6 months TTC

[Twinkletoes85]

Hello Ladies.

I’m mid 30s ttc my first. I was on the depo before, I know that causes issues to fertility and it will take longer. It was three months before my periods came back but I’ve been regular as clockwork since. Fairly certain I’m ovulating (lot of signs pointing to it) but still no baby. Im due again in the next couple of days and I can tell I’m going to come on.

I tried with my ex a few years ago for 7/8 months (although it was a very half hearted and not really a surprise it didn’t happen.) I wanted a baby for different reasons back then and got very upset every month. I was determined not to get as upset and try be more relaxed with my new partner but I’m starting to find it hard.

How do you cope with the disappointment of another failed cycle?

I need to pounce on mine today but he's still working and has calls until 7! I'm praying his 7 doesn't answer and then it's game on lol!
I'd be interested to hear if the agnus does increase your Lp @Nat4392 hope so! I'm hoping I get my surge tomorrow as getting a little anxious about it now. I know what u mean about your cycle being up in the air, it's weird when it doesn't do what u expect! I'm all thrown off even tho I did want later ovulation lol, I can't bloody win with myself 😂

@KK251289 Just wanted to say that reading your posts it feels like I’ve met my twin! Been trying for around the same time as you and seem to be going through the same feelings / thought processes / trying things. I upped my water intake this month as I decided that that was having an impact on CM (or lack there of in my case!) and therefore my chances of conceiving each month - my theory is that that’s been majoring hampering my chances. Anyway, I’m about 5 DPO now - let’s see if it makes a difference this month. 🤞

Thanks @Twinkletoes85 and @KK251289.
OH has the equipment to do a sperm analysis but he has to call the surgery and arrive there within the hour. But they are only doing phone/internet calls at the moment.
The test we bought indicated a lack of numbers. I'm just praying it's not abnormal shape too 🤞

😡 finally got my static smiley and my bfs come to bed not feeling well so no dtd. It just seems to be every time we get to the fw something comes up which stops us trying as much as we’d like.

I’m starting to feel like the universe is just saying I’m not supposed to have a baby

OMG @Twinkletoes85 this is what I'm going through rn! Dh has been farting all evening and complaining of a bad belly! Not had my surge yet but I will do any day now so he best get better real soon!! It always seems like he's half arsed with this! I'm here tracking and poas and all he has to do is get laid?! Doesn't seem fair to me! Meh men!

@notyetamumbuttrying yeah exactly! It’s a joint decision but I feel like he’s just not taking it seriously in terms of how small the window is. He seemed to get it but now not at all. It’s like I’ve been peeing on a damn stick every day for a week to make sure we don’t miss the chance this month and now your sick. Well effing fabulous.

And I know that’s not fair for him really but it’s not like we can push it back a couple of days

I’m even more fed up as I booked time off work purposely so I wouldn’t have any of the stress of work this fw as that’s been really bad and now we’re just going to miss the chance

Infuriating isn't it @Twinkletoes85. Well hopefully as you've only just hit peak you'll still be ovulating in the morning so just pounce then! Night, hope you get a good nights sleep 😴

It really is and I know I shouldn’t be this upset but I just feel time slipping away.

Thank you, hope you sleep well too

Hi ladies i'm currently 3dpo and am experiencing cramping and just had creamy cm, this is waaay to much info but I haven't had cm actually filter into my pants since coming off pill and I've just had some there this evening? Anyone know what this could mean, if anything at all? Who knew you could get so excited about cm ha! x

Hey @jessmcg thanks for the message. It's so strange isnt it, that you feel like everyone around you is having children, every TV show I look at involves babies, social media posts etc then come on here and theres so many of us in the same boat. I'm wishing you all the luck in the world for this month. I hope the drinking extra water works, it would make so much sense.

@Twinkletoes85 I'm sorry to hear your OH isnt well tonight. Fingers crossed for you over the next few days. I'm sure itll be fine.

@notyetamumbuttrying you made me laugh saying all they have to do is get laid, it's so true! We have to do the tests etc then the week before AF end up analysing every pain!

@twinkltoes85 aaaah I feel your frustration. That would give me the absolute rage. Something similar happened to me on my peak day on our second cycle and I wanted to just scream!! I had bubbling fire inside me 🙈 Remember that the swimmers can live for days so if you miss tonight, as annoying as that is, you still have a chance. Also like someone said, hopefully he's better tomorrow xxx

@Twinkletoes85 Hoping your OH feels better today and you’re able to make the most of some of your fw and not feel like time is passing you by! Of the past 9 months we’ve been trying I think we’ve had 2/3 months where my OH has been ill or I’ve been ill - it just makes you feel like you’re wasting time and the whole thing becomes incredibly frustrating. Whoever said TTC was just a really fun period was definitely lying (or conceived first go!) xx

@jessmcg @PinkFlamingoGirl @KK251289 thank you ladies. I don’t think I realised really how badly it had all got to me until last night, he went to sleep in the spare room as he felt that bad and I just sobbed. But I think I needed a good cry just about everything in the world if I’m honest.

You’re so right Jess it’s not really fun, even dtd isn’t as fun as it should be as you’re watching timing half the time 😂 it’s silly how easy it is to just get so disheartened by it all.

