TTC after loss penguins get fit & healthy in 2020

[BunnytheBlueWhale]

This is the thread for those of us in the TTC after loss penguin huddle who want to try to eat a more healthy diet, exercise more, lose weight or just feel better physically this year
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@MrsMGE @Avocuddles @MissSparkles81 @SunshineCrocodile @Mumlili8 @VenusStarr @SunStruck

If I’ve missed anyone please tag them

How about we start by saying what our goals are whether that he the number on the scale, doing more exercise or just feeling better about ourselves?

I’m BunnytheBlueWhale (NC recently - see TTC thread). I’m 35 and probably weigh about a stone more than I’d like since I had my stillborn daughter in February. I don’t need to lose weight massively but having post-baby weight and no baby is a bit rubbish!

I’d like to lose a bit of a weight all over and also target my belly with brushing, moisturising and maybe microneedling at home...

I eat a lot of sugary snacks so want to massively reduce those and also try to take a healthy lunch to work to stop me spending so much money on food!

Hello ladies I'm back. Unfortunately after my ectopic I have binge eaten my way through the last 3 weeks. I have just eaten when ever and what ever I like. I've been living in leggings because of the stitches and put my jeans on this morning (I say put them on, I tried) but couldn't do them up 😔. I have to get my act together. I can't really exercise yet due to my incisions but I can make healthier choices with meals from now on.

@Seahawk80 I'm so sorry for your loss, totally gutted for you. Will you be joining us over in the 🐧 huddle again. Be gentle on yourself xx

@Mumlili9 Please don't beat yourself up about the last few weeks - you've had such a horrendous time! Be gentle with yourself - make sure that you make choices so that you get the nourishment you need but don't beat yourself up. Additional weight is only temporary! x

@tortiecat thanks for the lovely reply. I started counselling today and I can't away so angry. The counselling went well but bringing it all up was exhausting and uncovered emotions I'd put away in order to get on with daily life. I haven't wanted to speak to my husband since this morning as I'm just so angry and tearful. I'm in the spare room having a little cry.

When is your anniversary @tortiecat? How do you plan on getting through it?

@84TinsOfBeans I am sending you love - I remember how exhausting that first session of counselling was. You have been so hugely brave in putting these feelings aside so that you can carry on, it's so painful when you revisit them and process everything - I hope you are OK, I'm thinking of you x
My baby arrived in early April, but it's next weekend that I am dreading as 20th March is the anniversary of the awful 20 week scan and 21st March is Mother's Day. Last year's Mother's Day was horrendous too, I just cried all day and read everything I possibly could about my baby's condition (the more I read, the worse it got). If you'd told me then that I'd be a year down the line and not pregnant again, I don't know how I would have coped!
I don't really have a plan except to cling to DH, have a cry to my own darling Mum and visit baby's grave. We want to plant some flowers, and I think we'll make some donations to charity. Thanks so much for asking.

All - I hope you're all doing OK. I'm trying to eat healthily - today's soup is leek and potato! - and do pilates today and yoga tomorrow.

Hello everyone @Shefliesonherownwings @tortiecat @84TinsOfBeans @Mumlili9

I hope you’re all ok. I’m feeling a bit down. I thought it was just PMT but that has gone and I still just feel a bit meh. I have lots to be thankful for but I just feel a bit depressed the. Hopefully it’s temporary...

I keep wanting to eat though!

I did go out for a long run / walk - got a bit lost as I was trying to find my way and almost wading through mud at times but I was out around 1.5 hours and did 5 miles.

I think I’m going to try to avoid the gym now.

@Seahawk80 I hope you’re able to go on your holiday or have insurance. I know so many people going away at the moment and everything is so uncertain.

Thanks @BunnytheBee we prob won't be able to go but we'll get a refund. I work in travel and it's crazy at the moment. I'm lucky, my job is secure but on top of everything else DH will probably lose his job.

I've been feeling really down and overwhelmed. This is the last thing we need and the hospital haven't been in touch about the counselling despite me dealing with the head midwife last week. I also found out that the baby was a girl and it's just made it so real.

@Seahawk80 I’m so sorry you’re feeling down and overwhelmed and I’m so sorry you lost your little girl. Why would your DH lose his job? I really feel like I don’t know what’s going to happen at the moment.

