Fuck you TTC

[painintheholeSIL]

Today should be day one of my period. No sign. We've been ttc dc2 since summer 2018. I don't have any tests in the house. I'm trying not to symptom spot, I haven't told anyone in real life that we're trying.
Our son is almost 4. I'm desperate to give him a sibling. I adore him. He's amazing.

But I am aching to have another baby. People keep asking when we're going to and we just laugh off the questions. They hurt. Every one of them hurts. I suppose I'm just looking for people who understand.

Every single thread I look at in relation to this ends up full of BFPs and I'm just not in the space where I can read those and not feel devastated.

So Fuck you to TTC.
Fuck you to months off slightly delayed periods
Fuck you to every fucker that asks me every time they see me if I have any news
Fuck you to the whole fucking lot of it.

Anyone care to add theirs?

Fuck you to the person who told me this morning that ds should have a sibling by now. Like it's that simple

Oh @painintheholeSIL people are so insensitive. Fuck the lot of them.

And fuck the people telling me I’ll be a geriatric mum. I didn’t meet my fiancée until 18 months ago so at 37, I’m over the hill xxx

@painintheholeSIL such nobs. I hate it when people ask about the second. It’s so rude.

I’ve just passed on a uni girls weekend away because 2 of them are pregnant, one of them always asks about how awful it must be to be a working mum, and two others have 2 babies. I can’t face it.

@Needallthesleep it is really rude but it happens constantly. I don't blame you, I wouldn't go either.

@Needallthesleep they ask how awful it must be to be a working mum?? That's horrible! What an unnecessary comment!

Fuck the monumentally bad timing of AF arriving 3 days late accompanied by my best friend sending me a picture of her scan.
Fuck the drive home from work not being l long enough for me to have a good cry.

@CorneliusBeefington that was horrible. I feel your pain. All of us here do. I hare people sometimes.

@Nat4392

@Nat4392 oh I totally feel your pain. Saw cousin’s 20 week scan photo online yesterday, followed by AF arriving first thing this morning, 3 days late also. Proper ugly crying on my way to work this morning. Fuck all of it 😓

Totally understand OP my DD is 4 now and we lost 2 boys due to TFMR the last one would have been due 10th Jan so once that was out of the way we decided to try again! I hate the 'when are having another' question everytime I feel like I'm being stabbed in the heart!! I only have a 50/50 chance of having a healthy baby and they can't test till 11weeks!! I'm testing tomorrow I think my period is 3 days late but I didn't get a positive OPK so no idea!! Baby dust to all!!

Everyone in my group of Friends now have two kids my only friendless friend has just had twin boys!! Xx

I love this thread!
Fuck you pcos
Fuck you 4 month long anovulatory cycle
Fuck you chemical pregnancies
Fuck you GP who said 3 chemicals were just bad luck
Fuck you everyone who is super fertile and likes to tell me why they think I'm not
Fuck you the bitterness that comes with infertility
Fuck you constant sad feeling that I just can't shake at the moment after 2 years of this shite
Fuck you people who I started TTC at the same time as who are now on their second pregnancies in that time

I could probably go on...

I have PCOS and my cycles are usually 5 weeks long it doesn't work this time (from ov in Jan) I'm not due to ovulate this month!!!

Thanks fingers crossed for you for next week!!

Oooh I like this thread...

Big fat fuck you to my body for giving me every pregnancy symptom under the sun and also a late AF but 3 negative pregnancy tests this week. 😠🖕

@MrsB2019x that's happened to me so many times.
Fuck you to the utter misery that has overtaken me tonight.

@NoseringGirl I hear you.

@NoseringGirl completely agree with all of it! Fuck it all! The things women have to go through and deal with when they 'just want to have a baby' are crazy...so many awful comments from everyone...and so many awful feelings we fe because we hate that everyone around gets pregnant easily and then again we hate the fact that we hate it!(of course we're happy for that friend or cousin who just had s beautiful baby!) It just feels like it should be our turn now!
Fuck it all!

So glad I found this thread.
My daughter is 4.5, had a MC last year, TTC for over two years. Just on my period now, could cry every single day. Feel so desperate to give DD a sibling (she loves and adores babies).
How do I get out of being so depressed about this and feeling like a failure?
Have heard every single comment on this thread too. Fuck them all

Ps had all the test and all is normal on both sides.

Fuck you AF for being 3 days late and coming on the day my work colleague makes big pregnancy announcement.
Fuck you to the friend who knows about my struggles and talks nonstop about how hard her morning sickness is and how tired it makes her.
Fuck you to everyone who told me after my MC “at least you know you can get pregnant”
Fuck all the money I have spent on stupid fucking pregnancy sticks

Fuck you 'symptoms' that turned out to be AF for the last 2 months.

Fuck you NO symptoms this month that still turned out to be AF.

Fuck you whatever the fuck it was last week that looked 100% like implantation.

Fuck it all!!!!