 depending which app I believe and either by opks tbh so I'll try to go with 8 so I'm not disappointed. I've already tested bfn this morning because I can't help myself. Not touching a test till at least Friday (she says 🙄)

Still feeling uncomfortable with lower abdomen pressure that isn't normal but I'm sure it'll be my brain making it up just to let me down a bit harder when af shows on Sunday(ish). Feels mighty similar to when I've been pregnant before but I don't remember pre test symptoms before until the sore boobs kick in.

And there is the announcement that my sil has just given birth and I suddenly feel much more pessimistic about this month. No noticeable implantation dip on my chart, no implantation bleeding but I've never had that, no sore boobs. Hurry up Sunday and on to the next month. Hope everyone else is feeling more optimistic than I am.

Big hugs @Esssa ❤️ I'm optimistic for you 🌈 the first time I was pregnant I remember thinking I'm due on today but don't feel anything, but tested because I love wasting money 😂 and got the shock of my life when it was positive - I had given up tracking and opks by then. We'd just been referred to the fertility clinic. I remember telling dh and he looked at me and said but we can't get pregnant? Since then I've been more aware of what it feels like to be pregnant and convinced myself numerous times that I am and I haven't been. The second pregnancy I had no noticeable dips on my chart, no symptoms other than no af.
So what I'm saying is signs and symptoms or lack of don't really mean much, so you're still in 🤞
Have you, or are you testing early this cycle?

How are you @Mumlili9?

Just got my hospital notes, which is essentially all my letters, which I already have :/ but I have noticed my prolactin was 358 - is that normal?

Hope everyone is OK xx

Thanks @VenusStarr annecdata like that makes me feel a bit more positive. My temps are still on the up but not by much, its not the sky rocket stuff you sometimes see people posting. I'm not out yet but it feels like I will be. I'm sure the first few weeks of pregnancy give me that sort of feeling too though so 🤷‍♀️ I tested at 8dpo to a stark white bfn and I've sworn off until at least Friday which is 11/12dpo. If I can hold out till then I might even wait for af/ till I'm late.

I googled prolactin and it says

@VenusStarr I've just seen someone on another app say their Reproductive Endocrinologist likes prolactin under 23 so if its measured the same definitely get onto them about treating it.

@venusstarr I'm not sure but this is mine. They said mine is low.

@Sakura54 @Essa Good luck to you.

I know the baby announcements don’t help sometimes

@VenusStarr It’s annoying they hadn’t read the file but good luck for today and it sounds promising that you would be able to move forward with IVF in the near future

@Mumlili9 How are you?

Hope everyone is ok

@VenusStarr It was due 1-3 days ago.

I started getting cramps last night, so there was no mistaking it.