I’m feeling down too and I feel a bit guilty because I’ve basically had an easy day where I’ve done as I’ve pleased - run, cleaned a bit, cooked dinner and watched a fair amount of TV

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@Seahawk80 I'm so sorry for the loss of your DD. I'm not surprised that you're feeling overwhelmed at the minute with everything else that's going on. Are you able to follow up with the hospital on the counselling, as they haven't come back to you?

@BunnytheBee how are you feeling?

All - I'm sending you all love and hope that you and your loved ones can keep well during these worrying times xxx

@tortiecat thanks for the message. I think visiting the grave is a good idea. I like to know the grave is looking tidy. Last week was our due date so we went and had breakfast with our little one. A flask and some croissants. I felt calm on the day. The week leading up to it was worse as I felt frozen.

@Mumlili9 any news from the hospital yet? I feel angry on your behalf to be honest.

And as for keeping fit I'm worried about how staying home in these strange times will affect my weight loss. I know that's a tiny concern compared to others. But I'm trying to not lose sight of my goal by munching all day and not walking. I have a hula hoop so trying to do extra with that to make up for being inside.

@Seahawk80 finding out the sex of the baby is overwhelming sometimes. We lost a daughter too. Will you choose a name now?

I hope you are healing generally.

As for counselling @tortiecat mentions SANDS phoneline and I might try that. I went to my first counselling last week and now they've cancelled for the foreseeable future so I don't know wether to put the feelings back in a box for now or ring SANDS. It's good to know we have the option.

Hello everyone, thank you for asking after me. I’m still feeling down. I feel a bit depressed and hopeless. DH and I are not getting on great because we are both stressed and he doesn’t really know how to handle me if I’m feeling down so tends to keep a distance or stay away so I end up feeling more alone. I tend to do better when I’m out at work or busy so being at home probably won’t be great for my mental health.

I had a great run on Saturday and haven’t been out since so I’m going to try to go out today. I have the afternoon off so there is no reason whatsoever why I shouldn’t go other than laziness!!

How are you @lunamoon1? @Shefliesonherownwings @tortiecat

Also need to resist urge not to just eat, which is what I feel like doing it when I’m in front of the tv feeling rubbish

@BunnytheBee I think going out even for a short time would do you good mentally and you'd feel a great achievement.

It's hard not getting on with your partner. We've had a really rocky few weeks and it makes me tearful but we've chatted and things are better now.

I'm still hula hooping everyday! Keep up the good work everyone. X

Thanks @84TinsOfBeans I hope you’re doing ok too. I’m sure we’ll be fine too but I just feel a bit meh. Well done on the Hoola hooping!

Will go for that run soon...

We were just going for a walk but it's bucketing down here so have given up on that for the day

I went for my run / walk. I was out for a while did nearly 3 miles and it was quite nice. Think it did me good!

Oh well done you. I'm trying to fight the urge to snack this evening. I might just go to bed to stop myself

I’m in bed now

An advantage (or disadvantage, depending on how you look at it) is being far from snacks

And also once I’ve brushed my teeth I don’t snack so that can help

Hi, how are you all doing?

I feel like this is all very strange. I expect I’ll be working from home for a bit now.

I went for another run today. Well a run and a walk as I was in some places where that I couldn’t run but I was out over an hour and did about 5 miles. I’m really picking up my love of running again but wonder if we’ll end up not being able to go out.

I’m going to try to do some exercise at home. I used to like Blogilates on YouTube and I can maybe do some exercise in the garden if it gets to a point where we can’t leave. I feel it’s more tough to stay fit and healthy in the house but I don’t have the excuse of eating unhealthy snacks because I’m “on the go”!

Pleased I amended my online shop to remove all the crisps (they were 3 multipacks for £3 so of course I picked 3 but then removed them), amongst other things...