Oh @Twinkletoes85 how frustrating for you, I'm so sorry and I hope you're feeling better after some sleep and a good cry. But its absolutely fine to feel all the emotions. Its such a lot of pressure for the whole month on just a few hours. My DH hates feeling like a sperm machine, but doesn't really get how it all works either and neither of us have wanted to be intense and stressed about TTC so we've definitely missed a lot of chances. As the months (and years) have plodded on and the knowledge and layers to things we are doing to help has increased, he is starting to understand. Plus I have started opening up more about how I feel which has helped him get it and support me more. Take it easy on yourself and DP, it's so difficult i know, and jump his bones today hopefully he's feeling up for it! 🤞🧡

@KK251289 haha I was so annoyed last night lol! It's defo true tho, they get it so easy!
@Twinkletoes85 aww bless him, it's good he cares! Hope you feel better today too after a good cry! Go in and pounce this morning. I've pounced on mine and got my smiley this morning yay! I've told him it's on tonight and tomorrow too lol!

Good for you @notyetamumbuttrying! Bet you were peeved last night, but glad it all worked out ok this morning with the smiley! They definitely get the easy end of the bargain!

@Twinkletoes85 Oh I’m so sorry, but I hope you were able to have a good cry and perhaps feel a bit better today? Sometimes you just need to get the sadness and frustration out of your system!

I’ve realised that I get super edgy from around 5DPO each cycle and it’s just started this morning. I’m beginning to get down that this month won’t have have happened for us (again) and I almost build up the disappointment ready to be let down again. Anyway, I’m almost feeling better for having spotted that these are the exact emotions I felt last month but it’s way too early for me to be feeling anything at all, so there’s not much point me dwelling in anything at all right now. What will be, will be. I am just trying to stay on top of the negativity as best I can. This morning I saw a picture on Instagram of a girl I used to know posting loads of pics of her baby bump. I’ve never particularly liked her (same friendship circle, but she’s not very nice!) and I just felt like every picture was smug and made me feel terrible. It’s just jealousy, really ugly jealousy. And I’m so ashamed for feeling that way, but it’s truly how I feel!

They get it so easy 😂@Seafrontsky although I do feel for them having to deal with their hormonal wives and gf's! How you getting on?
Oh @jessmcg honey please don't beat yourself up for how you feel. We all go through it, you're not bad don't worry! Plus you know it's your hormones wreaking havoc too. Try mindfulness exercises. The headspace app is good for that, give it a try and see. Be kind to yourself

@notyetamumbuttrying Thank you so much🙂. Mindfulness is definitely helping - I started a meditation thing for this cycle and I’ve definitely noticed an improvement, but things still lurk there under the surface on the not so great days!

@Twinkletoes85 @notyetamumbuttrying Ergh I know exactly what you mean. I got my smiley yesterday so I’ll be ovulating today. I really want to DTD but I’m not even going to attempt it. Yesterday’s BD was just so forced and unromantic I think it’s put us both off! We’ve done it 3 times in the fertile window so hopefully that’s enough anyway! I can’t wait for the time when we can just have sex because we want to and not because we need to 🙈

@Twinkletoes85 @notyetamumbuttrying @nat4392 so exciting you've all got or recently had your static smileys though. Like someone said swimmers last a few days so you could be in luck. So excited for you all.

@jessmcg dont feel ashamed I'm sure theres many a point where we've felt like that (well I have anyway) I dont think its jealously in a bad way that you we dont want other people to have babies or show their photos etc, its envy looking at these posts thinking why isnt that me yet, I dont think it's a bad thing, i guess it shows how much you want a baby. Dont know if that makes sense. I get AF symptoms about 6 days before shes due, one of the first is leg cramps, as soon as that happened on Saturday I was heartbroken. Couldn't watch TV or use social media because it seemed as though it was 'babies and pregnancy everywhere' and I couldn't handle it. Just tried listening to music, played a few games etc to keep my mind busy.

@Aokbaby if its different than what normally goes on I'd say that's a positive, fingers crossed for you

Yeah there's no magical cure for the lurkers is there @jessmcg but good you're making a start on helping your mind out.
Omg me too @Nat4392! Because we want to not and not because we have to. So true!
Aww thanks @KK251289 where ru in your cycle?

@Twinkletoes85 so annoying. I had to stop telling my husband about 5mthe smileys as he was cracking under the pressure let's say. Definitely though if you bd today you might have a chance plus if you bd over the few nights before your peak it should be a chance. I know timing is everything but personally anyway I put way too much into the peak day and always forget that sperm can live for up to 5 days so have tried to use ewcm as a guide as well of when is the best time to bd

@jessmcg I'm the exact same my sister in law to be on hubby side has a 3 month old and I have been so jealous throughout her pregnancy and now anytime she posts a pic. I try to get along with her and of course I do but shes not a very nice girl. And I wish them all the best but yeah I get so jealous and it's a horrible side to me! But it's just because i want it so much for myself, they're younger not married yet hadn't been together that long when she got pregnant so I'm like no this is not fair!

@Aokbaby I was on the pill for a long time and dont think I ever saw mucus! I've been off it since october and I think only on the last 3 or 4 months have I noticed any when I wipe so maybe it takes time to come back or something!