Plan to make some soup again on Monday when food delivery hopefully arrives

I hope you’re all ok - at this point the most important thing is us all staying safe and well of course 💕

Sorry I've not been on, things have been crazy, was still working and getting over night shifts and now everything has stalled with our extension/ kitchen renovation and we were stuck with a flat with no kitchen / washing machine and no proper floor in extension, garden a death trap for a toddler, no childcare and lockdown! Decided to go to my mums (not ideal I know but they were keen to have us and we were very careful before going) so had to pack up and am now trying to stop DS from trashing their house while DH is WFH upstairs and I try to organise some way of making our flat vaguely habitable from afar! We have 10 days until I have to start WFH. We both work in travel and my job pretty safe. Looks like DH will be furloughed which is actually ok as it will sort childcare! Not getting very fit but going to start couch 2 5k again tomorrow with my 1 a day outing as DS already bored of all the local walks here. I said today shall we walk to see the horses and he said not again - it's only day 4 😂. Hope you are all well and coping ok x

@84TinsOfBeans forgot to reply. Thank you, I don't think we will chose a name as DH didn't want to know the sex so it's a bit weird only me knowing. I haven't had the headspace to think about counselling. I've sent a complaint to the hospital to say it's awful that it wasn't offered and that I don't expect a response now but I will be taking it up with them in the future. I feel like that way it will definitely be there if I need it and they need to know how bad my experience was. I haven't listed the whole saga here but it was pretty poor at every stage.

Hello everyone, I've name changed recently as all my posting added together would be a big flashing sign with my name on it. But I've been here since early in the year after losing my daughter at 20 weeks in October and another miscarriage at 7 weeks back in February

@Seahawk80 That must be tough if only you know the sex. I'd be slipping up especially if I was particularly emotional. But I understand that everyone handles things differently. Sounds like your husband is trying to protect himself.

I've been doing Joe Wicks workout this week. I've got all sorts of random bits aching.

I'm obsessed with hitting my 10,000 steps but still I put on a pound and a half last week which was gutting. So I'm making sure I'm extra good this week (hard when we are all in doors).

But on top of my 10,000 steps I'm aiming for 9km as I'm hoping that will ensure I lose this week.

I hope we don't go for full lockdown as I'll struggle being in. But I understand it's for the greater good.

@Seahawk80 Have your renovation works stopped? We were decorating upstairs and they would have been finished this week as we had carpets coming, doors fo be fitted, furniture coming and it all came fo a stop. It’s not the end of the world but more annoying as we are stuck at home and working from home full time. I hope you’re couch 2 5 k goes well. Will this be your first one today?

I was planning to go for a run today but I’m not sure I fancy it and I’m getting a bit bored of going to the same places too. I’m actually very lucky to have some really beautiful places to walk to on my doorstep but it’s hard to find new places.

I might try to do some different exercises other than walking and running. DH found a skipping rope in the garage this week so I could give skipping a go and I want to try some online workouts.

I feel like I might have lost a little bit of weight but I haven’t weighed myself so might be wishful thinking!

@footprintsintheslow I’m trying to make sure I do 10,000 steps too. When I’m going out to work I do it easily but at home I don’t unless I’m out for a few mile walk or run. I’m going to try harder to do my steps as it should make a difference and mean I’m being active.

Try not to worry about your individual weight readings as it will fluctuate / stay the same sometimes even if you have lost eight in the bigger picture.

@BunnytheBee it seems to be stopping.
Our builder is great but a bit vague! A lot of people like the plasterer have said
They will come if no one at home. Main problem is suppliers being shut. We were about to order the kitchen from Ikea when they closed but I'm waiting for a virtual appointment and hopefully we can still order it. Main problem was that it was ok to live there with DS in childcare / us at work and lots of options for going out etc all of which have now gone. I hope that yours gets sorted.

Just saw a thread about pregnancies "ruined" by corona. I totally get that it must be shit for people and my heart really does go out to anyone who is pregnant and having to go to scans alone and I can imagine the extra anxiety. But it took everything I had not to comment and say it's not ruined - ruined is the sonographer saying there's something I'm not happy with and I'm sorry but it's the heart and everything that unfolded after that. I'd give anything to be going to my 20 week scan in April, even if it was alone.

@BunnytheBee that joe wicks workout on at 9am mon-fri on YouTube generally counts as 2,500 steps so it's a good start to the day. And I think it's only about half an hour long.

As for finding the same routes boring how about going at night. It makes things a little different and also I start circular routes from the opposite direction to shake it up a bit. Hahaha what has life come to?!?!